@annyeongkleopatra
If only it was me
As I opened the door in your room, I saw you crying on your knees.
I run towards you and tried to calm you down. **"What happened?"** I asked as I held your hand.
"She broke up with me." He was so broke and devastated as he left those words. **"She said she doesn't love me anymore. She doesn't want me. She said that I'm too good for her."** I was quietly listening to you, patting you. Not leaving your side. **"What should I do, Elara? I love her so much that I'm willing to give everything for her. That I am willing to sacrifice even my happiness for her. Why did she leave me so sudden? Why?"** You were crying so hard and breathing heavily. You brushed your hair. I felt every pain in yours. And I couldn't help not to hug you tightly.
**"Shhh. Maybe that's the signal for you to stop before things get worst. Everything's gonna be alright. I'm always here for you."** I heard you cussed and pushed me lightly. "Everything's gonna be alright? Really, Elara? I just lost my world! How? She left me there, hanging and longing for her. Now, you're telling me that everything's going to be alright?!" I can feel your anger and pain. I don't want to see you like this, in despair. **"I'm...sorry. I just want to calm you down.."** And on that point, I don't even know why my tears started to fall. Your eyes calmed down, as you saw my tears. You come closer to me to wipe my tears.
**"Oh god! I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Elara."** I stare at your tired face. Thoughts started to crawl into my mind again. I sighed and give you a small smile. "Don't mind me. I was wrong. I'm sorry too. Come with me! I bought your favorite ice cream. I also downloaded the movies you like. Maybe it can soothe those." I wiped my tears pretending as if nothing has happened. You hugged me again.
**"Thank you, Elara. Thank you for everything."** You whispered in my ear. I smiled, hiding all of my emotions. Hiding the truth from you. Hiding these feelings of mine towards you.. *'If only.. if only you have chosen me.. your best friend.'*
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