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My insecurities

Blog 55-4th Date :April 8,2022 Time :2:30pm For sure we all have insecurities in life. Sometimes we wish to be this and that.

***My height*** First, I am insecure about tall people, how I wish I have a height like a model. I remember when I was in high school I really wanted to join pageants but of course, my height won't allow me. I only stand 4'9 ft. I remember how I got bullied because of my height. When I was in my first-year high school I experienced being questioned if am I really a high school student. There was an incident when I sitting on the bus and waiting for it to go but then the dispatcher asks if who will pay for the kid, and the dispatcher was referring to me. I just told him that I will pay for myself. Another incident happened when I was roaming around the public market wearing our school uniforms a guy ask me where I am studying? Isn't that obvious I am already wearing our school uniforms. Our school is for high school students only. However, when I got the chance to find a job in Cebu city I was discriminated against because of my height. Well, I was not applying as a model duh! If I go shopping or do groceries I used to call for help from the staff if I want to get something from the higher racks. ***My teeth*** Ever since I felt uncomfortable smiling or laughing because of my uneven teeth. How I wish I have enough money so I can let the dentist fix my teeth. Whenever I took a selfie or if someone a took a photo of me I usually tilt on the left side because not only do I have uneven teeth but a missing tooth too. I don't want it to be visible if I smile. ***My skin*** I have a fair skin tone. I never wish to have whiter skin but what I wish is to have flawless skin. After I gave birth to my firstborn I had lots of stretch marks on my thigh, back legs, near my underarm, and even on my breast. Now I have this skin problem in my arms, I had it since 2018, it's like small pimples. Based on my research this skin condition is cold Keratosis pilaris. If I can just afford to go to the dermatologist so I will know what to do with this skin problem. But that's not my priority this time. ***My hands and Feet*** I inherited this kind of hand from my mom. It doesn't look nice. It looks like a hand of an old person. About my feet, I inherited them from my dad. I honestly don't like wearing slippers and sandals. I have ugly feet that's why I prefer wearing doll shoes before, now I'm a fan of wearing sneakers and rubber shoes to hide my ugly feet. ***My legs*** I have these bakang or sakang legs. I'm sorry I don't know its term in English. I can't wear jeans that fit at the bottom. It will emphasize my sakang legs. That's why I prefer wearing joggers. ***Patience*** Aside from physical appearance, I am also insecure about those people who have lots of patience. I admire how they can handle pressure. How they control their emotions. I wish I have lots of patience so I can't be triggered easily. **Ending thoughts** I love myself it's just I have those insecurities in me but they don't really bother me that much. It's a matter of accepting who I am and having people around me who are willing to accept me. How about you fami-lice do you have any insecurities too? `Photos used in this article are all owned by yours truly unless it is stated.` `Lead Image edited using Canva` `To my ever-dearest daily readers, upvoters, and likers. thank you for your precious time and for your efforts. I love you all.` `To my amazing and generous sponsors who have been supporting me since from the start thank you so much for inspiring me to do better each day.`

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