Random questions

It hurts my eyes to check the charts. When I woke up this morning it was at $313 and then after I had lunch and cooked our snack, it was already $298. As of typing this it is $295. Remember my $1 challenge that I saved last year? It was now $100 and I immediately transfered it from my bitcoin.com wallet to my Coins.ph wallet. Last time I said that I still do not know what to do with it but because of the sudden dip, I had no choice but to use it for my bills at the end of the month.

Let's not talk about those and make it a little fun. This evening I read @Probinsyana's fake word article. She had 4 questions that she asked herself and I would also want to answer it. Honestly, I cannot think of any topic to talk about. LOL. I still do not feel like publishing the ones that I have drafted a few nights ago. So thank you Probinsyana for these questions.

Have you ever encountered someone who tried to comfort you with lies?

I believe that we have been comforted with lies before. Though I cannot remember the last time that someone have comforted me with a lie because from my family down to my friends, they would always tell me the truth no matter how much it would hurt my ferlings. My dad is the number 1 person in my life who would never comfort me with lies. He is so frank that instead of motivating his children with encouraging words, he would do the opposite. Just like with my brother and sister-in-law's Korean grocery. He commented that it was not a good idea of having a business during this pandemic crisis and said other negative stuffs. Instead of wishing them good luck and congratulating them, he was the only one who was so negative. With this question I remembered the article I wrote way back when I said that my friends would always slap me with the truth. I am just thankful that people around me would always tell me the truth.

Have you tried to push yourself to the people when you knew you didn't belong?

No. I do not like pushing myself to a group when I feel like I am not welcome. In the last company that I have worked with, I was the roving manager so I was handling 3 restaurants. In the 2 branches, I was able to make friends with the staffs easily but in the 3rd restaurant, they were so aloof. They would only talk to me if it was work related but if it was personal stuffs, they wouldn't. I think out of the 15 staffs both front and back of the house, I was only comfortable with 4 people. I don't care whether if people don't like me. I don't live to please them.

Have you ever experienced begging for attention?

When I read this question from Probinsyana, I immediately remembered that time when I was still in college. We had a group project so we did it in our house. All of us did not sleep because we were busy with our project except for 1. The following day when we went to school, we were late for our class. And this classmate of our who had a beautiful sleep walked into the class like she had not slept for days. The way that she fixed her hair as if it was "I woke up like this" look and she was slouching while she walked. All of our classmates including our professor were laughing at her because of the way she looked. Our classmates thought that she had the most contribution in our project because of her "I stood up late" look. My groupmates and I were really pissed at her though we know that she just wanted everyone's attention.

Well if we are talking about begging for that kind of attention then my answer is no. But I think I haven't begged for someone's attention yet. If texting my past flirtationship even if he never replied is already begging for attention then yes, I have. LOL. It was after he got mad at me for going home late and he thinks that I have another guy. I kept on messaging him for a week asking for forgiveness but I never heard from him that time.

Have you ever experienced loving the person that already loves someone?

I really do not know if my first heartbreak loved his girlfriend that time. When I started to like him, I really didn't know that he had a girlfriend because he was making moves on our accountant. However, our accountant that time had a crush on his friend and the feeling were mutual. Out of respect to his friend, he backed out. Then when he found out that I had a crush on him, he started to get to know me until things became deep and we ended up defining our relationship. That is when I found out that he had a girlfriend and he said that he will break up with her blah blah blah. What a player right? Since it was my first love then I believed him. When he was about to break up with her, she was already pregnant. So I really do not know if he loved her because you can never love 2 persons at the same time right? Because of the pregnancy issue, we broke up. They are still together until now and already married. The guy messaged me last year after 14 or 15 years. It was only last year that I get to see his Facebook profile.

So that's about it. My first random Q&A for this year. I hope tomorrow I can already publish some of my saved drafts or think of a better topic.

January 22, 2022

P.S. lead image is a screenshot of the thinking face emoji.