@annyeongkleopatra

@annyeongkleopatra 20 May 2021

Good night! Days might not always been great, and we've been struggling since the day we were born.. but I hope we all find some place where we can still relax our minds and find peace in our hearts. I hope we all stay safe and healthy!

@annyeongkleopatra 28 September 2020

Hi, i just wanna ask why do the points will be gone on Friday? I just want to know what does it mean.

@annyeongkleopatra 28 September 2020

Finally, got the chance to type again here. Gonna update my series!!!

@annyeongkleopatra 28 August 2020

I was so busy with my online selling business. I will try to write an update of my story, Summer, tomorrow. Sorry for so much delay! Stay safe everyone 💗

@annyeongkleopatra 28 August 2020

Does not updating for more than 3 weeks could make your points decreased? :((((((((

@annyeongkleopatra 30 July 2020

One Friend Left *school bells ring* Finally, it’s dismissal! Thank God It`s Friday!!! My name is Toni Campos. A high school student at Luxen University. I have a best friend since childhood, her name is Cindy. I treat her as my sister and other half. She is really nice and very thoughtful. She always sleeps at my house every Fridays or on weekends. My parents make her feel very welcome to our house. We’ve been friends for years and I really trust her more than a hundred percent. That is why I decided to tell her my deepest secret. ***I am an adopted child.*** My mom told me that they adopted me from the church that their family always visited. I was 3 months back then. She said that it was a very heartwarming scene the moment she laid her eyes on my face. She told me how lovely I was. Since then, they decided to take me with them. They organized the papers neatly to look like I was their original child. I was bullied when I was in elementary because I was adopted. I was so mad with myself back then. My parents decided to move to a place and transferred me to another school near our place before the bullying gets worse. That is when I turned in high school, I decided to hide that I am an adopted child. I don’t want to reveal anything about it. Maybe, I got traumatized with what happened on my elementary days. It was only Cindy who knew all since I have known her since we were kids. Today is Friday and our sleepover day! Cindy already packed her things before leaving their house. She just left them on her locker when she arrived school. **Cindy: I can’t wait to watch this Korean drama that I downloaded!** **Toni: You really sound excited. Hahaha! Anyway, Ate Ehla will pick us today.** **Cindy: Really?! Ate Ehla is in the Philippines? When did she arrived? How about her business in Japan?** **Toni: No worries, my cousin, Karen will be assisting there. And, yes she arrived last week.** **Cindy: I bet Ate Ehla became prettier! Aaaaa! I’m so excited to finally see her again!** I laughed as we walked to the parking area of the school. I texted Ate Ehla so we can find her car. She waved her hands so we can see her easily, and drive near to our place. **Ate Ehla: Ohhh! Hey, Cindy! You grew taller ha? You also look blooming. Maybe you got a boyfriend now ha!** **Toni: Um, excuse me. I just want to remind you that I am your sister. Hahahaha!** They laughed as we went inside the car. We decided to eat at a nearby restaurant before going home. Ate Ehla paid for our orders. This is why we love Ate Ehla to be here in the Philippines, she always treated us. Kidding! ***CAMPOS’ RESIDENCE*** We finally arrived at home. My parents were on Bohol for some business conference. So, it was only me, Cindy and Ate Ehla. We went inside my room to fix our things and change our clothes. I texted Ate Ehla that we will just sleep. I woke up at 5:40 PM. I fix the side of my bed and took a quick shower. I went downstairs to cook for our dinner. After a few minutes, I heard footsteps and saw Cindy going down the stairs. I called her so she can help me prepare the table. She volunteered to wash the dishes. Ate Ehla went back to her room after we finished eating. She might be in the Philippines, but she is still very busy with her work. My phone vibrated, it was a call from my Mom. **Toni: Hello, Mom?** **Mom: Hey, sweetie. How are you?** **Toni: I’m fine. Cindy’s with me today. She will be sleeping here. When are you coming back?** **Mom: I’m still not sure. Our boss told us to extend for 2 days. So maybe by next week.** **Toni: Aw, I miss you, Mom.** **Mom: I miss you too, sweetie. Anyway, remember your childhood friend? They moved near our place. I told her mom to visit us. Maybe he will come to our house tomorrow. Don’t be rude okay?** **Toni: Wait? Childhood what? Who’s that?** **Mom: Your first crush! Paul.** **Toni: Oh god. Why so sudden, Mom? Wait, I’m panicking. Hahaha. I think I need to practice myself to calm down before I meet him tomorrow.** **Mom: Hahaha! Don’t worry. You are pretty and kind. He will like you too. Anyway, it’s quite late. I need to sleep now, we have an early meeting tomorrow. See you soon!** **Toni: Goodnight and take care Mom!** I called Cindy and told everything about Paul’s arrival tomorrow. She also gets excited for me. Anyway, Paul was also our childhood friend. He left and studied in Canada for 2 to 3 years, I think. Now, he’s coming back. I wonder how he was, what he looks like. We did not have any conversations and connections after he left.  The next day, we woke up at around 7:30 in the morning. Ate Ehla cooked pancakes and bacon for our breakfast. She even made our all-time favorite hot choco. After eating, I went back to my bathroom and took a bath. Cindy helped me picked up my clothes for today. We were so busy chatting with each other when we heard Ate Ehla calling for us. So we ran downstairs that I accidentally bumped to someone’s back. **Toni: Ouch!** **Cindy: OH MY GOD!** I looked back and saw Cindy’s reaction. She was surprised from what she saw. I looked in front of me to see the person I bumped and also to apologize. **Toni: I’m sorry.** **Ate Ehla: Mygod, Toni, You’re still clumsy, you even bumped to Paul’s back. Hahahaha!** WAIT WHAT? WHO? **Paul: Hey.** **Toni: Oh my god! Are you real?!** Paul laughed and sat to the couch. **Ate Ehla: So, how are you? How was your parents?** **Paul: They’re fine, still busy as usual. But, we’re doing well.** **Cindy: Are you transferring to our school?** **Paul: Uh, yep. My parents already delivered my papers. Fortunately, your principal was so nice.** Cindy pinched me a bit, giving me a hint to have a talk with him. **Ate Ehla: I’ll just left you here for awhile. I’ll prepare some snacks for you, guys!** **Cindy: Ate, wait for me! I want to help!** Cindy gave me a wink and teasing smile before she left. **Toni: Uh- hello. Sorry for what happened earlier. It was not my intention-** **Paul: It’s fine.** He cut me off and smiled. It was really lovely and sweet. **Toni: You became more handsome hehe.** Okay, that slipped from my mouth. I blushed a bit. I was so surprised when he pinched my cheeks. **Paul: You’re still the same, Toni. But, you became prettier.** The day went well, we cope up with the things we missed. Paul shared his life in Canada. I also learned that he did not had any girlfriends there since he was so focused on his school. He was also included in the top list and got an award there. Just like what he said, he transferred to our school. He was introduced and joined our section. He became popular as soon as he transferred. No wonder since he is really handsome and smart. He's an achiever. He excels in Math and Science. He's also good in arts and draws a lot. He even joined Sports Club and became the captain of our basketball team. They always won their competitions. He also joined a dance group. He can play guitar really well. And maybe that's the reason why most of the girls are head over heels for him. He received lots of letters when Valentines day arrived. It was a memorable Valentine for me. He surprised me with a stuffed toy and flowers on my room. He confessed and asked me to be his girlfriend. And on that day, we became official. We are legal on both sides and our parents supported us. We became happier each day. We eat lunch together with Cindy. Cindy was also very supportive. She was the one who helped Paul to decorate my room when he confessed. We were very happy. Not until an incident had happened. It was Monday afternoon. Dismissal. I was looking for Cindy so we can get home together. When I saw her with our other classmates and looks like they are having fun. I was about to call for her but it looks like they are talking something personal. So I waited for them to finished. I was so shocked when I heard Cindy's words. Her voice was trembling, but I still heard it, loud and clear. Cindy was shocked to see me walking towards them. **Cindy: T-toni..** I slapped her face in front of our classmates. I was crying and very mad at her. **Shayna: Oh my gosh! So, it was real?! All this time, we knew how rich your family is. Oops! I forgot, you're an adopted child!** Our classmates laughed at me and some began whispering. And then everything that happened in my past began to came back. It was traumatizing. **Cindy: I'm sorry. I'm really sorry, Toni. They forced me. They even scared me. I'm sorry.** Cindy was kneeling in front of me, crying and begging. **Toni: I trusted you...so much. And this is what I got from trusting you.** She held my hand as I tried to walk away. I was so mad at her. I don't want to hear any explanations from her. I don't want any lies again from her. I pushed her and run away. I went back home. Paul called me but I declined it. I told him to give me a time. I was crying the whole night. I was not really expecting this to happen. After all the friendship that we had and kept, this is what I've got. School days passed and I tried to avoid Cindy as much as I can. Paul was the only one who eats lunch with me. He tried to pursue me to talk with Cindy and try to hear her explanation. I got mad at him that we almost broke up. I don't know it felt like he was choosing her over me. He did not opened that topic again. Summer break began. I was walking on the park when I saw Cindy sitting on one of the benches. She walked towards me. **Cindy: Can we talk?** **Toni: There's nothing to talk about.** I tried to avoid her eyes and make myself busy with my phone. **Cindy: Please. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. They scared me. They hurt me and forced me to tell everything even mine. Shayna was so jealous of you.** She was about to hug me but I move backwards. **Toni: I'm sorry but I don't think you still deserve to be my friend. Move!** I intentionally bumped into her shoulders for her to move aside. I went back home. I was still mad at her. It was 7:00 in the evening when my phone vibrated. It was a call from Rhena, Cindy's sister. **Toni: If you're going to convince me to your sister, stop-** **Rhena: Ate Toni.. Ate Cindy...** I heard her crying. She told me that Cindy's in the hospital and not in a good condition. I was so shocked and asked for the address of the hospital and her room number. I asked for Ate Ehla to drive for me. We arrived at the hospital and I saw Rhena sitting on the benches outside Cindy's room. **Rhena: Ate..** She runs towards me, crying. I hugged her and asked for what happened. **Rhena: Ate Cindy followed you after you walked away in the park. You crossed the street. She was running and didn't saw that the van was approaching. The owner paid for all the expenses. Ate Toni, your classmates were bullying her. She was just so afraid to tell everything to you because she don't want you to be involved. Your adoption paper was found by Shayna. She scared Ate Cindy so much that they even hurt her.** **Toni: I'm... I'm sorry. I did not know it would reach this point. How.. How's Cindy?** I was trembling and crying after I heard the whole story. If only I listened to her explanations. If only I listened to Paul to give Cindy a chance to explain everything. It was all my fault. **Rhea: She's critical, Ate. She's in comatose. It will be a miracle if she will survive. Ate Toni, please help her. Please talk to her. I don't want her to die. Ate, please.** I entered the room and saw her lying on the hospital bed. I sit next to her and held her hand. **"I'm sorry. I was so stupid. I'm sorry for not giving you the chance to speak. I know I was so cruel towards you. I'm really sorry, Cindy. Please don't leave us. Wake up, please."** Her fingers suddenly started moving. I called for the nurses to check on her. When I get back to her room, she was already awake but still weak. **Cindy: To-toni..** **Toni: Cindy, I'm really sorry. I didn't listened to your explanations. Sorry for saying bad things against you. Sorry for hurting you. Sorry for not being a good friend to you.** I was crying so hard. She touched my face and smiled. **Cindy: Don't cry, best friend. It's nothing. I'm already happy, now that we're already fine.** **Toni: This was all my fault. If only.. if only..** **Cindy: Shhh, enough. You're still my best friend. Nothing will change. Thank you for staying by my side. Thank you for being a good friend to me. I love you, best friend.** **Toni: Please, don't leave me..** She just smiled. I called for Rhena so they can talk. Paul also arrived and talked with Cindy. We spend our night together and watched the movies that Cindy likes. The next morning, I told Cindy that I will just go to our house to take a bath and bring her other clothes. I hurriedly went back to the hospital after finishing packing up the things I needed. I was walking on the aisle when I saw lots of nurses outside Cindy's room. Rhena was also outside crying. I run towards them to see what is happening. **Doctor: Time of death, 8:00 AM.** I was so numb. My tears started falling. I even dropped the flowers I bought for Cindy. I can't believe what I've heard. I run to her and tried to shake her a bit. **Toni: Please, Cindy. Wake up. I know you're still there. Please, don't leave me. We still have list of dream places to travel. We will still build our own dream business. Don't leave. Please. I'm sorry for everything. I will not let you feel hurt again. I promise. Please, come back.** Days passed. I am with Paul today, we visited Cindy's grave. **Paul: She might also missed you too.** We placed her favorite flower and fruits beside her grave. I also put our printed photo. I miss her. I miss my best friend. I wiped my tears and left a smile. I know Cindy don't want me to be sad. We stayed for an hour with Cindy. I told her about everything that happened this week. **Paul: Let's go? We might be late to Ate Ehla's wedding.** I nodded and hold Paul's hand. As I stood up, the wind blew. I smiled as I felt the wind. I know it was Cindy. I closed my eyes and the memories of us flashbacks. I looked up and whispered. **"Thank you for being my best friend! You will always be my best friend, Cindy. Best friends today, tomorrow and always."**

@annyeongkleopatra 17 July 2020

If only it was me As I opened the door in your room, I saw you crying on your knees. I run towards you and tried to calm you down. **"What happened?"** I asked as I held your hand. "She broke up with me." He was so broke and devastated as he left those words. **"She said she doesn't love me anymore. She doesn't want me. She said that I'm too good for her."** I was quietly listening to you, patting you. Not leaving your side. **"What should I do, Elara? I love her so much that I'm willing to give everything for her. That I am willing to sacrifice even my happiness for her. Why did she leave me so sudden? Why?"** You were crying so hard and breathing heavily. You brushed your hair. I felt every pain in yours. And I couldn't help not to hug you tightly. **"Shhh. Maybe that's the signal for you to stop before things get worst. Everything's gonna be alright. I'm always here for you."** I heard you cussed and pushed me lightly. "Everything's gonna be alright? Really, Elara? I just lost my world! How? She left me there, hanging and longing for her. Now, you're telling me that everything's going to be alright?!" I can feel your anger and pain. I don't want to see you like this, in despair. **"I'm...sorry. I just want to calm you down.."** And on that point, I don't even know why my tears started to fall. Your eyes calmed down, as you saw my tears. You come closer to me to wipe my tears. **"Oh god! I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Elara."** I stare at your tired face. Thoughts started to crawl into my mind again. I sighed and give you a small smile. "Don't mind me. I was wrong. I'm sorry too. Come with me! I bought your favorite ice cream. I also downloaded the movies you like. Maybe it can soothe those." I wiped my tears pretending as if nothing has happened. You hugged me again. **"Thank you, Elara. Thank you for everything."** You whispered in my ear. I smiled, hiding all of my emotions. Hiding the truth from you. Hiding these feelings of mine towards you.. *'If only.. if only you have chosen me.. your best friend.'*

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@annyeongkleopatra 14 July 2020

Hello!!! Maybe you like reading stories. Here's mine: Summer (1) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-1-3f2db08a Summer (2) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-2-39f3ac25 Summer (3) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-3-4c98af2b Summer (4) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-4-d78c4b97

@annyeongkleopatra 14 July 2020

Summer (4) **Hello there! Part 4 of Summer is finally here! This will consist of Alex point of view. Summer (5) will tell about what happened in the party. To better understand the whole story, I will write down the three parts with its link below. Bear with grammatical errors. Thank you and Enjoy reading! It would be great to share your point of views in the comment box. You may also click the subscribe button if you like reading my posts!** **“Come on, bro! You better boost your romance!”** Wes teased me while looking for my phone. I am with my friends right now; Matt, Chase and Wes. Today is Matt’s birthday, so we decided to barged in his dorm to celebrate his day. **“Hey, Wes! Stop messing up Alex. Come back here, we are still on game!”** I heard Chase`s voice arguing with his teammates. They were playing PUBG on their laptops and computer. **“Chill, bro! I’ll be back there in a few.”** Wes replied turned to me again. **“Come on, Alex. Just this one, I’m sure you’re going to thank me a lot for doing this.”** He was insisting me to hand my phone to him. Just to make this guy in peace, I gave out my phone and let him do what he wanted to do. **“I’m just checking you out there. What do you want for dinner? I will also order two boxes of pizza for us.”** Matt asked as he entered his room. We told him to just order whatever he likes and we will pay for the bill. Matt already treated us lunch when we went in the nearest mall from his dorm. **“Here is your phone, bro! Better check your notification; I think there is someone who matched with you. Good luck! Gotta go! Wait for me, Chase!”** Wes hurriedly run outside before I can easily throw this pillow beside me. I checked for my phone to see what he actually did. There was an unfamiliar app, but I think I’ve heard about it before. I went to Wes to ask him about this. He just teased me instead of answering my questions. Chase even joined teasing me, so I had no choice but to ask Matt about what app is this. I learned that Tantan is one of the famous dating app. My phone buzzed and saw a reply message from a girl. I was so curious so I opened it and was surprised to see that I am the one who messaged her first. Wait, should I be surprised or not? Oh right, Wes really made this. I don’t want to look rude or mean, so I decided to also reply and talk with her.    **“Hello, I’m Hana. Yes, I’m currently studying in Adamson. What are you taking up to?”** she replied. Oh, so now we’re really schoolmates. Now, I’m getting curious about her. **“Mechanical engineering, how about you?”** I replied. So, this what getting-to-know feels like. Wait, Alex. Why are you making up such things? **“I told you!”** I heard Wes’ voice and saw them peeking from the door. I get a pillow and throw it to them while laughing. **“Go back to your business!”** I said as they run again to the living room. **“Accountancy. So, are you like graduating?”** Hana replied. I learned that we were on our last year in college next semester. She told me that she was also new in Tantan, her friends also teased her to use it so he can forget her ex. We talked about each other hobbies and likes. We also talked how we ended up choosing our courses and what are the goals and dreams we have for ourselves. We were talking for like more than an hour, and I can already tell that she is a lovely and bubbly person. We only paused for a while to eat dinner and after that we continued talking. I couldn’t help myself that I told her how bubbly person she is for me and that I wanted to know more about her. I checked the time on my phone, it was already midnight, ***12:45 AM***. I checked my last message and saw no response from her. Do I sound weird or obsess? Or maybe she just fell asleep? Okay, Alex. You better sleep now and stop overthinking. Days passed, and the consistency of us talking with each other continued. My friends also noticed it. **“Look at Alex, he’s still busy with his phone.**” Matt said. **“I told you, his lover boy side will come out again.”** Wes teasingly said as he ate his snack. I feel so attached with her. I was still so afraid to tell my feelings for her because maybe it end up looking like rush. I consistently message her every day. I didn’t fail to greet her every morning and bid a sweet goodnight before we sleep. I was not a distraction for her, I always give her enough time for herself, for her studies. She became my inspiration to strive harder every day. I would not deny it, her messages really make my heart bit. I was really not a cheesy and sweet type person. But look what you made me do. I even sent you many pickup lines that I have learned from Wes. **“You know what’s faster than the speed of light?”** I decided to give a hint for what I feel for her. I was hoping that she will notice it. I checked it before sending my lines. I laughed as I read her reply. She told me she was not really familiar with engineering stuffs. Oh god, she is really naïve but still she looks lovely for me. I typed my reply. Please, notice this one, Hana. **“My heart.. when I think of you.”** I swear, if it came out with a good result, I will confess to her immediately. I waited for her reply. I even sent a message calling for her. She did not message me on that day again. I don’t know why. Did it sound obsessive? Do I look like a player? Don’t we have the same feelings? The next day, I went straight to my room after our dinner. I opened the app and saw a message from her. **“Alex, I’m sorry. I thought you were just tripping on me the last time. Sorry for making you worry.”** I told her I am really sincere towards her and that I have no harmful intentions towards her. I apologized for what I have done that seems to be wrong. I told her that I feel sorry if I hurt her feelings. I know I am not still ready, but I had no choice because I already spill too much. And, I know the more I try to deny and hide it, the more these feelings grow. **“I like you, Hana. I like everything about you. I tried to stop this feeling I swear. For almost 3 months talking with you, starting from March, I found myself looking for you more.”** I didn’t even read it again; I just sent it right away. Whatever happens, I will accept her decision but still I am hoping that she also feel the same way too. **“I like you too, Alex”** And that is where our relationship started. We were mutual, I told her I will still court her before we enter the real relationship.  She said she was also not yet ready to enter a new one and so I told her not too worry because I can wait for her. We became more sweet. I was always there for her rants, for her cute moments and for her red days. I became her diary and pillow whenever she wants to cry. I never let her feel alone and I always make sure that she is always doing fine. She became more talkative. She told me how her first love broke her heart. It was cute and a loving relationship. She was so in love when she was telling the whole story, I could not help myself not to get jealous. I get to know her more. Her mood change easily, and sometimes she is saying words without thinking if it might hurt my feelings. She always talk about her ex-lover, rather than asking about me. She sometimes compares me with his ex whenever we had an argument. And I feel like I was only there to help her heal her broken heart. I tried to understand her, because I love her. I tried telling myself that maybe she just hate the guy so much that we ended up talking only about him, about them, for the whole day. I won’t deny it. It really hurts. Her summer job started, she became more busy and we often talk unlike before. I’ve heard that her ex visited on the shop last time, and that they went out for a talk. I was so jealous that time, but I still tried to understand her that maybe they just cope up with themselves and nothing more. But, as day passes by, I felt like she was losing it. That it seems like she is getting tired of me, of us. **“Hana.”** I feel numb. My tears are flowing. **“I don’t want to lose you.”** Please let’s bring back everything we had before. **“I don’t want to lose you either.”** She replied. I typed and told her how I really felt. **“..but I think you need more time, more time to think.”** She was so confused I guess. She asked me if there is something wrong. I told her everything. I told her that I feel like she was still lingering in her past. That maybe she has not move on yet, completely. I was trying to fit his ideal, to win against his ex so she can also be proud of me just like how proud she was talking about her ex with me. **“Or maybe, I did the best I can, but didn’t still worked.”** It was Summer. Sunday night, dimmed lights in my room. I was covered with my blanket, and my tears are flowing continuously. It was defeating. I feel like I lost everything. It was Summer when I lost her, my *smol bean*, Hana. **“Bro, did you also buy me a book?”** It was already *5:20PM*. I am at the station, waiting for a train. Matt asked me if I can also buy his book since I also bought our requirements in Recto. **“Yes, bro. I will hand it to you tomorrow.”** I ended the call and sit on one of the benches. I am wearing a grey hoodie and and black jeans. It was raining so hard outside. Luckily, I already arrived at the station before the rain drops heavily. The station was so full today. I scan for my phone and scroll on my Facebook to release my boredom. *‘Doroteo Jose Station’* As soon as I heard the name of the station, I stood up and get myself ready to enter the train. I hold the strap of my bag tightly and run towards the door of the train. I am now facing the door. I saw a girl with the same ID lace with mine. She was pretty and cute with her hair tied up in a messy bun. She is wearing a navy blue shirt tucked in high waist black jeans. I look for her ID to see her name. It was a little blurry, but I saw a word Hana and Accountancy. The train started moving, my eyes were still fixed on her, she was looking around or maybe inside the train. **“Bro, someone messaged me saying she is Hana from Accountancy Dept. I will forward her message to you.”** I woke up from Matt’s message. Today is Monday and I don’t have class every Monday. My brain is still processing how Hana got Matt’s number, so I asked Matt if she was the Hana I’ve known before. **“Bro, I think it’s her. Where are you?”** I jumped out from my bed and look for the time. It’s already 10 in the morning. I took a shower as fast as I can before texting Matt. **“I’ll be there.”** I run downstairs and see my mom. **“Oh, dear. Good morning! Why are you in a hurry? You don’t have class right? Come here, let’s eat first.”** She guided me to our dining area to eat with them. **“Mom, I really need to go. I’m meeting Matt today.”** I tried to stop her so I can finally go outside, but she is really persistent. **“Oh, I know Matt will understand. Tell him you can’t go today. Plus, I’m giving you an errand. Your auntie is waiting for you in their house; she needs to attend a meeting for a day. So she asked me a favor if you can babysit Nathan for today only. Since, you don’t have class today, I agreed. So go now, eat first and then pack the things you needed before you go there.”** I guess I had no choice. Mom even messaged Matt that I can’t leave the house today for some reason. I finished eating and went back to my room to prepare my things. **“Bro, I’m sorry I can’t go today. I tried pursuing my Mom. Maybe, next time. Just do me a favor this time.”** I sent the message to Matt. He sent me Hana’s number and said that he will be meeting her on lunch break. I just said okay and drive to my auntie’s house. **“I’m sorry, dear. This is really an urgent meeting. I really need to go. Nathan, behave okay?”** I nodded and bid a goodbye to my auntie. Nathan is my 3 year old cousin. He was not yet enrolled, maybe next year. He’s a quiet and smart kid. I joined him in his playroom; we spend the whole day playing and watching his favorite cartoon shows. I also let him sleep in the afternoon and bought his favorite doughnuts. My auntie arrived at around 5 in the afternoon. I went back home and checked if there are any updates from Matt. **“I already got your ID”** Matt said. Oh, I forgot to ask why Hana messaged her. **“Uh- maybe I drop it when we hang out in the Accountancy room last time.”** I replied, trying to remember every bit that has happened during that time. I remember there was a girl who entered the room but I didn’t see her face really well. She was also wearing a yellow hairband.  Oh right, that is why that hairband was so familiar. And the bag she had, I also saw it before. **“No bro. You drop it last time on the train station.”** Matt replied. So, the girl in the classroom and that girl in the train station was Hana? I asked my mom if I can sleep over at Matt’s dorm, I told her that we will be starting to prepare for our report for the organization’s presentation. I fixed my things and brought my backpack and my uniform with me before heading out. **“Bro, your ID.”** Matt handed me my school ID as soon as I arrived his place. Wes and Chase were also there eating their dinner. **“Oh, right! I almost forgot. Aly invited us for her birthday celebration this Friday.”** Chase forwarded the message he got from Aly in our group chat. **“Oh, is this some kind of comeback?”** I laughed as Matt teased Chase. **“Come on, bro. Didn’t Aly was the first girl who rejected you back then?”** Wes joined in to tease Chase. Aly and Chase were schoolmates during their high school years. Chase was sort of a playboy type back then, most of the girls in their university had a crush on him. And, I’m not kidding you. Chase had more than 20 exes, but Aly broke his heart by rejecting his confession. **“Shut up! Atleast I know Aly personally, oops!”** Chase said while giggling. We finished eating and preparing ourselves to sleep when Matt sat beside me. My phone buzzed and saw a chat from him. I opened it and found a stolen photo of Hana. **“She makes herself prettier in case you guys meet.”** Matt tapped my shoulder before lying in the bed beside me. I lay down, checked my phone and saved the photo. I don’t know what came into my mind, I just found myself typing those words and sending it to her number. She really looks pretty. I really want to meet her, but then I found myself getting scared that we might ended up hurting ourselves again just like before. I fell asleep before I even checked her reply. Today is Tuesday. I woke up at around 9 in the morning. Matt already ate his breakfast and was about to take a shower. Our class will start at 12:30 and will end at around 9 in the evening. We went straight to our classroom as we arrived the university. It was quite hectic today, but luckily our professor was so considerate that he agreed to pass our home works next week. My whole day went well, I texted Matt that I will be sleeping at his dorm. I also informed my Mom and she agreed. As I walk to the gate, I saw Hana staring worriedly outside. There were small droplets of rain. I checked my bag if I bought my umbrella, so I can lend it to her. As soon as I got my umbrella, she hurriedly run towards the church, across our university. I followed her and saw her kneeling inside the church. I sat quietly beside her, I stare at her side view while she was praying. I tear a piece of sticky note and write a short letter for her, I stick it on my umbrella. When I felt like she was already finished, I panicked that I even just put the umbrella on the chair when I should have gave it personally. I stand and walk away hurriedly without looking back. I got a fever that night, so my friend had to take care of me. Wednesday. I didn’t attended my first subject because I woke up late. I feel better now, so I decided to still attend my last two subjects. **“So, what happened yesterday? You were soaking and trembling when you got home.”** Matt asked while we walked to Jollibee to eat before we head to his dorm. The class ended quickly. They just handed us some homework to read. **“I saw her, so I lent my umbrella.”** I replied while scrolling at my phone. **“So, you already meet?”** Matt asked and I just turned my head. He tapped me to tell that it’s okay. We both ordered a meal and an ice cream. My phone vibrated, it was a message from Wes. ***“Hey, let’s hang out in Starbucks later!”*** I checked the time on my wristwatch, it was already 4PM. We finished eating and went to the train station. I informed Wes that we’re on our way to the mall. We also decided to buy a gift for Aly. It was already 6PM when we arrived. Luckily, today is wash day meaning we can wear casual clothes. I am wearing my black jeans and our org shirt. I am also wearing my black hoodie because it was so cold today plus this month is already rainy season. I saw Wes and Chase near the Starbucks, they waved at us as we walked towards them. **“Sup, bro? Are you feeling better now?”** Chase asked and I nodded as an answer. We were chatting as we walk to the entrance of Starbucks. There, I saw a familiar face looking so tired with so much bags on her hands. I think her friend is walking slower than her. *It was Hana*. I hurriedly entered before she even bumped on the glass door of the Starbucks. **“I’m sorry.”** I said as she bumped on my chest. I unintentionally smelled her perfume, it was not too sweet but natural. It smells like a fresh blooming flower. I was about to ask her if she’s okay when Chase tapped my shoulder not knowing that Hana was in front of me. **“Come on, bro.”** He teasingly pushed me to the seat while laughing. **“I know, bro. I know.”** He said as he walked away to order for us. **“Are we all set?”** Our org president asked. Today is Thursday. All of the officers of the organizations are gathered in ST Quadrangle to represent ourselves, and to compete for our org. **“Bro, may I borrow your laptop charger?”** I handed MY CHARGER TO Matt. I was so busy looking around when I saw Hana running towards the tent of Psychology. She must be in a hurry cause she immediately run again after giving something to her friend. *Maybe she has a class.* Our presentation ended as well as the other orgs. Her friend was really good in editing their videos. Our team ordered for our lunch since the program isn’t done yet. The emcee was busy energizing us. I looked again at Psych tent, and saw Hana. *Maybe her class ended* I checked the time on my laptop, ***3PM***. **“Do you think Hana looks cute everyday?”** I looked away to stop Matt from teasing me. He tapped my shoulder while chuckling. I focused again on my laptop to distract myself from staring at her. For the fun event, the emcee decided to ask for the volunteer to show their talents in front of the stage. I was surprised when I heard Hana’s name. Hana went to the stage, dumbfounded from what is happening. I was just staring at her. **“Bro, could you pass this to our professor. He’s waiting at the back door.”** I smiled irritated and Matt just laughed at me. I had no choice but to walk to my professor before he gets mad at us. I was busy talking with my professor when I heard Hana’s voice. It was lovely. She started singing Enchanted of Taylor Swift. I didn’t notice that my professor already left. I looked at the stage; I was so mesmerized with her. I couldn’t help myself but to stare at her, my heart is beating so fast. ***“I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew, I was enchanted to meet you..”*** By the time she ended the song, our eyes met. Despite the fact that I am surrounded with students and teachers, she still found me. I was staring at her the whole time. We were just looking at each other, but it already felt magical for me. Summer (1) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-1-3f2db08a Summer (2) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-2-39f3ac25 Summer (3) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-3-4c98af2b

@annyeongkleopatra 14 July 2020

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@annyeongkleopatra 10 July 2020

One month in Readcash!!! 🎉🎉🎉 It's been a month since I decided to join Readcash. I remember how excited I was to finally write again stories. It was a very long time ago since I wrote my short stories and I haven't finished them. I got lazy. I didn't expected that I can write more than the stories, I have written blogs and even articles. I was lost back then on what should I write here. I explored. I tried to look and read for other works to see how this works. I started writing for my introduction. And then, I started posting on my past works. I tried to search and look for my past works so I can post them and earn points. I was so happy when I received my first points. But, at the same time, I was also worried if I can easily gain points or if I can write them for more than 500 words. I was also worried what if I became lazy and unmotivated again. I didn't expected to post more than 5 posts in a week. Maybe I was so inspired about how the points increased everytime I posted a new one. I was so happy to see my views increasing as well as my subscribers. I was also glad to see the comments and upvotes. Some of them also share their thoughts about my works. And maybe they also helped me to improve my writings. Two weeks passed, when I finally got my 100 views. I also had plenty of my works. From 5-10 works, it increases to 22 works. I was so overwhelmed that I continue to write everyday. My subscribers reached up to 10. Not until, one of the comments caught my attention. We had some misunderstandings, I felt sorry on how mean or rude it looked like when I made a reply to her. I just want to apologize again to make clear things out. I am not saying this because my subscriber became 9 and up until now. I just want to clear things out. And I felt guilty what I have caused to your feelings. You are a great writer as I have seen your works. Three weeks passed, when I have lost all my ideas. I think I have put all my ideas on that 22 works that I have made. My uncle, who introduced me here, said that I should not worry too much on getting higher points because sooner or later they will also recognize my works. And that, I should not rush things because I might get out of many ideas and topics to write. I decided to make a schedule where I will only write and post on MWF. But, again, I failed. I became lazy and once again I feel lost. I don’t know what or when to write again. It became inconsistent. I tried to relax and lielow for a few days. And then, I realized that I still have an unfinished story to continue, so I decided to look for it on my list of works and started to imagine on what should happen on the next parts. Finally, the ideas came out again. I told to myself that I will only write stories from now on until my ideas for blogs come out again. I did not realized after I finished my third part of Summer, I also finished writing a blog. The next day, I woke up and saw my points increased more than it has increased back then. I am still unfamiliar with how the points work. I told to myself that maybe it happened because I finally got a sponsor. My subscriber is still in the number of nine. But my points were increasing so much. I feel so happy to be introduced to Readcash because aside from gaining points and cash here, I can also share my writings to everyone . I know I still lack on some points since it’s hard for me to extract the feelings that I want to deliver, because I am not fluent enough to speak and write in English language. I am still happy to see that there are some who appreciate my works. Special thanks to everyone who supported me and for my subscribers and sponsor who trusted my works. I am still hoping for more subscribers and sponsors soon. And for newbies who was also lost just like me, trust yourself and write anything that comes into your mind whether it will come out as a good article or not, still it will be one of your memorable and great work of yours. Cheer up and always be proud of yourself! Below are the three parts of Summer that I have written, you may also read some of my works and drop comments and an upvote if you like: Summer (1) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-1-3f2db08a Summer (2) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-2-39f3ac25 Summer (3) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-3-4c98af2b THANK YOU, EVERYONE!

@annyeongkleopatra 8 July 2020

Love your flaws Everyone wants to be beautiful. Everyone wants to be noticed and accepted. Everyone wants to be perfect. Everyone wants to be praised and appreciated. People are being scared of people to see their scars. They are being bullied of their physical appearance. They are irritated for having wrinkles, pimples and acne. They are getting jealous for having belly fats. They became envious on pretty and sexy girls around them. They tend to eat less and don't think more about their health to become perfect on everyone's eyes. They live their life depending on other preferences. And they forgot to love their self most of the time. Every day that passes they became more insecure. They became less confident because of how people and society look against them. They have low self-esteem. And suddenly, they became more timid. They became more conscious and afraid of expectations. They are afraid to be judged by anyone who does not know their real stories or the real mystery of their scars. It is heartbreaking to see them tear apart because of how society and people hurt them. Maybe physical or mental. It is heartbreaking to see them losing their love for themselves. Why don't we praise everybody for being brave everyday? For being such a strong, independent and wonderful person they are? Why don't we change the standards that the society have? Everybody is perfect on their own. Everybody deserves to be loved and appreciated. Every flaws we have our part of our beauty. Without them, we can't be called as unique on our own. And I think the only option for you to love yourself again is to accept every flaws you have. We need to remind ourselves everyday that we are stronger than our society. We are braver. We are perfect than what society told to us. And no one can break us anymore. We are all beautiful, we can make our own standards that we can stand out. We can wear anything that we want. Appreciate every part of you, whether it is small or big. Whether it is scars or acne, whether it is fats or your color that. Don't mind them too much. We live and we slay! Love your flaws as much as you love yourself! Reminder: If you read this post, I just want to remind you how amazing person you are. You are wonderful and strong. And, you are beautiful and perfect. Wear a smile and tell everyone how great person they are!

@annyeongkleopatra 6 July 2020

What color describes you? Hi, it's me again! I was having fun reading and doing some research about the things that suits your personality. So, I came up again with this. I will be listing the most common types of color. Comment down your favorite color and see what does it say to you. Thank you for reading! I do appreciate if you also read and support some of my works. I will do the same! Enjoy! 1. Blue You are genuine and sincere. Blue lovers depends their lives according to their traditions and beliefs. You are sensitive. You always keep things in order and neat. You don't want messy places, you want things to be cleaned. Persons who like color blue are said to be reliable and trustworthy. They are also a loyal person. They are friendly and sociable, but they prefer to bond with their very close friends. These persons are not impulsive. They always think twice before doing anything or even buying and choosing what they really want. They always plan or make a list. They want things in order. You don't like being the apple of the eye. You prefer being on a team or in the background. You are very helpful to anyone that you sometimes prioritize others than yourself. You seemed to be a strong person, but you are quite emotional. Sometimes, you compare the things happened from your past to your present. They easily cry on sad movies or stories. 2. Yellow You are defined as a happy and cheerful person. You have a positive aura that attracts anyone. You have a great sense of humor. Yellow persons are fun and exciting to be with. You are also friendly and an extrovert person. But, you are very selective in choosing your circle of friends. You are creative, you like creating and giving out new ideas. People who loves the color yellow are said to be a dreamer and perfectionist. They dream very high and have big goals. They are also impulsive. They analyze everything but they make quick decisions and rush things rather than keeping them in slow pace. You are independent; you prefer to be in small groups or individual when it comes to work. You are sometimes over confident with yourself. You seemed to be mean and aloof when you are not in your mood. 3. Green Green lovers are said to be a down-to-earth persons. You are in love with nature. You are loyal and affectionate. You are very helpful and gives good advices to anyone. You are also intelligent and a fast learner. You seek for acknowledgement and recognition in everything you had done well. You like being appreciated. People who loves the color green are active in community groups, they are an example of a good citizen. You are independent, but competitive. You always like winning in every arguments or debates. You are confident on your own, you do not want anyone to tell you on what you should have done. You love food so much. Green lovers are afraid of taking a risk. You like staying in your comfortable zone. Green people are good in managing and handling money and business. 4. Pink Pink people are charming and very sweet. They are seemed to be more girly or feminine. They seemed to be very soft and graceful in whatever they do. People love them for being fun and playful. But, sometimes they are also immature and childish. You are friendly and you have a soft warm heart. Your friends might describe you as lovely and cheerful. You are romantic and sensual, but a sensitive person. You are calm and non violent. You like things being in order. You have this youthful appearance even if you grow older. Pink people are very emotional and they have lack of self-worth. They seek for acceptance and unconditional love. 5. Black You are bold and have a strong will. You are somehow mysterious and also a risk-taker. They are called mysterious as they seemed to be introverts, but they aren't. They just don't want to open up more about themselves. They make careful actions when sharing something about themselves. People who loves black are said to be impulsive and demanding, but they do make choices and decisions very well. They may seemed to be intimidating to anyone because of their strong aura. You are independent and not emotional; you control your emotions very well. You tend to hide your emotions on your own and control the things or situations by yourself. You are not good in sharing your feelings to others even in your friends. You are also creative and represents elegance. You are very determined and sophisticated. 6. White White color represents peacefulness and calmness. You are neat and detail-oriented. You want things in order but simple. You are very simple but independent. You are innocent and a bit naive. You are also a good listeners. You want everything in peace; you might be the peacemaker in your circle of friends. People who likes the color white always wants a fresh start or new beginnings. You are an optimistic person. You are far-sighted, but well-balanced and sensible. You are good in making decisions; you think twice and very carefully before doing an act. You are not an impulsive person. You have a great deal with self-control. You control your emotions really well. It is said that you are not too moody and you know how to calm yourself. You are also quite shy, but you tend to hide your flaws so others might see you as a perfect one. You may be found as a loner, you enjoy being alone. But, you are very confident and self-assured. 7. Red You are bold. You are adventurous and seemed to have full of energy. You are hardworking. You do not procrastinate and always make sure everything you have started is finished the way you wanted it to be. You are good in managing business and a good influence as an entrepreneur. You are impulsive; some people might think that you are overreacting but you are just aggresive in making decisions because you want things to be in hurry. You have a great passion; you are quite a risk-taker and you are not afraid to move forward to achieve your goals. You seemed to have low self-control. You easily shift your mood. You can be easy to anger and sometimes violent. You are also confident and competitive. 8. Orange Orange symbolizes energy, adventure and excitement. Just by thinking the color of orange makes you feel fresh. You are optimistic and very cheerful. You want things to be happy. You are also a bubbly and bright person and that is the reason why people are attracted to you. You are confident and independent. Your friends might define you as a loyal and trustworthy friend. You are very sociable that you don't prefer to have a big group of friends. You are outgoing and always on the go. You are thoughtful; you help people with your positive vibes. You are extrovert and likes going out. Being alone makes you feel sad and depressed. You are also an adventurous and active; you love outdoor activities. You are also a risk-taker. You want to explore new things and try them out. 9. Purple Your color represents you as a creative person. You have big imaginations. Purple is associated to mystery, magical and royalty. You are defined as a person who has a great leadership. You have an inward thinking. You don't care about what people will say against you. You find it hard to accept new ideas or opinions from others that contradict yours. You spend a lot of time thinking and imagining. You have high expectations for yourself. You are also an introvert person. Despite of this, you are sensitive, very caring and understanding. You are also very supportive and people come to you when they need a help or an advice. You have a charismatic and alluring aura. You are generous, and friendship for you is really important. 10. Gray Gray color might looks dull and boring, but it also represents sophistication, stylish and professionalism. People who like the color of gray are defined as introverts and matured. It is hard for them to easily get close with others, but they just want to blend and don't want the full attention to them. You are a composed and calm person. You don't get excited easily. You are practical and just want to be contented in your life. You are hardworking but you tend to be shy and have lack of confidence. You find it hard to make choices on your own. 11. Gold The color of gold signifies wealth, royalty and money. Gold lovers are said to be punctual and organized. They are always on time and they even remember or notice directions and instructions easily. Time is really important for them. They can also be reliable. They are also loyal and sensible. They are hardworking and they do their very best on every work assigned to them. You are loving and compassionate. You have a full passion and have a positive outlook in life. You are also wise and successful; you have dream big and a goal-oriented person. You have a great leadership skills and very trustworthy. 12. Silver They say that silver is a masculine color, it is often seen as the color of the jewelry. Silver represents intelligence, maturity and futuristic. These people are said to be logical thinker. They make decisions by their mind and not by emotions. Future is very important for them. They think about their future most of the time. They also think deeply. They seemed to be mean or arrogant because they don't listen to others opinions. You are creative. You are good in writing because that is where you express yourself. You are good in speeches and writing novels and poetry. You like exploring new things and trying them.

@annyeongkleopatra 5 July 2020

2AM It's 2AM. And I'm lying on my bed with my eyes closed. My blanket is hugging the whole body of mine. My pillows are wet from all the hours of crying. I should have not re-opened our messages. I should have not re-read our conversations. It is still painful, despite the fact that it was already two years since you left. I sat on and opened the window. I could feel the breeze touching my skin. I closed my eyes and let the coldness hugs my existence, imagining it was you wrapping me around your arms. A tear dropped from my left eye. I opened my eyes and saw the stars twinkling so bright above the skies. I wish I was just like those stars. Brightly and didn't lose the sparkle you gave to me every night. I looked again in the sky, and now all the memories started to regain. The star makes me think of how pretty your eyes was when I first met your gaze. You were so lovely as you mumbles my name. I remember how you sleep with me and look at the stars every night. Telling all your promises and plans with me that I wished I had never heard before. I go back to my bed and laid down. I cover myself with my blanket. I remember how your scent touches this bed of mine. I remember how we spend watching all of my movies in this four cornered room. I can still remember how we shared laughter and happy chilling moments with our favorite hot chocolate while watching funny variety shows. I miss your smile. Your smile that calms me down when I feel mad at myself. Your smile that lightens up my mood when I am sad. Your smile, and I was the reason behind those. *I was.* Your photos was still saved on my phone and even our favorite playlist that we always listened to when we were together. We never get tired listening to them. I wish I was these songs, so you won't also get tired of me. I can still remember the midnight calls we shared. How your low tone voice sounds really comforting in my ears. I can still remember the stories you have told, the rants you have thrown, the struggles and fights we have made with this phone. I can still remember, *everything*. The letters you have written is still with me and all the petals from the flowers you had brought for me was framed with some lights I covered to make it still looks pretty. I wish we were like that, so I can still fix everything. Your presents were still organized and arranged in the box you gave me. Our pictures together are still hanging on my walls. ***It's 2AM. And my heart still calls for you.*** I can still remember that night when I went home very late and you insisted to picked me up from my school. You even brought my favorite drinks and snacks with you, telling I might be tired from my study sessions. I let you hold my hand as we pass the bridge. We stayed there for a few minutes and just feel the moment we had back then. You were smiling while looking at the stars above us. I couldn't help myself to stare at you. ***You were the brightest.*** It was memorable. It's 2AM. And it was 2 years ago, since the day you left. It was too painful to hear the leaving words from you. It was heart breaking as I heard you say that you got tired already from me. I was looking and seeking for answers. I doubted myself for not giving the best of me to take care of you. I blamed myself for everything. I blamed myself even if I don't even know what reasons you have why you ended up leaving me. I admit that I am still hoping for you to come back. I am hoping that we can be happy together again, *just like before*. I picked up my phone and typed your name on the search button. Your profile appeared and I clicked it. I scrolled down to get an update from you, my eyes went straight to your status. It looks posted awhile ago. *In a relationship*. I felt numb. And I heard my heart sank deeply. My tears are flowing again on my pillow. It's 2AM. *My heart still wants you.* But, I guess this is a sign, *to move on*. A sign to give myself a rest from all the pains. It's 2AM. And finally, I am ending and dropping everything now. ***You were my star, forever. And I couldn't wish anything but to see you happy. Happier this time.***

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@annyeongkleopatra 4 July 2020

Summer (3) **As I have promised, this is the part three of Summer. I intended to write this longer than the first and second parts, I swear I edited some parts to make it short. Anyway, if you want to read for Summer (1) and (2), I will link it below! Bear with my grammatical errors. I hope you enjoy reading. Please support my works! I do appreciate comments and suggestions. Thank you!** (credits for the photo I've got from Pinterest) It’s Monday again. My first class starts at 9 in the morning, I arrived at the university at around 8:45. As I passed the entrance, I run towards our classroom. I looked for my seat and sat quietly. The discussion was quite hard for the second week but it is understandable since I am in my fifth year, subjects will be more difficult and thrilling. Our first class ended leaving us with some homework to read. I fix the things and pack them inside my bag. I was looking for my phone when I felt something inside my bag; I pull it out and saw a school ID. I almost forgot! His ID is still with me. I checked the information of the school ID again and noticed a small paper at the back; a contact number was written there. I put the number in my contacts just in case it was Alex. Though, honestly I am hoping. ***Hello. This is Hana Gonzales from Accountancy Dept. I was hoping this number belongs to Alexis. You left your school ID at the train station yesterday. I just want to return it to you. Please do reply, thank you.*** I sent this message to the number which I named ***Alex***. Our second class has started. I focused on the discussion and sometimes checked my phone if there are any replies from my message. My phone vibrated as soon as the class ended, it was a message from the number I saved as Alex. ***Meet me at ST Quadrangle. Lunch time.*** I stood up immediately and walk to ST Quadrangle. This is finally the day! I will meet him personally. *Okay, calm down Hana.* I am sitting in one of the benches and waiting for Alexis. My phone suddenly vibrated, it was a message from him. ***Where are you?*** I replied, describing where I am sitting and what color of my bag is. I am also wearing a yellow striped hairband and my hair was braided by one of my classmates. I was startled when a pair of shoes is standing in front of me. I looked up and noticed his ID lace, ***Computer Engineering***. **“Uh, hi? Are you Ms. Hana?”** I was a little confused because obviously it was not Alex. **“I’m Alexis’ friend, by the way. Matt. My friend asked me to meet you here since he doesn`t have classes on Mondays.”** It was heartbreaking. I was expecting too much. I blankly handed the school ID to Matt. **“Thank you. Anyway, I need to go.”** He smiled and ran while waving back at me. My phone buzzed again, it was a message from our class representative telling that there will be no class for our last subject.My third class is Auditing. I focused myself on what our professor is discussing. The class has ended. Finally! I decided to buy few snacks and groceries before going home. Since I’m pretty sure that I have lots of to do list for today, I need to buy a coffee for my stocks. I finally went back home after. ***Hi, girls! I was just wondering if you are available on September 3, Friday?*** It was a chat from Aly. She is a marketing student in University of the East. She is the social butterfly in our group of friends. ***Rei: Someone’s birthday is coming!!!*** ***Aly: My parents want me to rent a private pool in Laguna. BUT! Don’t expect too much!*** ***Yana: Here we go again with her “don’t expect too much”. Hahaha! Don`t worry, we already knew what you really meant.*** ***Rei: OMG! Yana! Finally you came out from your shell. Where have you been, girl?*** ***Hana: I’m coming, Aly!!! Please tell us your theme so we can prepare. And, do we need to wear bikinis? Hahaha!*** ***Aly: Just wear anything comfortable. Oh, we reserved it for two nights so we can hang out until Sunday in the afternoon.*** ***Yana: Oh my god, Rei. I just got back from Korea. You know, my parents asked me to visit our fashion store there.*** ***Aly: And girls, I will be inviting some of my friends ha?*** ***Rei: As long as there will be boys!*** ***Hana: Okay, behave please!*** ***Yana: Oh, come on. Don`t be a killjoy, Hanabanana!*** ***Rei: True! Let’s just have fun on that day. Besides, we might meet our “one and only” there! Or maybe..*** ***Yana: Alex..*** ***Aly: Oh my god, you two are so noisy! Hahaha!*** ***Hana: I need to go! I still need to read 4 chapters tonight! Bye and see you soonest!!!*** I closed our group chat and went to my bed to sleep, I woke up at around 6 in the evening. I decided to eat dinner first, so I can study continuously. I finished eating and went straight to the living room and started flipping the pages of my handouts. I finished reading two chapters. It was already ***9:45PM***. I went to the bathroom to take a quick shower. I brushed my teeth and went straight to my room. It was a little chilly tonight, since it rained. I checked my phone if there are any messages from my friends. Yana asked me if I can come with her tomorrow. I checked my downloaded photos of our handouts on my Gallery. I was busy scrolling on the photos when I saw a photo of Alex. It was the photo I took when I saw his school ID. He is smiling with his lips closed; his hair was in clean cut. He has deep-set eyes though I’m not sure if it is dark brown or just black. He isn’t fat or thin. His lips are in medium heart shaped. He looks attractive to me, but some might think he looks normal. A message popped on the screen of my phone, it was from an unknown number. ***Hey, I just want to say that you look cute with your yellow hairband. Goodnight!*** I was confused and curious, so I asked who it was. I waited for the reply but I guess I was so tired from all the happenings for today that I ended up falling asleep. I woke up early the next morning. Today is Tuesday. My class will start at 12:30 in the afternoon and ends at 9:00 in the evening. I checked my things and wear my uniform. I put on my yellow hairband and applied a red tint on my lips. I arrived at the university at around 11:30. I went straight to our classroom. I have two accounting subjects before break time and my last subject for today would be Law. The two classes ended and I barely ate my lunch because I need to cope up with my readings in Law. There will be more recitations for sure so I need to be always ready to be called. Luckily, our professor isn’t strict unlike my past professors. Our class ended with few discussions. I hurriedly walked to the gate. The wind was blowing and there are also raindrops. I run to the church across our university and checked if I brought my umbrella with me. I guess I was unlucky today. I kneeled and prayed for the rain to stop. I felt someone sat beside me, I even smelled its manly scent. I opened my eyes to check who he was, but he was walking away with his black backpack. I checked my belongings and found a black umbrella beside me. I looked around to see if it belongs to someone. But it seems like it was left for purpose, I noticed a small sticky note stuck in the umbrella. ***Go home safely. – Jace*** **“Could you please sit down? You’re making me dizzy.”** I was moving and walking around since I arrived at dorm. She walks towards me as she noticed the umbrella and a paper that I am holding. **“Oh my god! Are you hiding secret from us, Hana?”** I shook my head in disbelief. I was also confused why he left his umbrella when it was raining so hard. **“Then, tell me who is Jace?”** I opened the gallery on my phone and showed her the photo of Alex’ school ID I took. **“Oh my gosh! So, you guys already met? Wait. Where, how?”** Rei was so happy and excited to know the whole story. **“I just wished I met him, but I didn’t. He left this beside me when I was busy praying on the SV Church.”** I told her the whole story and now she is scolding me for not following him. I slept early that night. Rei wakes me up at around 6:30 in the morning, she already cooked breakfast for us. I eat and take a shower. Today is Wednesday, meaning it is wash day. We can wear anything, as long as it is not revealing. I wear my high waist black jeans and an oversized shirt tucked on my jeans. I put on some tint on my cheeks and lips. I wear my sneakers and bring a sweater with me. **“Don’t forget HIS umbrella!”** Rei put the umbrella inside my bag. The day went well. Our professor handed out the registration form to us from the review center we enrolled. He advised us to check the list before we get home. I took a van to the review school. I checked my seat and the schedule. I texted Yana to meet me at the Tayuman station since she brought her car. **“Hey!”** Yana waved at me as I walked towards her. **“So tell me about Jace!”** That was the first thing she said to me after entering his car. I shook my head while laughing, I guess Rei already told them. **“Oh! I also heard that Aly has few friends in Adamson, bonus the part that their courses were Engineering.”** Oh god, please make Yana stop. We arrived at the mall, we decided to eat first before looking for something to wear for the party. Maybe bringing Yana with me was one of my best choices. She knows well when it comes to fashion since they also have clothing business in Korea. She picked our clothes quickly. We went to a jewelry store after to buy a gift for Aly. Yana asked me to buy coffee before heading home. We walked straight to Starbucks. I insisted to pay for our coffee since Yana already paid for our lunch. We spend an hour talking about our surprise for Aly. **“I think we should go home, it’s raining again.”** I told her, picked up our bags and walk straight to the door. I was too tired and busy looking at the floor when I bumped into someone. **“I’m sorry.”** It was quiet and in low tone, but enough for me to hear it. I accidentally smell his perfume, it was the same scent I smelled from the guy who sat beside me on the church. **“Come on, bro!”** I heard his friends called him. I didn’t even get the chance to see his face because his friends pull him. **“I saw everything, Hana.”** Yana giggles while driving. **“He looks cute staring at you.”** She continued teasing me until we reached our dorm. I saw Rei on my study table and eating a cup noodle while busy editing a video presentation. **“Aren’t you done there? I bought you coffee from Starbucks.”** I placed the coffee on top of the table and walk towards my bathroom to take a shower. I was so tired, and didn’t get the chance to read in advance so I decided to wake up early tomorrow. I bid my goodnight to Rei. **“Are you awake? Can you bring me the flash drive I left in your table? I badly need it at 10. Thank you! I owe you a lunch.”** I already finished taking a bath when I saw Rei’s message. I checked the time, ***8:30AM***. I put on my uniform and check my things. I put the flash drive on my purse. Rei texted me that they are at ST Quadrangle. I arrived at 9:50 and run towards the venue. I looked for their tent and saw Rei. **“Oh my god, Hana! Thank you so much!”** I handed her flash drive and decided to stay for a while. Rei gave me a snack just in case I got hungry while reading my handouts. I checked the time, ***12:20PM***. I told Rei that I need to go to my class and meet her after 2 hours. I run to my classroom and go to my seat. The professor gave us few homework to read since tomorrow is August 21 and holiday, she believed we have enough time to finish reading this 24 pages handouts. My next class ended quickly and our law professor texted our class representative that he won’t be meeting us for today since he has a case meeting to attend to. **“Hey!”** I waved at Rei and sit next to her. **“How was your presentation?”** I asked her as I placed my bag under the table. **“As long as it went well, it’s fine with me. Hahaha!”** Rei laughed. I offered her a bottle of juice that I bought on my way. **“Hey, take a look at that tent across us.”** I was too focused listening on the emcee of the program so I did not heard what she said really well. **“What?”** I told her while laughing from the joke that the emcee thrown. **“That tent..”** Rei pointed the tent across us. **“is for Computer Engineering.”** I laughed at what she said because I know she was just making fun of me. **“Oh, come on. You’re making me nervous.”** I told her. **HANA!!!!”** I look around to see who was calling me. **“Hana!”** And then, I saw Matt waving, sitting across our table. I read the letters stickered on their tent, ***Computer Engineering***. So, Rei was not kidding? I waved back and smiled at Matt. **“I told you.”** I heard Rei whispered. I looked at their tent again, and scanned the members there. I was hoping to see Alex. I widen my eyes a bit and saw a familiar clean cut hair. He was wearing glasses and busy typing on his laptop. I can’t see his face very well so I am not really sure if it was Alex. I stand up when someone passed in front of me. Nice timing, dude! **“Oh! I think we have a volunteer.”**  The emcee pointed at me. I saw everyone cheering. I looked at Rei, asking for some help but she just gave me a ***‘go girl’*** look. It was too late for me to back out. I am here standing in the stage, in front of these people, with a microphone on my right hand. **“Go HANA!”** Rei and her teammates were cheering for me. I saw Matt and he also waved at me. I guess I really have no choice but to end this very well and neat. I nodded at the guitarist as a sign of cue. I started singing the song of Taylor Swift, **Enchanted**. I started enjoying the song and waving in front of everyone. ***“I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew, I was enchanted to meet you..”*** As I ended the last lines in the song, I saw a pair of eyes hiding on its glasses, watching and staring at me. It was only his eyes that I saw, there were people standing around us. He was standing near the back side of the quadrangle. But, his eyes were the one that attracted my attention. My heart skipped again. This time, I knew it was him. **It was Alex.** To be continued. Summer (1) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-1-3f2db08a Summer (2) - https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-2-39f3ac25

@annyeongkleopatra 4 July 2020

Wala ng tayo. Sa bawat pagtitig kapalit ay kilig. Sa bawat salita kapalit ay saya. Iba ang nadarama lalo na pag lumapit ka. Iba ang ligaya lalo na pag kasama ka. Mga pangakong binitawan, pag-ibig na walang hanggan, maligayang pagsasamahan, salita mong pinaniwalaan. Ngunit bakit tila nagbago? Tila ba kay lupit ni tadhana Bakit pangako'y napako? Tila ba nawalan ng gana. Humingi ng sagot sa bawat tanong na hinuhugot. Humingi ng paliwanag ng pag-iisip ay lumiwanag. Anong nangyari? Hindi ba't masaya naman dati? Hindi ba't sabi mo'y tayo hanggang sa huli? Hindi ba't sabi mo'y hindi iiwan kahit na sandali? Gusto kong kumapit, ngunit hindi na kaya kahit pa sumabit. Gusto kong maniwala, na tayong dalawa ay magiging isa pa. Alam kong malabo na dahil alam kong maligaya ka na, dahil alam kong kuntento ka na, dahil alam kong tayo'y tapos na.

@annyeongkleopatra 3 July 2020

It's sweets time! Hi everyone! It's been awhile since I have posted and shared something like this. I already posted the coffee and ice cream flavors that will somehow suit your personality. Today, I decided to post something about desserts. I know we have sweet tooth. These were based on what I have researched just like the last times. I added some of description based on what I have understand. I hope you find the best dessert for you! Cakes Cake lovers are a great listeners. You also give good advices, but you are a bit of dramatic. You are sweet and charming and you please people easily. You are always ready to fix any problem thrown to you. You are a quite creative person. Cake lovers are achiever and competitive person. They are very goal-oriented and set things on plan. They are a good leader and decision makers. They are very dedicated and they want to get things done as soon as possible. They also enjoy challenges. People love them but they enjoy quality time by themselves. Ice Cream You value everyone around you. You have a fear of being out of place. You are also creative and very artistic. You are also outgoing and sometimes conservative. You are energetic and defined as a perfect team leader. You love being around with people and you easily get close with them. You are somehow an extrovert person. These are the type of persons who have friends anywhere they go and a very supportive friend in any tough situations. Ice cream lovers are also hardworking but it seems hard for them to manage the stress and pressure. They don't do very well when it comes to heated situations. Cupcakes Cupcake lovers are a social butterfly. They enjoy being with people. They can easily get close with them and fit with groups. You love making new friends. You somewhat enjoy attention. You are that type of person who is always invited to parties. Despite of this, you are very polite and respectful that is why people love you. You enjoy every moment in your life. You live everyday like it is your last. You are also creative and resourceful. You are very reliable. Cupcakes people are easy to call in any kind of rough situations. They are always ready to help. You can do multitasking, but you are also an organized and practical person. Pies These persons are very understanding and wise. They are also patient. You might be emotional sometimes, but you are logical most of the time. You are smart. People define you as a home buddy. You enjoy your time alone. You love quiet places, quiet evenings at home. You are very traditional. You always make a plan before doing what you want to be done. You stay with your plan as much as possible. You are a direct person. They say these persons are easy to work with. Pie lovers can easily say what exactly they need. They are also good in decision making and a can communicate really well. Doughnuts - You are defined as bubbly, sweet and charming. You are a ray of sunshine. You are very optimistic. You always think on the brighter side, no matter how rough the situation that you might encounter. You focus more on self-love. You love yourself and do not care on what others might think about you. You are very unique on your own. You somehow likes drinking coffee, and you find the good combination with a coffee and doughnuts with you. These type of persons are very practical and simple. Despite of being a wallflower, people still follow and love you. Cookies You are a loyal friend. You have a very warm spirit that can attract anyone and that makes people love you. You value freedom. You are also creative and playful. You stay open for some possibilities but still set boundaries for yourself. You enjoy classics! It seems like cookies and classic movies or songs are one of your favorite combinations. You are confident and strong. You are also a determined person and focuses more on your goals. You are a type of person who can be a team player. You can also adapt to changes easily. Frozen yogurt (Fro-yo) You are a trend-setter and you have a good taste when it comes to fashion. Some thinks you are boring, but you just find the comfort zone with few people around you. You might be a wall flower and do not want the center of attention, but you are calm and very true to yourself. You are also smart and interested to discover new things. Brownies You are quiet and friendly. You bring comfort to others. You are an also a risk-taker person. You love adventures. You enjoy hiking. You might love mountains and seas. You love new ideas and also open to new possibilities. You have a unique sense of humor and a very loyal person. Everyone thinks you have a warm and welcoming personality. People admire you for being delight and bubbly around. You value your alone time. You are an easy-going type and very independent person. You love spending your free time hanging out with your friends. Doughnuts You are defined as bubbly, sweet and charming. You are a ray of sunshine. You are very optimistic. You always think on the brighter side, no matter how rough the situation that you might encounter. You focus more on self-love. You love yourself and do not care on what others might think about you. You are very unique on your own. You somehow likes drinking coffee, and you find the good combination with a coffee and doughnuts with you. These type of persons are very practical and simple. Despite of being a wallflower, people still follow and love you. I intentionally put the most common desserts that we all know! I hope you read it and find the dessert that best suits you! Have fun reading! And you can also scan all of my works listed in my articles. Thank you so much! Please do support and I will do the same! Spread positivity!

@annyeongkleopatra 29 June 2020

Childhood. Childhood is one of the happiest moments that happened in everyone's life. It gives us many memories that we suddenly missed when we got older. It is the first stage, first process, the beginning of everything. Childhood is the learning stage. It develops you to become a good person as you age. It helps you identify things that are good and bad. It gives you knowledge about the behaviors and morals. It brings out your biggest talents that you tend to hide when you grow old. We do not worry too much when we are in childhood years. We just enjoy the things around us. We play everywhere, we eat anything. We love sweets, we laugh with our playmates. We have less responsibilities. And most importantly, people adore us more. But, maybe not all childhood is fun. There are some who experienced cruelty or had a bad accident or experiences during their childhood years which lead to trauma. And it somehow makes us feel sorry for them because we know it isn't their fault. It might be caused by the surroundings that they have grown up or maybe by someone who have hurt them. And that really leaves a mark, it leaves an impact to their childhood memories. And that make them want to forget everything they had in their childhood. There are also happy and loving moments in childhood. This is where you meet your puppy love. Do you remember the person that makes your heart skip? Do you remember the first person you had a crush with? Being with your crush really makes you feel happy and excited even with the thought of going to school, especially if you are classmates because you will meet again. Children are somehow excited going to school because they get excited to meet their friends. Childhood has less stress. Although, we sometimes have tantrums but most of the time we enjoy playing and laughing with anyone around us. We easily became close with others and befriended with them. We enjoy Christmas because we think it is the month of Santa Claus and the birth of Jesus Christ. Most of us go to church on Christmas. Children love christmas. There are decorations everywhere. There are presents and christmas carols too. Do you still remember the time when we hang our socks and waited for our gift from Santa? We were so innocent that we didn't notice our dads or moms waking up at midnight to put candies on our socks. Funny isn't it? I remember during my childhood years, I was a shy child. I don't have many friends since I rarely go outside. Then, someone from our neighborhood approached me and that is where we started to became friends. I was smaller than him and maybe that is why he always teased me. I went to preschool. It was a small center, the room was divided for two sections. One is for the kinder 1 and the other is for kinder 2. There are toys that we can play during break time or before our parents arrived after the class. It was really fun and I gained lots of friends there. I started joining activities and talent shows when there are presentations or events. I was so in love with school and studying back then. I don't know what happened today. Kidding aside. This is where I found my puppy love. We always play and I even share my snacks with him. I don't usually eat candies and likes biscuits rather than sweets. But, not today. We exchange letters like short messages since we only knew few words and we are not still expert in writing, we were still in the process of learning how to write. It was really fun to be with them. My parents showered me with more love and more care. I was not a spoiled kid, but I was too picky with foods. My parents guided me everyday, they help me understand the little things I didn't know. They never gets tired answering all of the "whys" questions out of curiosity. Childhood for me is really fun. It is memorable. Childhood memories really gives an impact to our lives up until now. There are times when we look back, we suddenly felt like we missed being child. These are the times when we are too stressed or too tired from all the works, we suddenly felt the feeling of just enjoying the things we want and not worrying anything or what will happen next. I promised to myself to give my future children the best memories in their childhood. I will make sure that they will truly enjoy everything in every steps in their lives. Care to share your memories and experiences during your childhood. Or maybe your favorite thing that happened when you were a child. I'm pretty sure it is also fun!

@annyeongkleopatra 25 June 2020

Summer (2) **NOTE: This is the Part two of my first story entitled Summer. This will serve as the continuation of what happened or what will happen with Alex and Hana. There will be a part three. Please support and share your encounter with your first love or your first meetup with your LDR sweethearts.** **Bear with my grammatical errors. I hope you enjoy reading. Please support my works! I do appreciate comments and suggestions. Thank you!** **“Hey, can you send me your copy of all of our requirements in every subject?”** It was around nine in the evening, Sunday, when I received a message from my friend, Rei. We just finished our first week for this semester and the professors gave as tons of requirements including the books that they assigned us to buy. Luckily, I work for summer jobs so I can buy them from my own money. I immediately get my small notebook where I wrote all the requirements, took a photo of it and sent it to Rei. It was just first week of the semester yet I somehow feel tired already with all the notes and the topics that our professor discussed. I need to make myself busy so I can get good grades. I am in my last year in college and I really need to ace this semester even quite a bit. I need to make myself busy, to distract myself. It’s been almost 3 months, and that ‘Alex’ incident’ still feels like yesterday. I feel guilty for using him. And I think karma hits me, last month I started looking for Alex. My friends will scold me for being like this because I know it is my fault. But, I’m sorry maybe I really used him for my own recovery not considering how great person Alex is. I want him back. I miss him so much. And right now, I’m really sure that this feeling is genuine and real. But, how can I get him back? He deactivated the account where we used to talk to. We don’t share our phone numbers. We lost our contact after the incident, and I won’t blame him, I hurt him so much. The next morning, I arrived at the university earlier than usual. There were organization booths in the quadrangle. I was too busy on choosing what org should I join beside my accounting org when Rei tapped me on my shoulder and asked me to grab some breakfast. **“Please, Hana. I woke up early today and still in hurry to fix something in my org. I didn’t eat breakfast today.”** We decided to eat breakfast in Jollibee near the university. I ordered two pancakes and a coffee since I don’t really eat rice in the morning. Rei ordered the breakfast meal which is rice with egg and sausage plus her all-time favorite pineapple juice. Rei is one of the officers of her dance organization. That is why she is so busy today and maybe for the whole 3 days. After eating, we go back to the university. I headed upstairs and went inside our classroom. There were few professors, maybe some of them are still on vacation or were busy trying to help their students in org stuffs. I put my earphones and play my exo playlist. I cross my arms on the desk and lay my head on it using my arms as my pillow. I woke up early and I still feel sleepy so I decided to take a nap. I heard a few voices behind me. Maybe those are guys who are not in this section since their voice was kind of unfamiliar for me. I fell asleep a little and woke up from their laughter. I was quite doubting or maybe I’m being paranoid because I somehow think they were making fun of me. I automatically stood up after hearing one their names. **“Come on, Alex!”** But I was too late. I turned around and all I saw was the door closing. Okay, I know there are too many Alex in this world. Is it wrong for me to hope that it was him? The day went fast and the org booths were nowhere to be seen in the quadrangle anymore. Today is Friday again and it’s raining so hard. I don’t know if there will be typhoon or there is or what. I’m not quite updated. Rei will be staying on my dorm for tonight until Sunday so I decided to meet her in their building. Rei is a psychology student. She texted me that their professor changed their room near the engineering department, so I fix my things and went there. **“Oh my gosh, sis! I really have lots of books to buy. I haven’t even buy supplies for myself.”** I laughed as I saw her meme face again. **“Let’s go home first, I feel hungry from waiting for you.”** We decided to ride the train since it was quite late. Luckily, there were few people in the station and even inside the train and we did get a chance to sit. **“Shall we just order for our dinner?”** I asked Rei as we entered my unit. We listed our order and Rei volunteered to call KFC. After around 30-40 minutes, our food arrived. I placed my small table in front of the television so we can eat while watching. We finished eating and taking our showers at around 10:45. Rei is already sleeping next to me, she might be exhausted today. I grabbed my phone and tried to search for Alex facebook account AGAIN. Okay, call me desperate or what. But, I really want him back. I like him so much. The next day, we decided to go to the mall to buy some of the supplies that Rei and I needed. We first entered the bookstore and bought papers, some pens and highlighters. Then, we decided to shop for some clothes too. **“I’m thinking to buy my books in Recto. Our professor advised us to a known store and brings our school IDs so we can avail the discount. Do you want to come with me later?”** I asked Rei before I sip on my pineapple juice. We are taking our lunch in McDonalds right now because Rei was craving for chicken fillets and nuggets. **“I’m not sure. I need to meet my org mates later to give my files.”** Rei continues to eat. **“But, don’t worry. I promise to bring dinner for us.”** Since I will be buying books later, Rei volunteered to drive me to Recto but I told her that I can commute. So she insisted to bring my stuffs to my unit since she will go back there before meeting her mates. I took the train and texted Rei that I was on my way. As I reached my station, I decided to walk from here to Recto since it is quite near. I hold the strap of my bag and get my small notebook where I wrote the address of the bookstore including the required books and its details. As I have found the store, I go to one of the female vendors and handed her my list and my school ID. She scanned my list of books and searched it to their shelves. I checked the time on my watch, ***5:15 PM***. It was quite late and the sky seems a bit dark. I was hoping that it will not rain, I have no umbrella with me plus my books will really get wet. I paid and hurriedly run back to the station hoping I could go home safely. There were already raindrops and it will surely rain heavily. I sit beside the guy as I wait for a train. I didn’t expect that the trains are full today; there were many people in the station maybe they also panicked and decided to take the train. It was raining so hard and the wind is quite strong causes the raindrops to splatter inside the station. I grabbed a small towel from my bag to wipe myself. The guy beside me is also wet, I decided to give him a tissue. *‘Doroteo Jose Station’* The empty train stops in our station. People started running towards the doors of the train so they can immediately find a seat as they enter. The guy beside me stood up and headed toward the train. I was about to stand when I saw a school ID on the floor, same as mine. I picked it up thinking the guy dropped it, I tried to run to the door of the train hoping I can catch him, but the doors are already closed and the train started moving. The moment I look for the school ID information, my heart skipped AGAIN. It was the feeling I felt the moment I heard his name again. ***Jace Alexis Ramirez.*** It was cold. The sky is still dark. The rain is falling heavily. It was him. The guy sitting beside me for almost an hour, it was him. Maybe the rain isn’t always for heartbreaks or for sad endings. Maybe the rain is a continuation or the starting process for everything, for me, or for us.    End. If you want to read Summer, here is the link: https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-1-3f2db08a https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-1-3f2db08a#comments Thank you!

@annyeongkleopatra 25 June 2020

Second Option Naaalala mo pa ba noong mga panahong nagliligawan pa lang tayo? Noong mga panahong nasa akin pa ang buong atensyon mo? Noong panahong ako pa ang hinahanap hanap mo? Noong panahong madalas ako ang inuuna mo? Noong panahong palaging ako ang nasa isipan mo? Naaalala mo pa ba noong mga panahong kinikilig ka pa sa mga sinasabi ko? Noong mga panahong todo alaga ka sa akin? Noong mga panahong kapag may sakit ako, kulang nalang palipadin mo ang jeep na sinasakyan mo makarating lang sakin at bantayan ako? Naaalala mo pa ba noong mga panahong halos hindi na tayo matulog dahil mula umaga hanggang gabi, tayong dalawa ay magkausap? Noong mga panahong nagtampo ka at kinantahan kita sa harap ng maraming tao? Noong mga panahong dinala kita sa bahay namin para ipakilala sa mga magulang ko? Kabado ka pa noon na halos minu-minuto mong inaayos ang buhok mo, na halos ilang tanong na ang nasambit mo kung papasa ka ba sa kanila. Naaalala mo pa ba noong nagtatampo ako? Hindi mo hinahayaang matulog tayo ng hindi nagkakaayos? Noong kahit wala namang espesyal na okasyon binibigyan mo ako ng samu't saring sorpresa? Noong mga panahong pinagsasabihan mo ako kapag maiksi o manipis ang suot ko at hindi kita kasama sa pupuntahan ko? Noong mga panahong ipinakilala mo na din ako sa pamilya mo? Noong mga panahong halos araw araw kang tumatawag dahil namimiss na kamo ako ng mama mo? Noong mga panahong nagcelebrate tayo ng isang taon natin? Nakakamiss na din pala. Ang tagal na. Pero ang sakit pa ding alalahanin. Ang sakit malaman na dati rati ako pa.. Na dati rati nasa akin ka pa.. Na dati rati yung atensyon mo nasa akin pa.. Na dati rati ako lang yung inaalala mo.. Na dati rati sa akin mo lang ginagawa ang lahat ng ito.. Akala ko kasi kuntento ka na. Akala ko okay na ang lahat sa atin. Akala ko nabigay ko na lahat sayo. Akala ko sobrang saya na natin na parang wala ng katapusan pa. Akala ko ako lang talaga. Akala ko nasa akin ka pa kaya patuloy akong kumakapit sa iyo. Akala ko wala ka talagang iba. Pero sino siya? Ang sakit naman. Pwede bang hinay hinay lang naman? Second na nga lang ako sayo, ginawa mo pa akong option mo. Saan na ba talaga ako lulugar? Sino na ba talaga? Ako pa ba talaga? Ano na ba talaga? Ang hirap kasi na nagaabang na lang ako parati sa mga texts, chats, tawag o sa bisita mo na nakasanayan ko na. Sa mga bati mo tuwing umaga, sa mga pangungumusta sa tanghali, sa pagpapaalala mo na wag magpapagutom sa hapon at sa mga matatamis mong salita bago ako matulog. Nakakamiss maramdaman na ako yung una. Na ako lang ang iniisip mo sa tuwina.. Na ako lang talaga.. Nakakamiss yung dating tayo pa. Yung kahit na hindi ako perpekto, ako pa din kamo ang mo. Na hindi mo ko iiwanan o ipagpapalit kahit kanino. Na hindi ka titingin sa iba para lang mapunan ang pagkukulang ko. Pero anong nangyari? Anong nangyari sayo? Sa atin? Bakit biglang naglaho lahat at nagbago na ng tuluyan? Pwede bang ako na lang ulit? Pwede bang tayo na lang ulit? Pwede bang ibalik natin ang lahat sa simula? Sa dating mayroon tayo? Nakakapagod din pala kasi. Yung ginagawa mo ang lahat para lumaban pero yung ipinaglalaban mo unti unti ng bumibitaw sa mga yakap mo. Hindi ko na alam kung may karapatan pa ba ako sa iyo. Babalik ka pa ba? Pwede bang sabihin mo kung babalik ka pa ba sa akin? Para naman malaman ko kung maghihintay pa ba ako. Ang hirap na kasi. Ang hirap na pala. Na parating ako na lang ang pangalawa. End.

@annyeongkleopatra 22 June 2020

At Eighteen Some says eighteen is the first stage of adulthood. It is the legal age of everyone. In some countries, the legal age depends on their genders. Eighteen is the legal age of girls while twenty-one is for the boys. But, let's be honest here. Most of us gets somehow excited when we reach the age of eighteen because it makes us think that we can go anywhere and we can do anything. Though, it also makes us feel scared because there will be more complications that we might face as a young adults. There will be more responsibilities, and they need to be extra careful. As you reach the age of eighteen, it is a must to celebrate it. It may be simple or elegant. Those who are lucky to have enough money throw parties. They have these 18 roses, 18 gifts, 18 candles. There were 18 guys who will dance with the debutant and then they will give a red rose before or after the dance. There are 18 wishes for the celebrant. There are some debutants who prepare to celebrate their eighteen with their friends or by traveling with their families. Some of them will go to bars and experience the life of being eighteen, they drink and dance with their friends or special someone. Some will travel abroad or in some places that they wish to visit. Eighteen is really fun but thrilling somehow. You will meet more new faces, new personalities. You will face new opportunities, new challenges. You will learn to decide on your own, to know more about what is wrong and the right to do. There might be more hindrance to achieve your dreams. You start building goals for your future. You will practice independency. And maybe there are eighteen who move out from their parents' house to live by themselves, to find their own part time jobs so they can save up money for themselves because somehow their responsibilities change. They think more advanced than they were. They will think more than twice before they do anything they want. They might be legal for doing anything, for going everywhere. They can drive freely, walk inside the bars freely, drink with friends freely. But everything has consequences and limitations, and that is the reason that being eighteen needs to be extra careful. Let us set aside first those, why don't we talk about our first love when we were eighteen? Have you still remember the moment when puppy loves are over for you? When you suddenly bumped to someone and then you felt like you want to know more about them? When you first held hands in front of everyone freely and not caring about what will happen next? When you stay up late at night for midnight calls? When you start imagining things for the future of the both of you? Eighteen is legality. And maybe the legality of everyone's relationships. In other countries or past generations, parents allow their children to enter a relationship when they reach the age of eighteen. And it felt so great to finally introduce your loved ones to your family. It feels blissful to have their bless for your relationship. No more sneaking for dates, no more lies to tell to your parents when you want to meet your special one. Because, now, your relationship is legal. But, eighteen is also an upside down cycle. Some might experience their first heartbreak at eighteen. And it was so painful. Imagine, you build too much for the both of you because you believe you are destined for the future. First heartbreak. It might have hurt you so much, but I'm sure it will left a big lesson in your life. There will also disappointments and failures that you might encounter. As you grow older, your opportunities will grow. The more opportunities you have, the more responsibilities you need to take care of. For me, having more responsibilities might give you lots of disappointments as you might not finish the things that you want to be done immediately. There might be different circumstances in every stages of an individual's life. But somehow, you build memories when you were eighteen. You became happy, or maybe sad. You might be full of joy, or very tired. It might be exciting, but challenging. Still, be thankful for experiencing what you have experienced because somehow they gave lesson in your life. They made you become more stronger and matured. Don't worry too much. Have fun while working hard to reach your goals. Enjoy every stages of your life because honestly life is too short.

@annyeongkleopatra 19 June 2020

Brave. It is an adjective word that describe the mental or moral strength of an individual. Courage. Being ready to face any hindrance or danger. Ready to fight in every instance. This word is mostly used in heroic poetry or tales. You may find a person as a brave person if he fights really well or maybe if he make goods against the bad. But, what does really brave means? Does it always have to be fighting against everything? Or letting go of something special may also make you brave? What do you think when you heard the word brave? Does it make you feel stronger and happy? Or feeling the pain but standing still is also being brave? For children, maybe not being scared with insects or ghost stories makes them brave because they somehow think they are stronger than those. For some people, when you speak yourself in front of everyone despite of too many judgments that you might hear from them will make you brave for having a confidence to open up yourself. There might be some who believes that bravery means being fearless. But, being brave or having a great courage does not always mean you don't fear anything. People who are brave can also feel the fear, they can also hide from everything. They can also let go anything even if it will hurt them even more. They are selfless. They protect others rather than themselves. Bravery does not always define yourself, sometimes giving up for other's sake will make you brave. Because giving up something is really hard for anyone. It isn't like a trash that can be thrown easily nor a glass that are vulnerable to be broken. Brave people also cry. They are not always standing by themselves, shouting their bravery just like in movies or books. They can also feel hurt. But, some doesn't notice it. Because brave people hid themselves when they cry. Instead, they will stand and smile with everyone even if they feel hurt. Even if it breaks them apart. They will always be thoughtful and caring to everyone. They will not let you feel the sadness that they felt. They will handle all the emotions by themselves. Still, brave people are also a normal people. They can also be full of emotions that can explode anytime. They also need someone by their side because people are not always brave to carry everything. So, let us not take too much advantage to anyone because we may not know their real stories, we may not know what they can feel with our actions. Respect and show more love and care to everyone!

@annyeongkleopatra 18 June 2020

Flavor your ice cream Last time, I have posted about the types of coffee and its corresponding personalities. I did not expected that many of the viewers will like it, so I decided to make again a research about the flavors of ice cream that might suit you. Here are some of the popular flavors around the world: ****Vanilla**** – You like basics. You are more of a minimalist person. These kinds of persons said to be impulsive. They don`t get stressed easily and just do anything that makes them happy. They love living their life in the moment.  You are also idealistic and a risk-taker. You like things to be simple and very straightforward. You do not feel the need to change things even if there is something that is way better. You are a confident person. Some might call you boring, but you are a person with a sense of humor. In terms of love, vanilla lovers are said to be a loyal one. Vanilla lovers are compatible with strawberry ice cream lovers and rocky road fans. ****Chocolate**** – You are a charming kind of person and you are somehow flirty.  You are always open for new ideas and opportunities. You like cozy and warm places. You are smart and gullible and you are pleased by everyone. You are also adventurous. Chocolate lovers are a passionate person. You are dramatic too.  But, you are very good at talking even in opposite sex. You might be a little popular because of your personalities. You are also committed and a responsible person in every aspect. ****Coffee**** – You are more dramatic but lively. Coffee lovers are said to be an introvert person. They prefer and love being by themselves.  Still, you are a bubbly person. They often find themselves overcommitted. You like starting new things leaving the unfinished projects halfway done. These kinds of persons are tenacious. You have a strong personality but sometimes impatient. Coffee lovers are compatible with strawberry ice cream lovers. ****Cookies and Cream**** – You may be an adult but you are still a kid at heart. You are an exciting person. You are also said to be a social butterfly, you’re a kind of person that knows everyone. You do like partying with friends after a very tough day. You love parties. You have a sense of humor. But, you are not a very loud person. You are also resourceful.  You are a smart person that loves reading. You may not be a trendsetter, but you are always cool in every circumstance. In terms of love, you enjoy to have a learn and grow relationship with your partner. You are also a patient kind of a partner. ****Strawberry**** – You are very energetic and loyal kind of friend. Strawberry lovers are somewhat introverts. Despite of being a wallflower, you have a lively spirit that attracts anyone and everyone needs a friend like you. You have a good tolerance and a very understanding person. You might be known as a happy-go-lucky type of a person, but you are very thoughtful. You are calm to approach new things. You are also said to be loyal person in relationships. You have a positive attitude that can influence your partner. ****Rocky Road**** – You are an aggressive person but a good listener. They are very determined and a goal-oriented person. But, their aggressiveness could sometimes hurt anyone’s feelings. They are not afraid for new challenges, a risk-taker and a competitive one. They easily became impatient when things don’t go well with what they want to be with it. It is said that these kinds of persons are very sensitive. But, they are also charming. You are very adventurous and have a curious spirit. You are also creative that you want to spice up simple things. Rocky road lovers are most compatible with another rocky road fans. Note: This article was based on some of my research and summarized it to share with you guys! Drop your comments if you find your favorite ice cream flavor here. You may also suggest and share your favorite ice cream flavor. Thank you for reading!

@annyeongkleopatra 18 June 2020

Moon. Two different worlds. Two different sides. Lightness. Darkness. Just like the clear water and oil, it will never be combined. Hearts filled with anger. Minds blown by whisper. Two individuals were forcely separated. War everywhere. Disaster here and there. Longing was felt. Hoping was still there. When will it be? When will we be? Will the full moon can tell? Despite of the bruises that she had, Aine still managed to run, trying to escape and find her loved ones, Chandra. "CHANDRA!!!" She gritted her teeth as she feels the painfulness of her wounds. A loud explosion was heard, the ground shakes. She starts to panick. She needs to find Chandra and fight his mother, Hekate. Chandra's family is the greatest rival of Aine's family which makes them to disapprove the relationship of the two. She reached the end of the forest, not knowing where to go, she sat down gasping and trying to manage her emotions. She closed her eyes, reminiscing the memories of her with Chandra. Seeing how perfect they're relationship was, how happy she was, how happy he was. "What happened to us? When will this end?" With that Aine's tears started to fall. Lately, the tears became a cry. A loud cry that she wished can clear those heartaches that their family gave. "AINE!!!" She wipes her tears and looks around. She certainly knows it was Chandra. "CHANDRA!!!" She shouted back waiting for an answer from her beloved. "Where are you?!!!!" "Where do you think you're going?" A shadow behind the hallowed, long, old tree appears. Hekate smiles as her eyes turned to red. Aine looked around and saw a lot of guards are here. "Where is Chandra?! Where is he?!" Aine run towards Hekate, preparing herself to slap Hekate's face, but a tight invisible rope starts wrapping her hands. "Enough with that, Mama!" With that, Aine looked up and saw Chandra at the top of the tree. He jumps and landed in front of her mother. "Stay away from her, son! She's an enemy!" Hekate shouted and uses her power to move Chandra away from Aine. Hekate starts swinging her hands, forming a whirl and a thunder. Aine saw Chandra's alertness eyes. She tried to stop him by shaking her head with her teary eyed focus on him. She closed her eyes waiting for Hekate's attack. But was surprised that she felt nothing, until she realized that a muscular arms is hugging her body tightly. And with that, tears starts to fall again. "NOOOOOOO! No please, Chandra wake up. No please no. I love you, I love you. Wake up please." With an anger and vengeance on Aine's face, she rushed to Hekate not planning what attack to do. Her heart is filled with anger that she only wants to kill Hekate. "You deserve to die, wicked!" Aine gained her strength and throw her left power to Hekate. Hekate isn't surprised to Aine, she knows she can forfeit Aine. She uses her powers and throws Aine like a paper. Blood flows through Aine's face. "I'm sorry my dear. You left me with no choice." Hekate left not knowing that Aine is still breathing. Aine touches Chandra's face. "I wish I could protect you. I'm useless. I'm sorry. This is all my fault." She can't stop crying and blaming herself. "Without you, I can't see what my life would be." Aine starts gasping for air. She feels the tightening of her veins, her eyes turns to violet as her eyesight becomes blurry. She tried her best to move her hand to Chandra's hand. She looked up in the sky seeing a zillions of stars shining beautifully, and the full moon covered by a foggy cloud. "I love you, Chandra. Till death do us part." She slowly closed her and let her soul meets Chandra, and fly together to the moon.

@annyeongkleopatra 17 June 2020

An open letter To the guy who never treated me as his priority, I love you and I really do. I have been adjusting for you all the time. I keep waiting for you to make a move, to talk with me again like the old days, like the old times like there is no other surrounding us. I would like to feel how special I am to you... again. How you love me like you really do. I have been waiting for you to ask about me, to ask about how was my day, to be more interested to me day by day. I understand how busy you are, and maybe it is hard for you to find a little extra time for me. I'm sorry for demanding so much. But, I could not help to look for you, to linger from your sweet cheesy and corny words. I missed those times when we first talked on chat, when we teased each other like we're more than friends, when we talk until midnight like there is no tomorrow, when we laugh and cuss like crazy. I miss those nights when I hug my pillow so tight because of your cheesiness. I miss those nights when I almost fell asleep with a smile on my face, when I will have to wish more time to talk with you. I might be needy in your eyes or irritating. Or maybe you will think that I'm really obsessed with you. I'm sorry for seeking for your attention, for asking for your free time, for being too clingy sometimes, for always looking for you, and for teasing you most of the time. I'm sorry for missing you and loving you this much. It is really hard for me to adjust everyday. To wait until you noticed me again. To always open my account just to check if you are online. I never even have your phone number because I was afraid you'll turn me down. To always be the one to chat you first. I'm sick for those times when you will only be sweet or will only appreciate me for two nights just because you have made a mistake and after that you will disappear again. I need you. I need someone to share my day with. I need someone to talk about my problems with. I'm sorry if sometimes I might look immature or childish with my actions, with the way I act just to make you jealous. But, I swear to you that you are the only one. And I couldn't find a way for you to notice me, and maybe that's the reason why I made up those. Because I want some attention from you. I hope someday you will realize how worthy and valuable I am. I hope someday you will realize that you should have spend more time with me. Because sometimes when I am alone, I somehow feel tired with what is going on around me. And, I hope giving up won't cross my mind. So that, there will still a girl who will hold onto you despite of not giving her the love she deserve. From the girl seeking for you... always End.

@annyeongkleopatra 17 June 2020

Friends. My friends are my second home. They're my brothers, my sisters. And I feel so comfortable around them. My friends never failed to support each other and to lift each others sides. They never make you feel alone despite of all the spaces between us. Friends are like diamonds and pearls in our life. They may be hard to find, but they are worthy to be by your side. They can be real or they can be fake. Friends aren't all the same. Some may treat you good and some may even backstabbed you. Real friends will never hesitate to help you. They will always be there to lighten up your mood. They will listen to all your rants and jokes, and even goof around with you. Real friends can be really trusted. They keep your secrets very carefully. They will never betray you. They will help you to survive from all your problems. They will be your diary and a pillow that can cry onto. These kind of friends will start dreaming with you. They will help you achieve your both goals in life. They will always walk beside you in every path you take. And you won't feel the heat of competition in every tasks you made. Friendship isn't about the numbers nor the amount of time you've known each other. Friendship is about whom you can find happiness when you're with them. It's about trust and honesty. Real friends are very rare. So, if you find your true friends right now, take care of them. Appreciate them more, and tell them how important they are in your life. End.

@annyeongkleopatra 16 June 2020

Tips on how to handle Long Distance Relationship Long distance relationship is quite hard especially to those couples who are on their starting line. Many people would disagree with LDR, for sometimes they don't work. And many obstacle will ruin your relationship. So here I am, sharing some tips which I have collected from some research on how to make your LDR alive and how to make it work. Prioritize talking with each other but don't talk too much. Somehow, it really feels good when you miss each other too. It is fine if you prioritize each other but don't be too much, you have your own life too. But always make sure to find time to talk with your partner. Set goals. It feels good sharing each others dreams and feels better when you both start achieving each goals together. Be honest with your partner. When you are in a LDR, it is easy to hide something from your partner, yet it is unhealthy for your relationship. Since both of you are far from each other, it is better to be more honest with each other. Listen to each other. This is one of the most important to do list. Always be the shoulder to lean on to your love ones, especially when they are on their darkest side. Even if you are LDR, make him/her feel that you are always there through listening to all of his/her words. Be more creative with your topics. Find new things to talk about. Not just, "hey how are you?" And then it will end up by "i'm fine" and "okay." Try something new, not just asking about how did their day went on. Ask about news or about the movie you have watched or about your new professor or how it irritates you when your friends teased you or whatsoever. Trust. Without this, a simple problem might end your relationship. It is hard to commit in a LDR, since both of you don't meet always, and you only talk through social media or video chats. Sometimes you'll be afraid for what ifs that would definitely cross your mind. Like "what if someone courts her?", "what if someone likes him?", "what if someone would take him/her away from me?". Jealousy is normal but don't be too much paranoid. Trust your partner. But make it sure that he is sincerely in love with you. You know him/her better. Make him/her heart flutters. Cheesy lines might be too old fashioned but it really makes them feel the butterflies on their stomach or make their heart beats badump badump. Cheesy lines may wash away your partners sadness or tiredness. Compliment him/her, randomly tell him/her how much you love him/her. Always make him/her feel special. Actions speak louder than words. Though it is through LDR, you can use sentences to make him/her feel special. Through delivery of gifts or make an effort like even if you're too busy you would give time to talk with him/her before sleeping. There may be other opinions or advices and I am willing to read yours in the comment box. Share some of your LDR experiences with me!!!

@annyeongkleopatra 16 June 2020

Coffee, You and Me. Coffee has been with us every morning, even in afternoon or sometimes in night. Mostly, people prefer to drink coffee in the morning to awaken their sleepy heads or maybe it freshens up their day. Today, I decided to do a research about the types of coffee and its corresponding personalities and characteristics of an individual. I will be listing some of the most known type of a coffee. Here it goes: ·        **Cappuccino** – You are a type of person who is sophisticated. You like classy things. You might be a bit of obsessive and sometimes want to be the one controlling. You are sociable and creative but you can easily be bored. Still, you enjoy spending you free times hanging out with your friends. You are an optimistic type but can be a bit of sensitive. You are an honest person and very goal-oriented, you are a bit strict in every activity you take.   ·        **Espresso** – You are bold and you have a strong personality. You don`t hesitate to speak up, you are quick and get straight to the point. You are a hardworking person and you have a leadership characteristic. But, you are a moody person, you want to get the things that you want as fast as you can. You’re quite a busy person but a pro when it comes to efficiency. You can always find a way to make your tasks done even with a few supplies or tools.   ·        **Latte** – You enjoy the simple comforts of life. Latte persons were like a comfort seekers, they are somewhat dependable. You like being on team rather than calling it a shot for yourself. You have big hands, you are one call away for someone who needs help. You are realistic and overextended, but indecisive and pessimist. You are bad at making decisions and you are not confident. You have a hard time taking care for yourself.   ·        **Americano** – You are a calm person. You always think first before you decide and do anything. You are an outgoing person and very sociable, you please the people around you. You love to aim high, and you have high goals in life. You love trying new things. You are also responsible and a trustworthy person. You are unpredictable but a bit of a moody type person.   ·        **Black Coffee** – You are a straightforward person. You always want direct to the point questions and answers. You’re a bit of old school or maybe like old school things like clothing. You are pure and you prefer things to be simple but, somewhat detail-oriented. Most of the people who love drinking black coffee have a very determined personality but controlling and a bit of obsessive. Despite of being more of a moody one, you are an extrovert type of a person. You are very accommodating and a ready to help person. These type of persons love challenges and somehow competitive.   ·        **Mocha** – You are a very creative person; you were never easily satisfied so you always want something more new. You have a touch of sophistication and bold. Mocha type of person is perfectionist and trendsetters. You are a warm person and very likable by everyone. You are also bubbly and really friendly to anyone. You are an optimistic one. You are extremely sweet and a funny person.   ·        **Macchiato** – Unlike in mocha, these types of persons are very conservative that they limit their self to try something new. You like keeping things as simple as possible. You are a serious and stable type of a person but you give good advices. You have a perfectionist personality. You like things to be tidy and organize. You like things in order that you somehow make your to-do list and check if everything`s done pretty well. You enjoy taking risk and just like living your life to the fullest.   ·        **Affogato**  – You are a playful person and always ready for good times. You are not a morning person. You are more of a person who stays late at night, a night owl. You are a funny and loving person but you like doing things on your own. You are friendly and very helpful. You’re always ready for dares. You are a very supportive person. But, you may be quite an eccentric type of a person.     ·        **Frappuccino** –You are a warmhearted person and very optimistic. You always give positive thoughts. You are very friendly and bubbly. You are also a trendsetter and a creative type of a person. You are sweet and cute. You are also outgoing, you somehow refreshes your night dancing or spending your night with your friends in a club. These kind of persons are less controlling.   End.

@annyeongkleopatra 15 June 2020

You are enough. Your eyes were like stars in the sky, they're shining brightly and I was so high. Your stares that really drowns me more into you. Your smile, so addicting and can catch anyone's attention even mine. Your loving arms that could hug the whole world of mine. Your soft kiss that relaxes my bones overtime. Your presence that I always want for a longer time. You are lovely, caring and thoughtful all the time. You love cuddles and teasing and I couldn't help myself not to laugh when I am with you. You are always I am looking for. You are a perfect match for me, my buddy, my love of my life. You are so gorgeous. You are my yellow, my happiness. You look at me as if I was your favorite flower. And I am so grateful, so blessed to have someone like you in my life. I am so happy that you never chose anybody else despite of those pretty girls around us. I never thought I would be so happy like this. You have never left my side. You pull me up, and hold my hand so tight so I can never let go. You always widen your understanding when I was hiding in my pride. You are always patient for everytime I am late. You became my sunshine in every darkest world. You became the warm in every coldest places. You became my sun in every rainy days. You became my band-aid in every scars I made. And everyday, I never stop loving you. Everyday, I always fall for you like it was the first time falling in love so much. Everyday, I miss you. I miss you so much that I even cry every night. I just want to be with you more than forever. I just want you for all of my life. Because you are enough. You are more than enough and I couldn't ask for more.

@annyeongkleopatra 15 June 2020

Escape. Once in awhile, I feel sad and alone. Nobody knows what I'm feeling. Nobody knows what I'm thinking. No one knows that I'm crying. No one knows that I'm trying. And sometimes, it aches so much that I want to break. It hurts so much that I want to end everything. How can I escape? Please, take my pain away.