Throwback Thursday @First

Happy Thursday everyone. Weekend is coming only one day ahead. Ayeeh, Friday makes me excited, Monday makes me hate the rest of the days 😁😅.

Anyways, I will share some throwback this Thursday with some of my first in the past years. This throwback was triggered because of my mare @Yzza0625 post entitled " Recollecting My Firsts". While I was reading her post I couldn't hold myself to reminisce the past. So, I asked her if I could do my version of first, and she said yes. Thank you mads 😘.

Before continue to reminisce my firsts, Let me greet my lovely readers and sponsors. My heartfelt thanks for your undying support. I appreciate you all. God bless you all always.

Without further a do, here's my firsts ☺️. I do hope you will enjoy.

First Crush

I remember my first crush happened on my first grade. Sorry besh medyu kiatbels Ang Lola niyo 😂. But it's true, 100 % legit. And it lasted for six years. And yes, you read it right. It lasted for six years. With that young age I admire my classmate/ neighbor/childhood friend. Haha

It started when he stole a kiss from me while I was sleeping on my desk. I hated him for doing that. I didn't know that behind those hate was a secret admiration with him. Within almost five years he did not know that I had a crush on him. Not until my best friend told everyone in the classroom. It was a very shameful moment of my primary years. I was so furious that I unfriended my best friend. I would agree that best friend would be your best enemy. That's why I don't have best friend today.

Anyways so much about that, parang Ang layo na Ng kwento ko 😅, going back with my crush story. He did learned about my feelings and he don't have the same energy I have given to him. His mom learned as well and she always teased me whenever I pass by at their house. I do feel some batteries, iste butterflies on my stomach but it didn't last long.

Time came, I was tired anymore. Six long years was enough for the person who would never even look back at me. I decided, and promised myself that I will end my crush on him whenever I step on secondary. And I did, congrats to myself. Haha. Goodbye six long years.

First Boyfriend

I would not forget my first boyfriend as well cause it was a puppy love gone wrong 😂😂. Let's call him Jayson. Me and him first meet in a church choir. He was a perfect definition of tall dark and handsome, in my own sight lol. He was gentleman, for everyone I guess. But I was a bit of feelingera haha. I thought it was just me though he told me I am special. He is the reason why I always am present at the church practice, Sunday service and every fiesta we had to serve. Sorry lord 🥴😬. Fast forward, he courted me. We had the same sparks. But we need to hide it because it's not allowed. Months passed we had a smooth relationship, not until my family and his family was invited with a common friend. My papa asked me to show my respect to his parents because they're my aunt and uncle. What? Really? As in? Though I was confused at that moment I complied.

I message him and asked if he knows everything, that we are cousins. He told me he know not too long before that event. I was furious and asked him why he did not told me about it. He said, he likes me a lot and he don't want to hurt me. My goodness! I am thankful that I have known it early, before anyone knows and before our relationship takes deeper. I don't want to had issues because I had relationship with a cousin. It would be much harder than that. I blocked him and show that I am angry at him because of that. We did not see each other for many years. And the time we meet again he had family already.

First break up

My first relationship wasn't my first brokeness. I consider my first break up with my third boyfriend, because only him I cried a lot and felt that I could not live in this world anymore. Chuss drama but everything was all a feeling. Haha. I consider it a a break up because he is the first person I felt really broken. I questioned my worth and my capacities. I had my insecurities and trust issues after that. Because of that brokeness, I hardly found the courage to love and be in a relationship again. Well, whenever I look back with that memories it was a blessings in disguise. And I thank God I did not give in with those brokeness.

Every first in our life is hard to forget. It could be good or bad experience. Yet, it become part of us in the past. It is a factor contributes from who we are and what we are today. On how we act and decide. As for me, the rejections and the brokeness makes me wise and careful. Though I have the scar inside caused by a broken trust but I am thankful that there's people willing to mend those scars and accept me for who I am today.

That would be all for today. Thank you so much for reading. Keep safe and God bless.

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