Unusual.

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10th of how many.

Menstruation is a woman's monthly bleeding, often called your “period.” When you menstruate, your body discards the monthly buildup of the lining of your uterus (womb).

I really look for the definition of menstruation from Google if how often should a girl have a period. Actually I already knew that it should be monthly, atleast 6 days long. However, it was the other way around for me.

I was 14 years old back then, when I got my first period. It was normal. The number of days I kept having it. The amount of discards coming from me. It was all normal. I did not even experienced having a dysmennorhea for long, I only have it when it is my first day but will not really last. Yes, that's how lucky I am with my period. I feel bad for other girls experiencing it, because I know that it is not easy. So there, when I got mine first, my mom told me not to take a bath because it is really not good doing it while on period. That was what others told me as well. And of course as a first timer, I listened to them.

It was all normal way back. Every month I always have it. Not until in my 2nd year in college. I did not get my period for a certain month, but I just ignored it because as what my mom said it was just a "layag" or a month missed for a period. However, it turned out to be different. I never get to experienced it again for almost 6 months. I am not afraid about getting pregnant as I know to myself that I did not have any contact with anybody, and I do not have a boyfriend as well. With that, I asked my mom to keep me a company to go to an OB-Gyne for a check up. And the doctor said that it was normal. And I felt relieved with it. I did get my period after another month.

Things seems to be okay with my menstruation after visiting a doctor. But it happened again during my last year in college. It was 9 months missed of a period. That was too long already for a normal menstruation. Because of that, I visited again a doctor for a check up and she let me drink a certain medicine for 10 days, I forgot the name of it. She said that after 10 days, I will get to have a normal menstruation. I actually did. But it is only one day per month, and the amount of discard is very little, it was just like a droplet. But I just kept it that way thinking that atleast I have it every month.

When I get here in Cebu to work, the droplets of discards that I am holding into and considering it as normal and alteast I have, completely gone. I did not experienced menstruation anymore.

You know what, to be honest, I feel okay with it. Because who would not? Having a period is really uncomfortable. You need to wear sanitary napkins, sometimes I just do not feel like doing anything, my mood changes from time to time, I always wanted to crave for something and I get annoyed easily. And I do not wanted to feel it that way. That is why, sometimes I am feeling happy not having periods every month. Though I know it is really not normal for a woman to have that unusual menstruation and maybe there is really something wrong with my body. That's when I decided to visit a doctor again with a friend before the pandemic. My friend actually is experiencing the same but it is because she has a PCOS. You know, I was prescribed with the same medicine. But nothing actually happened. I never got my period anymore. I just laughed out if it thinking that maybe I am already menopause.

I am getting used to not having it anymore. It is almost a year or a year already maybe that I did not have my menstruation. For some reason I am okay, but I know to myself that I am not. I am planning to visit a doctor again but I am afraid to do so because of the pandemic. I am afraid to get exposed outside especially in hospitals. Sometimes I am getting insecure for other girls having it every month because they are really a normal girl compared to what I am experiencing. And I may admit, I am afraid to know what really the reason it could be. I am thinking that maybe I have this certain sickness or what ever it could be. I am not ready to know about it. But yes, I hope that I will have the courage to get a check up and know really what causes me to have this unusual menstruation.

That's all for today beautiful people. If you have any thoughts and take away about this piece, feel free to leave it in the comment section below. Let's interact. Stay safe always! Xoxo ✨☺️

- MissJo 💜

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