Why now?

Have you ever been in a situation that you were fed up of but then it began to seem like there was hope? Like you were getting close to the end of the tunnel, so close that you were beginning to feel the rays of light slightly on your face, and you began to rejoice that finally the end was near, only to be covered in utmost darkness again all of a sudden?

If you have, you'd know that it is the worst feeling one can ever have.

It's one thing to be in a certain situation and have some bit of hope that change is coming soon, and it's another thing to be in same situation and clearly see that the change you seek is not close by at all.

Devastated, mad, angry and sincerely tired was how I felt today when I heard that the strike that closed down tertiary education in my country has been extended by 12weeks. I just couldn't help but scream!

Initially, I thought it was fake news because there were lots of news making rounds that the strike has been called off and many more. I was secretly praying that this was true when the bombshell of extending the strike hit me and it did hit me hard.

I have been at home resting, eating enough food and trying to add up a bit thinking that the strike will be called off soon, if only I knew. Right now I'm just confused cos I don't know what to do and this is happening cos I have too much time on my hands.

I've tried countless times to get a job but I couldn't find one where the pay was worth the stress and with the economic downturn, I can't even blame them as everyone is just struggling to get by.

Everyone is suggesting learning a skill which is a good idea but the problem I have here is that I don't want to learn a skill I won't use. I'm some one who doesn't joke with classes and school activities, therefore I can't add using my skills to earn money and school work at the same time because one will suffer for the other and there's no way I'm letting school work suffer. Hence the skill learnt becomes unused or rarely used.

I guess one could say I'm frustrated in a way because my long term goals are being affected with this indefinite delay. Normally I should be done with schooling by now and well focused on other things but here I am.

I can't help but just ask why now? Why does it have to be now when I'm so close to the end that this while strike thing has to occur? I guess only God knows really.

I'm glad I have read.cash, at least I'm not entirely wasting my time.

Author's Epilogue

I know my fellow comrades in this same situation would have given up too. You can't blame us really, we've held on long enough.

I'm sorry about my seeming rant and anger, I just had to let it off my chest. We'll go back to amazing and juicy contents tomorrow cos right now this writer is not feeling so great.

Thanks for reading guys!

Mhizutty the voice of truth 🎵🎶🎵