I am sorry!

Hello beautiful people!

I hope you all are doing fine amidst of the shortcomings and uncertainties we may feel day by day. Always remember that a positive life is a happy life. ✨

I hate goodbyes, just as much I hate what I am feeling right now. No I do not hate it. It is just that, it is not how it should be. It is not how I should feel. It's like having the right love at the wrong time. I even asked a close friend, about how can something so wrong feels so right? And she said, "If it feels wrong then its wrong. Don't make it more complicated by thinking a wrong thing can be right just because you wanted to." And it hit me. Hard. I realized, I am hurting myself. I am hurting the person I am trying to love. I am blocking the possibility of the person to find the right one just because of me. I am getting unfair. I am becoming selfish. I cannot do anything anymore. I cannot think of something better than doing this. With that, I choose to cut ties. I choose to stop. I choose to let go. I choose to say goodbye.

I am sorry if I have to. I am sorry if I need to do this. I am sorry if I need to let go. Just thinking about saying goodbye to you makes my heart ache. I can't imagine losing you. But I need to bear it. I need to. That is what's the best for us.

I can still remember the day I fall for you. The day I can say, you are the one. The day I can say, finally I'll be happy again. The day I can say, after all the heartaches I've been feeling, there's you who will make me smile again. The day I can say that after everyone left me and dumped me like a trash, there's you who will treat me like a pot of gold.

The times we spent together? All the laughter. All the happiness and sadness we shared. All the sleepless nights we have. I will miss it all. The times that you get annoyed because I keep on teasing you with something. I'm gonna miss it all. The good morning's and good night's that I got used to? All the i love you's we exchanged. I'll be missing them all. Your angelic voice, it will not be forgotten.

I will not forget the time you lift me up. I am not perfect, I do not know a thing, but you were there always reminding me that I am perfect because of my imperfections. You always reminded me that if people will throw stones at me, you'll be my shield. I will not forget when you said I am the one you've been praying. That finally, after waiting for the perfect time I came.

I am sorry if I made your prayers turn into nothing. I am sorry if all the efforts you made turn into ashes. I am sorry if I choose to let go than to fight. I am sorry if I am a coward. I am sorry if saying goodbye is the last thing I can do.

They say time heal wounds. But for me, it will not. Time will just help you to get used on the pain you are feeling. I hope time will help both of us.

You are on in a million. The one that I choose to leave. The one that I choose to give up. The one that I choose to not fight for.

I am sorry. And goodbye!

Yeeeeees! This one is just a product of my unproductivity. I wasn't able to write an article yesterday as I cannot pull off any topic. I just slept and wished I can do something after waking up. And here it is. This is not a real story. It is just out of my wandering mind. When I woke up today at 2:49 AM, Here's Your Perfect song which I experienced Last Song Syndrome is still playing on my phone. And my hand just opened my notes and write something about goodbye. I am not good at this, but I hope this one make sense. I'll make to do something good next time.

That's all for today beautiful people. I hope you enjoyed reading my article for today. If you have any thoughts and take away about this piece, feel free to leave it in the comment section below. Let's interact. Stay safe always! Xoxo ✨☺️

- MissJo 💜

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