My friday the 13th.

May 14

I keep trying my best for everything that I do which I know it is the best for everyone. I'm not that perfect as I can do everything it needs. I literally realize that somehow my ability is not suited for everything because perhaps it can be my weaknesses your strengths or my weaknesses is your strength also. We are indeed different.

Lastnight, was an emotional moment for me which I don't know why. It just a matter of expressing out my feelings where I really want to cry. I really don't know what are the reasons why I wanted to cry because I may not feel yesterday lonely, disappointed or alone. It just my emotion wanted to cry it out loud.

My whole day spend to much productivity. In the morning I attended the seminar for baptism because my neighbor pick me up as a godmother to her baby. It was a two day seminar and it ended, yesterday. Actually, my plan yesterday is to clean the house because errands always disturb me not to do this certain task but then I fail to do it. When I got home from the church, I remember the task to make a wings like an angel by helping those kids who wants to join in and have their wings. My responsibility to give time of my obligation is that I fail to give it because I always consider others needs. I don't have choice because I, itself keep helping the kids even I know it can fail me from the things of a certain responsibility of mine. I spend an hours to help them by forming a wings, cutting and paste a white paper back to back. It took a lot of time in just one wings.

After lunch, I attended my devotion event which is Flores de Mayo. When I got there in the church no one will guide the children because the cathechist is absent so, I don't have choice and be the one will lead the prayer.

I cannot focus to pray because I need to keep in mind those children sitting at the back keep talking, walking, loitering and many other things that makes themselve entertain. Its hard for me to assist them because I am in the front leading the prayer. Thankfully, God help me to make it done succesfully even the children didn't listen.

When I got a chance to open my data there are many messages pop out and it is a groupchat of our Deso tech. Team. Our coordinator chatted us that we can now claim our honoraria from the election. Ohhh nice to hear it! With my team keep informing me that I need to go in the office as soon as possible. Haha of course, honorariom is real. With the highlight of my hardworks I always make sure that I will treat myself a goody foody that will serve as cheat day.

These are the food that will treat myself for good and I am super satisfied on it.

So, I went home with pasalubong to my family. I bought chicken and hotdog as my choice of viand last night.

At exactly 7:00 pm, I am prepared and ready to go in the church. I attended the novena mass in the preparation of our brgy. Feast.

I am really occupied from the happenings of my surrounding but I am so thankful as God make a way for me to keep busy by serving with him.

As what I said above, that why i am wasting time for my own good than spending time to others by helping them. Actually, I do need to condition my mind in the preparation of my interview. That is why last night I keep trying browing an information in order for me to refresh again my course. I keep forcing myself to become positive in every situation but I fail to do it because I wanted to cry without knowing any reason why. I cried out loud as I keep thinking myself that l didn't excel even one time. It makes me down that I felt it on that way. So, I don't have choice but to express myself lastnight while facing the book I had. I just let it out my tears to fall.

My friday the thirteenth is very busy and occupied. Somehow, I ignore myself sometimes but I know God knows about it how eagerly I am to believe his power wherein no one can above his glory.

All I have to do is keep asking his guidance for me to be guided with his goodness.🙏

Have a blessed Saturday everyone!