How do a woman act sometimes?

First of all, I would like to talk in general about certain things in a relationship.

Women are made with a complex kind of character, emotions and seems like a bottle that once it falls down is hard to fixed. In reality we just want to be cared of, someone who will asked, if we are okay, a hug and a shoulder to cry on. There are times that a woman is longing for some sweet gestures from their spouses or partners. And once, it will never be met, and most of the time if the woman can experience rejection, ignored, they now will catch the attention of their husband or partners through their actions, and emotions. There's a changes in behavior, attitude and we even just don't talk at all.

That's why there's an instances that our actions was misinterpreted by men also well in fact, we just want is "attention".

The fact is, relationship is just a balance, when the other party is just busy in fulfilling their obligations they might disregard spending time with their wife or partners.Both physical and emotional needs are vital. (hindi puro pera Lang, hindi rin puro puso)

Maybe it's not the kind of pabebe thing, but it's just the feeling of missing the time when relationship goes smoothly. The long years of being together , the couple may lose the time of being together, like dating. And it caused the gap between the two. Believe it or not, any marriage couple need that, to keep the relationship tight. But, when it's just nagging, argument, and disagreement, it will dry up the relationship and drain their patience, and will turn out the days into misery.

Here's some that I do :

I act like I am strong but wounded inside

It's just this day, that we had a disagreement of my husband with a certain thing that he bought. He offended me, but I was still showing myself that I'm not affected. But, I was just pretending, because I don't want to show him that I'm very weak.

I am not doing this out of pride but I'm doing this to protect myself, and as a form of self care. I am on the point of processing things myself, so that I won't suffer inside. Knowing that both of us have weaknesses, as much as possible I want to clear my heart from carrying baggages. I cried of course in the bathroom, while I let the water flow, while washing my laundries, I pour out my feelings, and finally I declare myself not to let those pains stay in my heart and I was healed. Unlike before, that it takes a long day of crying and anger, but now I've learned to pour my emotions at once, it's my way of draining my pains away.

I solved a problem alone

As much as possible I don't want to bother my husband everytime we're out of budget. It may cause us an argument again and lots of connected problems in the end. That's why, I will make a way on my own, to earn money and provide my kids with their needs especially during school day that they need some extra money for their projects and allowance.

Even if I sacrificed, I will do it for my kids, simply because I want to avoid having a conflict. I think, most women can handle multitasking, because we get used to it everyday. My husband is always busy with his work everyday, that is why if I will ask him about some of our needs at home, it will add with his stress, so I just handle it as long as I can.

I don't talk to people who is not approachable

Do you do the same too? Yesterday, there was a person that I know, and he knows me too. Everyone in this place will smile and greet me everytime I pass by in their place except this man who just ignored my presence, which seems like a ghost who doesn't exist. So, what I do is, I didn't say hi, or hello too with him. Am I bad with that manners? Why I like that? It is because i don't want that if I say hi, he will just like a statue who doesn't care. But, I didn't do anything bad, I just pass by when that person is there beside the road or standing in the front of his office because he doesn't care anyway. (ayoko na baka e dedma lang ako, nakakahiya)

There was a time that I was always unsure

It is related to making decisions, or buying food, or viand for our family, if it okay or not, I'm having a hard time to choose or decide on something. I often ended being doubtful.

Just like this week, I almost decided to get my kids vaccinated, but inside of me, I was not at peace, I'm still having confusion and trouble inside in my heat and a lot of what if, and some possibilities to happen. So, I was praying what I'm gonna do and I'm asking God's favor. And yesterday, my son had a headache and vomited, and also my daughter had a flu. That's the reason why I changed my mind. The situation doesn't go with the flow, it seems it answer my prayer already.

Honestly, everytime we had a problem in our relationship, it will affect me as I deal with people, and even in my productivity. But, I didn't take it seriously as much as possible because I want my family to stay together. (Ang pikon talo)

Marriage life isn't easy, it takes a lot of patience, faith and love to keep enduring. It doesn't mean that when things go wrong, it's time to give up but it's just another step to grow as a person individually.

Life is beautiful, good day!