Be honest, what was your intention?

Villanueva! I stopped walking upon hearing someone called me. Yes, I know it was me not because I am the only one with Villanueva surname but because I know that voice. Yes Cruz? any problem? I asked him. Oh you might be wondering, we used to call each other by our surname. Cruz was actually my classmate in NSTP but we have different courses. Everyone was called by their surname, like in military protocol.

Are you going to the gym? He asked.

Yes, it's our team who will be playing volleyball right? It was our school intramural ( like sports fest).
I am coming with you. He said as he walked my side.

As were walking he kept on talking to me until we reached the gym. We went along with our team mates as we wanted to cheer them. It was a tight fight and I was almost jumping and lost my voice because of shouting. Crus was also standing beside me and cheering our team. Then I felt him hold my arm and his hands slide down and before I could speak a word he was already holding my hand. Tightly! I was a little bit shocked and I felt something weird. My heart was beating so fast and when I tried to look at him, he started staring at me. I felt so uncomfortable so I tried to pull my hand but he was holding it tightly. I didn't notice we'd been staring at each other for a while until we heard our team mates shouting as we won the game. I hurriedly pulled my hand and thankful he let it go. I could still hear my heart beating so fast like I am palpitating.

I immediately left him and go with my friends. I was relieved that it seemed no one noticed us. This time my friends and I were already sitting while waiting for the next game. Which was basketball. I saw Cruz walking into the court as he is one of the team. When the game started, many were cheering at him as he was indeed good at it. Not only that he was good but handsome too. And again I felt something weird on my chest.

And our love story begins.

Later that night Cruz chatted with me and told me that he actually likes me. And our communication begins as he started to court me. After a month I decided to give him a chance and so our love story began. My friends were supportive with my decisions. Our relationship was sailing smoothly though there are times I could not contact him if we don't have a class. He told me that the signal was poor at their home.

Gha ( our endearment ) do you really love me? He asked me one time out of the blue. Ah, would you like to visit our house?

Though I was a little bit shocked as it was the first time he opened that topic though we have been together for almost a year I agreed. It was Wednesday and I don't have class in the afternoon so he fetched me at school. He brought with him his motorcycle.
When we reached their house , I was surprised as no one was there.
Gha, where are your parents? your siblings? I asked him.

Oh, my parents visited my Auntie in the next town and my siblings are all at school.
I see, would it be okay you brought me here? Your parents might be mad.

Don't worry, it's okay, come you may rest at my room. I know you are tired as rode in a motorcycle going here.

Though I was a little bit hesitant, I went with him as I was really tired. My hips seemed to be aching as I was wearing a skirt. I just sat on his bed but I was surprised when he started hugging me. At first I just let him but when his hand started roaming around I stopped him.
Why Gha? Don't you love me? He said while I was holding his hands.
Silly of course I do. Then he started kissing me.

Gha let's do it, he whispered in my ears.
I was stunned for a moment and I was able to talk. He was about to lay me down on his bed but then I pushed him.
No, Gha, I can't. We can't. What if you got me pregnant? Just the thought of me accidentally getting pregnant was horrifying.

It's okay Gha, we won't be starved, we have our rice plantation. He said while still caressing me, maybe trying to seduce me.

Yes, we won't have a problem with rice, but what about our viand? Shampoo, lotion , conditioner. Besides I am still studying, I don't want to disappoint myself. You know I am working so hard to pursue my studies. So no Gha, I don't want to do it with you.
After telling him my thoughts, I went out to his room. After a while, he went outside his room.

Let's go, I 'm gonna take you home. He said without looking at me.
So that's it? I thought he would introduce me to his family but it seems his plan was different.

After that incident, Cruz stopped communicating with me. I did send him a message but he never replied. I tried to call him but then he never answered. Until one day, on our first anniversary, I received a message from him which said " Let's break up".

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Closing thoughts

There are many types of relationships nowadays and though it saddened me, Bfs and Gfs relationships were far different from before. Couples are now a little bit liberated and I don't have an issue with that. As long as both parties are aware what type of relationship you both have. Was it a serious one? or just looking for enjoyment or even want to explore.
Honestly was so important, be honest with your partner what you are up to. What was your purpose in having a relationship with him/her. Don't deceived , don't take advantage of your partner like what happened to me.

If you're gonna ask me what happened after that. Well I did cry a lot, there was even a point I wanna tell him, okay let's do it. Just for him not to break up with me. I was so in love back then, but I don't want to compromise my studies.
After a few weeks I found out that Cruz has actually a girlfriend and they are together for years. And I? Well just his PAST TIME.

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