Unfair

Ang daya! That is so unfair!

Pretty sure that you have uttered these words more than once in your life. I want you to tell me truthfully the last time that you have said that something was unfair or that life is unfair.

A few days ago just before my bills due date, I needed to sell my Bitcoin Cash. Few days before that the charts were already green and slowly going up that BCH even crossed the $300 marker. I was really happy to see them all go up though during the time that I was going to sell from $340+ it dropped to $330. I panicked that it will go down even more so I sold all my BCH that I have saved for my payables. It still reached my desired amount but every decimal place counts. I could have use it to add for my savings accounts or to my other payables that is due by the end of the month. The following day, the charts went up again and I think the BCH even reached $350. Ouch! I am already used to that but I just I still find it unfair because every time that I will sell, the charts will go up after. I feel like I have a birthmark on my behind. LOL. It is one of the many sayings when I was a kid that you are unlucky if you have a birthmark on your behind. But this is not the kind of unfairness that I wanted to imply.

There were instances that I find life is unfair when I compare myself to other people. I know that it is not right to compare ourselves to them because the moment that we do, we start to envy them and feel like life is unfair. There was a time when I compared my life to A, my friend since elementary. I was the one who treats her most of the time until college but the world turned 360⁰ and A would always treat me up to this day or mostly when I am jobless. The first time that I started to feel that life was unfair between the 2 of us was when she got hired in the company that she had no plans in applying since I just tagged her along and I didn't make it. I was able to shake it off because I got hired in a different coffee shop. However, some people will compare the 2 of us since A works in an American brand of coffee shop with many stores around the world while I worked in a coffee shop that only had a few branches in the Philippines and I think they have already closed those branches many years ago. As much as I do not want think about how our life turned out to be, I cannot because there were peoe who would compare us that even if I worked hard, it still do not match with what A has achieved.

I stopped listening to what they say because I know that both A and I have different journey. We may have the same career path and I do not know whether her road to success was smooth sailing but I know that mine had a few pit roads and a lot of detours. I find it really unfair that she was hired in the company that I wanted but I realized later on that God had a plan why He did not let me work in that company. Actually I tried applying for that company for 4 times. During my second try, I was offered a different position and an office job and A said that salary would be higher if it was a position in the head office compared to the salary in store. My ears were clapping when she said that the salary was higher because having a higher salary means a level up in my CV. I passed the initial interview as well as the second interview however, when I was about to be interviewed with the head of the department where I was going to be assigned, I was late for an hour or more I think. I was never late in my interviews but during that time there was a problem with the transit system that I had to take a different mode of transportation along with other passengers but it was still hard as most public transportations were full and cabs were also limited. If only there was Grab or Uber during that time, I am pretty sure that I would have made it on time. The 3rd and 4th time that I applied to them was just for fun to see if I would be able to make it but sadly, I never did. As much as I want to say that life is unfair, I cannot because I have already blown my chances during my second try. I was already there but I guess I was never really meant for that company.

There will be instances wherein our family, relatives, friends and other people will achieve something very easily without exerting too much unlike us who would have to do a lot of things before we can get the results. There are also people who were born with a silver spoon in their mouth and there are does who does not. No matter how we feel like life is unfair, do know that we are all equal as we face different challenges in life. You may be wealthy but you are alone or you may be poor but loved by many. We cannot also exclude the fact that there will also be some people who would cheat their way to success. Indeed it is really unfair but we all know that only losers cheat. Life will only be unfair if we would always look at our mistakes or failures and compare it to other people's success. We may or may not know how they were able to achieve something however, we should stop comparing but rather start appreciating what we already have. Soon we will also be able to achieve everything that we want i  God's perfect timing.

February 12, 2022

P.S. lead image is a photo that I took when I had a meal in one of the coffee shops before.