Where were you?

“Sometimes, you just need a break. In a beautiful place. Alone. To figure everything out.”

– Anonymous

Where were you when I needed you?

When I had wanted to share my childhood stories with you?

When I wanted to gist you about my day?

When I wanted to laugh with you, while watching those funny skits on my phone?

When I feel like staring at your eyes every time and smile?

Where were you when I felt bored?

When I had wanted to share my sad moment with you?

When I wanted you by my side?

When I wanted you to look into my eyes and tell me sweet words I had wanted to hear?

When I wanted us to talk about our future?

Where were you when I was crying all night with my pillow hanging around me?

When I needed someone to chat with at night?

When I was lonely and needed a hug?

When I had sleepless nights and I wanted you to cuddle me?

When I felt like watching movies with you?

Where were you when I was happy, and to tell you about it?

When I needed to share my excitement with you?

When I wanted to discuss important things with you?

When I wanted to share how my day went?

When I wanted you to see my beautiful pictures?

Where were you when I wanted us to go out together?

To view places holding our hands together?

When I felt like walking with you?

When the day seems so cool and warm and needed you?

When I wanted you to see my achievement?

Where were you when I needed to spend the moment with you?

Where I wanted us to travel to beautiful places together?

Where I needed you to gist about your day?

Where I needed you to type the word "I love you?"

Where I felt envy seeing my friends talk about their partners, but do not have any to talk about?

Where were you when I needed us to talk about us?

Where I needed us to talk about our children?

Where I needed us to talk about our families?

Where I needed us to plan our future and how to build our family?

Where I needed you to tell me your plans and how we would actualize them?

Where were you when I needed you to eat my meals?

Where I needed you to compliment me, putting on gorgeous dresses?

Where I needed you to jump on me while we play roughly indoor?

Where I needed you to watch me singing?

Where I needed you to shout at me, but smile and say "it´s alright baby, everything is gonna be okay?"

Yesterday, I was in my room making my tea when I was thinking about this. There are times thoughts like this would flow in, especially when you are still single and you feel like the right man or woman should appear right in front of you. I couldn't stop myself from the thoughts as I had to leave my tea and sat down thinking about that day when he would appear with a question "would you be my girlfriend?" and gradually, taking the big step of proposing with the word "Will you marry me?"

Sincerely, I am looking forward to such a day and when it comes, I promise myself never to let it slip off my hand because I am going to protect our relationship. This is a prayer also because I wouldn't want a bad relationship, but the best I have ever had in my life.

You can never stop yourself from such thought because it would just flow in quietly and leave you wondering why you haven't been into a relationship but trust me, God is working His best, preparing him or her for you and when the time comes, nothing is going to stop it. Though I believe and trust God, I want it soon and it should be the right time.

I just feel like pouring out my mind here, at least I would feel relieved unburdening such from my mind and trust God for the best.

It's a new week again and let us go with these encouraging words that we are not alone as long as God is with us. You can never do it on your own without Him ordering all in your life and you just have to allow Him take over the wheel while you watch Him do everything with keen interest.

Your plans may be good, but if it isn't God's plan, it is useless. God has no choice than to make His plan the best for you, only if you consider Him to be the greatest in your journey. Go with faith this week while you take that bold step in achieving your goals. Do not settle for less, but know your worth and do not let anyone think less of you, and even if they do, you are only weak when you allow them while you limit yourself based on what they have said about you. May God keep us safe this week, Amen.  

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