Hello everyone, after so much of sleep I am now awake for some reason that I did slept early last night. Its 2:51 am here and I am writing as the clock is ticking.

Is my birthday important to me?

I can still remember that my birthday celebration that I had visitors and a food to offer was in my 19th birthday. I never expect that and I am not used to celebrating the day I am born.

Why?

Maybe because I am upset to this someone, I am upset that she didn't stand her duty and met another guy, yeah its my mom. I am just sad that I never had the family everyone wanted, healthy, complete and happy. I never met my dad too, I mean they introduced someone to me but later on he and his family wants an DNA test result to consider me as part of the family.

But now it's not I am angry to her, I just accepted the that I had after her.

How sad

How painful that is

After that fay, I stopped myself and I full myself with my selflove.

Except on my 19th birthday, all birthday's that I got, I never had the celebration, so I guess I m used to, when Its my day, nothing is change but a 6normal day to me.

When I was on my 18th birthday, I understand that birthday is not just about celebrating, its about being happy and thankful that another chapter of my life has been given. How did I know that?

In my very emotional side, I get my tears out of sadness and pity for myself. I feel so unlove and unimportant. I did let that night spend like a normal one, and the day after that, I'm good, I'm fine.

It's really hard to show pain and sadness, well I guess that is how important my birthday is, I want to celebrate it even a coke and slice bread is served, I guess nothing is wrong with that?

I know grandma is sad too, she wants to give me buy me things but how could she? When her money is not even enough for her medicine, but I understand that.

I totally understand the life that I had. Now I am used to not celebrating !y birthday, but still be thankful to God for giving me another step to life.

February 5, 2022

My birthday is on Saturday this month, I am not excited but not sad, I am thankful enough to share this to you that I am turning 20 this month. Isn't that amazing? Hehe now I'm getting older, hehe.

I really understand the situation we had right now, as you all know, we need money for our house and daily needs, after what typhoon Odette did to us, so I never had a celebration before when everything is good, how much more today that all is bad? Haha

But I am not upset, I am happy I am old enough to understand situation. On that day, well I guess I will be doing my daily routine, do house chores, prepare food for grandma and then sleep HAHAHHA. I cannot left my room I love this place and that day, I'll love this place more.

I am just happy guys that next next day, It's my day yeah! Live more happily.

Thankful

I first pf all thanks God for giving me this another step of life. I am so much thankful for the life I am in now. I know He has plan. Patient is my only ingredients for success. Soon in my future I will always be thankful to you and always put you in my heart first and forever.

That will be all guys hehe I was just sharing this to you because tomorrow or the next next day, I cannot have the chance like the chance I had now hehe.

I hope you guys are okay, I will be so happy if your in a good situation. Always be happy and thankful.

Advance happy birthday to me 😊

SALAMAT ❤️