Tips on how to pass your exams
It is very important to know how to budget your time especially when you have so many topics to review. Reviewing ahead or at least a week before your exam is better.
You may also make your own schedule everyday on what subjects or topics you are going to review on each day. I tried doing a schedule wherein I allot 1 to 2 hours in every subject but it isn't effective for me. So, instead, I decided to just write the subjects and topics that I can surely finish on that specific day.
Get a piece of paper and write some important informations in your lectures and start reading it everyday. The notes will remain in your mind. Or you can record yourself while reading and try listening to it with your headphones anywhere you go. Some might be easy for them when listening to it. Imagine yourself listening to a music.
There are some students who prefer studying at night or in morning. It depends on how you can concentrate and focus more. Avoid using your gadgets when you are reviewing, it will truly distract you so much.
Think of people or things that inspires you or have yourself a goal like for example, 'if i pass this test, i will surely buy tickets for this concert', which might really encourage you.
Do not stay up at night so late, you might forget some of information that you have read or reviewed. Try searching your topics on internet to add more informations about it.
And lastly, imagine yourself passing the exam. Pray. Always pray. It really works. Goodluck!!!
Ps. This was only based on my experiences and opinions. For those who are somewhat on the phase of struggling on their studies, you can try some of my tips maybe it will fit yours. Thank you! Goodluck and Godbless!
Beauty.
Most of the people defines beauty through its physical appearance. Some tend to imitate someone's or any of their favorite artists' features like faces, body shapes, etc. There are some who are willing to spend or even loan thousands and millions to have a perfect face, to look like their favorite model or their favorite artists. They experiment different cosmetics to achieve the beauty they want to have. But, cosmetics isn't bad to anyone as long as it will match yourself.
But what is your standard when you heard real beauty? Is it still the physical appearance of a human being? Is it the perfect body shape? For me, I think kindness defines the real beauty. You may not be as flawless or as sexy as anyone, but being kind will help you develop yourself even more. It leaves a good impression to anyone. Sharing and caring are examples of the characteristics of kindness.
Some might be beautiful outside, but different inside. Isn't it more important to have good intentions rather than perfect shape, perfect face? We all can be pretty in our own ways, in our own standard. So for all who are telling how unpretty you are, ignore them. And tell yourself everyday how beautiful and great person you are. Everyone is beautiful, always remember that! You don't need to imitate someone's or change some features on your face unless it is advisable by professionals. You just have to accept and appreciate yourself. Society might discourage you, but don't bother too much. Instead, chin up and bring out your best smile. Oh, smile will make you look brighter and glowing! So, love yourself even more, remember you will always be perfectly beautiful inside and out! You are pretty and a wonderful person!
My Top 10 Korean Dramas
This is a part of suggestion to anyone who loves watching korean dramas and for newbies who wants to try watching kdramas. Some maybe old, some maybe new. This will be based on my very own interest depending on their genres. I hope you like it!
1. Scarlet Heart Ryeo (2016)
ㅡ This was the first ever historical korean drama that I have watched. I never liked historical genre, I don't know why, maybe it sounds a bit boring to me back then. Anyway, the reason why I watched this is because of EXO's Byun Baekhyun and IU. The story talks about the girl who was transported back in Goryeo Dynasty. She wakes up to another body owned by Lady Hae Soo and was part of the princes of Wang family. Then, she got romantically involved to the princes and became also involved for the princes fight for the throne. The story produced a romance with a twist of drama and sacrifices.
2. Tunnel (2017)
ㅡ This is one of my favorites crimes and thriller genre korean drama. This talks about a detective who time travels whenever he runs with the killer through the tunnel. Detective Park Kwangho who was a detective in 1986 was investigating about the serial killings happening in their town. The killer was targeting women and leaving a strange dot marks on their ankles. He then stumbles with the suspect inside the tunnel and lost his consciousness. When he woke up, he realizes that he has time traveled 30 years forward. He tried everything to go back to his past to solve the mysterious incidents, but didn't succeed. Then, same thing happens in the current year which leads to Detective Kwangho to stay. This drama is really thrilling and mind-blowing. It will test your detective skills too.
3. Reply series: 1994, 1997, 1988
ㅡ To make this short, it does not only contain romance. It talks about the lifestyle and family of ordinary people. This will give you more inspirational motivations and ideas. Also, they will give you ideas about what happened during those years in South Korea. This is a must watch korean drama for me!
4. The world of the married (2020)
ㅡ This made a big success to South Korea and also internationally. This talks about the marriage of middle class couples. It was also said to be adopted from the BBC series: Doctor Foster. It tells about the husband having an affair with the daughter of well-known and wealthiest business man in their town. Every episode is very satisfying and it makes you want to watch more episodes as soon as it was released.
5. Hwayugi (2017 - 2018)
ㅡ Yes, Lee Seung Gi was the main actor in this drama and that's the first reason why I also watched this. For those who like rom-com fantasy genre, this is one of the great suggestion. This talks about the girl being bullied because of her ability to see ghosts. As she gets older, she Ogong who was known as the "monkey king". Ogong later found out about her abilities and they agreed to free Ogong from his prison. This is a bit scary because of the ghosts but you will surely enjoy this one!
6. Hi, bye Mama (2020)
ㅡ If you want something heartbreaking drama that talks about the love of the mother to her child, this is a great suggestion for you. This drama focuses more about friendship, love and family. It was about the mother died during her pregnancy because of a car accident, her husband was a doctor and remarried a girl who was their schoolmate after the incident. The baby survived and the mother follows her child everywhere as she became a ghost. The mother was willing to do everything to be with her daughter again, so the shaman gave her a chance by giving her a mission. I suggested this drama to my mom who was not really watching any korean dramas and to my surprised she liked this one.
7. Welcome to Waikiki (2018)
ㅡ This korean drama will give you laughter in every episodes. The stort started when Dong Gu, Jun Ki and Du Shik discovered a baby, Sol, in one of the rooms of their guesthouse. After looking for the mother, they decided to let the mother, Yuna, to stay in their guesthouse. This drama sees the main characters interact with each other as they share their lifestyle, love and dreams despite of embarrassing and unfortunate relatable events that happens in everyday lives.
8. Memorist (2020)
ㅡ Another detective and crimes korean drama. This tells about a detective named Dong Baek who has a special powers where he can read anyone's memories by just touching them. One of his case caused him to lose his memory.
9. Romantic Dr. Kim (S1 & S2)
ㅡ Just like historical dramas, I was not a fan of dramas that has more hospitals and doctors scenes not until I have watched these. It is a medical drama that talks about the growth of the newbies doctors with the help of the legendary doctor in their town, Dr. Kim. He always makes the impossible possible which made the doctors and even surgeons to become inspired and to idolized Dr. Kim more.
10. When the Camella Blooms
ㅡ Since I have a crush to Kang Haneul, I tried watching this plus it has a detective something genre too! This drama is about a single mother, Dong Baek who runs a bar-restaurant named Camella. Then, she met a police officer named Yong Shik who became deeply in love with her. Meanwhile, there was a sinister happening in their town and Dong Baek was the target of the main killer. Try this one, it might be about police or detectives but it also talks about family and romance and how Dong Bake handle every hard situation around her plus the insults from her neighbors.
You may comment your favorite korean dramas and share it with me! Let me also watch your favorites! Have fun and enjoy!
Acceptance.
Maybe the reason for all the hatreds is unacceptance. Maybe some of anxieties started from rejections. Maybe lack of confidence leads to low self-esteem. And as it builds to you, it gives you more thinking, more hurting and more pains.
Nobody's perfect. Even the plants have flaws, even the non living things have damages. Even scenes from the movies or the books have heartbreaking events. It isn't happy always, it isn't successful everyday.
You are not always at your best. There are times that you become impatient, you want to be alone. You feel so down from all the gloomy incidents around you. But, that's okay. Take a rest. Breathe in and breathe out. You can cry, loudly or softly. God will listen. God will never leave your side. He will guide you to learn to handle things. And then, start again, refresh everything.
People may talk about you, some may insult you and even bring you down, no matter how much kindness you express. Don't let words bring you down, make these as your inspiration to go up.
Try to accept all the flaws, all the criticisms, because sometimes we need to break first before we shine. Train yourself to see good things in every situation. Maybe, it's time for you to accept your true purpose in life. And, once you learn the art of acceptance, it will be quite easy for you to focus more on your goals and to feel the happiness instead of feeling empty. You are great everyday and a wonderful person.
Reminder: Everything will be good soon, just hang in there and don't worry too much! You can do it!
Happiness.
It is the sound of the rain or the heat from the sun. It is the tune of your favorite music or the line from your favorite movie. It is the taste of the coffee or the cup of chocolate with mallows on top. It is the giggling moments with your dorky friends or the every loving minute with someone special. It is the coziness of your bed, full of pillows and stuffed toys or the warmth of your home. Happiness is a feeling. It can be simple but exciting. It can be fun and full of joy but sometimes tiring and unsatisfying to someone.
Maybe finding your very own happiness is an adventure. It might be difficult at the beginning, but really worth it. It is challenging, very challenging that might give stressed to anyone. Happiness is peace of mind or the satisfaction feeling. Or maybe happiness is contentment and acceptance. Thus, happiness is a choice.
Happiness is a very long process to everyone. You can’t easily find your happiness even if it’s free, even if it is everywhere. Happiness is not some state that we will one day reach for good, but an ongoing process. Bad days may attract negative vibes, may attack someone’s happiness. But, happiness is acceptance, a learning process. You will always be dragged through the mud first, criticized by anyone, accept all the judgments and learn from your mistake. You cannot ignore bad ambiance. Just like happiness, negativity is also everywhere.
Happiness is learning to appreciate everyone, everything that surrounds you. Happiness is learning to value yourself more. Happiness is sharing your kindness and positive aura to everyone. Happiness is a goal, a choice.
You always have your choice to be happy, to grow from all the bumps in your road. Nothing will make you happy until you choose to be happy. Smile more, anyone can grow and bloom differently when they are actually happy. So, kick all the negative vibes trying to invade your feelings and mind. Hug more positive vibes, laugh more, smile more. Spread happiness and stay positive!
Wasted Chances
And then you came, holding a bouquet with my name. Trying to take me back again, telling you'll not cause me more pain.
Once more, I believed you. Once more, I accepted you. I thought you aren't the same, that you had changed. But for you, I'm still your game.
You said you'll do better to change, but I guess you didn't even tried. And now, I am here again drowning myself with a glass of champagne.
I feel so wrecked, so broken, so weak. I just want to be happy, to be loved by someone I deserved to be. I guess I am very wrong for believing that you're still the one.
Mornings
What was your favorite thing in the morning? Mine was waking up, feeling blessed and alive.
Mornings are blessings. Mornings are gift. It gives you a chance to start new beginnings.
Maybe the smell of the coffee defines morning. Or maybe the sound of teaspoon and cup of tea. Or is it the sweetness taste of chocolate that brightens up the morning vibes?
Mornings maybe busy but always fun. Isn't it satisfying to see the sun rises every morning? Or to feel the breeze of the morning as it touches your skin? Or to receive many opportunities as you start your mornings? Mornings are hope. Isn't it inspiring to see yourself doing all your tasks to achieve your goals?
Mornings maybe annoying sometimes because of too many piling up works. Or maybe mornings aren't great for everyone because of too much complications and heart breaks. But isn't it feels good to see the persons you met yesterday in the morning? Isn't it feels heartwarming to see your parents and friends still with you?
Maybe mornings are not good all the time, but mornings can be fun. Mornings are the best if you start your day with a prayer, giving thanks to God for giving you another chance to breathe, to live.
Start your day with a big thanks and a prayer no matter how long or short it is. Give yourself a pat for making it yesterday and for doing a good job everyday. Bring out your best smile and greet the people around you. Share a positive mood for everyone to enjoy their mornings like yours. Appreciate everything that surrounds you. Breathe in and breathe out, remind yourself that everything will be fine. Have a great morning everyone!
An accountancy graduate.
"Magaling ka sa Math, mag-accountancy ka!"
"Plus saka minus lang naman 'yan!"
"Diba accountancy ka? Dapat lagi kang nagbibilang."
"Sa bangko ka nagwowork?"
Ilan lang iyan sa mga naririnig kong tanong at opinyon ng mga nakakasalamuha ko. Madami siguro ang nagkakaroon ng misinterpretasyon sa kursong Accountancy. Ngayon, sasagutin ko ang ilan dito.
Oo, may math sa accountancy. May plus, minus, times, divide. Nagbibilang kami at may ibang nagwowork sa bangko. Pero hindi lahat.
Hindi dahil accountancy ay magaling na sa math. Kapag pumasok ka sa kursong accountancy, i-ready mo na ang sarili mo sa mga akala ng lahat. Ang accounting ay more on analyzation. More on reading and english. Kahit sabihin nating top 1 ka pa sa Math, kung mahina pa ang pag intindi mo sa mga problems. Mahihirapan at mahihirapan ka pa din.
Mahirap? Oo, sobrang hirap. Tapang ng loob at tiwala sa sarili ang dapat kapitan. Isama na din natin si God na never kang iniwan sa bawat exams, quizzes at recitations.
Mga pinaghalo halong problems, taxation at law na halos mabaliw ka na kakabasa maintindihan lang. Swerte mo na kung may kaparehas na lumabas sa exam.
Isa ako sa swerteng nakapagtapos sa kursong ito, hindi ko sinasabing magaling ako at hindi ko sinasabing matalino ako. Siguro naging madiskarte at matiyaga din ako. Uunahan ko na kayo, Psychology ang unang kursong gusto ko. Napakalayo sa kursong natapos ko hindi ba? Ngunit sabi nga nila, lahat naman ng nangyayari sa atin may rason. Maswerte na lang din siguro at may mga kaibigan akong never akong iniwan sa buong taon kong nagaaral ng accounting. Mga kaibigang kasabay kong makipagtagayan ng isang basong kape at kasama sa lahat ng puyatan.
Natapos ang lahat at dumating ang enrolment ng review centers. Wala naman akong ideya dati dito, sumunod lang din ako sa gusto ng mga magulang ko at mga kaibigan ko. Siguro kasi una palang iba naman ang gusto kong kurso kaya wala sana akong balak magtake ng board exam. Mahina ang loob ko at mababa ang tiwala sa sarili. Itong mga katangian ang dapat baguhin kung tutuloy sa kursong ito. O kahit saan naman, kailangan mo ng tiwala sa sarili at lakas ng loob.
To make the story short, hindi ako pinalad sa unang take. Masyadong magulo ang isip ko. Masyadong pagod ang buong ako. Pagtungtong ng 5th year, integ review. Pagkagraduate, isang linggo pa lang nagstart na ang klase sa review centers. Wala kaming naging maayos na bakasyon para magrefresh sandali. At aaminin ko, nawala ako sa focus nung mga pahanon na yun kaya sobra ko ding pinagsisihan ang mga nangyari. Pagkatapos, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Kaya gumaya ako sa mga kaibigan ko na magtrabaho habang nagrereview. Oo, nag-enrol muli kami sa review center, magbabakasakali na papalarin muli ngayong Mayo.
Ngunit siguro nga na-drained ako. Umabot sa puntong, pakiramdam ko pagod na pagod ako. Hindi ako makaaral ng maayos. Weekdays papasok ako sa bangko. Weekends, nasa review center ako. Parehas na buong araw. Oo, sa bangko ako pinalad at ayoko namang sayangin ang oportunidad na nasa harapan ko kaya sinubukan ko na. Pero hindi kinaya ng loob at pag iisip ko. Masyado na ata akong napagod na nagkagulo gulo na ang isip ko pati ang damdamin ko.
Habang maaga pa, nagpaalam ako sa manager ng bangko kung saan ako na-assign. Nanghihinayang man, wala naman akong choice dahil nahihirapan ako. Mas pinili kong unahin ang pagrereview kaysa pagtatrabaho. Nagsumikap ako, nagfocus ako sa mga aralin ko para makabawi. Ayokong mabigo ko muli ang magulang ko at ayokong pagsisihan ang pag-alis sa trabaho ko. Dumating ang prelims at ang main goal ko? Makapasok sa top 100. Ngunit hindi pa ata ako handa masyado. Nagpapasalamat pa din ako dahil hindi nasayang ang puyat at pagod ko sa pag aaral, nakapasa ako sa lahat ng subjects.
Inihahanda ko na ang sarili ko na makabawi para sa finals pati na din sa darating sana na board exam ngayong May. Kaso dumating ang pandemic, nagkagulo gulo. Sa pangalawang pagkakataon, hindi ko muli alam kung saan ako mapupunta ngayon. Natakot akong magtake muli. Nawala ako sa focus.
Mahirap? Oo, mahirap. Pero sa panahon ngayon, mas kailangang maging maingat. Mas kailangan ang matinding pagtitiwala sa Diyos.
Sa pagtatapos ng pandemic, napagdesisyunan ko na maghanap muli ng trabaho. Siguro isa na ding factor na naisipan ko ito ay dahil tumatanda na din ako at gusto kong may mapatunayan na sa sarili. Naisip ko din na magseself review naman na ako, mahahandle ko na ang pagrereview habang nagtatrabaho kahit papano dahil hawak ko na ang oras ko sa pag aaral.
Siguro nga may rason ang lahat, siguro hindi pa ngayon. Pero hindi magiging dahilan ang pandemic o ano mang bagay para abutin ang mga naudlot na pangarap.
Maraming salamat sa pagbabasa at mag-ingat po tayong lahat!
Body shaming. More self love.
Since the very beginning, people are being too conscious with their shapes and sizes. They were being criticized of being thin or being big. Body becomes one of a must characteristic of a person. Some people depends on their faces, some depends on their sizes.
Girls and even boys should be proud of themselves. Appreciate and love themselves even more. A petite can do exercises and a chubby person can go to gym freely. They can decide on their own, on what food should they take.
Do not pressure yourself for the society to accept you. Be a new standard for everyone. You can be beautiful in different sizes, you can be attractive in different shapes. As long as you find yourself healthy and you are happy. Shower yourself with so much love and care, and let the society realize your value and worth.
Poisonous.
Maybe words is one of the most poisonous weapon in the world. Maybe they affect everyone, physically or mentally. Words may be strong or fragile. They are like humans, sometimes transparent and sometimes hidden.
Words can trigger somebody's perspective, it can change everyone's mind. Words may loosen anyone's confidence or may influence to build courage. It depends. It depends on how you work well with words. It depends on how you deliver, and how the people may accept the words.
Words maybe jumbled in letters, and may mix up anyone's feelings. They are sometimes gentle, but most of the time hurtful. Words are used by everyone. Maybe in different language or in different time frame. In different places or in different regions.
Just like a weapon, it can be poisonous. Once, words are not handled with care it can affect dozens or thousands of feelings. Words may attract everyone's attention. Maybe in good intention or for fame purposes.
People are very sensitive. They don't have the same feelings with one another. They may never understand everyone's intention easily. They may feel hurt or bashful with the words they hear against them. It may be small or big issue. It may be in a funny way or in serious matters.
Words are not just words. Words depend on person who will send the message and the people who will receive those texts. They are not just words. Because words may have feelings, words may affect emotions that can't be handle easily.
Summer (1)
It was Sunday in the evening, I was bored so I decided to download a dating app called Tantan. My friends introduced this to me way back when I was still crying over my ex for almost 3 months. Yes, I was dumped with his reason that he couldn`t handle LDR. He was my first love and I do hope he`s my last, but things didn`t just went well. So here I am, feeding myself with more self-love and self-care. Finally, I`ve done all the required information for Tantan`s approval. It was my first time using a dating app, so I was not really familiar on how this thing works. My friends told me to just follow the swiping rules until I match myself with someone. I ended up sleeping at 12 in the midnight waiting for someone to match with me.
The next morning, I was too busy doing my summer job requirements, I decided to apply a job and save up money for myself. So, I don`t have time to visit the app and check any messages. I finished working on my files at around 2PM and decided to take up my lunch. I reached for my phone to check if there is any notification.
*Notification: Someone matched you. Say hi to your soulmate!*
Okay, that just sounds so cringe for me. But still, I opened the notification to see his profile.
*Alexis Ramirez. 21 years old. Student*
I looked for some of his pictures to see what he looks like. What? I`m just making sure he`s a decent person.
**“Hey, you`re from AdamsonU?”** I was shocked when he messaged me first, I was still in the process of thinking how to respond on his question when another message popped. **“It was nice seeing a schoolmate here, I`m Alex.”**
**“Hello, I`m Hana. Yes, I`m currently studying in Adamson. What are you taking up to?”** I replied trying to open up a topic. **“Mechanical engineering, how about you?”** He asked. **“Accountancy. So, are you like graduating?”** I replied. We ended up talking about our school and how are courses worked. How did we end up choosing our paths. I found out that he was the same year as mine, 4th year student. He likes music and movies. He found the app through his friends and boredom too. He said it was also his first time using this app.
**“You know what, you sound like a bubbly person. I want to know more about you.”** This was the last words I read before I fell asleep.
Days passed, and the consistency of us talking with each other continued. I suddenly felt myself looking for him most of the time. My friends started to become curious about Alex. They were piling up too much questions about him whenever we meet. Alex sometimes message me with some cute pickup lines, and I`ll admit it, he makes me smile with his little ways.
**“You look so cute.”** So, I sent him a photo of mine with my best friends. And there I received his comment, oh right why am I feeling this? **“…cause you`re the shortest hahaha!”** I forgot to tell you, he teases me a lot like every time we talked and he`ll just laugh all day when he succeeded teasing me. **“From now on, you`ll be my smol bean!”** Oh, please Alex. Stop being like that, I might not still ready to fall.
So I finally told my friends about him, they kept on teasing me to date him. They told me he`s the perfect guy for a brokenhearted girl like me. Oh jeez, somebody stop them. For the update, we continued talking and even call through voice call or video call. Yes, we do video call after a month or two, I think. The last time we did a video call, I was left dumbfounded that I never messaged him after he told me these words.
**“You know what`s faster than the speed of light?”** I was suddenly confused with his question like is he asking some help about his engineering stuffs? **"I`m sorry but I don`t know any engineering stuff.”** I replied. **“My heart.. when I think of you.”** That was the line I`ve last heard before I ended the call. I never messaged him for a day, and maybe he thinks I got mad. But the real reason is that I`m afraid and I don`t know why. I felt guilty for not talking to him, and I admit I missed him too.
**“Alex, I`m sorry. I thought you were just tripping on me the last time. Sorry for making you worry.”** I typed and send it to him. I was hoping that he was not online, I`m not still ready to see his reply. Should I delete my message? **“I`m sorry too, but I`m not making fun of you.”** I felt sorry for what I acted and was about to send an apologetic message. **“I`m sorry, Hana. I`ll be honest with you. I was not believing my friends about this app. I just tried this because I was bored. I never intended to hurt your feeling. I don`t know if this will work but at least I gave it a shot.”** I was too confused with what he is trying to say. **“I like you, Hana. I like everything about you. I tried to stop this feeling I swear. For almost 3 months talking with you, starting from March, I found myself looking for you more.”**I was stunned,I didn`t see this coming. I mean, yeah, maybe we`re like friends but sometimes exchange flirty messages? But, the moment I have read his message, I suddenly felt the mutual feeling with him. **“I like you too, Alex.”**
And that`s how we ended up being in this so-called “mutual understanding relationship”. I told him I was not yet ready to enter a new one. I also told him I`m quite afraid after what has happened with my ex. I told him everything about my ex and how our relationship became so toxic that we ended up drowning ourselves. Alex only listens whenever I tell him about my past, sometimes he will try to cheer me up with his cute pickup lines and oldies` jokes. I can feel how sincere he was. I just missed this feeling. The feeling of someone making you feel secured, making you feel comfortable and making you feel special. I love the way he calls me “smol bean”. Funny, how I was irritated back then whenever he teased me about being the shortest.
But things aren`t always perfect. It became hard for us to handle some fights given the fact that we still haven`t met ever since we talked and I became busy too since I started working on a summer job. It became hard for us to control too much emotions, it became hard for us to comfort each other in front of the screen. I suddenly felt tired of us. I know it was wrong but I started to compare him with my ex. And maybe, it was really my fault.
**“Hana.”** It was Summer. Sunday night, dimmed lights in my room.
**“I don`t want to lose you.”** It was Alex. I typed my reply and sent it to him. **“I don`t want to lose you either.”** I know that moment something was not right. I tried to distract myself but I can`t.
**“..but I think you need more time, more time to think.”** He continued, I was slowly feeling the pain. **"What do you mean, Alex?"** I replied trying to calm myself for what might have happened.
**"I know you still linger in your past. I know things were not still clear for yourself. I`m trying to fit your ideal, but I found myself filling up your ex`s characteristics. It pains me to see you crying and I can`t even do anything to fix you. Or maybe I did the best I can, but didn`t still worked."** I never think I was too much. I thought we were perfect, that we will never changed. I was too much that I tried to make him too perfect to match my ex`s personalities. I felt sorry and broken. It was my fault for losing everything, for losing him. And for losing the possibilities of us. I thought I was already fine, not until I realized everything when Alex speaks up.
Alex was a great guy, an ideal indeed. He was caring, very understanding. And I found consistency in him. But, I ended up losing the person who calls me smol bean, who never leaves me behind and was always there to lift me up. Alex was always there, he was always there but I still look for someone in the past. And, I was so wrong. So wrong for losing my summer happiness.
End.
Here is the link of its Part Two
https://read.cash/@annyeongkleopatra/summer-2-39f3ac25
The night has come
The wind blows her long black wavy hair. As she fixed her hair, she grabbed the black mask with a silver glitters around it from her desk. She was wearing a black silver slip long gown. A black garterized gauze-like cloth wrapping around her legs, there she put a white rose. She grabbed her silver purse and the invitation card, as she entered her black Chevrolet Malibu.
【 **10 PM Grande Castle Hall**: *Masquerade Ball* 】
She took a glimpse on the folder in her passenger seat. A smug smile was formed, as she read the name written on small fonts in it.
*'Another victim for tonight.'*
She handed her invitation card to the guards, and freely entered the hall. It was a little dark, loud music and a bit of smokes everywhere for effects. There were bunch of girls everywhere, trying to hook a millionaire guy. This is it, their world of fantasy, gambling and money. The lights were dimmed that you won't even noticed everyone's faces nor their eyes. She started walking and joining the crowd. Her eyes were busy searching and looking for her prey. A detectable hidden camera was attached to her dress, it was too little that it didn't look too suspicious.
*'There he is..'*
She walked towards the man wearing a black tuxedo. The man was holding a glass of wine, sitting on the couch with a few gentlemen.
Without any second thoughts, she sat on one man's lap and started kissing him torridly. The gentlemen weren't surprised, they started cheering for more like they were watching a real live show. She transferred herself to another, and then to another, and then the next one, until she reached her target. And finally, the time has come, they were left alone. There were no ending kissing and touching and making out. She let him kissed her neck, her nape, and even let him touch her everywhere. She was dancing and grinding on his lap, seducing him in every ways she could. Her hands slowly went to her legs, where a shiny metal was kept together with the white rose. She kissed him again softly, and injected the chemical on the man's neck. A victory smile was formed as she saw him seeking for a help but no one can hear him. The music was too loud and everyone is too excited to enjoy themselves.
*'Sorry dear, for you have committed an immoral act to everyone.'*
She stood up, and put a red lipstick on. She reach for her white rose and placed it on the glass table in front of the couch.
*'It was nice meeting you, Mr. Waltz. But, I guess, life is too short for you. You were chosen to be my 11th rose.'*
Philophobiaㅡa fear of love.
I never thought meeting you was a fate. I never thought I would feel that slow motion with your gaze. And there it started, feeling locked in a maze. Trying to figure out why am I feeling like this.
I never thought I will like you like I really do. We don't talked often or even waved hello. I never thought of feeling those butterflies in my stomach, and I never thought I would dream of us so much.
And now, I can't even think straight. For I am hesitating to hide it or to tell it. I can't even come up with the right words to say. I like you, but I am afraid.
Tadhana ㅡ a short entry
*"At dahan dahan.. Mas marahan pa sa pag-ihip ng hanging sariwa. Sa huling sandali, muling binigkas ang tatlong letra. Tatlong letrang nagpaniwala sa akin ng salitang walang hanggan. Tatlong letrang kinapitan na para bang ayaw maagawan. Tatlong letrang may katapusan pala.."*
Marahan kong isinara ang librong nasa aking kandungan at pinatay ang musikang tumutugtog sa aking cellphone. Tumingala ako at hinanap ang mga mumunting bituin. Dinama ko ang hanging dumadampi sa aking balat. At sa muling pagpikit ay siyang pagbalik ng mga alaalang kailanman ay hindi ko malimutan.
Saan nga ba nagsimula ang lahat? Ang alam ko'y madalas tayong magtuksuhan at magkapikunan. Sinusungitan pa nga kita samantalang ikaw heto't sige ngisi pa. Dumating ang panahon na nagsimula na tayong asarin ng mga kaibigan mo. Nilayuan kita dahil masyado pa tayong bata o baka hindi naman talaga totoo ang sinasabi nila. Mas nilayuan kita, marahil hindi ko pa lubusang madama ang bawat linyang iyong binitawan. Pero nagsimulang makipaglaro ang tadhana.
Ang gaan sa pakiramdam na sa tuwing umaga, ikaw ang masisilayan. Ang saya ko sa tuwing hawak mo ang mga kamay ko na ayaw ng bitawan. Napakasimple lang nating dalawa na sa pagsasama lang ay kuntento na tayo. Sobrang saya na para bang ayaw mo ng matapos ng lahat. At gabi gabi kong hinihiling na sana ikaw na talaga ang para sa akin.
Dumaan ang madaming buwan, hindi ko masasabing perpekto ang lahat pero heto tayo at hawak kamay na sinasalubong ang lahat ng lungkot at saya. Nagsimula na akong umasa sa lahat, nangarap sa ating dalawa, nagplano ng kinabukasan nating dalawa. Pero sobrang lupit naman ng tadhana. Kahit pilit kitang hilahin palapit sa akin, siya namang paghatak ni tadhana sayo palayo sa akin.
Lumipas ang dalawang taon, bumalik ka at nasa aking harapan. Naguunahan ang aking mga luhang sinasapo ng iyong mga kamay. Walang nagsasalita, pilit lamang dinadama. Marahil ay nagkaintindihan na.
"Mahal!"
Napamulat ako bigla sa aking narinig pagkat alam kong hindi ako nagkakamali. Alam ko kung sinong nagmamay-ari ng tinig. Dahan dahan akong nag-angat ng tingin. Mula sa kinauupuan ko, nakita kitang nakangiti at naglalakad palapit.
*'Namiss kita'* ㅡ salitang matagal ng ninanais sabihin sayo.
"Mahal!"
At kasabay ng paglingon ko sayo muli, ang siyang pagtayo ng babaeng katabi ko. Nawala ang ngiti sa aking mga labi. Kitang kita ko kung gaano mo siya niyakap nang mahigpit, kung gaano kasabik ang mga mata mong makita siya.
*'Marahil huli na nga para sa akin. Marahil huli na nga para sa atin'.*
Muli kong binuklat ang librong nasa kandungan ko. Kasabay ng pagtulo ng mga luha sa aking mga mata, ang siyang pagbigkas ng mga salitang kinatatakutan ko ng sobra ㅡ paalam marahil ito na ang ating hangganan.
*"At sa bawat paghikbi, ang siyang paghigpit ng kapit. At sa bawat higpit, ang siyang lalong pagbitaw mo sa akin. Marahil napagod na nga, napagod na ang tadhana".*
Panimula.
Panimula ng lahat. Pagpapakilala o introduksyon. Dito pa lamang aaminin ko na may hilig ako sa pagsusulat at pagbabasa ngunit sa tagal na hindi ko nahahasa ang pagsulat ko sa mga piksyonal na kwento, marahil ay kulang na ang kaalaman ko sa mga makabagong istorya na paniguradong papatok sa lahat. Ang magiging laman nito ay pawang pangyayari sa realidad at pang-araw araw na pamumuhay na maaaring mahaluan ng kaunting piksyonal. Hindi ko masasabing isa na akong bihasa sa pagsulat dahil hanggang wattpad lang ang mga nailathala ko noon. Pero sana ay mabigyan din ng pansin ang mga baguhang kagaya ko. Bigyan ng kumpyansa at suporta sa bawat kwentong lilikhain. Maraming salamat!!!
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