Mind vs. Heart:Part 2

August 22, 2021

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It's been a month since Jared became my boyfriend, so far I must say that our relationship went well. He is very caring and understanding. I'm surprise when his friend bring me to an empty room, and when I entered inside I saw a teddy bear inside the paper bag of blue magic and one rose. I thought he's here hiding but got disappointed when his friend told me that he's sick. So he made it, he asked his friends a favor to surprise me.

I entered to our room with these teddy bear and rose in my hands and my classmates are cheering and teasing me. I smiled when they clap their hands for I don't know the reason and say happy monthsarry to me. I feel like there are eyes who keeps on staring at me and when I found it, there's Jay staring at me. I remember our conversation the other day when he message me.

Throwback

"can we talk tomorrow?" - Jay

I woke up early so that I can go to early early, there I saw Jay waiting for me. We walk together and find a place to talk. I ask him what he wants to say with me.

"are you happy with your decision?" - Jay

Ofcourse I am, Why I should be sad? That's what I want to answer but I know there's a part of me that wants to say no I'm not. I just answered him yes. He said I am lying, he can see it through my eyes, Hays. I really don't know how to lie. I said to stop beating around the bush and spill what he wants to say to me. I stunned when he hug me and said

"If you're not happy with him then let go,I know you have feelings for me too. Break up with him" - Jay

I push him right away the moment I'm back to my senses. No, Jared now is my boyfriend, I already made a decision. I run and leave Jay without saying any words.

From that day until now, Jay and I avoiding each other but we always make eye contact accidentally. I can see the sadness in his eyes, I feel it. But I don't want to be unfair with Jared, I decided to answered him yes so I need to be firm on my decision. Right? Yes self you're right. Whoo my mind is very supportive to me. Maybe it's the right thing to do to keep distance to each other in order not to hurt ourselves more.

Third monthsarry

Today is our third monthsarry, Jared keeps on surprising me. This time he give me flowers and greet me, he never makes me feel sad as I've said he's a joker and also he's sweet to me. About my best friend Lia, we're in good terms.

Our teacher went inside and said that we will having a groupings. She group us into 5 groups. I belong to group 1 and when we gather together, I roamed my eyes and saw Jay walking toward us so he's group 1 too. Arg why I feel nervous and my heart pump so fast. Chill Amber! I said to myself. According to our teacher we need to create a role play and to be perform on friday so we have 2 days left to practice. Our group now started to discuss the flow of our role play and I can't focus well since Jay is sitting next to me. I notice that Jay keeps on glancing at me but I acted like I don't notice it.

When our group meet up in the park to practice, they said that the main character is me and Jay. Oh really!? Hays. I don't have a choice right for the sake of our grades. While Jay and I practicing our line, our groupmates leave us so that we can focus. I can't look straight to his eyes and I know he notice it so he ask me what's the problem. I managed to answer him that there's no problem. I said if we should have a break then he answered "mag bebreak agad tayo, e wala pa ngang tayo" Jay said that made by one eyebrow raised and laugh a bit. "You are funny! " I answered to him. Stop that nonsense joke of yours then I turned my back to him but he grab me back and said

"I am serious Amber. I know you're not happy with Jared. I can see that through your eyes. Please, break up with him and be with me. You don't need to answer that now, I want you to think well and please this time choose what your heart wants. I'm still waiting for you Amber. "

And just that he turned his back to me and walk away leaving me dumbfounded. How can he able to say those words. And why I have this kind of feeling. His words really hit my whole system. Amber please think well. What should I do then?

To be continue.....

I guess there is another chapter for this story hehez. It's long enough already so I decided to cut it off and have a next chapter. How was it guys? :)

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