A quick escape
Day 1 @ Bolinao Falls
Hello my dear friends.So this weekend we had a 2days and 1night summer getaway at Bolinao Pangasinan.
My daughter was too excited,when she saw me packing our stuffs the night before our summer vacation.She was insisting to that we should travel right at that very moment so we can reach the beach early the next day.She almost didn't sleep well out of excitement.That is how she behave when she knows we are going somewhere.She can't hide the excitement to the point that she's becoming a dictator.Telling us to do this and do that.I sometimes get irritated when she keeps insisting what she wants haha.Then told her to go first,start walking so she could be there before us.Ofcourse she doesn't have a choice but to wait.
We traveled around 4:00 AM April 30,2022.It took us 9hours to reach our first destination which is the Bolinao Falls.Along the way as we travel some of our colleagues are complaining because the place was quite far.They are suggesting to change plan and go somewhere nearer.One by one giving some suggestions and expressing all their thoughts.But of course with us are some teenagers who are so excited for adventures and beach vibes wherein they can have unlimited photos to share on their social.media accounts (millennial kids be like haha). In the end the first plan overruled.The youngsters choice prevailed.
We arrived at Bolinao Falls1 around 12:00noon so we took a short break first and ate lunch in the cottage we rented.Everyone's excited to dive in the water because the weather was really hot.After the long time travel they all want to freshen up.The water from the falls is clean and fresh that is why they all felt relaxed and relieved from the stressful road trip.They spent three and a half hours in the water.
I didn't bathe with them because I have my period haha.Everytime we use the comfort.room.we need to pay 5-10 pesos,so instead of removing my pads and enjoy bathing I became their photographer here in Bolinao Falls.I just took some selfies of mine and let my husband and kids enjoy the water.They did enjoy,my 2nd born doesn't want to get out of the water,I just worry they might acquire cough and colds for staying longer,so I asked my husband to get out of the water with them and rest because we are about to head in our next destination.Owh in this place I really wanted to jump into the water,but of course I didn't because the water might turn bloody red LOL.They keep on telling to join them.I know for a fact that menstruation stop to flow when we are in the water,still I refused,it was too hot and I am not yet ready.I am reserving my energy for our next destination which is in the beach, oh right.
Around 4:00PM.we started traveling again,everyone complains again because they thought the beach was just 10-20 minutes away but it took us an hour to reach La Taverna de Orlanda in Patar Bolinao Pangasinan.
So this is the entrance of the place.Too simple isn't it.There are lot of options and more beautiful resorts to choose.from but we decided to check in here because the place wasn't too crowded.And we can enjoy the solemnity of the place at night.This is where we spent the night.
I love the gentle breeze kisses my cheeks and the wind let my hair sway to its rythm.Indeed a quick escape.An escape from the stressful reality of life.Just two days of our lives we managed to enjoy and leave all our burdens behind.We just cease every moment.
While watching over the kids as they play in the sand in the shoreline.I and my husband sit together and relaxed ourselves.Even just for this moment we had our YOU and ME time.And we all watch the sunset together.
When the darkness covered the place we decided to grab dinner.After dinner I ready the stuffs of the kids so they can sleep.The cottages here are open and the only room they have is already occupied so we stayed in an open cottage.
Unfortunately it rained (quite stressful because there's a part of the nipa huts where water drops,some of our stuff got wet, so I and the kids slept in the car while the rest stayed awake while it rains,they only took their naps when the rain stops.Good thing after an hour of rain the weather became fine again.I got some back ache sleeping inside the car.But my princesses had a good night sleep,which matters most.
Sharing everything we did for two days will be quite a long story to share so I'll cut it here and share our next day escapade in my next article.
I hope you enjoyed reading.Thank you.
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I am so excited
**First time**
I don't know if it was just me or every mother would be.I feel excited knowing my dear daughter will soon march on their moving up ceremony.She was my first born so every first time of experience in motherhood occured because of her presence.She was the one who made me feel all the excitement, happiness,sadness and worries a mother could encounter.It was also when I became a mom that I experienced yelling and nagging haha.I can now understand my mom how she felt back then.
We are now weeks away from her moving up,and I am happy we conquered the first step of her journey in schooling.I don't know if my daughter already have a dream profession at her age,but I noticed that she's in to arts and her imagination is active.Whatever it would be as long as it will make her happy we will support her along the way.I want her to enjoy her schooldays and I don't want to stress her or force her to be the best in their class.My duty is to only motivate her and make her give her best in all the things she does.
After all the sacrifices we had in her modular activities.The arguments and sharing of thoughts and ideas,from mother and daughter to becoming a teacher and student relationship while answering all her modules.Everything has paid off.She may not be as intelligent as other kids can be,I am still.proud of her achievements and how she exert efforts to learn.She maybe sometimes not in the mood but still she tries her best to finish her task in the given period of time.
It was quite unbelievable at first,my heart is full with the thought that I,I am already a mom and I have a four year old daughter who will soon march after successfully finishing K1. Owh eleven more steps before college haha.Seems too long to wait, but surprisingly it will happen in a short span of time because time pass really fast.
Is it pretty obvious that I am excited?When her teacher told me that the Moving ceremony will be by May and they will only wear the red uniform,I bought her a new one and odered her a pair of black shoes haha.Right now I am thinking of what to do during that day.Should I cook or should we rather eat on fastfood chain to lessen the hassle.Should I buy her a present or save some for the laptop I want to buy for her.
Laptop?Yeah I was thinking of buying her one because it can help her with her studies.Nowadays modern technology has affected the learning process.Most of the teachers now are giving their students tasks like researching about some topics they tackle.Its an advantage for a pupil/student to have gadgets that can ease the learning process.
I am a modern mom who tries to go with the flow of this modern technology era.And I am excited about the experiences we can have through this journey of life.
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How my Maundy Thursday goes
How are you today my friends,how did you spend your day?For Christians like me Maundy Thursday is spent sa pagninilay-nilay.(quite lazy to think about the English term).Holy week is the week we remember how God sacrificed His only begotten son to save the sinners.Some also do the fasting.
In our home we lessen the meat consumption so we usually prepare fish and vegetables as viand.But if we are left with no choice,we have no choice but to cook what is available.
***So how my Maundy Thursday goes?***
First I woke up around 6:30 in the morning.Quite late than the usual 5:00AM.I and my husband went to the market to buy viand I can prepare for him because he and his workmates went out for swimming.Then I added some snacks and unripe mangoes with shrimp paste.I also checked his bag if he already have towel and hygiene kit,plus spare clothes.
The first plan was we will go with him in their swimming,but the kids acquired colds since yesterday so I told him to still go with his workmates.I and the kids will just stay home.I'll just do the laundry.
While waiting for the viand to be done,I started sorting out dirty clothes and fill the washing machine with water.I used to rinse the clothes first before washing,to remove dust and lessen some water stains.While sorting my two cutties woke up so I need to stop first and attend to my kids and prepare their breakfast.After a while I let them play outside and bathe in the sun for a short while.
When my sister woke up I asked her to watch over the kids so I can proceed with my laundry.Took the whole day to finish washing them with detergent and honestly I still have unrinsed jeans left,I will finish early tomorrow morning.I can't focus coz of my youngest daughter.Whenever she wants milk I need to stop because she is breastfed.She will not stop bothering me until I attend to her.
From time to time I also visit my noise cash account and drop by here to check my notifications,While taking some rest I read an article.I also play smart.joystick.club once in a while.
I only have one joybot reason why I seldom play.I only earn 0.9JOY.I can't even earn what I paid to play(Lugi dai lugi).But there are times that I can earn 2.2JOY equivalent to 22pesos (pwede na kasi 12-15pesos per play and binabayad ko).It became a sort of past time for me.If I am quite bored I play.
After the usual day,doing the house chores and taking good care of the kids,in this time of the night.Here I am again trying to finish an article to share.
I guess tomorrow my youngest sister will pay us a visit along with her family.So we can have family bond.I'll see if I can set the kids portable pool so they can enjoy.Plus the fact that my sister from Laguna will be heading back with her son by Sunday.They will travel back to Laguna,I will surely miss them specially my nephew who is too talkative and quite naughty for his age.
Even a little tired my whole day is still good,and I am happy.Another productive day ended.Thats it for todays article.Thank you so much if you finished it until the end.Bye bye.
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A glimpse of the Past
Hello my dear friends here in read cash.Maundy Thursday it is.14th day of April and this time of the night 1:17AM here I am tapping the keyboard of my phone to publish this 8th article of mine for this month.An idea just popped up that I couldn't sleep and it made grab my phone and started typing.
***A glimpse of the past***.
Yesterday while having snack me,my siblings and my mother are having chitchats,so while eating our snacks my daughter is somehow complaining about the food she is eating and starts to asked for a different type of food begging me to change her snack.So that is the time I told my daughter that she should be contented with the food served on the table right at that very moment.She should be grateful that somehow she can have snack aside from eating 3 complete meals in a day.
Part of disciplinary action done my most mom's like me is setting our past experiences as examples to make our kids understand that they are beyond blessed not to experience what we've been through.And that makes me understand my mother why she keeps on having ***glimpse of her past*** whenever she disciplines us.
While my daughter complains about the food she eats(she's eating ice cream anyway,cookies and cream and chocolate flavored ice cream).My mom have heard her and there she goes to her way of lecturing.She said "Lucky you are that you can eat such at your young age,when you're mom is your age they won't be able to tasted good food not unless there is a special occasion.When I buy them snacks good for 1week I make sure it will last the whole week,while you,your mother always buy you food but instead of having them for the week you wanted to finish them all in a day or two.What do you think of your parents?,rich?,they can buy you good food everyday?
I was like Oh my here she goes again lecturing my 4year old daughter haha.While listening to them I also had some glimpse of our past experiences.I shared to my daughter how our life has been and what are the sacrifices we have made when we are still studying.
Like what I've shared before I sometimes go to school with an empty stomach and pennyless that I pity myself specially when I see how my classmates eat plenty of food because they are capable to buy in our school canteen.Then my mom added that during their time she go back and forth to school walking Kilometers rain or shine.She only have 2pesos allowance per day that she save some for her papers and other materials needed for her projects.Words I've been hearing for so many years and I can say I memorized it already and I,I am keeping them as reminder that I am blessed beyond.
I also shared to my daughter that we experienced eating plain rice no viand worst we need to skip a meal because we have nothing to feast on the table.And anothe memory played back in my mind,it was so heartbreaking that when we asked for help from our relatives they can't share anything,to think that in times that it was us who have more than enough we share.One of the lessons I also learned.To keep something for yourself so when shortage of budget comes you have something to save your needs.It is good to give but it is better to secure your future.Need to prioritize the family first before anybody else.
And those glimpse of the past serves are motivation for me to work hard and make ways to earn while being a hands on wife and mother.I want to make a difference in the way we live.I want to provide the needs of my kids and give them their wants as long as it is reasonable and I can afford to pamper them.I don't wanna spoiled them I want them to realize that the things we give them are their rewards for being good.
We all deserve to be happy,and be rewarded,hard earned rewards are worth all the effort.This are just of the glimpse we had in the past hope you enjoyed reading.You can leave comments here and share some of your experiences.I would love read them too.
Owh while doing this article something went wrong to the server that caused too much traffic good this it is fine now.
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Beyond flaws and imperfections.
Holy Monday my dear friends in read cash.11th day of April my 7th Article for this month.I used to write articles this time of the night because my braincells seems to function well when I am at peace.My princesses are already asleep while my husband is still browsing on his phone.He used to watch some episodes of either One Piece or Detective Conan.While me,I am busy checking all my earning apps to see what I can do to earn more that can be added to my savings.As much as possible I don't want to spend part of my earnings.Saving them for unexpected expenses.
While thinking about what to publish I remember an article I've read written by @alicecalope entitled insecurities.So to make it little different I used the word flaws and imperfections.
During my younger years I have low self-esteem and self confidence.I have dark skin tone and as reached my adolescence I had pimple breakouts and upto this age pimple is one of the cause of insecurities.I feel less beautiful because of them,reason why I don't mingle a lot with my classmates before.Only few whom I know will not judge me and accept my "ugliness".
While studying I feel insecure because I am in a private school wherein most of my classmates are capable of buying all of their needs and want.They can have fun and jam together after school because they have extra money to spend.Unlike me who sometimes go to school pennyless,and there were days I go with an empty stomach.Such a pity situation I don't want my kids to ever experience.I guess it's more of envious feeling than being insecure.
I know to myself that I am flawed and have lots of imperfections.Good thing is my family is always there to uplift me.And what made me happy the most is when my ex-boyfriend showered me so much love making me feel that I am beautiful and beyond perfect in his eyes.Everytime we go out together as he holds my hands I feel so confident as if I am too beautiful to be cared for that much.When it comes to attitude there were time I have mood swings that I got angry and jealous for no reasons and I admire how he handles me,he patiently manage to adjust.Well everything is worth it Naman because he is now my husband for 5years and counting.
I had more insecurities after giving birth that I myself do body shaming to my own body.I loose confidence because I gained weight I almost reached 60Kg.Pimple breakouts,stretch marks on my tummy,my thighs,my arms even in my breast.I also had dark underarms (pati mga singit singit ko dai after manganak di na naglighten ulit).Now that my second born is 14months old I planned to do the "Balik-Alindog" (trying to regain my confidence).
I had my hair rebonded which I shared in my previous article.I am now using a rejuvenating product hoping I can get rid of my pimple marks and lessen the occurrence of those big pimples/acne.I also loose weight from 60Kg I am now weighing 51Kg.Somehow I can feel the improvement.
I am now gaining my confidence back and started to look on the positive side of my life, reminding myself how blessed I am.How my husband and my kids make me feel loved.May kilig factor pa nga kapag pinupuna ni mister yung changes sa appearance ko and how he compliments my looks.I can feel those butterflies everytime he teases me, he sometimes whisper in my ears some sweet word and naughty jokes(married couples can relate haha).At night,I sometimes wear a little seductive but not so revealing clothes to see how he would react and I find it cute when he doesn't know how to put the kids to sleep,how excited he was to do that thing "you know couples do".Those intimate moments boost my confidence more because I love how my husband make me feel that he truly loves me *****beyond my flaws and imperfections.*****
I had a great time writing this one and I hope you enjoyed reading as well.
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Promises
Palm Sunday today my dear friends and most of Chritians became busy because this day serves as preparation for the Holy week.10th day of April,this would be my 6th article for this month.I failed to publish an article last night because I felt too tired and sleepy,I even woke up late earlier around 7:00AM.
Election is the hottest and most trending news nowadays.We can hear a lot of good promises from the aspiring candidates.It was so pleasing to hear them tackle their plans for the betterment of our society,of our country.Honestly UpTo this day I am undecided who to vote for the upcoming election and some might laugh at me but I only know few among the senatorial candidates and I am not interested to know all of them.Even candidates for higher positions I only know those who are often seen on Philippines television.
As they make promises so pleasing in our ears I am quite disappointed when they keep on trying to pull down their opponents. Isn't it better if they would just build up themselves,prove their points and convince the people to vote for them because they deserve to be chosen not because their opponents haven't done anything good base on their opinions.Those who humble themselves are the ones who are raised/lifted.
Everytime I attend some meetings where in aspirants are detailing their plans for our town a part of me is convinced and amazed by the way they talk and explain their platforms.Most of the promises they give are about health, education, work/livelihood projects.
***Health:***
All of them promises free consultations,free medicines,zero hospital bill specially for indigents.District hospital in our town that provide better medical care for us and next coming generation.Some of these are already existing health benefits given only the building of new district hospital is what we are rooting for because it was promised by the current city mayor yet he failed to fulfill his promise.And that is one of the agendas his opponents throw on him.
***Education:***
Free education for all and financial assistance for extra school expenses and transportation allowance.Anyone can avail as long as they are determined to finish their college.This is what I wanted to be implemented.Because I myself wants to continue my studies even though I'm in my mid30's.All aspirants have this as part of their future plans.And if,if they can fulfill this promise I wanted to be one of their scholars, honestly.They say they will build a campus extension in our town so transportation won't be a hustle or be one of the hindrance due to lack of transpo allowance.Another promise given by the current administration he failed to fulfill,haist.
***Livelihood projects:***
Our town is one of the most ideal place for investors who wants to start a new business or build extension for their existing businesses or company.Reason why the municipality earns huge amount from them.As the number of new company arises we expect more employment but unfortunately people of our town are less prioritized,So as part of aspirants promises,They say that they will make sure to make zero unemployment record,like how on earth can they do that.
It is said that promises are made to be broken.So why make a promise haha.For me honestly if they really wanted to help the people of their own town they can still do it even if they are not into the world of politics.Some are just aiming for power and control.Things that makes me think about who really deserves my vote.
The Future of our town,of our country in on our vote,So we better vote wisely and don't look after the money you can received from each political aspirants before election,better visualize the future that awaits us after we have chosen who lead our town/city , who will lead our country and represent to the whole world.Its easy to make promises just to satisfy the ears of the voters.We should be wise.
How about you guys have you decided who to vote this coming May 9?
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Is it good to be too practical
How are you today my dear friends in read cash?It's Friday today another week is about to end.Time flies so fast that this coming Sunday Christians are about to start the Holy Week.(Bendita palaspas na sa Sunday).
Anyway I just wanna share some thoughts I have about being practical.(bukambibig ito ng mga mommies eh sa panahon ngayon dapat praktikal).
But does being practical do you good most of the time? Because for me personally it depends upon the situation.Being practical is good as long as it is will result into something better and will cause no harm and without taking forgranted ones happiness.
***Is it practical to choose a man with stable life over the man you truly love?***
This is the common advice I hear from my workmates before, specially from those who already have their own family and experiencing financial problems because they can't aid all their needs.They usually say choose a man who can give you a comfortable life,be practical.Then I'll ask them why is it so easy for them to advice me that way when they haven't applied it to their selves.Their reply would be,if they can only turn back time haha.I bet saying such words is too easy but once the heart decided who to love you will forget the word practical because the happiness of genuine love is immeasurable and priceless.Nowadays both partners should work hand in hand,and it's better to build a comfortable life together.(Pero wag bulag sa pag-ibig sis kapag alam mong walang pangarap sa buhay think twice haha,good for you if you can change his perspective once you allowed him to be a part of your life).
***Is it practical to tighten up your budget too much because you are preparing for a feast when you are expecting for a special occasion?***
Some Filipinos mentality that I really don't admire.I have nothing against them because it's their own choice.I was just wondering what for?What is the use of feeding others with so much food and having fun for a day then you have nothing left the next day,worst is you have debts to pay.I was raised by mom with practical mentality too.But when it comes to the food we serve on our table everyday,if we have enough money to buy healthy foods then go on.And if we are expecting for special occasions and we want to celebrate we allot money for it,if we don't have extra money then we will have an intimate celebration.To be complete as a family is enough and whatever food is served we will all be grateful.During the feast of our Patron Saint we don't invite because we don't prepare so much.A thanksgiving is enough.No need for festive celebration then nganga after the occasion haha.(tulaley).
***Is it practical to be too practical about everything?***
I asked this question because sometimes I am getting into a situation where in I want to buy something or go somewhere but when I found out how much it will costs me I would instantly change my mind and say to myself that it is not practical to spend a certain amount for such thing.But on the other side a part of regrets of not doing what I first wanted to do.That is where the phrase "If only" follows haha.
I remember when I was still studying and we have some school outings/tour.I will inform my mom about it then she would ask me if I'll be going,my reply would be "wag na ma,sayang ang pera ipandagdag mo nlang sa panggastos natin"(no need ma,just save the money for our daily expenses).I thought that is the best thing to do at my early age.But honestly deep inside me "gustung-gusto ko sumama ma kaso alam kong hindi yun kasama sa budget natin"(I really wanted to go but I know it is not included in our budget).The next day after the tour and all my classmates are talking about their experiences I feel envious,I can't relate because I wasn't there.So now that I'm a mom I am trying to save extra money.My first born is now schooling and I want her to enjoy every tour they'll be having.I want her to explore with her classmates as long as it is for their own good.
It is not practical to be too practical specially when your happiness is at stake.There should always be caution,put some boundaries and limitations when we are doing some decisions in life.Learn from the past haha.
How about you guys,what is your insight about being practical?
Hope you Appreciate the thoughts I have shared.I wishing you productive weekends ahead.Holy week is approaching.Sana I set aside muna ang political agendas at makapagmuni-muni ang lahat.Happy weekends.
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Declutter
Happy Thursday my dear friends here in read cash.7th day of April,my 4th article for this month.And I am going to share about decluttering.
Since my baby girl is growing too fast all the Newborn clothes and stuffs must be decluttered.I've been keeping them in a box and some are stored in bags.
Luckily my youngest sister got the result of her ultrasound for their 3rd baby and the good news is....it's a girl woohoo.They already have two boys so they prayed too hard to have a baby girl for their third blessing.Obviously its an answered prayer.And we are all too excited and happy for her.She can now be ligated,now that they have 2boys and a girl.3Kids are enough nowadays so they can give them good life they deserve.
All the cute little clothes I separated when I decluttered the stuff of princesses will be given the upcoming niece.I have kept lots of Newborndresses and clothes and accessories as well.I will also give to them the blanket with monthly milestone design which I ordered online.
Keeping all those girlie stuffs is worth it because a new little princess will inherit.I can see the genuine happiness of my youngest sister now that she is expecting for a baby girl.She can now have her mini-me.I can feel the excitement because she is too fond of my daughters.The moment she knew she was pregnant she keeps on uttering that she wants a baby girl this time.
I haven't taken any photos of the things I decluttered because I already placed them in a bag.Few months from now I'll be decluttering again.And I will give them all to the 3rd princess in our growing family.
I am also planning to organize our clothes,mine and my hubby's stuffs.I will dispose our old clothes that we are not using anymore because they are space consuming.There is no harm in removing some not so useful stuffs anymore.It is a relief to lessen all those kept unused clothes.Maybe I can turn them to money buy selling them LOL.(uso Naman ang ukay/thrifted clothes na binebenta online).Or maybe I can give them to my cousins or relatives who has the same body built as my Husband's.
I am keeper, sometimes my husband is questioning me for keeping even old receipts,piece of paper with a design,and some wrappers that I think I can use for future reference.And there are times I do,I have used some of them with my daughter's activity in school.But he is right I need to change that habit because our room is starting to be messed up with the stuffs I am keeping and collecting LOL.I need to dispose a lot of things and I will start clearing our cabinets and drawers first hihi.
How about you my friends,Do you often do decluttering?Me kasi so seldom that I do.Mapanghinayang kasi ako sa mga bagay-bagay specially when it has a sentimental value.Actually I've been keeping some birthday cards from my previous workmates when I am still working.I also have some old pictures from my highschool friends.And everytime I happened to see those stuffs I am having short time travels because I was reminded of all the things I've done and experienced years ago.
Well it's getting late here and all my house mates are already sleeping.I should go to sleep too because tomorrow is another busy day.Gotta wake up by 5AM to start my wifey routine and a whole day to do mother's task.
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Good night sweeties.
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Owh anyways is there anyone here who knows how to declutter pimples or should I say how get rid of them.I am in my mid30's yet I am struggling getting rid of them haha.They love me too much that they stay.
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I rewarded myself
***A gloomy Wednesday my dear friends here in read cash.Today is 6th day of April.This will be my 3rd article for this month and I am trying to stay active.I'll do my best to publish an article a day as much as I can.As long as braincells are functioning well and I am not yet sleepy.During this time of the night that I can be active here to read some articles and start typing to publish one if I have a topic to tackle.***
So earlier this morning I've been busy doing my daily routines,from preparing meals(baon ni habibi) upto clearing the kitchen,then prepare breakfast for the kids and for myself as well.Today is the I scheduled to give myself a little treat from what I have earned in the online apps and sites I am in to to earn money.I have saved some for unexpected expenses and some for self reward hihi.
I and my sister agreed to have our hair rebonded. Hers was rebonded 2years ago while mine took 4years and a half before I decided to have it rebonded again.At the first touch of the person who will do the rebounding,she already said my hair is still virgin (not exposed to any hair chemicals).Oh my it's only my hair that is virgin haha and I am not for I already have 2 cuties.
So they started to apply the treatment around 9:20am,while waiting for the medicine to penetrate I played smart.joystick.club in my metamask.JOY value doubled but the JOY rewards given after playing lessen.I usually get 10JOY before but just recently that I received 1.25JOY LOL.
So playing lessens the boredom of waiting for the treatment to penetrate in our hair.From time to time we also had conversations with the person rebonding our hair.
Hair is considered to be our crowning glory so it's a plus factor specially for us women to have a beautifully grown hair.Much to my desire to maintain my natural hair I failed because it is ruined after giving birth to my second born.I had a terrible hair fall.The little hair that regrows are waivy and frizzy.Reason why I am convinced by my younger sissy to have it rebonded.
And yeah it is so true,having beautiful hair can boost confidence.I can feel that my looks improved 30%more LOL.I feel like it somehow made me look beautiful.A fulfilling feeling of rewarding myself with this.Being a mother doesn't mean you should focus taking good care of your husband and your kids.Nothing is wrong in taking good care of yourself too.One of this days I'll visit my auntie to have my toe nails Pedicured hihi.
As wife and mother we should keep ourself happy and satisfied.We should ensure that we are physically, emotionally and spiritually healthy so we can accomplish all our duty.It is also best to be financially healthy LOL,money affects the mood of every mother,and no one has the right to act hypocrite and say it is OK to be pennyless hahaha.It was stressful to budget.
Anyways the money I used for my self reward is just a Kurot to my savings.I saved all my accumulated earnings here(read cash),in noisecash,metamask and other online raket.(Raketerang-ina Ako mga sis).So if you can share some other earning sites and apps I am more interested haha.As I've said before I have a goal that I want to fulfill,so I will continue to find ways earning even if I am just at home,on-hand with taking good care of husband and kids.
By the way about our kiddos,we left them to my mother dear.And she agreed to watch over her apo's(grandchildren)while me and my sister pamper ourselves.Feeling dalaga ang hair ko ngayon.Hair lang naman.
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Another day ended,May we all fall sound asleep.Tomorrow is another day.Good night my friends.Good morning to the other side of the world.
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Little memories before I turned 25
*A rainy day here in our place.It's been raining since last night and I just love the cuddle weather.My two princesses keeps on drawing near me and they took all the space that my husband can't do anything but to keep a distance from us haha.I am in between my two girls.They both want to sleep beside me*.
I've seen this from @McJulez and I got interested to make an article and share my own experiences.I used the same question I only edited the pic I clipped in Logo Maker.So here are some of my answers in "***Have you ever done this before 25?"***
***Living by yourself***
Well yeah I experienced living by myself when I worked away from our hometown.I just found new family by heart with the boarders who also rent in the boarding house where I used to stay.I learned how to budget my personal finances and even managed to send some to my family.Being independent is really great.Making decisions on your own and whatever the results or consequences of your actions you have no one to blame but yourself.It was just quite hard when you experienced being sick,that is the moment you will miss your mother the most.The love and care of mother is incomparable and immeasurable.It brings comfort hearing them and knowing they care hihi.
*Solo trip*
I haven't tried it yet even until now that I have matured.I can go to places alone but never to a trip wherein I can have my ME time to unwind and relax alone.I still enjoy being with families or friends.And I think I will never experience such moment because now that I am a wife and a mom I always think of traveling with them one of this days.I am setting that as a goal,when we have extra budget that can be allotted for leisure.Oh well I would love to have a travel with my husband,sort of honeymoon 2.0 haha.I dreamt of that and I want to claim it one day it'll happen.
***Hiking mountain***
I have tried it with a suitor before.But we didn't reached the peak of the mountain because the weather didn't allow us to.We are warned by the guide,so for our safety we decided not to continue and headed back.We just took few shots with nature and stayed a little while to where we stop after we are warned not to continue the trekking.(from time to time kasi kumukulimlim at iniiwasan nila Ang biglaang pag-ulan,magiging madulas at maputik ang daraanan)
Anyways I dumped the guy I am with here,not because I don't like him but simply because I can't feel those butterflies haha.(Walang spark teh kahit na binigyan ko ng chance,Ang hina ng connection)
***Cooked dishes for family***
A lot of times that I've cooked dishes for my family.At my young age I learned basic cooking because I am interested in it.Before 25 I know how to cook Adobo,Sinigang,Nilaga and other home dish my mom usually cooks.When she is busy doing something I'll be the one who will get incharged in the kitchen.So until now they are rooting for my cooking.Its me who cooks often.
***Give a gift to parents***
Definitely.In my own little ways I see to it that I give them some token of appreciation since the day that I worked.I save some from my earnings so I can buy them simple gifts during special occasions.I am not able to give them a luxurious life but I make sure that they can feel how much I appreciate them and how grateful I am to be their daughter.
Even up to this day I always think what gift to give them during their birthdays.
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My parents are not emotionally binded for they've been thru a marriage shaking situation.They got separated before.My grandfather just asked them to talk and give it a second try but their marriage was broken.They still live under the same roof but not in the same room.So civil,and from time to time they argue that we their children meddle,for them to stop pointless debates that only waste their time and energy.(di na sila bumabata,Ang hirap on our part na Wala kang mkampihan dahil Wala kang dapat kampihan)
Oh my I think I have shared beyond the answers to the questions haha.But,yeah those are part of the life I had and the life I am still dealing with right now.And as the eldest daughter I feel responsible for keeping the peace and harmony in our house so I can say it is still a HOME.
One of the reasons why I am trying my best to earn and save.I want to have enough money for us to leave and cleave.I want a healthier and livelier HOME for my kids.I don't want to expose them to the life I've lived for how many years.
I hope you enjoyed reading some of my ganap in life.Have a blessed day my friends
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Is she ready for her assessment.
Just this morning we went to School to return her week 25 Learning Module.Her teacher reminded me to review her because they will be having some assessments before their moving up.(My gosh I can't believe that I now have a daughter preparing for her moving up.We are weeks away from successfully finishing a year of modular learning.All the fun and arguments we shared together are resulting into something good, specially on her part as a kid)
*Good morning my co readcashers.As another week started may we all have a productive week ahead.I just wanna share some moments of our lives as Mother and daughter who becomes teacher-student while doing her modules.*
***Basic Learnings***
Basic learnings are about alphabets and numbers.Common for parents like us to teach them this basics at home.And it is quite easy because kids loves to watch YT.I am pretty confident that she knows all the Alphabets and Numbers 1-20.She even know how to count objects,its just that she often skip the 15th number LOL.Shapes and colors are quite easy for her too.Same as the fruits and vegetables,Animals and their sounds up to their habitats.
The only problem we encounter most of the time is her mood swings.Whenever she is not in the mood to write we always argue.I need to explain to her again and again that during face to face classes she can't make any excuse not to do the tasks given by her teacher.She need to follow right away.
***Reading and spelling***
This is the hard part because she always makes excuses whenever I am lecturing her about reading.If I'll show her a word and ask her to spell it,she can.Telling her what word it is and remind her to remember how the word is written,but she will eventually forget after few hours (tsk,tsk,tsk).She is more of illustrations,that is how she can easily learn so in my part I need to do more research and look for illustrations that make her easily understand the lessons we have.At home YES I can do those patiently,But how about in school?Kids in school have different levels of knowledge and understanding,and that worries me somehow.
I have shared it here before how she loves Arts.But learning is not all about arts so I keep on stressing it out on her that she needs to learn how to follow instructions.And she should try her very best to know basic readings.Teaching her the phonic sounds is a struggle.She doesn't pay attention that I almost lose my temper.Now that I am informed about the assessment we should strive harder.I should elongate my temperance.
Having a kid to supervise on her modular class and a 1years old baby is a not as easy as 123 haha.
*****Is she ready for her assessment?*****
I will do my very best to prepare her and make her ready for her assessment.Since some videos are posted in a group we have in my other social media account I will make her watch them again to refresh her.I'll test her myself to see what she have learned in the past 25 weeks that we have gone through.And if there are some that she forgets,I will teach her again and tell her that she needs to bear them all in her mind.She needs to understand that in order for her to learn she should be attentive.I am not forcing her to be the best in their batch of modular learners in K1.I want her to study well not to impress anyone but her to learn and not become ignorant.Learning nowadays is a must,in order for us to get along with the flow of life.
I wish us luck for her coming assessment and whatever is the outcome I will always find ways to help her in her learning activities.Guide her to her journey for she or we are just about to start.
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Anyways I am looking for sponsors but I don't know how, I've been checking all the settings but until now I don't know what to click haha.Whenever I click the "Get Sponsor" an article will show up and upon reading it and following some instructions given,still I can't open the block for sponsorships huhu.
Is it Worth it to continue?
Good day my friends,So tonight another month was about to end,expect it tomorrow that a lot of franks or April fools will be posted for the whole month of April.Honestly I am running out of ideas what topic I should use so I can be able to publish new articles.I am now asking myself if "Is it worth it to continue?".Just like the picture in my lead image (credit to Unsplash).I am about to get drowned,but still striving to survive haha.
Nah.I don't know if it is worth it but I will still continue to try.If ever my article would attract readers then congrats to me and if not I'll give myself a tap on my shoulder(at least you've done your best self) LOL.But seriously, I am really rooting for a topic that is really worth sharing,even though I have read a lot of articles,still I think something is missing, in what particular part?I really don't know.I am just not contented with the thoughts and ideas popping up in my head,my braincells are draining everytime I am thinking about it,so I just stop and get back to reading other articles here.Most of the topics I have read seems to be related to the authors personal life,which was actually what happens to me,with the articles I have posted before, almost all of them are also based on my personal life and opinions.
While reading some articles ideas would pop up into my mind but will eventually slipped off because it seems like I won't be able to create a 4min read article,my knowledge about it doesn't seem be enough.There were time I want to challenge myself with the prompt I have read then I would end up setting it aside again,thinking readers might get bored bumping into same article content,the only difference is that answering prompt are really based on the writers personal opinions.
I have dreamed of becoming a writer before,wishing one day in my life I will be making some series just like what I usually read on pocketbooks.Imagining that one day I can publish such worth reading stories.But here I am now with just simple 4min read articles I am already out of ideas,I am having a hard time ,taking hours staring at my phone start typing then after a paragraph I would decide to delete everything again haha.I admire those who never fails to publish at least one article per day.And everytime I encounter English words I haven't heard before makes me tap my google and search for its meaning haha.Perks of not being able to finish college to earn a degree (haist proud homekananay here haha ).I am only into basic english.Good thing gadgets were created so I can somehow explore and easily do research about things that seems to be quite hard to understand.Google is my savior specially when it come to my daughters school activities,and when she is asking out of the box questions,google to the rescue.
I have also seen some who uses the national language of Filipinos,at time I am motivated to write in Filipino language but I keep on thinking about what topic? Soon I know I can do it (gusto ko talaga magtry magpublish ng Tagalog pero ako mismo nakukulangan minsan kung makakahook ba atensyon ng readers kung gagawa ako ng Filipino article).Nowadays google translation is a big help when a writer uses native language.Modern technology really eases a lot of things for us.
Back to my question.Is it worth it to continue?I hope someone here can uplift my moral in terms of writing.And I am really looking forward for meeting someone here who can help me out.Someone who will give me some pointers or ideas how I can continue publish more.I would be really glad if one day I can be like you guys making an article or two within a day. And I really commend your skills,how you are able to express your thoughts.
Hope everyone here had a fulfilling month of March and may God (and your God) shower us grace and guidance as we welcome another month hours from now.Goodnight from my side of the globe.Hope you appreciate the thoughts I have shared huhu.
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2days Spent in Tarlac
Happy weekend guys.I hope everyone had a great weekend.My family spent our weekend here in my husband's hometown.I don't know why but it seems like my recent posts are not that catchy,but still I will try my best to publish articles until some will pay attention and take time to read.I also don't have any sponsor.I think something is still missing on my recent articles LOL.But as they say try and try.Sooner or later I can be better.
**Feast day**
It is St.Joseph feast day March 19.Unlike the usual festive celebration,this year is a simple thanksgiving.The people of San Jose prepared less food than the usual.The fiesta here in Lapaz Tarlac is same day celebrated in our Barangay in Pampanga because we have the same patron.But my mother doesn't cook and invite colleagues.She treats it as an ordinary day since the day her mother passed away.Plus the fact that she is too practical.Preparing a festive table in a day is not enough to measure one's faith and belief.And it is pointless to feed a lot of people in a day and being left with nothing the next day,or worst is having debt just to have something to serve with visitors/guests.
So my husband decided to take a day leave from work so we can head home to his hometown.We traveled from 5:00am to 7:30am using a tricycle.Along with us is my sister from Laguna with her son,they wanted to visit places they've never been before so they come with us.
As we travel the kids gets hungry.They didn't like the bread and biscuits I prepared.We passed by a Jollibee drive thru and ordered food to ease their hunger.I just ordered yum burger for me and my husband and 1piece chicken joy meal for the kids.So we arrived safe by 7:30am.When we arrived breakfast is served,rice,fried dried fish, fried eggs and fried eggplant with fried rice as well.
Then after few hours of rest we visit some of my husband's relatives to make mano (Filipino way of showing respect to elders).Since it's their fiesta they serve us different kinds of food but we only ate a little since we already had our breakfast.I ate Biko and kapit.
This is one of what I usually missed here.A lot of food is served.Their specialties and how they accommodate visitors.Fiesta is one of Filipinos believers way of giving thanks to their Patron Saint and to the Almighty for all the graces they received all year round.
Later in the afternoon we brought the kids into the park so they can enjoy playing.But the weather didn't let them.It rained while they are enjoying so we urgently ride the tricycle and headed home.
So early this morning we bring them back to the park,right after we visit the tomb of my in-laws.They played in the slide,in the swing and even in the barracks.They also walked around as if the sun wasn't hot as it touches their skin.We also went to the wet market afterwards to buy viand for lunch.
First time that I ever cooked abro.I cooked moringga fruit before but with chicken and sweet potato.Here they usually cook moringga fruit with other vegetables then they will add fermented fish (bagoong isda,alubebe in our native language) and it tasted better when you add little sourness from tamarind.I also cooked fish Sinigang for the kids.Seldom I do the cooking here in Tarlac so I somehow enjoyed doing it for them.Usually when we visit here they don't even want us to lay fingers in the kitchen or do any house chores.I am happy that they enjoyed the lunch served.Everyone ate a lot to their fullness.
Later in the afternoon we visit my daughter's godfather and our wedding godmother as well.2days was not enough for us to visit all the persons my husband cares for.My husband is treated like a son by almost all of his relatives and neighbors because he is nice to them as well.I am flattered on how they would praise him in his kindness.And I am happier to hear them say he is younger looking now,not directly but it sounds like my husband is properly taken good care of (by me hahaha).Another good job for me LOL.
Anyways tomorrow we will head back to Pampanga because I need to submit my daughter's module.And my husband will work halfday if we can't be home before 7am.
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So this is how we spent our weekend here in Tarlac.How about you guys what did you do this weekend?
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Death Anniversary
It's been 17years since my mother's mom departed.I still remember how painful it feels because I used to stay with them when I was young.Every school break I would spend it in the farm.I guess that is the reason why my body clock ticks too early.
Spending vacation with my grandparents every summer has left a lot of beautiful memories for me.(Iba kasi yung discipline during their time,yung ramdam mong mahal ka nila kaya ka nila dinidisiplina.And hindi fear kundi respect yung dahilan kaya we listen and follow their house rules).Early to bed early to rise.My Lola(grandma) cooks as early as 4 in the afternoon,by 5pm dinner is served and 6pm is for my Lola's novena time.Before 7 we should be in bed to sleep.At 4AM you can already here utensils in the kitchen,Lola is preparing for breakfast.I will also wake up early and join Lolo (grandpa) extract milk from his carabao,harvest fresh fruits from trees around their house.Staying in the farm is so relaxing and everything is fresh and organic.We can even sell fresh fruits and vegetables harvested from the farm,carabaos milk too.
What I love the most is breathing in clean air, enjoying the view of the field.When rice is harvested and the field is dry we freely play,flying kites, tumbling on the hay, running in the middle of the field with my cousins.This is where I also learn to climb trees though I have the fear of heights.When I am in too high place as I look down I will start trembling and felt nervous.So for me to lessen the fear,I avoid looking down as much as I can.A lot of beautiful memories was created in my younger years every summer vacation.I loved the simplicity of life in the farm,so farm from stress of school days.
Everything shattered when my grandma died.It really feels different when it is the mother that leaves the family first.Yes it seems like I lost a mom.It was so painful.I even skipped my class for a week because of what happened.I am graduating then and our final exams is scheduled,but I didn't take the exams on time.Good thing my teachers allowed me take special exams when I am finally OK but not totally fine emotionally.It takes years before I totally recovered.And from then on I didn't spend summer in the farm.We just pay grandpa a visit every weekend if we have time.
So this afternoon we decided to visit grandma's tomb in the memorial park.My aunties and cousins are also there,we bring foods and candles.Have some chitchatting about life and stories from yesterday's memory.Mostly memories of my beloved Lola.Her favorite foods, favorite lines,her do's and dont's during her time.I don't wanna sound bias but the love we really have for our mothers is different.It is too deep and sincere.Maybe because we can feel the unconditional love they can give.A mother can sacrifice even her own happiness just to make her kids and husband happy and satisfied.
So here is my youngest, enjoying our visit in the memorial park.I keep on chasing after her because she is walking around as if he was in a playground.My eldest daughter is already busy playing with her 2nd cousins.It was just a short while but I am happy for the little talks and reminiscing the memories of my Lola.How about you guys,how do you deal with death anniversaries of your departed lovedones?Well I know some with different beliefs doesn't pay a visit to departed lovedones right at the very moment they send them to their last destination.
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It's Friday today so happy weekend everyone.I and my family with visit my in-laws in Tarlac tomorrow.Praying for our safe travels.My sister wanna come with us.She also wanted to visit in Tarlac before they will head back in Laguna.
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I had so much for today
Being a housewife and a mom is said to be toughest yet most rewarding job ever.No day-offs,no pause,and no salary but still everything is worth it.To be a hands-on wife and mom requires a lot of patience LOL.A mother can be a teacher,teaching good values and literally speaking now we are in modular class I am my first born's teacher.A doctor,with simple home remedies and a magical touch of a loving mother it eases the kids simple cough and colds and some minor illness that can be cured at home.An accountant (stressful haha) who monitor and controls the budget and finance.Stressful when you don't have enough to money budget huhu.A phycologist,in terms of our kids attitude a mom has this mother's instinct,even if the spouse and kids won't say anything just based on their actions and behavior mom can feel when something is going on.And mother's instinct is 90-99% accurate LOL.And a lot more a mom can be.
I had so much for today.I only come up to this title because I have done a lot since morning.
**Preparing for my husband's baon (packed meals)**
I woke up early to cook and prepare my husband's packed breakfast and lunch,I also add some fried banana which will serve as his snack.Well he brings coffee and some biscuits too, reason why I make sure to have stocks in the pantry.Along with my husband's meals I also prepare for our breakfast,so when the kids are awake I can easily feed them.
Doing the laundry
I usually do the laundry every friday but out of schedule I need to do it today because I need to change the beddings and my daughter's blanket.Due to too much play she gets tired and peed (urinate) on her pajama,her blanket and foam cover get wet too so I have no choice but to washed them.Since the weather is fine I also included our clothes in the laundry.Indeed a tiring laundry day.
Taking good care of the kids
As a homebased momma,I need to make sure my kids are doing fine,even if I have lots of house chores to do and need to attend to their needs,plus the fact that my 1st born is in modular class.From time to time I need to supervised her in her modular activities.I am also a breastfeeding momma so when my youngest is hungry I need to stop what I am doing and feed her.Reason why it takes me a day to finish the laundry LOL.
**Unexpected betrayal**
To be betrayed by your own brother really hurts and I am so disappointed in him.After such tiring day I have known that he has done unfair and unjust thing that I don't want to elaborate further,all I know right now is,it is more painful that your own family can betray you.Can't think of any reason why he has done it,I am praying he will change for the better,not for us but for himself.
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I am supposed to publish this yesterday ,because I experienced all this 16th day of March.I started writing afternoon,but unable to finish it because I am out of focus when I've learned about what my brother just did.It is just now that I had the time to finish it.It is quite brain draining when you're emotionally hurt.
But all praise to God and his mercy.I am also grateful He created me optimistic about the situations I encounter.No matter how problematic I am at some point in my life I still choose to look at the brighter side.
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It feels good to be the youngest
I am the eldest among five.
Yeah I am the eldest among five and almost all the responsibilities are on me.The high expectations as well.The pressure is on me too.Being the eldest of course my siblings look up on me,so I should be a good example for them.But I am not born perfect so I sometimes do nasty things too.I am trying my best to be the good ate(elder sister).As much as I can I want my siblings to feel that "Hey I got you",quite hard and makes me pressured during our younger years.My parents have high expectations too but to think they weren't able to support me in my studies before I definitely failed in finishing my studies.Still I worked hard to earn money and support them financially and upto now that I am married and with two kids.I see to it that I can share something to them.Not because it is an obligation.For me it is a form of gratitude.I am no one if not because of them.My 2sisters have their own family as well.Right now me and our second eldest do some online earnings,it is our youngest sister who struggle a little in terms of financial.So as her ate's (older sisters) we help her the best way we can.My 2 younger brothers are both single,one is working in a construction while the other (our bunso/youngest) is not working,for whatever reason he has he doesn't apply for new job since he got terminated from work year 2020 during the surge of pandemic.I sometimes fall into overthinking when our family is having financial problem.Simply because we can't rely on our relatives.When they are in need and we have extra money we lend them but when it is us who experience shortage of budget as if we are in the dead-end LOL.There were times that our friends helps us.So now I am grateful that somehow me and my sister are able to earn through online,just like this platform and noisecash as well.
I am an NBSB until I reached 24,I said before my ideal age to get married is 25 but my first relationship is failed.Until I meet my second ex-boyfriend, now my husband haha.I thought my first would be the last,but it didn't work.Grateful I am that my path was lead to my loving husband.
He is the youngest among six.
My husband is the youngest so everyone in his family really cares about his decisions in life.At first they are hesitant of allowing him to have me,aside from the fact I am 3years older that him(which I already shared here before that I am rejecting him but he still pursued me and proved his love, ayieh) they haven't known me yet.Thanks God my husband love me that much that he showed his family that he is serious in choosing me as his betterhalf.
*****It really feels good to be the youngest*****
Whenever we pay a visit or 1week vacation in my husband's province everything turns 180° .With my family we are the eldest because I am the eldest among my siblings,so when we are with his family we are the youngest.The feeling of being the youngest is so great far different from who I a really am in my own family.It feels so good to have kuya's(older brothers) and ate's(older sisters).(Ang sarap sa feeling ng nabebaby paminsan-minsan.haha).And his siblings sends us support even if we didn't asked to,once in a while they will send little amount for the kids.
That is why I love having vacation in my husband's province.I am more relaxed and at peace.We can't stay there for good right now because his work is in our place.And we somehow get used in living here.But one of our future plan is to settle in their province for good.We only need to wait for the perfect timing.The fact that being the youngest his siblings are convincing us to stay in my parents in law's house.Both my father and mother in-law already passed away,and his brother who's still single stays in the house.Soon I guess we will get there.For now we're doing good here.
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If he can assure us not to experience Agony.
Who would love to be in agony?
No one.Definitely no one would love to be in agony.But it is somehow a part of our "normal" life.The mental suffering during the times we experienced unbearable problems.Those sleepless nights we encounter thinking how to surpass the tests of time.Sometimes it is us who place ourselves in agony.Overthinking about the possible cause and effects of situations we are facing.
***What makes me say "If he can assure us not to experience agony"***
I have a diabetic father,his sugar level even reached 300+ isn't that alarming? Well it is in our bloodline actually which makes me afraid of having the same illness.I've been a GDM(Gestational Diabetes Mellitus)momma twice,so I am more prone of having type 2 diabetes if I will not be cautious about my health.
My grandmother,uncle and aunty died due to diabetes.My aunty even underwent dialysis but it didn't saved her from death.My uncle refused the dialysis treatment because he knows he will still die soon,and he doesn't want his family to suffer and be left with maraming utang.My grandmother became health cautious when her diabetes became active.but hypertension became one of the complications she had,she even had emphysema due to cigarette smoking in her younger years (quite a chainsmoker in her time). Shortness of breath is what she experience most of the time that they even buy her her own oxygen tank at home.Still her cause of death is diabetes and the complications she acquired.Those are the reason for us to always remind my Tatay(father) to be careful with his food intake specially with sweets,rice and beverages.And it is quite hard to deal with him because his response will always be "mapuputulan kung mapuputulan at mamamatay kung mamamatay" (amputated if amputated,die if meant to die). If things happens just like that wherein he is the only one who will be affected with the consequences of his actions.But definitely not.If he would die as easy as that then fine,but what if?What if different complications will occur in his diabetes.What if he gets amputated?What if he will be in a long term medication?What if in his desire to lengthen his life span he would go for dialysis which will cost a lot?
If he is wise enough and if he care for us as his family he will definitely think about the situations we might face in the future due to his stubbornness.We can't even tell him the do's and dont's.He will just ignore us and do what he wants.***If only he can assure us not experience agony***.Because once complications start to develop,the medication process will definitely cost us the mental, physical and emotional suffering.
Ngayon pa nga lang he is quite sutil na what more when he aged.Sana ganoon lang kadali sabihin na mamamatay kung mamamatay.Honestly ngayon palang may mga pagkakataon na na hirap nya i-handle.But still he is our father no matter what happens.And it is in our nature to care for our loved ones specially to our family members.Kahit sabihin natin na wala tayong pakielam kapag nandyan na yung sitwasyon gagawin parin natin ang lahat para makatulong.Nakakainis lang talaga isipin Why is it so hard for him to do what is best for his health condition.If he would listen to us and to his doctor he will definitely live longer and the complications to his diabetes will not worsen.We can all be at ease and not worry too much.Drinking his maintenance medicine is pointless/useless because he still eat sweets,plenty of rice and he even drink alcohol almost every night.
Who will not be in agony if you have such patient isn't it?Still praying that he will soon change his mindset.And as for me.I am also praying for me not to have the same health condition.Having type 2 diabetes is quite a struggle, really.
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I had a short TIME TRAVEL
Back in my highschool years
While having our snack which is *saging con yelo* I started reminiscing my highschool days.They say secondary school is one of the most enjoyable years of schooling because it is the start of adolescence,making more friends and a lot memories to cherish in the journey to adulthood.But as an introvert I haven't had so much memories with friends.I became focused in aiming academic excellence without realizing that I didn't enjoyed my adolescence.I have friends only few and upto now we are still in contact with each other,some became my daughter's godparents,some became my sister in Christ through some couples marriage encounter. OK back to my highschool life hehe.
As I've said I haven't had so much stories to share because after school I go straight home even though we are in morning class.So 12:00 noon I am at home,doing homeworks.I was enrolled in a private school but with 50% scholarship,so half of my monthly tuition is free.I only borrow books from known friends a year ahead of me, because we can't afford to buy new books yearly.Unfortunately during my junior and senior years I have no books to borrow because they already lend them to their relatives.So every afternoon I go to my classmates/friends house to borrow books and sometimes I just stay to their house and do our homeworks together.I only walk during those times.We are two barrios away from each other.It doesn't matter if it is too hot or it is raining during those days,for me I need to do my responsibility as a student.
Those experience made me and my classmate as close friends,there is this time I was scolded by my mother because I allowed my classmates mom to cut my hair same length as hers haha.My mother got mad at me because she was the only one who's cuts my hair.And it is true (magtatampo daw ang buhok kapag di hiyang ang naggupit)it took months that my hair didn't grow longer.not until my mother decided to trim its edges.It was classmate too who taught me how to ride a bike (bicycle).I got some scratches and bruises during those time.Still good memories to cherish.
***So what is the connection of saging con yelo in my article?***
If I will tell the whole story of my boring highschool life it will take too long haha.Saging con yelo is my tipid (budget friendly) snack.During my schooldays I am lucky if I can have a 10peso baon (pocket money).There were days I don't have even a single penny but still I will go to school.My father is a tricycle driver so he will send me to school,going home I will wait for him until he had his passenger.I'll be in the backride.Quite lot of sacrifices back then huhu.
Saging con yelo is one of my favorite during summer.it is worth 6pesos per order,1whole banana Saba with crushed ice and milk,I would ask the seller to add more ice and milk so I can be full in one order haha.If I have 10pesos or 0.2$ I can save the remaining 4pesos for the next day or buy few pieces of pad paper,would you believe that I experienced asking for a piece of paper to my classmates just to take short quizzes?Owh remembering my experiences way back then can make me teary eyed.And yes there are days that I really cry, specially when I need to skip classes due to some reasons.
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***Just an additional story***:
I haven't had enough moral support during my school days reason why I didn't finish my college.After I graduated in highschool/secondary level I started working.At the age of 16 I managed to earn little amount of penny to help my parents with our daily expenses.I was 20 when the school near us offered short courses/vocational courses which is free so I grab the opportunity.I studied Computer Hardware servicing and had my NCII .Got a chance to be an OJT in an electronic company in Laguna where in it is an OJT with salary.For almost a year I was so happy to earn 10,000-12,000 a month.Even though I rent a house with co-OJTs I still managed to send money to my parents.And from then on I was able to work in another company where I have benefits like SSS and philhealth.Though I failed to earn a degree still it didn't became a hindrance for me to strive.Right now I am still dreaming of finishing my studies,I don't know how and when I can do it but I am still aiming for it.And if time didn't allow it to happen I will do my very best to make my kids become degree holders in their time.
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My Husband's Addiction
How would you deal with your partners addiction?How will you adjust after knowing what he is addicted to?How will you handle situations and consequences you may both face with this addiction?
***Cigarettes***:
"Cigarette smoking is dangerous to your health".This is too common and can be seen on the packaging of cigar itself.The big question is....If this is dangerous to our health then why can't they stop the production of this?A lot of smokers suffer from lung illnesses that can also cause death.Worst happens to second hand smoke and these are the persons who doesn't smoke but inhale the smoke of the cigarette.
**Gambling**:
Some says it is just their pass time.They start from small time gambling until it becomes an addiction.Famous now aside from casino is Online Sabong(Cockpit fight).It was so terrifying to see others prioritize it over their personal needs,worst they save money for gambling and failed to provide for their families needs.
**Womanizing:**
Oh why can't they be contented with one.Is it that hard for them to be satisfied?In this era honestly even women have affairs too.How can they take it to their conscience to be unfaithful to their partners?What benefit do they get from it?May it be lust or something else still it is wrong to have an affair.
**Alcohol/Liquor**:
Hard is good for health if taken in moderation,Wine is heart friendly too.But to become alcoholic is a different thing.This addiction destroys the liver and causes other health problems if not controlled or handled properly.
**Illegal Drugs**:
Worst addiction a person can have.This will totally destroy someones life.And our country is still having a hard time to be drug free.
**These are just some of the bad addiction person's can have.This might lead to psychological problems that requires professional and medical help.**
Good thing I am not into any of this.My addiction is earning money haha.I am preparing for something and that includes my kids future.And about the title "***My Husband's Addiction***". Nah!This is not that serious because my husband is not into anything illegal, gambling, alcohol,cigar and never he thought of having an affair haha. Womanizing is a mortal sin.
Should I consider myself blessed for having a man who is righteous?He is not perfect though because he sometimes commit mistakes too.I am just one lucky wife who doesn't worry about a husband coming home drunk,or pennyless due to gambling haha.No scent of cigar because he hates it too.No other scent of women perfume because he has work-home,home-work routine.
***So what is my husband's Addiction?***
I just want to flex here how proud I am for having a responsible husband and father who prioritize us.Providing our needs and as much as he can pamper us with our wants.*He is addicted on loving us and making love with me LOL.* There is a big difference between plain S*X and love making hihi.I admire my husband for he knows how to limit himself in terms of dealing with his male friends.I am not stopping him if he wants to drink alcohol as long as in moderation, knowing he easily gets tipsy,a glass or two is enough for him haha.
For those who's partners are in to addiction as long as you can help your partner please do.Sometimes all they need is someone who will accompany them,guide them and help them get thru their addiction.If you need to seek psychological advice and do counseling then do so.Leaving them behind is not a solution,help them and pray for them instead.
So what opinions do you have with these addictions ?I would love to hear/read from you guys.This is quite a short article but I hope I somehow entertain you fellas.
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Oh just an additional Addiction is shopping.My God being Shopaholic is something I don't want to experience even if I'll come to a point that I can afford to.I'd rather save my extra money for my daughter's educational plan and prepare a good future for them.I am contented with my 500 monthly budget on Shopee/Lazada checking out my kids necessities hihi.
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Arts and Crafts of My Little One
Arts and Crafts
Arts and Crafts is one of the activities given to kids in their weekly task during modular class.This is test of creativity and resourcefulness both parents and kids.This activity somehow helps to develop the artistic side of the kids and sort of bonding with their parents.There are activities that they can't do alone so parents supervision is a must.
The Rocking Fruit
This activity has a video tutorial.I'll try my best to make the procedures understandable and easy to follow haha.
***Materials***:
Construction paper
Glue
Scissors
***Procedure***:
choose your desired fruit to make, cut 2 circles. In the first circle put all the detailed designs of the fruit,fold the other circle into half and glue at the back of the first circle,this will serve as the support so it will sway like a rocking chair.
**Okra (lady finger) painting**
***Materials***:
Okra (lady finger)
Watercolor
Bondpaper
***Procedure***:
Cut the ladyfinger(okra) let it dry then put your desired color of watercolor. Press it on the bondpaper and create the design you wanted.The photo above are okra painting of flowers with different colors and a butterfly.
Modular Arts and Crafts journey.
These are just some of the arts and crafts given as activity first day of the week.My daughter got used to it.Every Monday when we are about to return her modules she would asked me in advance what is their next arts and crafts.Good thing her teacher would send the video tutorial in advance so we have enough time to prepare the materials needed.I also used to stock the school materials usually needed in their art activities.It is more accessible and saves time to prepare.
During my school days I am having a hard time to complete my art materials.I don't even have my own watercolor, I am grateful that some of my classmates are nice that they lend me their art materials, advantage of being a good classmates too haha.So now that I have my own child studying I make sure I can provide all the school supplies she needs.It is so heartbreaking if you will your daughter being left behind with her classmates in term of extra curricular activities.
There were times that it takes a lot of trial and error before we could finish her arts and crafts,when she is not in the mood she keeps on making excuses,but once we get finished she was so happy and so proud to say that she made it haha.
Every monday as we return her modules we also bring her finished product of her art activities.And it flattering to hear compliments from her teacher.We also wholeheartedly accept constructive criticism if there is, knowing it will help her to improve and me as well in terms of supervising her with her daily task.
I know we have long way to go but surely I believe we will get through this together.We will work hand in hand with the help of her teacher too.Soon they will have scheduled face to face classes.I am really praying that she could easily adjust and get along with her classmates.I am happy they will have face to face classes because I know she be can taught well by her teacher.And as her mom my duty is to guide her and help her if badly needed.As much as possible I want her to be independent but can comfortably asked for help when really can't do it herself.
We parents and teachers must work together to teach and mold our kids as they grow.They really need our support and supervision.Kids nowadays are born intelligent we just need to guide them properly.
I am quite excited for the face to face classes.Welcome to new normal.Facemask is now a part of our daily necessities.
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An update:
This is what we've done yesterday 28th of February,just finished it early this morning.How on earn can she do it by herself haha.Good thing we have resources around us.Advantage of being near to nature.How do you find our wooden craft?
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I am still out of ideas for new articles because I've been busy a little.So I just flex here some of daughter's Arts and Crafts.
Enjoy reading.(I hope so haha)
Gestational Diabetes Mellitus
What is GDM (Gestational Diabetes Mellitus)?
GDM is a health condition where in pregnant women during their second or third trimester started to develop diabetes.The rise of blood sugar level that can cause some discomfort to pregnant women.
UTI (urinary tract infection), vaginal infection or yeast infection
Frequent urination (sometimes hard to handle because it becomes uncontrollable)
Fatigue (easily gets tired and days always seem to restless)
Blurry Vision (unlike the usual 20/20 vision,sight get affected by the spike of blood sugar level, usually become nearsighted)
Unusual thirst (most of the time feels dryness in the throat looking for water even in the middle of the night)
This are just some of the discomfort encountered by GDM momma's.
When and How GDM is traced.
Pregnant womens commonly visit their OBs or gynecologist every month to see how the baby develop and part of it is monitor the health of the mother as well.Urine and blood test is usually done.If the result of urinalysis shows increase of sugar level specially during the midterm or second trimester the OB will request for another laboratory test which is the OGTT (Oral Glucose Tolerance Test) to see how pregnant's body would react after taking a 75-100ml of glucose syrup.That could conclude if the mother is really having GDM.
That is for first timers, because if you are diagnosed with GDM during your previous pregnancy your doctor will request for OGTT at an early stage of your pregnancy.
OGTT is done after 8 hours of fasting (meaning you re not allowed to eat or drink anything 8hours before the first suction of blood and you normal fasting glucose level should be lower than 95mg/dL or 5.3mmol/L) After that medtechs will ask you to drink the glucose and let you rest for an hour.(Arghh this sucks because drinking an 100ml glucose syrup with an empty stomach can almost make you vomit).After an hour another blood suction to test how your sugar level is going.(normal.level should be lower than 180mg/dL or 10mmol/L).Then you will be asked to rest again and after an hour another suction of blood to see how is it going.(normal glucose level should be lower than 155mg/dL or 8.6mmol/L) (Oh this is really insane,3times of blood suction that hurts specially if they can't get the right nerve in the first attempt outchy).
Is GDM curable.
Studies shows that GDM(Gestational Diabetes Mellitus)occurs during pregnancy and vanish after the mother gave birth however in some cases mother's with GDM can possibly develop type 2 diabetes 6-10 years after giving birth.So it takes a lot of discipline in terms of food intake.There are lots of do's and dont's.
Our body is built with natural insulin that regulates our blood sugar level but if this insulin failed to do its job doctors would recommend the pregnant mothers to take medicines(synthetic or formulated insulin).Well they highly recommend insulin injection instead of taking a pill because this might affect the kidney.Regular monitoring of sugar level is required.Glucometer is a must have then.
You need to do fasting everyday.Testing your sugar level is your first thing in the morning.The antbite pain of needle needed to be endured everyday.
Food Intake
Eat plenty of Whole fruits and vegetables
Lean mean and protein consumption in moderation
Wheat bread, cereals and rice in moderation,
Avoid sugar or glucose based foods such as sweets and sodas
It is best to follow dietitian advice.
***How does it affect the development of the baby and the delivery?***
GDM babies are bigger than non-GDM.They usually reach 8-10lbs which really affect the delivery.Mothers with GDM can experience preeclampsia (sudden spike of blood pressure),reason why mostly undergo C-section delivery. Healing period is longer too.
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***Why did I come to this article?***
I am a GDM momma and I struggled a lot during my pregnancy specially to my second born,I've undergone series of laboratory test and I even had my OGTT twice.Medication occurred in my third trimester where in I am obliged to buy my personal glucometer and had my insulin pen.
All praise to God for His mercy that my glucose level normalized after giving birth (C-section both my first and 2nd).Still it took me 3months to heal but not totally.I am now experiencing side effects due to epidural injection of anesthesia.My back and hip bone easily get hurt and a lot of discomforts.I even lose weight from 59kg to 50kg.
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Written on 23rd day of February 2022 Published this 24th of the month.
Hope you learn something from my latest article.
Here are some of my previous articles,if you have spare time to read them please do and it will be highly appreciated.
https://read.cash/@RAIZYREESE/moments-to-remember-6147d2b8
https://read.cash/@RAIZYREESE/the-innocence-81625c1f
Moments to Remember
Time spent with family is worthwhile.Sunday is known as rest day.Most employees' day off from work is Sunday.It is usually Christians church day and family day as well.
Our provider sometimes have work during Sunday and yesterday is precious for us because we are able to spend the whole day together.
After going to my cousin's wedding reception we went to my late grandfather's farm.And luckily rice are already planted.Last year was a struggle for my uncle who manage the field and the farm.But this year seems to be good.Mangoes in the farm bear fruits same as the other trees too.And now the field is green with the rice and some part are planted with other fruit bearing plants.
Everything was so refreshing,no marks of pollution.The sky is so bright,seems so promising.Promises a bountiful harvest.Oh I claim it oh Lord.So all us can benefit from the good harvest this season and my uncle can pay for the debts they had during the time thay they failed to plant rice.
This is just one of the mango trees in the farm.This is near the road side where the house of my two uncles is built.The other uncle I have built his house in the middle of the farm.It is placed in between the field and a fishpond.More mango trees,guava,guyabano,coconut,bananas,star apple and other fruit bearing trees are planted there.During the time that both of my grandparents are alive they planted all this trees for the future and they served their purpose.My mom and her siblings can now have fruits for free if it's their season.To have your own land seems to be agl great investment indeed.
Our eyes are full in the beautiful ambiance in the farm.Its so nice to breathe in the fresh air and everything is green,above is a clear blue sky.Kids had so much fun playing around.My first born didn't even remember to borrow my phone because she was occupied by playing with her cousins her age.She enjoyed a lot.On our part we are contented chatting about life and exchanging point of views while relaxing under the trees.
The kids enjoyed playing around.Walking and running while yelling.My youngest can't run with them for she is still young and started walking on her first birthday.She just enjoyed walking everywhere and playing with us.In the photo above my husband hang her on a steel bar and she was so happy.She has a strong grip,my husband kept an eye on her to secure her safety.
The moments we had yesterday is something to remember and this will be great memories for the kids.As they grow old they can experience all this in this pandemic time of our lives.
Being outside and enjoying the time spent together as a family helps to strengthen the bond.
FAMILY
Family as the basic part of a society plays the most important role.It is really important that every family lives in harmony and value the significance of good morals.Good character and attitude should be initiated inside every home so they can get along with other people with no worries.I myself came from a family that seems to be wasted because of problems so hard to resolve.Everything is like a story that keeps on repeating.Good terms now enemy later.And it affects their attitude towards our relatives and neighbor.My parents live under one roof but sleep in different bed.Husbands and wife technically but not emotionally.They are just civil to each other now.And this is what I never ever wanted to experience in the family I and my husband builds.
Now that I have my own family I am trying my best to keep my kids away from toxic way of living.Much to my desire to leave and cleave with my husband and our precious daughters so we can raise them the way we want them to be.Praying that soonest we can build our own house and live in our own HOME.
I want to be the queen of our kingdom.Where no one can dictate us and no one can interfere with the way we handle our lives and how we raise our kids.I remember all the advices I have read in a page that really supports couple who chose to leave and cleave.
Being able to do that can lessen some burdens.No worries if I can't do the laundry on time,I can't wash the dishes after meal.If it will take me a week to fold the washed clothes.It won't matter if we only have canned goods as viand because we don't need to think about what others will say as long as I and my husband agree with the same decision and we can make our kids understand every situation.
If time will allow us to make things work I will be the happiest.Just thinking about our future plans I really feel excited.
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Written this 21st of February 2022
Enjoy reading.....
The Innocence
*Can I be a kid again?*
If someone asked me to travel back in time (if mandatory LOL) I will choose to be a kid again.I want to experience the sleep,eat,play,repeat routine again.When all I want is to eat the food I love,play with my parents and the kids of my age.When I don't care about what people say,I have no worries and I am ***innocent and naive.***
As I aged I have lots of realizations.The things I hate in my younger years is now what I am missing.The time I was scold when I don't want to nap after lunch.I sometimes sneak just to play with our neighbors.(Things my daughter usually do now haha) and yeah I scold her too,(I know now how my mother feels way back then).I hate nap time before but now, I want to nap but I am deprived because I need to attend to my kids huhu.
During my primary years I admire adults who earn a living and I prayed to grow old soonest.But as I grow old, now at this moment of my life I realized how difficult it is to be an adult.When I started to shoulder obligations.Becoming an adult keeps my mind busy thinking about the consequences of my actions.Before taking a step I need to think carefully and make a wise decisions.I am afraid of failure, afraid of judgements.
***Freedom***
I am now a wife and a mother and everything has changed since then.Unlike before that I am free to go.I have no burdens,no kids to take good care of,no worries about how my family's future would be.To be back in my innocent days can set me free again.Life can be filled with fun and exciting moments again.Play and cuddle with friends,enjoy under the sun or even under the rain.Doesn't care about dirt as long as I enjoy the time of the day.My younger years is more fun because we enjoy physical games.We interact with other kids,share stories and a lot of activities.
*Namimiss ko tumakbo sa bukid,maglaro sa dayami magpulot ng tuyong pupu ng kalabaw (gagawing fertilizer pwede ding sunugin pantaboy Lamok). Malayang nakikipaghabulan habang nagpapalipad ng saranggola.Maglaro ng agawan base,chinese garter at piko,jackstone Jolen,teks.Teks ako una natuto pumusta.Ang sarap umakyat sa mga puno at magparamihan ng hinog na bunga na mapipitas.Panahong hindi ako binabagabag ng mga suliranin at hamon ng buhay.Grades ko lang sa school ang inaalala ko.*
Everything now is digital and modern technology affects the lifestyle of this generation.So I am trying my best to raise my kids the same way during our time.As much as possible I want them to enjoy physical activities more that being exposed to gadgets.
***Simple Joy***
When you give a kid a token you can see him/her smile.It is so easy to satisfy them,make them happy.Having time to play with them and cuddle,hearing them laugh with our silly jokes and funny gestures,we sometimes don't care even if we look stupid just to make them laugh haha.Specially when they are babies,a simple pika boo makes them burst out to laughter.(I know cause my kids are like that haha).
Now that I am an adult,yes it is easy to say we should be contented but we cannot deny the fact that we are thinking about our future plans reason why we strive and aim for more.Adults expectations is higher that they end up disappointed at some point.Their satisfaction is quite hard to reach.I am a satisfied wife but a bothered mother.I worry about the future of my kids.What kind of life awaits them.At their age right now the care less but what about the next coming years.When they are adulting too.Will I be a good mother,a good example for them to look up to?Will they be proud of having me as their mom?
*"Oh this photo is taken during our vacation in Tarlac.After goin to plaza we buy some snack and they enjoyed eating together"*
***Reality***
We are living in the real world and what was written above is just a dream I wished to happen.But honestly I cherish those moments of my youth and those are memories I will carry for the rest of my life.Stories I will tell my kids when they grow up.The life they have now is far different from what I had but I and my husband do everything to give them the life they deserve.I am who I am because of the past I had.Grateful for all the beautiful memories and thankful for the lessons learned from the failures I have made.Stronger after the battles I conquered and braver to face what was ahead.I have lost my ***innocence***,yes,but I am willing to learn more and do more for the sake of our growing family.No regrets.
"*A simple way of upbringing kids, instead of letting them spend the whole day on gadgets,let them explore the world outside.Appreciate the beauty of nature and have fun playing with each other.Modern technology is a big help but we should limit our kids.It is best to make them learn to interact in the real world."*
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**Written this 19th of February 2022**
***Hope you won't get bored reading***.
How can I explain?
Since pandemic and modular class is implemented in our area,aside from being a mother I also became a teacher to my first born.It was test of patience.There were things that is best done by professionals.Yes I can teach her basic learnings,I can accompany her and support her all the way.But teaching is best done by teachers because it is their profession.Modular class is quite a struggle specially to working parents and for those who haven't had enough knowledge or even failed to finish primary schooling.Well I myself only finished secondary school and only took a vocational course.Reason why sometimes I need to google things I don't understand myself.So here are few of what we experienced.
I bought some flashcards for my 4 year old daughter so she can learn the basics.From numbers and letters to animals, fruits and vegetables,colors and vehicles.But upon checking the flashcards this one caught my attention.If my daughter can read properly at her age she would definitely question me."*How will I explain?*". I'll explain that to the best way I can so she can simply understand.No need to complicate things.
Well she knows it's a squirrel but as seen in the photo Octopus was the written name on top of it.I just kept this card so she won't get confused and when she is confident enough that she can read I will show it to her and ask her what's her opinion and how she understand the picture,I want to hear from her the stand she has about it.
***My daughter loves to argue anyway.***
She knows how defend her thoughts.She will insist what she believes is right I really need a lot of patience explaining to her just to justify my words.Just today while we are doing her modules (She is in kinder 1 modular class)There is this activity where she would count the pictures and encircle the correct answer.
There it is.Obviously there are two of the items that seems like the choices were switched.Maybe it wasn't revised properly before they printed it out.This caused me and my daughter argue about what answer will she encircle,and after minutes of explaining to her what she should do we finally both agreed about what is best.
There after actual counting she said two of the questions doesn't have the answer in the choices,She was afraid that her teacher might scold her if she doesn't have an answer.So I explained to her that she was right about the counting she has done.All she has to do is write the correct answer encircle it and I will tell her teacher about it.
Guess what? I sent the actual video to teacher on how my daughter answered her module,how she counted the shovel and oranges one by one and she defend her answer,teacher placed a heart reaction to it.Then she messaged me about the conversation I and my daughter had.I posted it in noise.cash then took a screenshot shared on my story on messenger.I clipped the photo here too.
*"Translation of my story"*
*A conversation with my daughter*
*Earlier this morning while refreshing her about living things and non living things*
*Me: Living things are with life like humans,animals,plants while non living things are man made like the things we used everyday.Then I asked her "is your clothes living or nonliving things?*
*Daughter:no life (means non-living),just like grandma she is dead already so she has no life*
*hahaha*
After seeing my story and reading the conversation teacher told me "yeah right, your daughter has a point,just explain to her that dead humans is different from man made non living things.Then afterwards she messaged me again and told me that my daughter is intelligent,the way she expresses her thought shows how witty she is (I smiled while reading teacher's message).I just replied teacher that I really need to be prepared in answering all my daughter's questions because at her age she frankly asked questions when she is confused and voice out her thoughts and teacher once again placed a heart reaction to it.
When your heart betrays your mind
And our story started with a text.Simple hi and hello,how are you?,(kumain ka na ba?) have you eaten already?,(wag ka papalipas ng gutom),eat on time, goodnight,sweet dreams,.
Sweet messages that was so common for persons starting to know each other.At first I was ignoring his messages,then a friend/co-worker of mine ask me if someone is texting me.I said yes.She told me he was her boardmate.The boarding house they rent allows mix boys and girls but in different rooms of course.They pay for a bedspace.
So since he was known by my friend I started knowing him.He is 3years younger than me which makes me hesitant to entertain him in courting me.But he is a man of determination. InFor how many times I discourage him and tell him to court someone his age yet he pursued me.(Syempre Marupok haha)He hit my weakness.His gestures and the way he treat me make me fall for him.
He often visit me in my boarding house.We used to eat together,my friends started to tease us.Then after months of courtship I decided to accept his love.I have felt his sincerity that is why I gave chance for us.
Plot twist
***What should I feel if I found out that everything happened because of a bet,a challenge (pustahan)?***
My world turned upside down when I found out that he courted me because he was challenge by my friend.That if he can make me say yes in a month he will receive a prize from her and vice versa.Mixed emotions hit me.I've been crying everytime I think of the betrayal my friend has done.How could she put my heart at stake for such thing.Is she a real friend of mine?
Guess what?It was him who initiated to tell me everything.He said he can no longer hide the truth from me because he truly loves me and he doesn't want to continue our relationship that started with a lie.I honestly admired his courage to be honest and open up the whole truth behind the courtship that happened.
Took him months to convince me that he truly loves me.He didn't stop until he has proven his love.And as for my "friend".She really felt sorry and told me she didn't expect that we would fall for each other.Part of a being betrayed it wasn't that easy for me to accept her apologies too.
But I don't know why am I not so bad not to forgive LOL.I am the type of person who doesn't love living in hatred.I prefer to forgive but not totally forget.It is my friend who helped him to win back my trust,and they both convinced me that it is worth the second chance.
Is it really worth a second chance?
He is not a knight in shining armor,a prince in fairy tales or a perfect guy every women desires.He is a man of words,honesty and dignity.He has proven himself and his pure intention that made my heart love him again even if my mind keeps telling me not to.That is what made me say ***"When your heart betrays your mind".***
And yes he is worth a second chance.He is not a prince but he make me feel like a princess.He never stop showering me love and care.He proved to me that he loved me,he love me and he will always love me.
I can't ask for more in terms of being a gentleman, and a man of compassion.A responsible man.And as I've said he is honest and a dignified man.
How on earth I entrusted myself to him that in just a year and month of being in a relationship we vowed to live together as man and wife.
His parents told us that they can only give us a civil wedding but I am demanding for a church wedding.It was a once in a lifetime and every ladies dream to wear a gown,walk down the aisle,vow in front of God that he and I will spend the rest of lives together,in sickness and in health,for richer and for poorer.
They don't have enough money to finance what I demand,but I do have,(yabang haha).Well the truth is they honestly told me they only have 30K to offer.Since I want a church wedding I pushed through it even if it will cost me my savings.
Dream come true.
We successfully got married in church.Everything is worth it,I don't give a damn to the money I spent all I know is I am happy that we vowed in front of God.
He is not a Catholic but he chose to be baptized in our religion in order for us get married.I don't regret any of decisions I have done because I am now a contented wife and a mother of two beautiful princesses.We sometimes face struggles in life but get through them together.
I ask God for the right man and He lead my way to him.I want a man who will love and accept everything in me even my flaws.
Now I am living with the man whom I prayed for.A man who promised to marry me and be with me forever.
A Sunday to Cherish
It was indeed a memorable family day.
Not every Sunday that we are able to be complete as a family.Simply because we have our own families to attend to and not all of us can make it every Sunday.Yesterday is different,this served as a thanksgiving for my nephew who got hospitalized few days ago and an advance celebration of valentine.No fancy flowers and chocolates just our complete family enjoying this feast on the table.
Staring with photo can't help but smile.Nothing beats the happiness of having a complete family (well not totally complete though because of some personal reasons no need to itemized).But I am really happy we are able to enjoy the day.Kamayan is the best (eating with bare hands)no utensils used.
We ate using fresh leaves of banana.We had grilled catfish,fried hotdogs for kids,chicken adobo, boiled lady fingers (best paired with shrimp paste and vinegar).Ripe mangoes for dessert.
We set the pool for the kids.They enjoyed their swimming at home.An hour of mix emotion,Having fun as they enjoy their bath and stress on our part hahaha.They are uncontrollable in terms of being naughty and they keep on chasing each other, splashing water, my phone even get wet as I capture their photos.I just wipe it from time to time.My youngest daughter enjoyed a lot.With her tiny body she managed to mingle with her sister and her cousins.Their happiness is priceless.
They still want to stay longer in the portable pool,we just stopped them to avoid getting sick.Too much exposure to water might cause them colds.Prevention is better than cure remember.
If it's not pandemic it'll be more fun if we can be in a resort.What do you think?
We cooked different streetfoods like kikiam,fishballs,chickenballs and kwek-kwek (Fried quail eggs covered with batter).We also have the Filipino pride halohalo.Halo-halo is made up of mix sweetened banana Saba,sweet potato,beans,tapioca pearls,(and other ingredients you prefer like young coconut meat,melon strips,nata de Coco etc.),crushed ice,sugar and milk.For creamier taste add a scoop of ice cream.You can also add lecheflan and purple yam.
Not just our stomachs are filled with food ,our phones too haha.Each one of us takes photos from different angles.we just share them on our family group chat.
Yes we do have a group chat for our family.Sharing photos and updates of our daily routines.
***My mother***
She is really on hand in preparing the halo-halo.Well she used to sell this every summer that is why she do it so well.Isn't food becomes more delicious when served with love.Even though I am a mom myself I love how it feels to be served by my mother too.
In everything we do,no matter how strong we believe we are,we will always look for our mothers care.Even just knowing they are there to listen when we are troubled really means a lot.Hearing them advice us and uplift us gives comfort.
Anyways enough for drama haha or I might end up crying huhu.
Let us all have a loved filled valentine's day.Share love,spread love,give love,and be loved.
Written this hearts day with love.I hope you enjoy what I shared today.It is too memorable for me not to share with you.My heart is full yesterday.
One step to make a difference
***I am Raizyreese and I am challenging myself in terms of article writing.***
Hoping this step I have done can improve my knowledge.I want to explore more of what I can do.I don't want to limit myself.There will always be a space for new learnings.As long as the things we are about to do will not cause us any harm.We'll never know what more we can do if we close doors for given opportunities.
Life offers two things the happiness in success and lessons learned in every failure.Failing doesn't mean the end though, actually it can serve as motivation.To be the better version of ourselves.
I am not fluent in speaking our universal language and somehow I am having a hard time to understand some English words not so familiar with me.
So please understand if I obviously use basic English words but hopefully the longer I stay in this platform a lot of improvement awaits me.
I really admire a lot of authors here.Publishing a lot of articles in a week.Some can even have two or three articles in a day.I hope you guys can help me become good in this craft.I know it is a test of creativity and passion in writing.
Honestly right now my mind is busy thinking about what topics I must publish.If I will fit in here.It is a step I have taken that might lead in to two things.But I'd rather take the positive thought.
I believe I am a step closer to a better change.A lot of times that I attempted to register here,just now that I had the courage to do so,Thanks to mam @ALDEC314 for inviting me become her affiliate.I don't know if she feels that there is something in me in terms of article writing.I pray that she won't get disappointed haha.
I am looking forward for making good friends here and I want to claim it,soon I can publish much more interesting and worth sharing stories with you guys.I will start my brainstorming with myself haha.I will find time to read more articles here so I can have the idea on how to make it better.
I am so excited and nervous at the same time because I don't know what thoughts you can have about my writing skills haha.I bet I will receive a lot of pointers from you and you will wholeheartedly help me.Constructive criticisms are most welcome,I will definitely appreciate them.
My first article written this 13th day of February 7:40PM.