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“Once A Grandmother Said: A Letter For My Grandma. (If I Can Go Back)”

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I saw you in my dreams for many times, laughing with me and comforting me whenever that I’m sad or down, it’s just making me feel happy. I know, next year will be the last time that I’m with everyone and also with you.

Grandma, you teach me many things despite of my immature behavior when I was a child. You told me many things that the olders do, I dreamed of you months ago. You were in my dreams where me and my love ones having a good time going to her place. You just smiled at me and say “Goodbye” with a twinkle in your eyes. I still remember it clearly.

During my birthday, I also dreamed of you. You told me that I already found “IT”, I don’t know what you mean about that but I guess I found the answer after many months. I already found the answer of what you said, I found it Grandma, yes grandma I found it.

I still remember when I dreamed of you when I was in grade 4, you were holding my white cat who killed by the people here because they ate it, you always telling me that, “Sweetheart, soon you will be out on your comfort zone.”, actually back then I really don’t understand why you told me that. Why you said those things to me, I hear that from you in my dreams many times whenever you were visiting me. And right now, today I just finally realized what you mean about my “comfort zone”.

Back then, I don’t understand what Comfort zone is and why I need to go out with it. But sooner, when I grew up it’s where I realized that my comfort zone is what you called a “Home”, or a “Family”.

Last week, we were talking to each other in my dream. You told me that this things supposed to happen so I don’t need to question anyone and everyone why they were helping me. I guess, you see my struggles in our family. You see me how I try to handle them bravely even if I feel weak inside.

You love popping in my dream whenever I feel depressed, and whenever I dream of you this feeling of mine were valid...I am happy. The happiness that I can’t feel in my family, the happiness that I can’t feel for them. I don’t have any idea about the God’s plan for me but I am trusting him.

Grandma, I feel your warmth out of nowhere. I just feel you, whenever I dreamed of you I can feel it...if you’re happy, sad, disappointed...everything about your presence. I don’t know if it’s just me or why I feel this way but you made me feel that I need to be thankful.

Hey Grandma, I miss you. I really missing you, I miss how you spoil me, how you feed me, how you make me feel love..you told me last night that “Someone will give you happiness you want to feel from me, that someone will help you in everything sweetheart. Just trust that person”, yes Grandma, that’s where I realized who’s that person is.

Suddenly when I woke up, I remember you told me before in my dreams that I will meet someone who will meet all of my expectation. I didn’t pay attention to it grandma, but right now everything is clear.

You were gone for almost years, but you didn’t let me to go in this world alone, you still guided me even though you’re not on my side. Grandma, if I can only go back and hug you tight, if I can go back and tell stories about what’s happening in my life in the future, if I can go back and tell you everything..I’ll do it.

If I just can go back, and kiss you in your cheeks again..I’ll say I love you once again..I’ll say I miss you once again, and I’ll say I need you once again 🥺.

If I just can go back..I’ll tell you how much I missed you.

Author’s Note:

Sorry for the drama, My grandmother pop in my dream many times this month and it makes me feel really missing her and really wanter to hug her tight 🥺

10-28-21
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Ahhhhh love from grandma is so much blessed. I know she is happy watching you ateee keep it up po

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2 months ago

Buti paka makasama mo siya ako din eh🤧

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2 months ago

Your grandma loves you too much that she can't leave you alone in this world, she may be out of this world physically but her presence is still with you. I feel envious of how close you were to your grandma. My grandma and I were not that close because of a feud between families. I just remembered her face but not who she really is. I hope she's at peace now. If could also go back in time, I'd probably spend my time to know her and feel what does it means to be loved by a grandma.

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2 months ago

Your grandma is watching over you and keeps on reminding you to keep on keeping on! So hold still and strive harder!

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2 months ago

Aw, she loves to visit you in your dreams. Your grandma is so sweet. I can feel how you missed and love her. Grandparents care is one of the best talaga ♡

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2 months ago

oo true, halos sakanila lahat ng spoil HAHAHAHA

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2 months ago

Hugs and love from the devil. My prayers for her dear. She remains in your heart.

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2 months ago

Siguro bhe nakikita nya ung nangyayari sayo ngaun kaya nagpapkita sya sa dreams mo, para bigyan ka ng lakas ng loob sa mga bagay na pinagdadaanan mo

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2 months ago

Siguro rin ate, ayan ung nasaisipan ko kasi halosnsumod-sunod na nakikita konsya

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2 months ago

Yun nga yun bhe kasi feeling mo down na down ka na, then may mga financial issues ka pa, kaya andyan si lola mo to cheer you up

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2 months ago

Sweet grandma of yours. Sanaol close e. Hehehe. She's in a better place. In your heart she'll forever stay.

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2 months ago

Oo nga e naalala ko kinain nya pa kipstick noon 🤣

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2 months ago

I wish i have memories with my grandma....i am sure that your grandma is there for you and watxhing and guiding you ,🥰

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2 months ago

Di mo ba sya naabutan?

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2 months ago

Ahhh, you miss your grandma so much kaya siguro lumitae sya sa panaginip mo. Anyways, I'm sure she's happy watching you there. 🤗

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2 months ago

Yes ate, and maybe she’s guiding me ❤️

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2 months ago

Nasad tuloy ako. Si grandpa naman ang ganyan samin 😥 at ilang years na rn wala

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2 months ago

NAkakamiss presensya nila ate, parang kahapon lang lahat

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2 months ago

Grandma sweet grandma. Grandma's are the best. You've got a good one who still sticks by you in a different realm. We shall all unite someday.

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2 months ago

Yes yrue, even if that someday is in the next life

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