How can I respect her? I don't know.

Supposedly I will be writing an article about how my son's birthday went but I can't because I am not in a mood because if my mother. Yeah , she's the reason again why I am hot tempered now.

Let me tell you the story so that you can understand my side.

Last Sunday she got back here in our hometown and she did not come to our house because my father was still there that time and he don't want to face my father. My cousin texted me that my mother is in there house and then I went there. I already posted it in noise.cash.

Tuesday when she come to our house and I am looking forward that she will choose to change and be better but I'm wrong. She still always having a callmate talking about peoples life and it makes me irritated. She always go outside our house and go to our neighborhood. A few days ago she leave the house 8 AM and I thought she will be going to baranggay hall to file a complain to those people who borrowed money to him but I'm wrong. It's been 3 PM when he went home together with her friend and I asked her friend where they have been and then she told me my mother stayed on our neighborhood to make chismis.

She also told me that my mother drunk an alcohol but also to me to be quiet but I can't. I said a lot of words to my mother and asking her why she didn't change.

Yesterday my father went home and when he entered the house I told him that my mother is there then we went to the Sala and my father asked me about my mother and ofcourse I tell him the truth. While we were having a conversation my mother interrupt it and said she will leave the house and even curse me. Here's our conversation.

Aalis na ako , Hindi na ako babalik put**** ka.

Ayaw mong napagsasabihan ka? Hindi mo kayang magbago? Sana nung mga panahon na wala ka dito sa bahay , Sana narealized mo lahat. Puro ka kapitbahay , Hindi mo alam yung mga yan pinagchichismisan ka. Alam mo ba Sabi nila sayo? Yung lalaki na mismo umayaw sayo kaya ka umuwi dito.

Hindi yon umayaw.

Edi parang inamin mo din. Tinanggap kana nga dito e. Kahit hindi ka humingi ng tawad. Pero sana konting pagbabago man Lang.

Then after that conversation , she leaves the house and we let her leave. My father asked me to buy some read horse and when I am walking going to the sari sari store I saw her standing on the street and I pretend that I didn't saw her.

Earlier in the morning , I heard her and my father talking and I thought she already apologize to my father but I am wrong. As per my father , my mother asked for some money because she will go to somewhere but she have no money. Papa didn't gave her money and then my mom leave the house again.

When we are on our way to the market I saw her on my grandmother house and still pretend that I didn't see her. I let her do what she wants and then 12 PM in the afternoon she back in the house like there's nothing happened. My father is so kind and he even asked my mother if she eaten already. My father said said let my mother to stay in the house.

So it's my son's birthday and they had a chance to drink and alcohol even if I don't want. Yung mga kapitbahay naming matitigas yung Muka , mga walang pakiramdam. Kanina ako pa yung nagtupi ng damit ni Papa , ako pa naghanda ng tulugan ni Papa imbis na sya sana pero nandon sya umiinom. Ilang beses ko sinara yung pinto sa Sala dahil ang ingay ingay nila at tulog na Papa ko.

Mga bandang 8 PM nakita ko na naman na bukas yung pinto at sabi ko sa kanya isara nya at tila ayaw nya pa at nahihiya sa ma kainuman nya. Hindi ko na napigilan sarili ko at sabi ko sa kanya , hinayaan na kayo mag inom dyan sana Naman makaramdam kayo. Tulog na si Papa Sana irespeto nyo naman at maaga pang gigising nya. Sinara nya yung pinto pero rinig padin yung ingay nila.

Of this moment umiinom padin sila. Mamaya mga 11 PM kapag hindi pa to tumigil makakatikim na naman sakin to. Kung ako Lang masusunod kahit pagsabihan nila kong bastos palalayasin ko na sila e kasi unang una 10 PM na at bawal naman talaga uminom ngayon kaso iniintindi ko Lang si Papa.

Inis na inis ako ngayon. Naaawa ako kay Papa. Bakit ang bait nya. Bakit nakakaya nya na ganito. Alam nyo ba bago sya natulog sabi pa nya sakin , ipaglatag mo din Mama mo. Sabi ko sa kanya matanda na sya at kaya na nya sarili nya. Sabi nya sakin irespeto ko padin daw si Mama. Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko sa kabila ng mga ganitong eksena na nasasaksihan ko. Hindi ko alam.

Sabihan na nila kong masamang anak pero yung respeto hindi naman Yan hinihingi. Paano mo irerespeto yung isang tao na hindi naman kaya irespeto yung pamilya nya. Iniisip nya yung maramdaman ng mga kainuman nya pero kami dito na nagpapahinga na hindi nya iniisip kung nabubulagaw sa ingay nila.

Pasensya na sa rant na ito 😭