I'm already at 50% of myself

If I will going to asked "Who are you?" , how will you answer will? Will you say you full name or your hobbies? Basic information about you just like what we do during first day of school. Or maybe the unique features about you. But what if I asked you " Who is the real and deep you?" Did you still gonna tell those things above or will you shared to me your experiences in life? I believe that answering that question is a bit hard especially for those who is still searching for themselves. I'm not exception to that because until now, I cannot determine who am I. Maybe I know my name but I don't know yet the purpose of the person behind this name. I know that everyone have their own purpose but no one can say when the right time to know it. Maybe next year, after 5 years or it will just suddenly knock in my life.

I happened to read the post of my friend in social media. There's a question on that post. It says " In what percentage do you know about yourself?" My friend answered 25% because she admits that she didn't know what currently happened to her. Now she's happy then later she is sad. She can't also identify what is the thing that she wants for herself. She seems to just go to the flow without a proper direction. There's no self improvement happened to her. So, I immediately chat her and asking her what happened then she tells me everything and I was liked " Ohh, I didn't notice it before" Am I already a bad friend because I didn't recognize that my friend have a problem? Maybe I'm used to see her as a bubbly person. She laughs every minute to the point that she almost losses her breath. And if you will going to asked me " Who is she?" I will going to say that she is the clown in our group. But unfortunately I failed to know the real her, the broken part of her. I failed to protect those smiles and laughs of her. We talked for hours and after that she thanked me for asking her condition now. I'm happy but I'm a little bit disappointed about myself.

So after that talked, I asked myself if what percentage do I know about myself. I'm not certain about the exact percentage but I can say that I'm almost at 50%. I'm too far to the goal and for uncovering the deep aspects about myself but I'm trying,I still striving in life. But the good thing is we give ourselves a chance to move forward even a little. I also give myself a chance to grow in this cruel world and I believe that as long as I'm alive, there's still a chance to know about myself more. I'm not in a hurry because I know that it is a long process to take in order to understand yourself more. Knowing who are you is like a toddler who takes time to learn how to walk. We are just like a student who's trying to figure out and understand their lesson. Even you are old enough, I think that it is not too late to know and to discover something about ourselves. The important thing is that we do something in the present just to justified our future self.

But one good thing that we could do while we are still searching for the deep us is to become aware on our decisions and actions in life. We also prioritize the things that makes us happy because I believe that when we are happy and already obtain a peace of mind, it is so easy for us to reflect and determine who you are. We should not also get tired to try and explore things because through that, we can able to evaluate if it's really meant or can contributed to ourselves. Be the real you while you are looking the deep you.

Greetings!!

Hello dreamers 👋👋 How's your Thursday? Are you able to get throwback vibes or still busy grinding in life. I was supposed to work on my thesis but I decided to stay at my bed earlier because of some creepy things I've experienced last night. Maybe I'm just sleepless why I saw that kind of thing again or maybe they are real though. I love horror but not in real life guys. I could run as fast as I can if I'll gonna saw that again later hahaha. Keep safe and have good night sleep to everyone 💚