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Let me just take this time to post while the Lil B is sleeping. I also think that my whole personality is being challenged at this stage of being a mother. Why? Wait, let me just introduce my lovely sponsors, check them out and have fun too!

I know that today will be flooded by valentine date posts, I will share a little bit of our Valentine's day later. For now, I just need help, advise or suggestions from other parents or mothers here.

Some of you may already know my daughter, she's turning 9months this week and she's starting to be more active.

She is now on the stage that she tries to stand up on her own. She just simply need something to hold on to (or me or someone) when she stands and lets go. She is already trying to balance her body and sometimes attempts to take a step. Of course she still does fall but the more she tries and the longer she can stand on her own.

I am also one of the moms who gets a good night sleep cause she doesn't wake up in the middle of the night. Pretty lucky for a sleepyhead mother too, I may say.

Last week

This actually started last week or a few weeks ago. I don't know if she's teething or her tooth on her upper gums will come out soon, but she was so very clingy. I know that breastfedding moms usually have a clingy infant/toddler because of the breasfeeding bond, but for me it was kind of a bit different. She doesn't want to be put down anywhere or should I say she wants to be with me all the time. I know, I know, all babies need attention and babies are very clingy to mothers but how more clingy she can get for the next days, weeks or months.

Yes, I admit I have an issue with clingyness. I don't like to be around with someone 24/7. I get pissed off easily, especially with my ex- boyfriends. If they get too clingy, thank you next is the next step. However, being a mother is different. Being with your child 24/7 is very challenging to a person like me. I can't just say, thank you next to my Lil B. Don't get me wrong, I love her, I love being a mom but sometimes I think how can I be myself again. huhuhu.

I am an active, very playful person, literally playful. One advantage of being like that is I can play with her all the time regardless of my energy level. But there were times that I just want to rest for a bit. By the way, me and Lil B are staying with my parents while my husband is in the province for work. He'll be here this week too, for just a few days.

Back up

Sometimes I also find it annoying that my father will get Lil B while she's playing alone with her toys or sometimes in the morning my father gets her while she's still asleep. My father carries her for a few minutes, around 5 to 10mins tops, then brings her back to me and ends up crying. So the relaxing me, needs to carry her.

One more annoying thing about my parents is they like to put her to sleep. Great right, but wait there's more. They like to carry her when she cries. Imagine me putting Lil B in her crib then cries but..she just woke up. They carry her and say 'antok ka? sige sleep ka'. Hey, she just woke up, they do this most of the time. I don't know but it gave me an impression that they want her to be a sleep all the time. I don't usually ask them to take care of her unless she's asleep, then I'll take a bath. I don't ask my parents to take care of her all the time because they have other things to do. I don't ask them to take care of her, I only ask them to check her or swing the rocker while she's asleep so I can do other things like eat, do the laundry. I don't ask them to take care of her, while I fold her clothes. Sorry, it just bothers me that they want to let her sleep when she just woke up. Lil B is also an active little human being and it seems like they can't keep up. I am still grateful by the way. I just ask them to take care of her, whenever I do groceries or if me and my husband needs to do something outside.

Good night not good night but still good night.

Oh I mentioned in some of my articles that Lil B already is resisting her sleep. Last night was different and I almost lost my patience. Yes, almost.

I didn't even let her take her 2nd afternoon nap because it was already late so I decided to feed her around past 7pm so she can go straight to sleep right after that. Let's say I can put her to bed around 8pm or 9pm but I was all wrong. She was about to fall asleep and her eyes just closed then suddenly she turned around and tries to get up. Usually I just don't let her get up, I will just hug her then let her turn to me so she can go back to dede-ing. She refused, she strongly refused to dede and still wants to get up. I still didn't let her get up but she managed to turn around and then suddenly her head fell on his arms and became quiet for a few minutes.

By the way, she doesn't sleep like it was the first time though. I thought if she stays like that for a while I will need to turn her around so she can sleep well. But NO! I thought that she was just tired that's why she was quiet. She was quiet because she already fall asleep and then got up! SHE TOOK A POWERNAP! Yes, babies do that too! Literally from 0 to 100 energy level. She's supposed to be asleep around 9pm or before 10pm but because of that powernap she was awake until 12am but still sleepy.

I thought that she will play for a few minutes and I let her play crawling around the bed but she wants to stand up. She wants to practice balancing which we did for maybe 30 mins or more.

We almost stayed up until 12md until my father noticed that she's still awake. Goodness he carried her while they were watching a movie and then she fell asleep after a few minutes.

Why didn't I carry her so she can fall asleep easily instead? It's because I get random chest pains and my back was aching from doing the laundry. I need to strip or clean her cloth diapers thoroughly which is a bit longer process than regular washing which I haven't finished until today.

I am just thankful that being a mother was still on the top of my head than being a selfish b**** that I was. I now have gained more patience too.

Oh by the way, Lil now always resist sleep whenever it's her nap or sleep time. Now she's sleeping and look how cute she is when she fell asleep.

Ps. I decided to play Mobile Legends pampagaan lang ng loob but nakatulog dn ako di pa nagsisimula ung game. Hihu so AFK ako, bawas pa ako ng isang star. HAHAHAHA kaenes!

How do you do it? How do other moms deal with it?

On the other hand, we plan to go to the province with my husband as soon as Lil B learns to walk. Experiencing these things made me think that I we are ready before we go on our own.

I am open to comments, suggestions or advise. It might sound like I needed salvation but I just need more tricks on how to get through it.

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