I Used to be Hard Working, I don't know what Happened now.

Oh shoot! I lost track of time that I forgot to write todag. I mean it's already 5:22 pm. Seriously self, you are really slacking off eh? I can't even remember where I spent my whole day. Isn't that crazy? Or the time really run fast now that tracking it is impossible. Argh, I don't know anymore. I can't even type this in one sitting without the disturbance because of the things I have to do. Like you know, eat, cooking, sweeping the floor. Right now I just finish giving foods to our cat. They are eating with so much gusto.

I am also watching for the rice that I am cooking right now. Multitasking at it's finest. To be honest this are just simple house chores but because I have things to finish, I feel like someone is running for my life with how fast I this this haha. But I hope this still sense to you. And you know what I noticed in the past few days on myself? I am really procrastinating as in - I am doing nonsense things instead of being productive. I hate myself right now for being distracted for the movie that I am watching right now.

In fact I just finish this one movie while I am eating my dinner. I already heard about this movie before but I only start watching it thanks to @Jijisaur . I read her article before so yeah. I got curious on it and download it now I just finish it. This is not the only distraction that I encountered today because I also spent time on facebook, wtf I know tch. What's happening to me now is really not good and seriously, I want this to change right now else. This will continue for sure until I decided to just do nothing at all.

Although I become active this morning still - I only spent a little time on this 3 platform where I'm currently at. And what did I do except watching? Well, I take a short nap. I also watch porn. Hmm, what else did I do ＼(◎o◎)／ah yes , I also read story on wattpad. I am still not done on it actually. I am currently reading Temptation Island: Role Playing by Makiwander. It is already a finish story and I am already at chapter 27 I think. It is a matured like stories and yes there's a lot of HAPPY and kainggit inggit na scene on that story.

I am not yet done on that one and I still have one more story left to read. It was written by Mandie Lee so if you know her you can expect MOREEEEE lovely scene in there that is really not good for the kids. Have you read this story already @imanagrcltrst ? If not you better read it now, lol. There's a lot of bed scene on it UwU. Though I skip most of them but still the story is good so yeah. This is also the reason why watched porn this afternoon. Because, if before I will be affected on it a little bit but this time and even before, nothing affects me now. Like I feel like I'm made of stone now without feelings.

I'm not sure, even watching porn is not working anymore - lol. I think something is really wrong with me. Lol. But well, whatever huehue. And Oh Gosh! I am already absent for 3 days on Hive. I mean it should be just every other day that I will publish but - arghhh laziness again got the best of me. I really need to work on myself now. I have goals to achieve and things to do but I feel like I am messing with my own time already. A lot of excuses and all. Instead of working on it i will just make some excuses. I am hating what I'm becoming now.

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I need lalaki

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Just kidding, what I need right now ks to gather my thought and start over again. I will just have this silent goals that I will reach no matter what.

So, cheer for me friends

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September 14, 2022

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