I'm not happy to the everything that is happening now. I mean, I already have check up last day for like 2x a month and I don't want it anymore. It feels like my monthly budget were already throwing out and I just want to save and spend more but not on emergencies, I mean, I want something that can benefit me like buying a motorcycle so that I don't need to wait for a taxi to come over at our boarding house to get to work since I am paying 52php or 1.2$ perday and it cost me a lot.

Me and my partner talk about opening a business, what business? She wants food and everything but I'm not sure what she really wants. If you asked me, I want to have a business about gadget of course that will be nationwide. I already sell perfume before and that's not a good idea tho, but I have a lot of buyers before so I really like it.

How about shoes? Hmm, me and my partner buy piggy bank and we putting coins to it like 0.2$ perday or 10php. If it's about shoes, we need a lot of sizes and also a bodega. But wait, shoe business is kinda good right? Since there's so many people who loves to buy shoes online and what we need is someone who will delivering it to us.

But of course the sizes first, since we need a lot of sizes I know it's kinda expensive. Like, we need a sizes for girls and boys, we also need a storage room or anything where we can put them. Packing and also accepting orders will do.

Why we planning this?

• Last day, me and my partner were talking about the payslip that we had. I told her about my rate and I was just receiving 80$ or 4kphp per 15 days, and that was kinda small since I need to travel, buy food and I need to buy like shampoo, soap, or anything that we can use to our body.

And she said, Why don't we just build up a business? Of course I'm agree with this. I'm not a business minded person but she is. But she's not into shoes maybe, and eunoia said that there's already many people who have their new shoes where is I'm totally agree with.

So today I'm from hospital again which is Note Dame, I wanna laugh out loud cauz what I did earlier is all about laboratory. I think I'm going crazy.

I also hate the fact that I need to feel this way just to figure out what's the problem with my body. Kulang nalang maadmit ako at madiagnosed nanaman ng ibang sakit. I can't imagine myself suffering again through all this, this is what I hate the most when I was still a kid, when I was still on my childhood. Because I always have this sickness where sometimes I was asking myself, why is this happening? Why I am struggling with this and why I can't be healthy?

Other said, being healthy is a blessing. But wait, no. Stop normalizing being chubby because being chubby has a lot of body shaming or worse has a lot of sickness. I've been struggling with this for like many years and yeah until now it's still ongoing.

Lmao, I'm not even sure til when I'm going to stay here at the earth.

Welp, it's already july and I know a lot of you have a new goals. And my goal and the only wish I had right now is to become healthy and improve my self. Since I don't want anyone to suffer because of me, and if I suffer I want to suffer alone without anyone on my side. Not even my partner.

But guess what, I'm still lucky to have her as my partner, because she always giving me strength and listening to the rant that I have even if sometimes I'm not listening to them. If I got the worst year every year, but I also got the best person in my life.

By the way, this is just a small update. Keep safe everyone!