This is me now.

This is me now.

Even now, when things are very hard, I cry.

Being busy has become the new standard where I live. The world tells me I'm not living up to my full potential if I'm not packing as much as I can into each waking moment. And it's challenging to stay inspired and to find solid ground to stand on when I feel like I'm failing and slipping behind.

Because of the hurrying around, I apologize for causing my own heartbreaks through expectations. I should have remained still and allowed for your extremely natural flow. And that getting lost, going back, rethinking, and trying again is all OK. Nothing is wasted because everything matters.

I keep getting up from the pains of being and learning to let go of knowing because "you are challenging, but you are also empowering."

I, therefore, trust the timing in life.

In life, I discovered the following:

My ability to forgive myself.

On evenings like tonight, whenever I think negatively of the person I've become, I find it challenging to look at myself in the mirror. Realizing that I have scars all over my body and psyche that will constantly remind me of the things I never intended to happen is agonizing.

I don't know what the future holds for me, and it may take me the rest of my life to learn how to treat myself with kindness or realize that I'm not all that flawed. But I swear I'll keep looking for hope. I should be compassionate with my soul. I am deserving of my forgiveness. I'll keep waging these battles with myself. I'll have courage.

Give the individuals that matter the most your time.

We frequently overlook that there are other obligations outside only bills to be paid, calls to be returned, and errands to run in our hectic life. There are persons in our lives who deserve hugs and affection. People in our life require recognition and appreciation for their achievements.

We must never forget that a heart is like a plant that requires care and nourishment from the things only another heart can provide—love, adoration, devotion, and honesty.

Fill your head with the generosity of friends, the love of those you love, and the priceless wealth of memories.

I pursue my dreams not out of spite. Not to take revenge, prove them wrong, or be better than them. 

Remember that those who have harmed you will eventually forget and lose interest. Don't invest anything in them because, by the time you succeed, they won't notice since they'll be preoccupied with their own issues, and you don't deserve to feel empty and exhausted.

Be motivated by your own needs, including those for serenity, enjoyment, and improvement. You will confidently carry your success narrative at the end of the day.

Now, who are you? How far along are you now?

Whatever it is and wherever you are, always be optimistic and try your best!

Good evening everyone! I hope you're all okay! God bless you all.