Date: October 26,2021
Author: Sequoia"Positivity isn't always the answer for every problems and downfalls we face. It is not always about finding the silver lining in every dark and gloomy clouds. Sometimes, all we just need to do is to accept the things the way they are. Acceptance is the key for us to be able to move forward in life. Accep that there are things that aren't meant for us. Or maybe it is, but the time is not yet right."
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Today is one of the most disappointing and frustrating day for me. As you have noticed, I became inactive in read.cash and in noise.cash these past few days and I really owe you a lot of articles to read guys. I will surely make it up to you all when I feel better. Anyways, let's go back to the main topic in this article-my crushed and broken heart.
I feel so down and discouraged in myself as of the moment. Just for your information, I applied for a call center job during my inactivity days and I receive a lot of calls from different BPO companies. It overwhelmed me to be honest and so I choose to focus in one company only. I will no longer mentioned the company's name for some confidentiality. Anyhow, I was able to pass the initial and final interview in that particular company but I failed to pass the assessment test. I feel so bad about it because I am only a one step away from my choosen job but still I didn't make it. I feel like I am a failure right now. A los*r. W*akling.
I am so mad with myself because of it and I just wanna punch my face (charaught). I really hate this feeling and I never wish to experience it again. Maybe next time, I need to exert more effort, sweat and tears in order for me to achieve the things that I want.
On the other hand, I am starting to shift my attention to the positive sides. Maybe God doesn't allow me to get that job because He might know that I can't handle doing two things at a time. Take note, I am still studying and we already started our field study last week. Aside from that, I am also managing my read.cash and noise.cash account. Regardless od the reason, I still hope and pray that God surely have bigger and better plans for me.
However, I still can't help myself but to feel so down right now. No matter what uplifting encouragement that I say to myself, I still can't deny the fact that my lil buddy inside this chest is feeling blue right now.
Maybe, I need to start acknowledging my feelings and let this unpleasant emotion sit there for about an hour or day but not forever or for a long time of course.
Sometimes, letting your heart breath and accepting the fact that there will always be bad days and failed expectations are all we need to successfully overcome this feeling.
You failed? Accept it.
You feel bad? Acknowledge and know that it is validated.
You are human and never suppress what you feel. You need to let it out so that you will truly heal from it. The more you hide something, the more it will haunt you.
Open yourself but remain a mystery. Let them read you from pages to pages.
Remember, your emotions are valid and it's okay. Accept things wholeheartedly and you will eventually understand the reason behind that occurence.
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Author's Thoughts
Hello my awesome readcash family. How are you all today? I am so sorry for the dramas and everything. I just really need to let this out in my chest in order to feel better and gather my strength and courage again. And just so you know, I am not giving up yet. I will fight until I will achieve the things I desire. Aja Sequoia!
You aren't a failure because you didn't pass the assessment test. If God wants you to have the job, even without doing much work or putting much effort, it will be yours but we human beings like to stress ourselves too much thinking it is our ability or inability. What will be will be and we can't change the fact. Let's accept whatever happens and keep moving on.