Date:September 27,2021
Author: SequoiaFirst of all, I would like to apologize to for being inactive the past 2 days. I am just so occupied and busy. However, I will try my best to make it up to you all my beloved co-writers. Thank you for always supporting me. More Power!
I love travelling from place to place. It makes your realize how tiny you and your problems are.
-Anonymous
You can never find the peace in the place where it got broken into pieces. Therefore, allow yourself to grow, breath and relax by being lost in the right direction.
I've been in despair these past few days. Succumb by pressures and other unpleasant things in life. Bothered by insurmountable hopeless thoughts and personal struggles. It paralyze me and took away my voice. I don't wanna be seen as weak by the other people. And that is the reason why I choose to keep silent and supressed what I feel. I invalidated my emotions. I kept on pushing it inside. Trying to hide it from the people I know. That obviously judge me by just the look of their brow.
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My family is facing an obstacle as of the moment. However, the variety of emotions from each member already subsided a little.
To be honest, I am so affected by the issue since I am the last person who discovered it. I feel betrayed by my own clan and it made me lost my whole trust in them.
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If you have been my ardent reader, I am sure that you already know that I was raised by my mother alone. However, I haven't mentioned that I had a stepfather when I turned 12 years old. Of course, as a kid, I got mad at my mom that time. It took me 3 years before I finally accepted my step-father in my life. Unfortunately, he died last May and it leave us in tears.
I know how much my mom got hurt by his death. But after almost 2 months. She felt better again. We continued our lives and even built a stronger bond. I work hard for her to stop from working since she's already 57 years old. I did everything for her to be happy.
But just recently, I found out that she had a boyfriend and younger than her. It drives me nuts and almost lost my sanity. I couldn't accept the man and their relationship. It was so sudden and she even kept it as a secret from us.
I also discovered that the man is a gambler and have vices. He smoke and a drunkard. Of course, do you think I'll be happy with that? I confronted her about it. We had a fight over the said man.
Now, I can't stop myself from asking if I am becoming selfish? I couldn't figure out anymore and choose to share it to @immaryandmerry to find some advices. And I am glad that this girl is willing to listen and very approachable. Thank you be.
As of the moment, my mom and I were okay but not that close anymore. I am still not okay with it and I doubt if I'll ever be.
As much as I wanted to put it in detail, but my mind and heart don't want to recall it anymore. I just force myself in order for me to let it out and feel better.
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My boyfriend knew about what I m going through right now. That's why, he decided to give me a quick escape from all the stress and brought me to Kapatagan. This is also part of our celebration since yesterday was our 20th monthsary.
We went to the newly opened mountain resort.
I love the view in this place. There are also pools for kids. Best for overnights amd quality time with your love ones.
From Wako-wako. He then brought me to Holy land had a 15 minutes hiking. The view was so relaxing calming. Best place for reflection.
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I can say that I am so blessed to have someone who choose to stay with me during my darkest moments. Someone who doesn't just love my body, but my soul.
Don't be too hard on yourself. You've done enough and you definitely deserve that quick escapade.
Explore
Go on adventures.
Travel
Enjoy
Live your life to the fullest.
Life is short. Filled it with happy memories. Do the things you want to do. Take risk and fly high. Failure is better than regrets.
When you fail, it means that you try.
While regrets will forever hunt you while you are still alive.
"You don't become selfish by prioritizing yourself. In fact, you are doing them a favor. You can't give other people the right treatment if you don't start it within yourself."
Ateng, Kung unsa may giagian nimo karun na pagsulay, Don't give ate. God is still Good japun no matter what💖