I Hope I Can Continue

It's been a really rough period for me, this past weeks. So rough, I'm beginning to ask myself if some things are worth the trouble, and sadly chief among those, is read.cash. I've never made a secret of my purpose on this platform. Just like everyone here, I'm here for a number of reason with a scale of preference of course.

My first purpose of been on this platform is and has always been to earn. But I've always also known that to earn on a platform like this, I'll need to give back to it in a way, contribute to it's growth and development. This I've tried my best to do by writing fairly good articles that have lessons and value to the community. I've also always tried to put in the work into my articles, my interactions and otherwise. Even through all the time my different accounts at different times were getting spammed and earning nothing, I didn't give up bcos I had faith and eventually things got better.

The earnings from this platform has been helpful in helping augments the funds for my daily and basic needs, and that has serve as my greatest motivation to keep doing this. Recently, that hasn't been the case and it's beginning to get to me. On average, I visit nothing less than seventy five articles daily; reading, upvoting, tipping and commenting along the way. Doing this and typing my own article takes a lot of time due to the state of my device and network connection. It's almost like read.cash is a job to me.

Knowing this, it becomes really hard to find a reason to keep going seeing as my work is not been rewarded. It's really frustrating. I remember when some old users on the platform were complaining about this, I was trying to encourage them, I had forgotten how hurtful it is to experience. Now, I can fully appreciate how they felt.

I've actually tried everything in the book, just to see if things will turn around, but it looks not, and knowing that I really do need the earnings, I'm beginning to ask myself if I can continue. I remember my last account, there was a time I didn't earn for two months and I kept posting and persevering, even with this account I also suffer a month or two of very little earning not exceeding $1 per article, seem like I've already used all of my perseverance now. I really don't want to stop, but it seems that would be the better option, so I can use the time to look for other ways to earn. Maybe I should just get a job and forgo read.cash.

I probably couldn't, because sooner than later, I'll begin to miss it, to miss you guys and the chance to express myself ever so freely to a community ever so supportive. One could almost say I'm kind of addicted to read.cash, and that addiction is making me quite frustrated with the current state of things. It's beginning to affect other areas of my life as I'm constantly worried and in fear that this is a step on the way to be spammed.. I just want things to go back to the way they were when I saw the notification from the bot a number of times a day and not just once a day like it is now.

Conclusion

I'm sorry guys, it's not like I want to leave the platform or anything, I just wanted to get this off my chest. I'm really sorry. I love this platform, I love the interactions I have here, the friendship I'm building here and so on. It's a great platform that affords me a safe space to be both my worst and best self while been rewarded, and for that I'm grateful; grateful to @MarcDeMesel , @Simon the dev, @RandomRewarder the ever generous bot, at my wonderful sponsors who have unwavering faith in me, at my fans who read, upvote, tip and comment on my articles. I appreciate all of you guys. I'm only here because of you guys and for that I'm really grateful.