What I Realized Being Far Away From My Parents.

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I'm always trying my best during the time that I am still living to tem, I try t understand everything and anthing accordin to my own understanding and idea, but not all the time I can figure out what's the best for veryone, and what's the best for me.

They knew that i'm nt that kkind of person where I usually do m sual things juust to make me happy, yet that one is insulting me already since I knew that all of the time they can't understand my side and they will never ever listening to me. I understand that they are my parents and ofcourse I am oblidged t listen to hem and to follow themm. But there ar times where II can't anage t understand something that is from them.


I have a huge expectation that everything will change when I'm not there, but instead I am wrong. I talked to my niece last day and I opened up to her about what I think and what's on my mind. She also told me that they have another issue at my famiy because my sister caught covid for the 3rd time already, ofcourse I know they will be feel stressed again because the source of my income was only my step sister on my father's side.

There are few things that I realized when I got here to Baguio recenty, alllow me to share them.


Even if I'm away, everything wil not be change.

  • I realized that no matter how we tried to understand everthing, we'll be end up stuck on one thing where we knew nothing will change. I'm trying my best to be okay on thhe things that im not supposed to think enough.

Do I have a wish? Yes, we all have a wish where w think it's better than oher things. My only wish is, I'm hoping one day that my parents will changed and their mind will be open just like what am I wishing for.


They will not understand what I feel because their focus is only at their want.

  • My niece told me this last niight when I talk to her. She said, no matter how I tried to talk and tel them at I really feel it's so rare that they will listen r they will gonna understand my feeling. I couldn't agree more because even before, they alawys like that already.

Wanna know the reason why? They ony focus on the past, I mean, for them the past is the reflection of what you are right now and a reflection f what you be in the future, That's how they look into you without having their own bsuiness because they will going to judge you easy related on the past that they already seen.

I am their daughter but what I can hear from the is the wrong doings of my step siblings years ago, it's hard for me t understand their intention since they always like that. e, all of the new geneation of the family was strugglng because of wrong doings that was happened before. It was so hard to understand them since that always telling other people a different story.


They only believe on what they think is correct, than asking you first.

  • They will not allow you to make a decision because hey think it was nothing and it was the worst decision ever. Idk what's on their mind but whenever that you sharing any of your ideas and plan, they will judging you all of sudden.

imagine? having a parents who have ths kind of mindset.


Lately, I hate explaining my side to them and I hate telling more thigs if I have a plan or whatever it is. It makes me tired tryng to explain my side and trying to understand their side too.

I am planning to take a rest for a while while gaining a peace of mind. That's all I'm planning right now. My head is spinning thinking about things that's happening right now, especially the attitude of my mother.

My nice who's in the same age of me tried to borrow a mone from them but they didn't give it. tbh, I a the one who feel insulted because of their doings.


Final Thoughts.

Naiinis ako kasi ayaw ko sa lahat yung sakim sa pera, 100 lang yun eh di na kalakihan tapos pagdadamutan pa. Sobrang higpit nila sa pera nakakaasar.

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ayaw ko talaga mag comment when it comes to issues with parents kasi magkaiba tayo nang prinsipyo over that matters. i just hope langga that you find the peace of mind that you deserved.

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2 years ago

Claim this momsh, gusto ko rin ung ganito na klaseng peace of mind.

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2 years ago

Umalis kana pala Gy no, kmusta naman ang place? For sure nag aadjust ka pa. Sana ma realize yan ng parents. Ang hirap nyan kase mindset nila ang kalaban eh.

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2 years ago

kay naman ate, waang probs saka kalmado lahat

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2 years ago

Nakakasad naman Langga. Ba't naman sila ganun. Sana maayos na langga para no worries na din Langga. Isa kasi yan sa mga bagay nadidistract tayo dahil andito sa mind natin. Kumusta kana pala diyan sa Baguio Langga?

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2 years ago

okay ako dito ate, matwasay nnaman laat.

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2 years ago

Wala ba account niece mo lang gcash na pwede mo pagsendan para direct na lang sa kanya?

You really have to focus more on yourself for now especially that you are in a new environment. Do what you can to help the family, yes, but don't forget yourself.

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2 years ago

opo kuya, gginagawa ko rin po best ko

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2 years ago

Hala, ba't naman ganun bebe...🥺 Hmm...Hoping na maging okay pa din kayo.. Ako naman, yung naging malayo ako sa parents, lagi ko'ng request sa kanila na pag hindi ako nakakauwi dito sa bahay, sila ying pupunta dun sa'kin. Kakamiss kasi yung malayo sa parents, lalo pa't ako lang nag-iisang anak. Umiyak pa nga ako nung first week ko dun kasi gusto ko na ilipat nila ako nang school..

Laban ka lang bebe ha.. Magiging okay din ang lahat..

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2 years ago

kala ko nga aggigig okay na e tas di pala, mas lumala ugali nila

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2 years ago

Parents dapat ang unang tatakbuhan mo bunso yet sila yung sakit sa dibdib mo , praying na maging okay pa rin kayu. As of now rest ka lang muna and hayaan muna lang muna ang mga pangyayari huwag na mag overthink lalo.

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2 years ago

totoo ate,, kapa sinasabihan o napagsasabihan ko sila sumama aman loob nila sakin

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2 years ago

Hirap namn nang ganyan gyra hahah, peru labarn lang this is life only strong people will win. Kakaya tiyaga kalang at igonore mo nlng yung mga bagay na kinaiinisan mo.

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2 years ago

oo nga manong eh, magagawa ko naang na pabayaan, waa ehh ganyan tlaga

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2 years ago

Live wild nlng hihih. Hayaan mo nlng😆

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2 years ago

Parang mahirap nga ang sitwasyon mo sis, dahil kahit anong mangyari parents mo pa din sila, siguro pray na lang na one day mabago din ang mga pananaw at ugali nila sa buhay. Just continue your studies at magpakabuti ka, kung kaya mong magipon gawin mo para sa future mo, atleast kahit di ka nila bigyan meron kang sariling pera. Malay mo sa magiging sariling pamilya mo maging maligaya ka, siguro soon bata ka pa naman.

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2 years ago

oo nga sis eh ayan rin nasaisippan ko, wala naman ako magagawa kasi magulang ko sila

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2 years ago

That's the reality that parents can be toxic too. Breathe in breathe out, magiging ok din ang lahat

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2 years ago

It's so sad to hear this my friend. Our parents are supposed to be the people that will unload the heaviness in out hearts. But yours is the other way around. I pray that things will be iron-out between you and your parents my friend.

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2 years ago

thankyou sis

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2 years ago

I can relate to you, sis. Ever since college, I live away from home. Everything was still fine and they support me with everything I do and need for my studies. Now, that I am starting my career there are so many things that changed. Every week I go home. Sadly, since Februaryry, I haven't gone home. My father said terrible things to me. I was already struggling emotionally and I got totally destructed that time. I was hoping my mother would do something, but she just listened to the hurtful words I received. Then, she calls me at work as nothing has ever happened. They never asked me how was I doing or have I had been eating 3 meals a day, they'll just call asking for the monthly allowance for my brother. So I thought, do they think, I don't feel anything? They only call me if they need something but they never asked how am I?

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2 years ago

Relate, almost lahat ata ng young adults nararanasan to. Kailangan pa din natin pahalagahan ang sarili, wag abusohin ang sarili. Kung lahat walang pakialam sayo, wag mong hayaan na pati sarili mo sumuko na sa mundo. Alagaan pa din ang sarili. Lalo mentally kung ano mga dapat lang natin iretain na healthy para satin un lang. The rest pray nalang

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2 years ago

totoo sis, importate rin na mentally sttabe ka kasii iba yung impact ng mental health kumpara sa physical

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2 years ago

Bakit kaya ganyan sis? Madalas sila magbago kpag may mga bagay kanang gusto gawin o di kaya career

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2 years ago

Di ko rin maintindihan sis. Ako pa daw nagmamatigas sila pa daw yung pinapaluhod ko. Syempre tao rin naman ako. Kailangan kong umiwas kasi masyadong masakit parang mababaliw ako kakaisip saan ako nagkulang bilang anak. Di nga ako sumasagot sa kanila. Ewan ko talaga. Bumuo na lang kaya ako ng sarili kong pamilya? 😆

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2 years ago

uy totoo sis ak rin ganyan HAHAHAHA parag diko maiwasan mapaisip san ako nagkulng bilng nak nila

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2 years ago

Wag mo muna sila isipin bhe, deserve mo naman peace of mind, malay mo soon marealize nila lahat ng ginagawa mila

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2 years ago

Yan gonagawa ko now teh, nakakahiua kasi pati jowa ko nagugulo na nila

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2 years ago

Parents are people we have to leave with no matter how they are, even if we're together they still mean a lot to us. It's saddening to know how things are the way they are for you. I hope they understand.

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2 years ago

i am hoping too doc

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2 years ago

Good thing malayo ka na ngayon sa kanila. At least man lang for the meantime, makapahinga ka sa stress at malayo sa toxic environment.

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2 years ago

I feel sad with your part sis. Pray nlng natin yan.

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2 years ago

oo nga ate I hav no choice nrin

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2 years ago

Bakit ganun dae?Sana magiging okay na kayu at isipin naman nilanyung side mo .Ang hirap kasi sa ibang parents ay sobrang strict na to the point hindi na nakakabuti sa mga anak nila .Sana magiging okay na kayu kasi parents monpa din yun .

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2 years ago

un nga ate e, nkapagdesisyon nanga muna ako na wag makigusap sakania para naiin sa ikakaahimik ng loob ko

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2 years ago