My continued love search, some measures had to be taken and feelings altered.. I'm not in love with her anymore and this is the most clear and honest answer I can give to you.. I think I spent a lot of my time trying to impress someone who doesn't treat me with the same kind of feeling and trust me I have moved on. That's why we broke up and everything I've said is be subconsciously trying to mask what I didn't want to admit to myself and I guess this is my follow up way of ending it. I thought that things could be work virtually but it didn't, we drifted in opposite direction if that makes sense..

I feel like if we where meant to be together, we would have had to compromise a little bit more than I was willing to do so in order to head long term. There are certain things that might work at first, like for example we spoke outside these walls more often so trying to build together destroys the formed pieces.. There was this conformity to everything I do and I feel it's not fair for her.. she did things a lot different than I did and I definitely saw that. She's going to find somebody who is going to give her the world but that somebody ain't going to be me..

I feel I'm not less of what I am by what it is, and really no one should take your time and efforts at that contexts to completely respond differently to the same... I feel I am more comfortable been off the hooks but then we all have to be comfortable when its a matter of the heart and the decisions are all good for the both parties.. would I end up being more close or something could eventually bring us close, I think it's for you all to decide that... What would you do when love is forced and you are scared of the slightest thing that could end the love and affection..

Yes!! I know you are wondering how all of this happened in just a short time, we had a strong connection for the time being and it was the best moment of my life but ended for the better.. It time to let go, Thoughts feelings and emotions are temporary unless you hold on to them, so if there's some stagnant energy that you're having trouble letting go of, you have to learn to express and channel that energy in a productive way beyond every means possible and in a way that's more and more comfortable to you and that allows you to stop making room for every negative thoughts.. this will make you move on from everything that didn't feel right from the onset and whatsover thing that happened in the past that you never get a connection to..

My solid advice to whom it may be of great concern to, if it doesn’t make you happy or make the next person happy you should know what next that follows.. If the space you’ve created within your heart is always filled with pity or hate, you really can’t force love into a relationship and you can’t pretend not to live someone for a long time.. Clearly it will be more pronounced in the open, attracting a lot of attention.. For example, there was a connection between the both of us at first we where happy with just chatting online and flowing all day.. But it felt too forced, I don’t think want that to continue and hate to be the one having to feel this way..

But hold on, just to be clear there was not relationship between anyone and this was really to make up an article for anyone who feel this way… don’t feel sad about your decision, it was supposed to be that way and you can’t change anything that was originally orchestrated. Then at the same time, you should be happy with anyone you want to be with, spend the rest of your days with or having an acclaimed name attached to it as well, that still counts…

Have a beautiful Wednesday and stay happy always.. this was meant to be an article for yesterday but I had a lot to do and couldn’t get myself together right on time.. thank you for the love and support..

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January 11th, 2022