No one knows what tomorrow will be, what your life in the future will be, what your life today will be, of to the other days, years and months.

We have no idea when our life will end here in the world, we have no idea until when we can go on, until when we can fightback, until when we can move through. But no matter how hard life is, we already knew giving us is not an option.

Hey you strangers, maybe I don't know who you are and I'm not even sure if you're okay or not. But always think, that you are beautiful, you are loved, you deserve everything in this world and you deserve to be here.

This article, was dedicated to someone who's mean to me. To someone who I really love, and to someone who's become my guide everytime that I'm having a hard time.

This article is dedicated for you, thankyou.

I think of myself as no potential, no future, source of unlucky things in our house, a useless daughter and a good for nothing one. My parents always comparing me to others who has a beautiful life, big houses, having their own business already at the age of 18. They're always comparing me to the people who's spoiling their parents to everything that they want, they always comparing and asking me why I can't do the same.

We born with a different potential, although all of us have the same potential because we were born with 2 eyes, 2 ears, 1 nouse and 1 lips. Although, we have a different strength and weakness. Like me, my strength is being positive to the eyes of others while my weakness is I can't make my own self happy, and I don't even know myself.

Eversince I was a kid, my parents always telling me to copy this, and that. To be like him/her. When I was molested by my own nephew and ninang's husband, instead of listening to me they just scolded me and told me that I'm just a kid to make than kind of story.

Eversince I was a kid, they always telling me to stay on top. Keeping me active on school 24/7 and whenever I do small mistakes, they always ended up scolding me. They were asking me why I can't be like that and like this, I even still remember when they told me that I am good with nothing daughter to them.

Those words were on my mind even if it was 14 years ago already, they keep replaying inside my head, they kept repeating inside my head. Even if how many times I'm trying get rid out of my head, I always found myself hanging at the edge.

Each year, I'm growing stronger and stronger.

• As I grew up, I learned that life is not always at the top. There are times when you'll be on the edge while your head us wandering to the problems that hasn't been solve. They will kept wandering around you like they want you to step down from your life, but if you ask me:

I'll rather leave the place where am I right now than staying here and letting myself to be tortured.

Do you guys even wonder why starting at zero again is important than continuing the life that you already had?

One of the reason is Trauma.

• We all grow being scared with something. We grew like the past were eating us and keeping us down. The trauma were haunting us over and over again while we keep asking one another why this thing happened, why is that happened.

But we don't have any answers for that, sometimes we took many years to be totally healed. Or stay in that place instead of going out to the past experiences where we almost hated everyone.

Another reason is the Past.

• We have memories from the past where we want to forget everything, memories where we can feel until now, where the scene was so clear even if it's already a years ago, many years ago or a few years ago. We're not sure until when we will handling that memories, until when we will feel sorry about what's happened in the past.

I have this memories where I want to forget everything, I wanna be okay, I wanna be the same happy person as me again. I wanna be the same person who's positive at all time, who can do better than myself rightnow. The old me, where battles is the reason why I'm fighting and not why I'm stress and also depressed.

I'm so lucky to..

Have someone who's positive in life.

• She's so positive despite of her wrongdoings to her past, despite of regrets, and despite of what happened before. She's tupakin, masungit, moody, but even though she's like that, she's the person who will show your worth despite of your being negative.

Have someone who's caring so much.

• I like her attitude where she was asking me if I eat, if how am I, if I'm done with my things and etc. I love her small gestures where she will call me when I'm on the outside, where she'll not end up the call not until I reach home. Her curiosity whenever I'm on outside makes me feel I have a butterflies on my stomach.

Have someone who will show your worth.

• I'm a type of person where I keep questioning myself about this things, why it is happening and why it is existing. But instead, she said this to me:

Panggaa, sorry if I become hostile to you. We're not sure until when the life of your parents but hoping that they will have a long life. It's so hard to be left alone with no one to run to. Remember that I'm always here. Just be thankful because you underwent surgery. Don't think about the things that they're saying to you, about raising you and about the cost or anything else. Don't make that a reason for you to stepdown yourself instead make one of your motivations everything that they've said and their doings. Do a hardwork and make them see that what they've said is not true. Change the way how you looks like to them and make all things possible everything that they said it's impossible. You know, you have a big potential. I can see that on you.

After she said that, I realized that I'm really lucky to have her, to have someone who's being so understandable when it comes to my family problems. Although, she said her head was aching whenever I'm ranting about ny family because she can't understand why they're mean. But still I am lucky becausw she didn't leave me and choose to stay no matter what.

3 days to go, advance happy anniversary baby.

Author's Note:

Before I end up this article, sorry for the late response at the comment section and late renewing this weeks sponsorships. I'm dealing with something rn but I'll renew them as long as I have balance to my account. Thankyou!

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