Can't we decide?

Here I am again with my rants and frustrations in life. I don't know when is this going to end but I guess when I already die, that is when the problems stop. Lol. But anyway, they said mean people will die in a quite long time compared to the good ones so I will have to endure everything in this world for a long time too. Yeah.

Can't we decide?

This is the question I asked to my partner after his father called him saying they will come here to fetch us up. At first, this idea is fine to me because I don't want to disappoint them whenever they want to see Clea. When Clea was still a month up to 3 months old, I can't count how many times we've been there in my boyfriend's house and we will stay there a day or two and sometimes three days.

As Clea grows, my boyfriend's family also got used to this kind of set-up. Because I, Clea and my partner are staying in my grandma's house, my partner's parents wanted us to go in their place like every week they will just come here without a notice and I will be surprised because it seems like they already decided for us. They will come and say, "Hey, pack your things because you will come with us at home." And I was like hello? Did you ask me first if I really wanted to go? Or if I want Clea to travel during noon time? Come on! It's too hot outside and I won't let my daughter go through just so you can fulfill your desire.

You know it's just so tiring to pack things especially baby stuffs every week and then we will come home here again and then we will go back again to my partner's place. Isn't it tiring? I had enough of this foolishness so I told my boyfriend that I or we should be the one to decide when we will come to his parent's house and not them. Actually, we fought about this because he kept on siding his parents the reason that I told him to go home and stay away from my sight. He should be the one speaking up for me to his parents but it seems like he cannot and can't decide on his own. He kept on nodding to whatever his parents say.

I also know why his parents wanted us to be there, to sleep there because they are jealous that Clea is here in my grandma's house. They think that Clea will grow fonder among the people here and they're right. Everyone here in our home is willing to take care of Clea even for longer time. I can even leave Clea whenever I have an important matter to attend or I just need to take a break from parenting. Unlike in my boyfriend's place, his mom and dad and aunties will just look after Clea within a couple of minutes then they will give Clea to me and say that she's crying already.

I have no problems taking care of Clea anyway because she's my daughter but of course I will be happy if I can have some breaks too and relax and that's what I can find in my grandma's house. My boyfriend's partner can't blame me for my decision because they know themselves and they saw how caring my grandma is towards Clea. She won't even complain even though she's tired.

But in my partner's place? Never mind. Haha!

I don't care if they think I am selfish or if they can feel that I am not into them. What's important for me is the welfare of my daughter especially now that the weather is too hot. I can't let her out and travel and get sick afterwards. I don't want my daughter to adjust for them when in the first place, they are very welcome to visit here anytime or they can sleep here if they want. They should be the one who will adjust to the situation if they truly miss my daughter and not my daughter. Lol.

That's all for today, guys. Sorry for adding heat to this hot noon.

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