Hi there read-friends! What did you choose to do this Tuesday? As for me, I went on my usual day-to-day tasks. Everyday is the same for me except when my mom asks me to do some errands at home.
I can't think of anything to write today. Last night, I'm almost certain of the things that I would share to you today. But as of now, I think I'm quite sober to realize that what I have in my head last night wasn't worth it to be written.
Nights would always make me emotional. The feeling might be busy doing something in the daylight that it only visits me at night time. I'm not sad my tooth just hurts so much that I wanted to sleep through it. Sleeping is a good medicine. Once you fall asleep, you will never feel the pain.
Why do we long for our mothers when we are in pain?
Is it just me who longs to be in my mother's side when I'm in pain? I always want to be with my mother but I have come to the realization that things can't go my way, that there are times when we can't just be with them. It is in my vulnerable moments that I long for her so much. The idea of her being at my side is enough to ease the pain that I have been feeling.
But then I realized I'm not a kid anymore. I'm a grown-up or at least I should grow up and not being with my mother in tough times is not that bad. Times like these would totally teach values and remind me of my realities. And though, I thought of the things my mother would do if I'm sick and the things she would most likely say. I just settle to the idea that I should start looking looking after myself. So, I lulled myself to sleep in fetal position. That is the most comforting sleeping position right? When we sleep in that position it comforts us because that is how we position ourselves when we were still in our mothers' womb.
On the other side
Donny, my friend's chat head today is green. After 10 days of being in quarantine. He is finally free to roam around their area and find a perfect spot that has mobile signal. I asked him to take photos of what his surrounding is like but he sent me these and asked if he has a future in photography.
I dont know what kind of flower is this. Maybe his grandma was the one who planted this because he is the only woman in their house.
I remember the day Donny left. I was very sad then that I thought that the universe has conspired to make fun of me and my feelings. I thought I wouldn't be able to bear the loneliness but here I'm now feeling better than ever.
The days when we got disconnected with him helped me a lot. It helped me rethink about priorities and life in general. I'm excited to talk to him again but not that much anymore.
I thought I would be happy when I'll be reconnected with him. But I'm not. I'm happy to be able to reconnect with him but not that much. Happiness has another meaning which reminds me of destination addiction.
I will share more about destination addiction tomorrow friends. Keep posted!
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August 24, 2021
7: 40 p.m. | tuesday
Murakamii.7
Finally! You were able to talked to Donny. 😊 we long for our mothers when we are sick because we know how they took care of us. That they even wanted to take away the pain that we are feeling. I know it is scary but I hope you can visit a dentist soon. It is really hard to work when we have headache, stomach pains or even a toothache. I also had a scheduled tooth surgery last year but then the pandemic happened. I think my dentist still does not take any patients up to this day. As much as I want to go to another dentist, my brother have already paid him for my surgery. Anyway, try to gargle with warm water and salt to lessen the pain that you are feeling. Most likely that your tooth has a hole that is why it is acting up. Also avoid eating sweets as that is what our teeth really like.