Sadness in gift giving

Since yesterday and today I do not feel like doing anything. I just want to lay in my bed. Did you sing it? LOL. Honestly, for some unknown reasons I was really not in the mood to do anything. Probably because the other day after a 3 day rest from general cleaning, we resumed it again. Though even if it was for 4 hours, my whole body hurts that when I entered our kitchen, I instantly lay on the floor while watching our dogs drank a 750ml of ice cold water. They were also with us when we were cleaning the exterior of our house that we forgot to bring out their water. I was lying on the kitchen floor with legs and arms stretched that when Doggo wanted to go out again, I was suppose to crawl to open the door but luckily I heard our helper's footsteps so I called her so she will be the one to open the door. LOL. I felt like I did a lot of squats and dumbbells exercise that I really did not want to move.

That feeling was still the same yesterday and today without that muscle pain. I was sleepy and I just wanted to eat chips the whole afternoon. I was only able to read less than 10 articles yesterday and as of typing this, I have 0. I must say that this is a not so productive day compared to yesterday when my mom and I went to the bank and supermarket to buy some cleaning materials. Though after our brunch today I made some lumpiang shanghai because my brother messaged me last night and told me to make some lumpiang shanghai without egg because they will be here tomorrow. We will be having a little post birthday celebration for my sister-in-law but I did not bother to buy a vegan cake due to the fact that I do not know all their diet restrictions. I felt really sad when I bought a lot of cakes for my godson only to find out that they were not allowed to eat the cake and the donut because of a particular ingredient. For the second cake that I got for my godson, I did not hear any feedbacks whether it was good or not as I also did not bother asking them as I have a feeling that they did not like it. There was also one ocassion when we also tried a chocolate cake from the bakeshop of one known Filipino celebrity that was so expensive and we found out from them that the taste was not good and they didn't like it. Ouch.

Because it is going to be Christmas in 42 days, I think this topic is very fitting. Have you ever given someone a gift but they ended up not liking it? Imagine you have exerted a lot of time, effort and money to buy that gift but you would find out that they did not eat or use it. Even worst if they will just recycle it and give it to someone else. Honestly, I am guilty of not using some gifts. LOL. And I would probably guess that you also had a gift that you did not like or even use. But I do have valid reasons why I did not use those gifts. Like for example a blouse or a lipstick. When I was a kid, my godmother used to give me and my brother a top every Christmas. There was a time that she gave me a blouse that was not my style and even not my size. My brother and I would fit those tops after we have opened our gifts and my godmother saw that it did not fit me. It was actually a good blouse even if it was not my style but sad to say that it really did not fit me but I still kept it in my cabinet because my mom said that I can still lose those baby fats. I never got to wear it and my godmother opted to just give me a cash gift as she was having a hard time to find me a top that would fit me. I started to be on the heavy side when I entered high school. From high school to college, I always receive cash gifts from her. For my brother, she still gave him shirts every year because it really fits him well plus he was able to use those for years especially when he was in college. With the lipstick, someone gave me a pastel pink lipstick when I am a morena or fair skinned. I really did try to use it but it was not really the shade the suits me and my skin color.

What were your reasons for not using the gift that you have received? There were only a few gifts that I was not able to use but mostly it was because of size issues. So I very much know how a giver feels whenever the receiver does not like the gifts that he/she got for them. I am truly  grateful for the gifts that I have received and I will receive. I am the thpe of person who uses those gifts as long as it fits me. It does not matter if it is not my style nor it is my shade but I will use it and keep it. Those gifts are precious to me as those were given by family and friends. I know how much they have exerted their time, money and effoet in buying and wrapping those gifts. That is why I find it hard to let go some of my things especially if it was a gift but if it no longer serves its purpose, that is the time that I would think about disposing it or not.

I have said before that I was a giver as I love giving gifts, writing letters/cards and surprising my family and friends because there ia that certain joy whenever I give something to them. However, there were some instances that I feel sad because I know that they did not use what I gave them. Or maybe they did use it but I just did not see them wearing or using it. That is why sometimes I prefer giving them cakes or any pastries because I know that nothing can go wrong with food unless of course it is not that good and is not according to their diet restrictions just like what happened when I gave my godson a cake.

You may say that I do not know my family and friends that much to not know what they like. Probably yes and probably not. I know what they want it is just that I cannot afford what they actually want. So I would buy something that I know that they can use. There was a time that I gave them a bamboo toothbrush not because they have bad breath but because I wanted them to switch into environment friendly products. I talked about @gwapojohn before about giving hygiene products to someone who has a bad odor. If the receiver should feel offended by it or not. Let me know your opinion about it. Anyway, because my high school friends are girls, I also gave them a reusable bag, bamboo straws, body lotions and any other things that I feel like they can use.

Have you also felt like you wanted to give but at the back of your mind you know that he/she will just use it once for you to see or worst they wouldn't use it? Honestly, I haven't given my family and friends anything for the past years because of lack of money but I am planning to give them something this year. Should I settle for food, money, a thing that they can use or just greet them a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year? LOL. We will see about that.

P.S. lead image is the watch that my brother gave me few years back. He handed me a box and I was so excited that I kept on asking if it was an Apple watch. LOL. Even if it was not specifically the watch that I wanted, I still loved it and posted it on my Facebook.