Take a rest, and clap for yourself. That's what I just did, I know I have tried and I'm still trying and i dont have to feel proud about it, I'm not stepping on anyone's toes, it's my life and I'm just grateful for how far I've come. You know lately so much keep coming up, i had felt like i wasn't doing enough, I had felt like my impact was little or nothing compared to what I needed, and I can't lie to you all, it made me feel down. This can't be me, I had said to myself, everything should be working perfectly fine, I don't really deserve it, but i should be treated importantly, God has been good no doubt, but when would the whole struggle end, so just like my previous article, I'll have a comfortable life.
You know, anytime I complain like this, my mind tries to remind me that I am better than some people out there, if not most, but I quickly shut that idea away from my head. I just don't see the need to be calm or feel happier because I may be better than some people outside. When I'm hungry and I mean really hungry, the crazy hunger doesn't go away cause it knows I'm better than some people. No it wouldn't, it's my cross and that I'll bear alone. Maybe another reason can help me bear longer but most certainly not because I am better than some people. Everyone is living their life, the comparism is only in my head, it's fake, no one feels what I'm feeling.
I really hope someone feels me on this article, I know I titled it "Learning to Celebrate my little wins" but it seems like I'm only complaining out here, well I too hope I would be able to make sense of it before the close of the article, I'm only writing base on how I feel today. Maybe it's cause I'm not feeling too well and instead on resting, here I am trying to write again. You all would know why that is. Is the same reason that young man gets up as early as 5am when the sleep isn't cleared off his eyes, but he has no choice but to work any ways. You know the reason right. Yes it's the need for money, money seems to be very powerful.
Maybe its cause I saw that series "Sqid game" and it made me see that this feelings I have about how life stressing me out and I wish it was easier, isn't a feeling for me alone, but everyone feels the same. I recommend you all see that movie, just saying on a lighter mood. It really speaks the reality of things, it speaks about the general living and crazy needs of life, just does it in a more exciting and concluding way, but you can sense this is slightly more than a drama, its not just about the game, this is real life being turn into a movie. With all the options to opt out and return back to their lifes, in order not to be killed, the players still decided to risk their life for the money. Cause their normal lifes too was unbearable.
I want to specially appreciate every support partners out there, I don't mean my sponsors on this platform, of course I'm very grateful and may God continue to bless you all, however I mean everyone who is helping someone become better, rather than be a pain in the neck. Reason being that enough is already happening and its driving someone crazy already, people are really trying. Come outside and see the numbers of people working on the crazy sun so they can feed a family, now imagine that some of these guys goes home to return to a nagging wife, or complaining mother, forcing their daughters or son to bring more home, or forcing their husband to do more. This is a killer, Stop.
At a junction of someone's life, if you can't be a motivation, if you can't assist or contribute to making the person better or help lighten the workload then you aren't doing well. What most people wants is that person who keeps believing and supporting, correcting rightly with love and not making it feel as though all efforts are worthless. We can motivate ourselves too no doubt, but it isn't that easy, the brain is constantly thinking, so it takes more practice and believe to really be self motivated and go as though your self motivation is all you need.
Oh back to the topic, Celebrate your small wins, it gives a sense of accomplishment, it boost the pride a little. Life Is a phase, a transition, we all passing through, so as much as we want complain and go crazy demanding for a solution, calling for a better life asap, we must choose to be happy and be happy however, we lose when our joy is out. So celebrate your little wins too, it gives joy also. It reduces the urgency to do something crazy, whatever you get, never let's go of happiness.
Let me apologize for these is not the regular article I write on every now and then, well its not because I'm not too well, it's just the feeling I'm getting and pouring down raw and undiluted. I did feel like changing the topic to a more compounding title, one that would make sense of the full write up, but still felt the need to leave everything as it were, from the beginning to where my head went other ways, I'm pretty sure someone out there can relate as it is, maybe not all, but certainly someone. Life isn't easy, but we are not weak too. We don't go down that easily.
Thanks For Reading.
Meanwhile what lead image can I add up, maybe I'll type "tired ". Sure to write again soon.