Almost 9 years of love and quarrels

July 18-3

I can't imagine that we get this far despite all the circumstances that we've been through.

It is still fresh in my mind that moment that we are planning to settle down.

We've been in a long-distance relationship for the first two years being girlfriend and boyfriend.

Many obstacles had been hindering us to bloom, such as our stance on religion, temptation, dreams, and a lot more.

When I'm away from my fiancee during my OFW years there comes the big trial that tests my fidelity to my man.

I meet this guy on social media, added me to his friend list, and started to show interest in me. At first, I did not mind him at all until one time my curiosity about him strikes so I ask him about his whereabouts which he willingly (dunno if it's true) shared.

From then on he frequently called me in the morning before he bound to his work (according to him). Ask me if I'm okay, what I am doing, and everything that concerns me.

His sweetness and thoughtfulness develop a space in my consciousness that I even long for his messages when he misses or delays sending me one in the morning.

When the thought of him started to deepen and I felt like I was slowly falling for him I decided to tell him that I have already a fiancee who is waiting for me. Despite that he still pursues me, he even says that I'm still unmarried so he is grabbing that chance to win my heart (chuuuzzz).

From then on, he never stops calling and texting me. He told me to visit and plan to bring me with him to their province to meet his family and relatives (he is working abroad too).

At this point, I immersed myself in deep thought and have to decide whether to accept him and dump my fiancee or turn him down and cut him off from me. I choose the latter, I apologize to him for the false hope that I ignite when I enjoy entertaining him during his calls and messages. He begs for a chance but I choose to let him go completely. I blocked him.

Back to my fiancee, I told him everything. We argued and had some unpleasant conversations but in the end, we settled it well.

There are more obstacles that we passed through the years that come by. Financial scarcities, misunderstandings, and some petty quarrels were the ingredients of these almost 9 long years since we decided to live together.

There were times that I want to break up with him already when I was very mad. I want to be by myself and find a better version of him for others. Many unpleasant things are coming to my mind when I was angry with him. Though I am not the type of person who is burst out my anger easily I came to the point that I learn to fight back with harsh words too to express my emotion.

It is true, that you only knew the true color and character of a person when you live together.

For the first few months of us staying together, everything is almost perfect but as time goes by and problems started to mingle into our life, his attitude began to differ from what I believed he is. He has weaknesses too and shortcomings.

Although I am not fully prepared for this life event I tried my best to widen my understanding and accept the fact that he is just a normal individual just like me who has a lot of flaws. For I know he is adjusting with me too. We both learn to adjust to each other. We still fight and quarrel about some petty things but at the end of the day, we still manage to settle ourselves and learn to forgive and live the day together. Better.

As of now, despite those differences, we manage to stay together and hopefully forever. Manifesting.

I stop here again awesome read cashers, I hope every one of you is in good hands wherever you are. Thank you for reading again.

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Article #141
Published: July 18, 2022
Time: 3:04 AM PH 
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Kendy42