It's Getting Bad

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2 years ago
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Published: March 10, 2022

I no longer know how to help myself and to get away with this bad habit at this point. It feels like my habit turned into addiction. I wanted to cry out of my frustrations last night before I closed my eyes.

Ever since this pandemic started, my sleeping routine has changed. From sleeping before 12 to sleeping at 4 am everyday. I hate it, I really hate it. I am trying. I planned on sleeping early but I just can't. I'm really at the brink of crying right now.

I have successfully altered my sleeping schedule before when I was getting sick and it lasted only for a week. After that, I got complacent again and my sleeping schedule deteriorated so fast. From sleeping before 12 to sleeping at 2 in the midnight and the most late was at around 5 or 6 am.

There have been days that I wasn't able to sleep at night. Using my phone all night has led me to become an addict. Scrolling through my feed even it's just almost the very same contents that I see.

Sleeping late at night is bad for my health. Not just for my physical health but also for my mental health and the way I am with other people. I have been irritable, a side effect of lack of sleep. It feels like everything around me is irritating and I get annoyed so easily. There are also times when I would attend class being sleepy and eventually leaving the zoom meeting just to get sleep. It's just so disappointing.

I know what's the root cause of this, no self-discipline and phone addiction plus having internet at home. I depend on my entertainment so much for using my phone and it has affected the way I live.

The moment I got out of bed for the second time today, I immediately deleted my social media apps that kept me awake every night. But there is one left, TikTok. I'm not sure if I am going to delete it since it's the app that entertains me the most but I will try my very best to discipline myself and start a time schedule while I'm using it.

I am now helpless. I don't know how to stop. Please help me. Deep down in my heart I know I can't do this alone. I wanted to find someone who would remind me to go to sleep early.

Final remarks:

Having a phone feels like having a tumor. Sometimes it's benign and sometimes it's malignant. Benign if it doesn't cause you harm and malignant if it's cancerous and is affecting the way you live and perform. I just want to get back to my old life when I wouldn't use my phone so much and just hangout with my friends.

At this point, I am not going to be hypocritical about getting enough sleep hence I would remind everyone to get enough sleep. Do not let yourself turn out like me, a sleep deprived individual.


Author's Note:

Please help me or try to sermon me. I really need it. Thank you for reading this!

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Sad to know about your addiction to gadgets. Please be advised to give value of one life given to us. Our body needs to be relaxed to gain strength.

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2 years ago

Same here, I can't let go TikTok app hahhaha. I am so addicted to it but now I know how to limit my screen time since I have training early in the morning.

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2 years ago

Wala na Ate, I already decided to uninstall it. It's taking to much of my time eh

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2 years ago

Hays same lang tayo buds. Grabe din epekto sakin ng cellphone tsaka soc med. Sila na lang umuubos ng oras ko maghapon. 😞

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2 years ago

Ang saklap noh? Masiyado na tayong nagdedepende sa modern technology para sa entertainment natin. :"(

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2 years ago

Pero sa panahon kasi ngayon, halos nasa internet na lang ang entertainment natin lalo na't pandemic 😞

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2 years ago

True :"( gusto ko na lang bumalik sa dati na halos di ko hinahawakan phone ko

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2 years ago

Nakakatakot naman pag di mo na nahahawakan phone mo nyan, baka nawawala na buds ikaw talaga

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2 years ago

Don't sleep with your phone. Leave it out of the room :D It's hard to discipline ourselves but if we really want to, we can do it!

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2 years ago

Kaso Kuya I use my phone as an alarm clock. :"( I guess I just have to order an alarm clock para di na ako mag depend sa phone ko

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2 years ago

Idelete mo muna. Nagawa ko na mawala sa socmed for 1 month and I thanked myself for doing that. Focus ka sa ibang bagay, like pagsusulat pag nabobored ka.

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2 years ago

I have decided to delete kahit TikTok app. Hays. Sana naman maging okay na ako ngayon na wala masiyadong distractions.

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2 years ago