Life Update + February, please be good to me
I am in the process of healing and looking for my lost self again. I've got to spend my time with my cousins and other family members during the last days of the wake of our Grandma. We drink and hangout. Almost every night. During those days, we were distracted by the thought that our Grandma passed away already. It was a good few days of being distracted.
I said that I am still healing because up until now, I can still see the image of my Grandma sitting on her chair and smiling towards me. I am missing her a little more today to the point that I was in tears. Now that she was already buried, I am trying to regain myself and doing the best that I can to keep up with my studies because I wasn't able to do it during the nights that I was looking after her. Although I tried to read some of my modules, I really couldn't during those days. It feels like I am carrying a heavy load in my back that causes me to feel hurt in my chest.
It is with sincerest apologies that I on the other hand can't read your works and even immediately respond to your comments on mine. My sorrow and academics are the reasons why I couldn't do it and even write an article. Now that I am writing this, I would like to tell you about the reason for my absence. I have been really busy with my studies. Lots of modules to read plus attending google meetings and doing activities at the same time. I just can't find the energy to interact on both platforms anymore. Even the time that I posted that I already submitted my assignment and said that I might have the time to interact, a few minutes later I was down in my bed.
Also, quick add to my life update. My cousins and I went for a beach outing a day after we bid our forever goodbye to our beloved Grandma. It helped us to cope with our sadness and we even get to forget the things that had happened. Now that my cousins have already gone back to Manila for work, I am missing them again and it feels like I am alone again.
Lately, I have been thinking about what I would choose, interacting on both platforms, writing, or my studies? Because I do hate my position in my academic life right now. I am not learning. I just miss interacting and writing my thoughts down and sharing it with other people. I miss daily posting on noise.cash. Huhu.
I am hoping this month will be good for my mental and physical health. I want to find time again for my social life and to be able to publish and interact with all of you. The start of my year already sucks and I don't want the other months to be the same.
I miss all of you, my virtual friends!! I'm not going to mention one by one but I do hope that you are in a good position in life. May February be good to all of us.
Author's Note:
Thank you for reading this! Keep safe and healthy! Babawi ako sainyong lahat. Mwa.
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Mamsshhh! Ang late ko nang nabasa 'to pero kamusta ba? Medjo nakaka-move on na ba sa nangyari kay granny mo? It'll be a long process pero you'll get through it. 💫