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Everyone thinks I am paranoid.

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Written by   196
1 month ago

Since I became a mom, constant worrying never ever left me. You know I can bear all those sleepless nights and tiring days taking care of my baby. What I can't handle is the fear, the worry that she might not feel well and I won't be able to notice just like what happened to her before when she was a newborn. As a first-time mom, I don't know what I am seeing are signs that a baby is not feeling well so I didn't mind and that's my biggest mistake I will not forget in my entire life because it's like I put my baby's life in danger. If only I knew, I could have told the nurses and she might be cured there and then.

Oh dear, here I am again with my negative thoughts. How can I forget these?

Taking care of my daughter everyday is a wonderful feeling and at the same time giving me constant worry that everyone in the house thinks I am paranoid and over-reacting. Although my daughter will be 2 months old this December 19, I am still not confident that I am taking care of her right. I mean I always doubt myself if I feed her with the right amount of milk she needs or is she in the right position while I am feeding her and many many more. This is making me insane but I am still keep going.

When my baby Clea is sleeping, I would always stare at her to check if her breathing is normal or if she's breathing at all. I know I know this is crazy but you can't blame a mom for thinking this way. You won't feel and understand us unless you were in our shoe. Just this evening, I stare at Clea and notice that she got something red but not too noticeable on the top of her eyebrows. I told my boyfriend to check it too but he told me it's just nothing. I was not satisfied with his answer so I asked him to check it again and he just told me I am too paranoid. Gosh!

I also frequently ask @Zhyne06 whenever I see something new and unusual behavior of Clea. Just this morning and yesterday I think Clea has got some milk coming from her mouth. I again worry because I saw a video on TikTok that whenever babies have milk coming from his/her mouth, it can be that they didn't burp properly, overfeeding and infection. When I saw that word INFECTION, I overthink because Clea has got an infection before when she was still two-day old so I am thinking what if she has it again this time? Can I manage myself not to panic? Oh my I think I am going to die in worry.

One thing I worry about is that sometimes Clea coughs during feeding and there are also times she coughs when she's just lying on her little bed. I understand if she coughs during feeding but coughing when she's just lying is a big problem for me because I don't know what's the reason of it. I told my boyfriend about it and he told me to stay calm for Clea is not constantly coughing. I also told my grandma about it and she told me the same. I wish I can be as calm as them. I wish to see her pediatrician to check her up but our schedule was on December 20 and I feel like I can't wait for it.

Can you tell me if it's still normal? Yesterday, Clea slept during daytime and she woke up only when she's hungry and sometimes I woke her up when she's sleeping for over four hours because I need to feed her. At 10 pm yesterday, she woke up and it seems like the night is her morning. I just breastfeed her and she slept again. When 1 AM came, she was wide awake and she cried so I breastfeed her again. I thought she would go back to sleep but she didn't. She will sleep tho after an hour of swinging but when we put her on bed, she will be awake and will cry again and ask for milk and then the routine repeats until it's already 9 AM. I almost panic because babies supposed to have enough rest but Clea won't have that rest if she's wide awake for long hours. I feel so worried about her and think again what did I do wrong. Glad that she already slept at 10 AM. For moms here, are your babies like that too?

I feel like I am not feeling well all the time that's why whenever I got the chance to relax, I will grab the opportunity to ease my mind. I cannot avoid thinking that maybe I should let my mom take care of Clea since she already knew how. God knows how much I love to take care of my own daughter but my anxiety would always take over me.

As I am typing this, I am staring at her praying that she's fine all the time. There's nothing I would ask to our Almighty but for my baby to grow healthy all the time.

Everyone thinks I am paranoid. Do you do too?

Good day! I apologize for not being able to respond and read your articles today. Our internet connection here is slow and unstable that even inserting pictures in my article is so hard. The one in the lead image is Clea ❤️ I will get back soon when it's okay. Gotta go and do mommy duties. Pray for me lol.


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Hahahaha btw usahay maka engun kog paranoid naka pero ok rana thats normal sa mga nanay jud pud

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1 month ago

Super normal talaga ang mgworry lalo na pg 1st time mom ka.ako din sa 1st born ko .I always check him sa duyan if humihinga pa ba kasi nga ang haba na ng tulog eh.Anyway mas paranoid ako sa 2nd born ko dahil sa internet .sa mga nakikita ko so much better dati kasi hindi pa uso ang internet less worries

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1 month ago

Relate hehe! Ako rin laging chinecheck paghinga ni Clea until now 2 months pa sya. True marami din ako nakikita sa internet na nakakacause ng anxiety pero mas marami parin akong natutunan.

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1 month ago

At least u learn something. Focus nlng sa mga matutunan mo sis Para di ka magiging paranoid

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1 month ago

Hi momsh! Just subscribed as I want to make new friends with kapwa mommies. I can relate. I was like that with my first child as in maparanoid or panic permit. That's why me and my husband are very hands-on and we observe together what is happening with our baby. now, we have a second baby at 5 months na.

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1 month ago

Hello, mamshy. :) Ganyan sguro pag first time napapraning hehe! Ganyan di kami hands on din kami ni partner sa baby namin at hindi na ako masyadong praning ngayon 😁. Wow naman congrats hehe

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1 month ago

Oo mas kalma na ako now with the 2nd. 22 months man din si first born makulit na nga.

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1 month ago

nine months kasi siyang walang nakitang sunlight mamsh kaya nag a adjust pa xia sa liwanag iyan reason kung bakit tulog xia sa sa umaga at gising sa gabi..pag nagpapakain ka sa kanya or nag papa dede take five minutes na naka amba xia sa shoulder mo para maka burp at lumabas mga hangin na na tatabunan nang kinain niya..

wag masyado ma stress about sa cough ni Clea i monitor mo lang palagi pag stress ka makukuha nang baby yan kasi naka breastfeed xia sayo dapat happy thoughts lang mamsh para healthy vibes makuha ni baby mula sayo hug mo lang palagi si baby pag umiiyak wag laki pa inumin kasi baka maging bloated na ang bata

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1 month ago

Yes mommykim. Pinapaburp namin after nya dumede. Ganun nga cguro no? Stressed kasi ako palagi kaya sguro naapektuhan si Clea. 🥺 Minsan mga naiisip ko na ayoko na magpabreastfeed kasi naawa na. Ako sa ank ko.

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1 month ago

wag lang kasi mag isip nang sobra mommy kahit naman di ka nag bi breastfeed mararamdaman nang anak mo ang nararamdaman mo yan ang sinasabi nilang connections of the mother and the baby..

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1 month ago

We moms are really doing our best to ensure we take good care of the members of our families and I everyone understands that tasks is not easy at all and sometimes, it will move you to almost want to overreact but the experiences you've been able to have gathered over the years, would surely stop you from doing that. Just think of me who is but a single mom with no husband, no father, sisters, brothers, uncles, aunties, families and friends to help me take care of my little kids who are I'm the age range of just 7, 4 & 2 years respectively and an old mother of mine to also take care of. Take care and may God help you with the right get mind set to continue to dispatch such motherly duties

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1 month ago

Wow! You are really a superwomom, sis 🥺❤️

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1 month ago

Hahaha... That's it my dear. I just pray that God will continue to bless me so that I will be able to take good care of them

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1 month ago

It's normal mamsh. anak ko antukin din madalas lalo na nung literal na kakapapanganak ko lang. di ko sya mapadede kasi ayaw nya magising, more than 4hours na sya tulog nag ask na kami ng help sa nurse sya din di nya magising kiliti sa paa at ilong ayaw pa din.

Also keep in mind na hindi lang milk or pagpapadede ang makakapagpatulog sa kanya, nagaadjust pa din sya sa outside world.

Don't also forget about growth spurt sis, lalo na kapag iyak sya ng iyak ng walang dahilan. Extra patience lang and yakap sa anak ha. heartsuuuu!!!

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1 month ago

Ganun ba sis? Akin din eh tulog ng tulog. So okay lang ba daw kung ganun? Mag two two months na baby ko at napapraning ako kasi parang may sipon sya eh at tsaka inuubo minsan. Ganun ba yun sis? Yung kahit tulog iiyak?

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1 month ago

yes mamsh, pero always make sure na padedein sya every 3 hours. yung parang sipon baka halak lang po yan pero always ask your pedia na din to be sure. baka naiyak sya pag natutulog kasi dede din daw sya okaya hug mo mamshiii :) Okay lang mapraning ng konti dahit para naman sa health yan ni bb. pero everytime na magvisit kayo sa pedia, i list mo na muna ang mga concerns or napapansin mo kay baby para mabanggit mo dn :)

try mo din po pala na kapag matutulog ng daytime may ilaw ts kapag matutulog ng gabi nakapatay ilaw para malaman dn ng sistema nya yung tulog ng araw sa gabi. :)

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1 month ago

Salamat mamsy ha 🥺❤️ na appreciate ko talaga mga tulong nyo saken dito

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1 month ago

Normal Lang sa first time mom Yan. Natatawa nga ako Kasi ganyang din ako noon. Tinitingnan ko kung humihinga si anak haha.

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1 month ago

Hahaha marami pala tayo ms. Yen ano. Jusko sana malampasan ko na tong pagka praning na to

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1 month ago

I simply pray for All moms to find the right patience in handling their kids especially when they are showing intolerance

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1 month ago

Thanks, Sammy. 🥰

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1 month ago

A mother is a human being whose thoughts are attracted to her child all day long. All of my sisters I noticed when they were new mothers. So I would say you are a wonderful mother.

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1 month ago

Thanks, friend. 😊 Nice to meet you here

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1 month ago

I'm sure it's your motherly instincts, but you have to learn to worry less for her sake. You have to be well to take care of her, so take care of yourself too. Please?

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1 month ago

How I wish I can worry less. Ugh, I hope I can get over with this paranoid stage.

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1 month ago

YOU ARE PERFECTLY FINE... repeat after me... "I'm perfectly fine and I'm doing a great job as a new Mom"... as a person who also had a daughter before 9 years, your thoughts are so freaking normal, you are not alone at all.. every single new mom goes through the same thoughts and what they do not know is that they are doing an amazing job at it... I appreciate your concerns for your daughter, you are a great Mom, I know you are

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1 month ago

Awwww! I feel so loved with your comment, sis. Thank you for your kind and uplifting words. I am relieved. 🥰

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1 month ago

Hahhahah first time mo kasi sis kaya panic attack ka hahaha

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1 month ago

Hahahaha shudi abas

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1 month ago

As a new mom, you have this kind of craziness. Every mother in the world has a special power. Having power can nurture a child beautifully. it's ok dear just relax.

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1 month ago

Thanks, Mazekin. I wish I could relax because who doesn't want it right?

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1 month ago

My dear new mom, it's really ok that you panic over your baby' condition. Those are not negative thoughts. Those are mommy tingles. Each mom has this power. Relax.

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1 month ago

How I wish I could Luci. 🥺

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1 month ago

I feel you dae ,as a first time mom tanan nimong na experience karun mi agi nako ane ,as in makatawa ko maghuna huna kay 2nd baby nako murag easy na mag atiman unlik sa unang baby ambot nalng bisan 1 day wa libang akong baby ,gpa check up jud nako ,nakatawa noon ang doctor kay ingon ko sige mag hilak murag di comfortable 😅

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1 month ago

Bisan ako mamsh oy ipacheck jod pod tali naho. Haroy jusko makapraning man diay ni. Samot na talig wa jod kay kauban na nanay mag abag2 ug bantay.

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