Mind vs. Heart :If only I have 2 hearts

August 21, 2021

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Happy Saturday everyone! The weather is good today I must say, Mr. Sun shines so bright this morning that it gives me a positive vibes to start my day.

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction and purely based on my pretty mind's imagination (LOL XD). Anything resemblance to it is purely coincidental.

As I woke up, I heard my mom's voice calling my name. Arg! It's too early my class is 7 oclock yet my alarm clock (my mother) wakes me up this early. I look at my phone and check the time. My eyes widened when I saw that it's already 6:30 in the morning. "shems! I thought it's still early!". I hurriedly go to the bathroom and took a bath, I used my special technique which is 1,2,3 hehez and boilaaaa! I'm all dressed now and ready to go. My mom gives me a wee bit sermon and says that I should sleep early for me to wake up early.

School

While waiting to our teacher. Lia, my best friend and I are having a chika about random things. She mentioned that there is a transferee student and blah blah blah as usual I didn't bother to listen to her as I am not interested about the topic she opened up.

The other side of the room, my classmates make a big circle and they are singing while the others are using a guitar. Wow, they should make a band someday they have a really nice voice. I said to myself. One of them is Jared, my crush. I like him because he's a funny guy, joker as my classmates tagged him. Also he is talented he can dance, sing and play a guitar. We used to be textmate during our vacation since we have a clan (I don't know if you know about this one, It is kind of a group wherein you will send your text messages or updates into your group which means you send it to many people called it a clan, you use a codename rather your real name. You can so make a get together which they called a GEB or a kind of eyeball). We're friends but not that close since he was my best friend's ex boyfriend.

Fast forward:

It is our first month in the school being a grade 10 student.

Our classmates keeps on teasing me and Jared, the moment they knew that we are text mate back then. About the transferee student? He is very shy and silent but I can say that he has a look, a chinito boy. His name is Jay. My friends have a crush to him and we used to be the first who talked to him since we don't want him to feel alone in our classroom. Jay and I became close to each other. We used to text each other every night, talking random, he's very talkative in the text not like in personal.

It was a usual day to me, when Jared's friends called me and want me to sit beside Jared saying that Jared will have something to say to me. I'm confuse and shy since we didn't talk personally yet when the school year start only in the text. They pushed me and when I am now sitted beside Jared silence is what you can heard. I am ready to stand up and levae him but he pull my hand and make me sit again. He confess his feeling to me, he said he likes me and wanted to court me. I'm speechless that time, I can see in my peripheral vision that Jay is looking to us together with my classmates. I don't know what to say. Should I answer now? What about my bestfriend, Lia his ex? He said they already talked about this. Jared don't want me to say no, he said he will not let me leave if I don't answer him yes. I like him but there's a part in my heart that says no. I'm overwhelm to his confession but I am not fully happy. His friends are cheering and saying to me that I should say yes. I feel pressured, I don't want Jared to feel embarrass when I answered no, so without thinking deeply I said yes to him. I can see how happy he is while looking at me. I'm happy too, I guess yes, he's my crush afterall but why I am thinking about Jay's feeling? Arg! Nevermind Jay's crush is my friend not me. So stop thinking about him Amber,said to myself.

Our class ended and we're heading home, Jared as my good boyfriend take me home while carrying my bag.

I throw myself in my bed and look at the ceiling while thinking if I made the right decision. I keep convincing myself that ofcourse I am,yes I am happy with it. My phone beep and I look at the text message, the text comes from Jay. I opened it and read his text which says "Congrats". Okay just a congrats Amber nothing more nothing less. But there is another text from him. "I think I should distance myself now to you" reading this makes me sad, I feel like my heart is aching. Why? I asked myself. He's just a friend. I should not be sad it is the right thing to do right? Do I have a feeling for him? Scratch that thinking Amber! You have a boyfriend now. I decided not to reply to his text and delete it.

I will going to sleep now when my phone beep again.

"can we talk tomorrow?" - Jay

My heart beat fast. What should I reply then. My hands are shaking while holding my phone. I received another text. "I love you, goodnight" - Jared.

To be continue...

So there you go awesome people. As much as I want to make it short but I think this story if mine can't fit in one chapter. So I decided to make a chapter 2 hehez. How was it? This is my second fictional story. Hope you like it. I badly need your suggestion. Will I continue this?

Are you team Jared? Or Jay? Which one you like for Amber?

Thank you for reading :)

-Loveleng18