I ended up opposite to my dreams

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I was in the middle of my room busy preparing for my big day. Yes, this is it. I can't explain how excited I am to see the crowd outside. This celebration is not grand but not a simple one either. Both parties were invited, close friends and acquaintances were present. Newly found friends are there too to witness this memorable day of mine. I guess X was around too, maybe to judge if it is worth it for me to break him for my future man lol...then the alarm rang waking me up from dreamland (frowned).

Hello beautiful and awesome friends over here, how are you by the way? I hope every one of you was at your best no matter how difficult life has to offer.

Yes, I dream for the best but the best turn to the ugliest lol. No, no, I mean seems all my best dreams were gone in the opposite direction. I was expecting a better future for I work for that, I did obey my elder's advice. Followed the old ways to retain and refrain me from getting into a relationship at an early age. I manage to be good as I can to attract what I think is the best one for me. Although, I can't deny that there were times of inappropriate attitudes were displayed towards my fellow. I was just a human too who commits mistakes.

I dreamed to be financially independent and giving support to my family which I accomplished just half of it. I failed in many ways to fulfill this dream, many things to be considered overtime especially if you are living with someone who you thought can stand for you all the time but unluckily empty beyond.

I dreamed to work in a foreign land which came true but the good fate was not totally on my side and I ended up failing and going home half empty-handed. I tried the second time hoping for a better chance but still, the road was so rough for me to succeed. Then I cling to sweet promises that I can be live my life worry less if I turn my life to this lad. By then next were just broken promises that shutters my dreams.

If only I used my brain not my emotions I could have been in the snow nations now enjoying the cold and building Mr. Snowman lol.

I dreamed to build my family in the freshness of nature in the province, but I was here now living with my partner in the crowded city, competing and struggling with the flow of life in the city. Racing in grinding every day to survive life.

Some may say I am lucky to experience city life. But I tell you, not everyone who lives here was blessed to enjoy that. Unless you belong to those who are capable to enjoy the privilege to live grand in the worthiest and booming city heights without worries financially. Ugh! I really envy you then, but I won't despise you about that for I'm sure whatever you enjoying by now was the fruit of your labor, you are the luckiest of all (Sana all).

However, I was still glad to have this kind of life. It taught me to become strong, I learned to give way if necessary, I oblige to be more patient in dealing with such circumstances to protect and avoid the fall of my relationships. I learned to forgive though it was not asked. It widens my understanding and strengthens my compassion towards others. I may not be perfect but my imperfections distinguish me from others. I'm shorts of words to express how glad I am but I can show you more thru my actions.

I hope you pick a thing or two from this article awesome friends. You can share also your thoughts about this in the comments box below. Until next reading again. Thank you always.

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Article #89 2-15
Published: February 25, 2022
Time: 1:20 AM PH 
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