My Weird Behavior
Have you sometimes questioned yourself if you are normal? That every action you make, other people also do? That everything is not strange and you can be just you. The fear of being judged never crossed your mind not until one day someone noticed that you are not like them. They called you weird or "abnormal" and that confused you about yourself? "Am I not like them?"
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I don't know if it's just me but I have this weird behavior that I'm talking to myself whether I'm alone or even in a crowded place. I just can't control myself to speak out to the thoughts that have a voice inside my head. I didn't think it was weird before until my aunt caught me talking in the mirror.
Me: Pay your tuition later so you can take an exam.
Also Me: Okay (Smiling in front of the mirror)
Aunt: Who are you talking to?
Me: Huh? No one.
Aunt: Why did you say okay in the mirror?
Me: I'm not.
Actually, before I didn't notice that I'm talking to myself. I thought it was all in my head and my aunt was just teasing me. But after several times that she caught me and told me I'm crazy, I observe myself and confirmed it. I heard my own voice saying *"Mamaya pumunta kang Maynila"*, "Go to Manila later". It was so clear. I get nervous hearing myself thinking I'm literally crazy.
Since then, I observed myself so that I can avoid others' comments but at first, it was hard and I can't shut my mouth not to speak out what is on my mind. There this one time I caught myself again talking in a public place. I'm sitting on the bench in the park and I didn't notice there is a woman looking at me. It was so embarrassing! I said *"Kakain pa ba ako mamaya? Hmmm. Sige na nga!"* (May face reaction pa yan mga dzai na parang may kausap talaga ako) "Should I eat later? Hmmm! Alright!" The face of the woman looked shocked and was about to say something but I stand immediately and leave the park right away.
It was 3 years ago already. I didn't go back to that place again thinking she might recognize me. Geez!
I told my boyfriend about this weird behavior of mine and he said it's normal, especially for me who experience a lot of traumas before, and advised me to think first before saying anything because until now I'm still careless. I can control it somehow now but not totally.
I was thinking what if it will go worse when I give birth one day. Because they said there is a chance that women will be depressed after they deliver a baby and will act strangely. Cringe!
How about you? Do you also have weird side? How do you manage to hide or change it? Does it affect your personal character? If not, you are fortunate!
Anyways, that's all for my blog today! Did you find me creepy now? Lol.
When Two Become One
*I remembered it all clearly, he was staring at me while saying his vows, in front of the Lord, that he will be with me through the lows and the highs and will stay till we're grey and old. I'm so happy that finally were already tied as one, and promised that only death can break us apart. I love him so much and it's a dream come true to be his wife...*
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*I mean it's literally a dream because I woke up after we kissed. Tsk! Too bad! It didn't proceed to the exciting part. Char! I get up smiling and messaged @Ej right away. He laughed so hard because for the first time he has done well in my dreams. I often dream he has another woman and didn't really love me that's why sometimes I fight with him and force him to tell the truth. He will just laugh at me for being paranoid and told me dreams are just the opposite of real life. Well, if you let me spell the word "obsessed" it's "K E L Z Y" obsessed! Haha! For he is worthy of my obsession because he made me feel the love I never feel had before. He saves my lonely soul and till now cures my traumas. He assured me it will never happen again, that I can give my whole trust in him. So I did.*
*But sometimes I'm afraid and can't help to think what if he changed suddenly after we get married? What if he will hurt me just like what my father did to my mom? I knew they were so in love at first that they promised to be together forever but didn't go the way they plan and end up cursing each other.*
*Tsk! Erased! Erased! Erased! Their story is different Zy so don't compare your relationship to others!*
*But let's be real here, there is also a risk in getting married. You can't easily live in your own life back again when your relationship gets totally broken, because you two are already one. Both will commit sin in the eyes of the law most especially in the eyes of the Lord. The vows they swore are sacred. But I believed there is an exception. If the couple will no longer understand and only hurt each other, the law of the state and the law of God will not allow it to continue to happen. The marriage should grow with love, not with hatred.*
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*I hope when I and @Ej come to this point, we are both ready to become one and will stick to our vows, that we will be together for better or worse, in richer and poorer, in sickness and health, to love and cherish, and to death do us part. Hehe. I still believe that forever exists even though lots of married couples nowadays get separated.*
*Their story is different, and so do ours!*
I came up with this marriage topic today because of the article I read from Ate @Eybyoung. I don't know but I often think of Ate Eyb lately since I got to know that she will get married soon. I as her internet friend who followed her story every day was very happy to know the news. It was everyone's dream, to be with the love of their life with a seal and I'm sure Ate will be so happy bride that day.
Advance congrats Ate! Best wishes 😘
How To Convert Load Credits To 7/11 Cliqq Wallet
Wazzup people! Dito na ako nagbabalik mehehe! Tagalog article muna ako ha para di mabigla brain cells ko kakaenglish. Baka maoverwhelm at tamarin na naman ako e. Tagal din ng last kong article. Jusmiyo! Yung katamaran ko di lang nagbakasyon, nagbalak pa maging residente kaya ito inuunti unti ko palayasin. Haha!
So ayun na nga, may ise-share na naman ako sa inyong hack para sa nahohoard niyong piso load kay **Shoppe** or **Lazada**. Gawin nating **Cliqq Credits** yan para di lang nakastock, maipang grocery niyo pa yan sa 7/11.
But first, let me thank @foryoubtc09 for staying in my block even though I haven't been active for so long. Lovelots bro! Meow!
Hello Rusty? Love mo pa din ba ako?
Ehem kayo jan, balik na kayo sakin plith mehehe!
Ready na ba kayo? Mukhang naiisip niyo na agad yung **Big bite** sa 7/11 ah. Haha. Sige na nga ito naaa!
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Una mag install muna kayo ng **ShareTreats** at **Cliqq** wallet sa Playstore.
Kapag na install niyo na yang dalawa na yan, gumawa na kayo ng account niyo jan. Huwag kayo mag alala di kakailanganin ng KYC or ID verification jan. Sa **ShareTreats** need facebook ang ipapang log in, pwede dummy account kung ayaw niyo yung personal niyong fb ipanglog in jan. Sa **Cliqq** naman number niyo lang kailangan.
At syempre ang pinaka-kailangan sa lahat yung balance niyong load na nahoard niyo sa Shoppe or Lazada. Minimum 135 pesos pala need. Bale 100 lang marereceive mo nun, yung 35 fee nila. Di na masama galing lang naman yun sa papiso piso e.
Kapag naset up niyo na yung dalawang app proceed na tayo sa pag convert.
Open niyo yung **ShareTreats** app.
Scroll down at hanapin ang **7/11 Cliqq Wallet** then click**.**
Ito yung mga amount na pwede niyo maconvertan. Makikita niyo na rin jan kung magkano magiging fee.
Dahil galing sa load ang pagcoconvertan natin pili kayo jan sa **Globe** or **Smart** na network kung saan kayo may balance then magpoproceed na yan sa payment at sa pagsesendan mo na wallet. Kung ipapasa niyo sakin, click niyo lang yung **"Treat for a friend"** char haha pero kung sa sarili niyo naman pilin niyo yung **"Treat for me"**
Kailangan yung number na pinang log in niyo sa **Cliqq wallet** ang nakalagay sa details ng pagpapasahan niyo ha kung sa own Cliqq wallet niyo ipapasok. Huwag malilito! Then click niyo kung saang network kayo may balance tas scroll down sa baba, tas click treat.
Next may permission na hihingin. Itataype niyo ulit yung number na pagkukunan ng payment niyo at may marereceived kang OTP.
Input the code and voila!
**Success! The treat was already sent to the recipient.**
Next may marereceived kang text from **SHARETREATS**. Instruction naman pano marereedeem yung 100. Click niyo lang yung link at ito na lalabas. Basahin niyo na rin yung Terms and Conditions nila para masagot pa mga katanungan niyo.
And tadaaaa! Pwede niyo na yan maibili sa 7/11. Kapag magbabayad kayo click niyo lang yung "Buy at 7-Eleven" at ipascan ang qr code, automatic na yan magdeduct sa Cliqq credits niyo.
Ito kakabili ko lang nakaraan ng pang-stock kong food gamit yung load na nahoard ko sa Lazada at Shoppe. Hehe. Laking tulong!
Noodles is life!
Nga pala marami kayong pwede maconvertan jan pwede din kay Jabee or Mcdo kung nagcacrave kayo ganern. Mehehe!
Sa mga mahilig maghoard jan, @Ruffa @imanagrcltrst @boringwriter @Usagi @mommykim @Adrielle1214 @Jeaneth ito na ang lifehack para sa inyo haha
Sana makatulong :)
Sabihin mo Salamat Master! 😹
FREE $100 ETH From OKX
Hella read friends! Happy Wednesday to all :) Another day to hustle to save more. And speaking of saving I found a new source of free dollars which you can get by just signing in and inviting 20 new users, fewer or more to join their wallet.
Remember the Dollars For FREE that I shared last time? That I got an $85 reward from ABRA and IXFI? The process of this crypto wallet that I found is also the same as the two crypto trading wallets that give me free coins which can be exchangeable to USD and can be withdrawn to your fiat or it depends on you if you want to use that reward to trade. https://read.cash/@Kelzy/dollars-for-free-0ca3b586
Do you have valid ids or a Passport? Get it now because you will gonna need it when you sign up for this crypto-wallet called OKX for KYC.
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Let's start!
First, you need to sign to this link. Click **here**. You will receive an instant $60 after signing in. https://www.okx.com/free-eth/help?assistId=187982&channelId=19465608&fbclid=IwAR11bohAjxXDyejaEST7XWmAGZXViQxS8tz1bhZQrhvTSmDIykaaWCIDL1s
The page will be like this. **"Register now to help me".**
You have to put your mobile number and create a password. It should be 8-32 characters containing at least 1 number, 1 upper letter case, 1 lowercase, and 1 symbol. Then click **Lend a hand**.
And tadaaa! You will receive instant $60 in your account.
Next, install the OKX app in the play store.
Then sign in the number and password you created earlier.
Click this circle and it will direct you to your profile.
Click **Identity verification** and get verified so the $40 reward from your invites will be counted and added to your $60 to complete the $100. It will only take 1-2 minutes as long you submit a clear photo of your identification from Level 1 to Level 3.
By the way, if you are from this country (screenshot below) unfortunately they currently don't serve users who are based there.
Go back to **OKX home** and look at **Reward Center**. Click the **Get Free ETH** button and you will view it like this.
Click the **"Invite friends and earn free ETH"**. Copy your referral link and start inviting your friends before 72 hours end, because it will expire after their required time for reward and your invitation points will be forfeit and will go back to $60 again.
I got knowledge from my friend who invited me and has already withdrawn 2 times that every invite is worth $1.60 or sometimes $3 that's why you need to invite 20 less or more new users. Or if you both want to claim it fast you need to deposit $50 but I prefer to invite-only others because I don't have $50 hehe
Other users who already got their rewards uploaded their proof on youtube.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?fbclid=IwAR3AemYOQVph6IX9qax3_iefSH9LKe_uT98pyxLm8jvZ6RN84GAKOVvAEkc&v=X7kNb1Ux-O0&feature=youtu.be
The uploader is Filipino so pardon me to my other friends. Try to search for other users who upload their proof in the same language you can understand.
To get more information read their **Rules**.
Anyways, to those who have valid IDs out there and qualify to join in their country please help me to reach 20 invites so I can claim that reward hehe. Use my referral link when you sign up and get verified. Click **here****.** As of now, I have 2 invites but one didn't pass KYC yet so it doesn't count. https://www.okx.com/free-eth/help?assistId=187982&channelId=19465608&fbclid=IwAR11bohAjxXDyejaEST7XWmAGZXViQxS8tz1bhZQrhvTSmDIykaaWCIDL1s
Thank you in advance! 😘
© All Screenshots are from **OKX**
Tips To Process Your Passport Smoothly: Basic Guide For First Timer
Howdy, read folks! How's grinding in the online world? Still busy? Busy that you didn't notice that I've been inactive here for 10 days. Huhu! That sad. Well, who am I to remember right? For I am just a living potato who loves to be alone in a peaceful dark ground.
Lol.
Yes! It's already 10 days since my last activity here. I'm so busy in the real world that I wasn't able to check your articles. My apology. But don't worry I have some worthy knowledge to be shared today, especially for first-timers who want to get a passport but don't have an idea how to process it smoothly.
So without further ado, let's go!
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1. Search or Ask for "exact requirements" to be passed
Not everyone does this first step. They will skip it and book an appointment right away thinking they already have the requirements that need to be passed. But when the day of their appointment comes their application got rejected because their documents are incomplete. And it's annoying if they won't please your small favor even if you talk with them nicely. Well, you can't blame them because it is their rule and they need to implement it fairly. So if you want to process your passport application smoothly make sure to know the **"exact requirements"** that need to submit once you went to your appointment date.
2. Book an Appointment
Since the pandemic happened walk-ins are no longer allowed. You won't be entertained at their office if you don't have an appointment. So better do the first step which is to search and ask others who already have experience of getting a passport to give you an idea. Of course, don't just rely on one advice and opinions because there may be a change in the process, for example the person you asked got his passport 6 years ago, and it was before the pandemic. Take their advice but also gather the latest information.
3. Ready all your requirements 1 week before your appointment
Prepare all your documents 1 week before not the next day of your appointment for you to less stress. Yes it's just a piece of cake and you can do it in just an hour but don't be complacent because when you forgot only one requirement, your application will be rejected. Your money and efforts will be wasted because it is not refundable.
4. Go to their office 1-2 hours early
Expect that there will be long lines when you go to their office. You are not the president of your state so you have to bring long patience because there is no special treatment once you get there.
The process will not take 15 minutes as long your documents are fine and passed to their screening. After that, they will take you a picture. And that's it you're good to go! You will just wait for it to be made for weeks and it will arrive at your doorstep.
It's already 5 days since I processed mine and I'm excited to receive my first-ever passport hehe! I will update you once I have it.
I hope this article helps especially those who want to get a passport.
Dollars For Free!
I bet whenever you heard or read "**FREE**" your eyes or ears can't resist checking it. You feel restless and can't wait to grab it. And once you have it your heart is overflowing with joy.
A relief yeah! A relief that saves worries and troubles. Well, only those in need can feel it.
Platforms like noise.cash and read.cash is one of the biggest reliefs that come to me. I can't count the times I withdraw BCH to USD to our fiat and saved me from my expenses. From paying, my apartment, bills, and necessities for almost a year, I paid it all even though I'm only at home. (jobless)
Since I got to know that this kind of earning site exists, I searched related platforms to earn more. Good thing that I have a background in blogging because of noise and read, that's why it didn't hard for me to explore. I enter lots of blogging platforms but I wasn't able to manage them all. You know we also need to think and make our articles more interesting to catch readers' and curators' hearts to get paid.
When I enter crypto-blogging, I thought I won't stay for long because I don't have any idea about cryptos and such. My head is spinning, reading unfamiliar terms that only crypto users can understand. But with perseverance, "because I'm in need", I tried to do some research so that I can engage with them, and also to try the opportunity that they experiencing especially the FREE cryptos that can be exchanged in dollars. I'm so noob before but thanks to my virtual friends here who are not selfish to share their knowledge.
Last Month I got FREE $85 from just signing up to a crypto wallet and holding some amount there.
IXFI
Seeing that "reward" word makes me excited! Feel me?
I got that $20 by just signing up to their wallet and did some tasks such as passing the KYC verification, following their socials and that's it. I just waited 9 days before they send me my reward.
ABRA
I received worth $65+ in this wallet by also signing up and passing the KYC but unlike **IXFI** I hold $15 and invited a new user. Like many, I waited over a month to receive my reward however, when it finally comes I wasn't able to withdraw it because of the huge fee. I wanted to trade it but trading is not available until now.
Last week when CPRX is down, the withdrawal fee also decrease. Because I'm afraid it will go deeper I decided to transfer it to my Bittrex wallet so that I can trade it to other coins and exchange it for USD and then to fiat. When I transferred it, I received $41 only because of the transaction fee. I was hesitant to trade and exchange it at that time hoping it will rise back that's why I hold it for a while. But it went go deeper to $21. I regret that I didn't sell it right away. Huhu. I know it's not that big to others but it is to me.
How about you? How's your wallet? Have you already pulled out your assets?
Lifehack : Shoppe Load Credits
Tuesday, May 10, 2022
Hays! Nakakagutom. Puro pagkain nasa isip ko kaya late na naman 'tong article ko. Bumalik na naman ang pagkahilig ko kumain (ng pagkain ha lol baka kasi ano iniisip niyo e haha) simula nung Friday. Bumisita kasi si jowa. Kapag nandito kasi yun binubusog ako palagi (sa pagkain) haha. Kumpleto breakfast, lunch, miryenda, dinner at may pa midnight snack pa. Whew! Gustuhin ko mang i-check out na yung Jabee sa cart ko napapaurong ako i-push dahil sa price ng BCH. Di ko kayang magconvert kaya tubig tubig nalang muna. Need natin magtipid mga dzai!
Speaking of pagtitipid, share ko lang yung ginagawa kong technique para makatipid sa load. Malaking bagay 'to lalo na sa mga katulad kong naka-mobile data lang at di afford ang Wifi. Whooooo! Sa panahon ngayon essential na din talaga ang data. Sobrang laking tulong sa pang araw-araw.
Tagalog posting lang muna tayizz kasi sa ibang bansa naman di ito available tsaka di nagfufunction brain cells ko ngayaon di makapag english lol.
Since marami namang nabubudol sa Shoppe rito basic nalang tu sa inyo. Kaya wala ng mahabang pasakalye, iopen mo na Shoppe app mo.
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Sa Home page makikita mo yang **Load, Bills & Travel.** Click mo ng matuklasan mong may iba na siya. Char!
Next click mo yang **Buy load** then piliin mo yung taong nanjan palagi para sayo hindi yung gwapo o maganda lang. Chos! Piliin mo kung anong network ang loloadan mo syempre.
Example sa'kin **Globe**. Dahil naka register pa ako sa promo nila bale mag iimbak lang ako ng regular load kasi sobrang discounted ng mga load nila.
Gaya nito, ₱20 ang value pero ₱1 mo lang siya mabibili. Oh divaaaah! Kung araw araw ka bibili may maiimbak kang load bago pa maexpired yung register promo mo.
By the way maavail mo lang yung discount nila kung may laman Shoppe pay mo, yung pinakawallet ng Shoppe. Kailangan mo munang maverified bago ka makapag top up or cash in sa Shoppe pay. So need mo magsubmit ng valid ID.
Tsaka pala hindi everyday available yung ₱20 na tig ₱1 nila. Pero yung ₱5 na tig ₱1 araw-araw available (sa experience ko ha) Bale nakaka ₱10-15 ako everyday. San ka pa?
Ang ginagawa ko kasi since yung **Globe** ay kapatid naman ni **TM**, ina-avail ko din yung pa piso niyang discount at dahil yung **DITO** na network kamag anak din nilang dalawa hindi din siya nakaligtas sakin syempre haha kaya nagiging ₱15 araw-araw ang nakukuha ko sa kanila for only ₱3.
Swerte pa kung may araw na available yung ₱20 na tig piso. Laking imbak talaga. Basta basa muna bago magpipindot para sureball! Every after 10 minutes din pala bago makapag load ulit kaya need din ng patience wag atat hihi. May mga discounted promos pa silang iba explore niyo lang.
Alam niyo ba na pwede din maconvert yung **load** na inimbak niyo to **GCASH**? Yieee! Gusto niyo yorn? Send Jabee muna! 😁 Char. Turo ko next blog. Baka bukas :)
Sana nakatulong ito lalo na't ang sakit sa mata ng BCH ngayon. Huwag mahihiyang magtanong kung may di naintindihan 😉
Who Will Be The Next Leader Of The Philippines?
Monday, May 9, 2022
People of the Philippines now are very busy because today is the national election. The day that we will gonna choose the next leaders who can serve and protect us for 6 years of their term. Leaders that has a potential to rule the country without anomaly and of course with a vision of a good future.
Running candidates swear their word until their last campaign, that once people vote them "Better changes is coming."
"There will no more poor Filipino once I take the lead. I will give new houses for you all"
"We will create more jobs so no one will gonna force to leave to work abroad."
"We will raise the wages and decrease goods prices"
These are some of their sugar-coated promises that many think will not going to be done once they sit to their positions. And for sure the changes they said will gonna be different from their promise platforms. Well, this is not new and I bet in other country happens too. Their plans are good but people wants actions. We hope that the new selected leaders will rule the country as a loving and steadfast father or mother to their countrymen. That they will do everything for us not to be neglected just like they said in the very beginning.
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Before 12 midnight ticks the result will come out and surely the winners will jump out of joy while others will feel bitter but I'm afraid if it would go to worst. Because the supporters of other team threat that they will declaring a strike once their opponent win, cause they think their rival will surely cheat. Whew! I just hope not.
Anyways, I didn't vote today even I'm eligible because I saw the crowded people in the news who went to the voting area where I will go. I had to be more careful because I need to be negative to my medical soon that is requirement to my application abroad.
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See! No health protocols were followed. They are not that strict because they need a vote but once they got a result expect that they will "very" concern again with people's "health".
Another reason why I didn't come because I don't want to see the faces of my relatives. We were on the same polling place and I don't want them to have an idea about me now. For what, right?
But I still have 3 hours to think if I will go.
Goodluck to this country! I hope the selected leaders will have a good intention to the power they will receive and never use it for their own sake.
May the Lord guide and guard us all.
How's Your Life Before Without Noise and Read Cash?
Sunday, May 8, 2022
Hella read world. I'm back from 3 days inactivity here. I've been sick recently because of my sore throat. I fall asleep while the electric fan was near focused on my face and with my mouth open, lol, so all the dust and germs partying inside my throat. I regret that I did that. So next time I will wear mask when sleeping lol.
I feel better now. Thanks to the advices that I got from noise.cash community I able to cure myself alone. It's hard to live all by yourself, no one will take care of you when you're sick. Glad that I have you, my virtual friends here who knows my daily story and listen to all my thoughts. If I haven't meet this platform for sure I'm still weak to reason out and let myself manipulated with the people who are fond to abused me because I don't complain.
Oftentimes I recall the past when I still didn't know this site. My thoughts are only closed to me because no one validates it. I limit myself to talk or share my feelings to others, thinking that they might use it when I can no longer give benefits to them. You can't blame me not to overthink because I have experiences with the people who I thought will understand me more because they are my family. I expect a support from them but I received criticism. I guess some of you can relate.
But since I got to know noise.cash and read.cash I feel the belongingness. My thoughts are accepted and I get respected. I feel the presence of the family whenever they call me "Ate" "Bhe" or "Anak"
When I'm not around they look for me.
When I'm in need they give their hand to help.
When they received a blessings they shared it with me.
When I'm unhappy they comfort me.
I haven't feel this before and I thank you all for being kind to me. This site become my diary.
A diary with lots of thoughtful audience.
A site with a robot that grant wishes.
For being a 1 year user, I can say that a day without interacting with you feels like incomplete. Though there are times that I procrastinate but I still think of you.
Even we haven't meet yet but you're already a dear to me. Your usernames sinks in my mind that whenever you needed me and I can able to help I will do it without hesitations. I'm blessed that I got to know you. That you give your trust with me even were here in the online world wherein scammers are most friendly and very pretentious. I swear in return I will do it the same for you. Thank you always guys!
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How about you? How this site changes your daily? How's life before without noise.cash and read.cash?
Midnight Questions
While most everyone shared their last month's earnings in their article, I here will answer creepy questions that will not put me asleep since I'm writing this in the middle of the night. Hehe.
I drafted this prompt when I read @Usagi's article, Extremely Wicked and later that day I've seen other user wrote their own too. https://read.cash/@Usagi/extremely-wicked-3095f15e
So even mine is late let's push this through. Let's gaaaw!
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Have you ever said Bloody Mary in the mirror?
I haven't, so let me do it now. Lol. Kidding! To be honest I didn't know what's this game that @Usagi talking in her article. Is this come from a movie? Because I haven't watch it yet. But hearing the **bloody** word makes me cringe. So even I didn't know about it, I won't dare to do it.
If you were to commit a murder, how would you go about it?
This make me think if can I murder people? Hmmm...
https://youtu.be/U7CZcd-UYmU
I can say I can kill when I'm angry but I don't think I can do it to a person or animals except to small insects. I am very *"maawain"* soft-hearted person that even you did something horrible to me, I will let you live.
I will let you live till your conscience swallow you.
Have you ever had unexplainable experienced with the supernatural?
Yes when I visited Japan Surplus Store.
I went there to find second hand chairs that is cheap but still useful and I'm glad that I found a cute one.
While checking the chair I felt someone is looking at me even no one assisted me because the sales boy was busy to the other customer. My mind tells me to turn back and I saw Mickey mouse doll. I immediately look away because I hate dolls. Then I carried the chair and stand on line to the cashier. When I was near on the counter I glimpsed back to that doll and it creeps me out that her left eye was close. How did it happened? I'm sure it was both open when I saw it and no one went to that corner after me.
I called the sales boy and told him that I will not get the chair anymore because my brother texted me that he already bought even it's not true. Since then, I never come back to that Japan Surplus Store anymore.
In your opinion, what is the most brutal way to die?
I bet for all ladies this is the most brutal way to die, to get raped. Imagine you will be grabbed on the streets and bring you to the bush, wrecked your clothes as if they are unwrapping a box then feast your body as their delish dish. If they let me live after they do it, there is no difference of they kill me because my soul is already dead.
Which horror movie scares you for life?
Conjuring and IT. Anything with dolls and clowns. I'm effing hate them! I can't see the cuteness of dolls why many like them. And for the clowns I hate their wide smile.
Would you eat human flesh for $100?
If no one will tell me that is human flesh and it didn't smell bad, maybe I would eat. I have this attitude that before I will taste the food I will smell it first. Hehe.
So that's all for this creepy questions. Whew! Why I feel like someone is watching me now. 🥶
If you also like to answer this prompt you can choose other set of questions here. https://thoughtcatalog.com/holly-riordan/2017/10/50-spooky-questions-to-ask-your-friend-group-to-get-into-the-halloween-spirit/
Alright. I gotta go to sleep now. Let's play worship song first. Hehe.
Do This To Make The Person You Like Want You Back
When is the first time you fall in love to someone? Did you feel that he or she likes you too? Or he or she just ignored you? How's your heart back then? Seeing that he or she noticed everyone except from you.
Ugh! Another memories bring back to me after I watched "Ipaglaban Mo" "Fight for it" a segment in television that narrates true to life story. It's genre is more on crime and legal drama.
The topic of the segment is "Gayuma" or "Love Potion" where the wife went to the witch doctor to ask help to get back the love of his husband because she thinks he is cheating. They had quarrel before when she went there.
The witch doctor give her some liquid that make her feel unconscious and told her that it's normal. He adds that she needs to come back tomorrow for the second ritual and needs to bring the photo and underwear of her husband.
When she arrive home his husband apologize for the fight they had and kisses her very sweet. The wife believes that the potion is effective that's why she went back the next day. She was given again the liquid that make her feel unconscious. The witch doctor cast some prayer together the things of her husband. When she got home she was surprised by her husband. He is cooking and told her that they will going out of town on their anniversary. The wife is convinced that the potion is real and again she went back to that witch doctor for the last ritual. Her mom stopped her and told her to believe God instead to that witch. But she was obsessed to make his husband only love her.
Then she went for the last ritual and it happen inside the cave where they are just two there. The witch doctor command her to open the button of her jeans because he will put some oil on her abdomen when suddenly she felt that he was touching her private part. She rise up and told him that she doesn't want to continue it but the witch doctor said that they need to be in one or to have sex so his power will be transferred to her and the potion will be more effective. She refused. The witch doctor give her another liquid potion but this time it is high dose that make her totally out of conscious.
She slowly seen the face of the demon that feasting her body. She was raped. Her obsession lead her in trouble.
I remember when I was in 3rd year highschool we got new neighbors from Siquijor. There are rumors that people from that place knows witchcraft things and many avoided them. Because I don't believe them and I am fond with weird people I befriended the daughter of that family. On her looks I thought she was shy type girl but I misjudged her. She was very talkative and fast speaker. We become close and shared some secrets like crushes.
I had this crush named Chester when I was in highschool. He was very popular in our campus and many girls were getting his attention. But me, I don't need to do it because we are close. Well we are close because he always ask a favor to me, which is to write a notes for him. The martyr me always say yes everytime he ask help. My friend knows about it and said if I want Chester to like me because she has a way.
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I ask her how? And she told me that I need a picture of him. In my mind I was thinking she will do some sorcery. I get nervous and told her I no longer like him.
Also I remember what our catechist said in our religion subject that everytime we ask help in witch doctors they don't heal us but call bad spirits to get inside of us.
If you want that person to like you back show your pure intentions.
Instead asking help to them we should pray and come near to the Almighty of all. He can heal everything for he is the real healer. Beside it is written in his 10 commandments that we should not worship other than Him.
How about you? Do you believe in *"albularyo"* or witch doctors?
Just This One!
May is here and my soon flight is near. Remember the article I shared here? That I will be working in Doha, Qatar soon. Even, I didn't completed yet the documents I need before my departure, I'm motivating myself to be positive, that the opportunity that came is really for me. https://read.cash/@Kelzy/kids-nowadays-32cbea84
Ehe! Kidding! Honestly, I'm not a hundred percent positive in this application even my friend assured me that I will be hired. I can't help but think negative because of the situation again of my country. There is a warning that government will implement lockdown again and for sure I will get hard time to process my other documents.
What if I already paid for placement but the government here will restrict all for departure? Or in the other hand Doha will ban the arrival there? So I will be delayed to work? For how many days? Weeks? Months? Or another years again. I need to start immediately because my mom will lend me all her savings and I want to give it to her back once I get my salary so we can start to save for our plans.
It's 8 days to go before the election here in the Philippines and I bet all Filipino's can predict that after they got the results for the new leader of the state they will declare lockdowns again.
Political rallies here, rallies there, no social distancing and no health protocol was followed but you will get shocked that media will highlight the caused of surge of virus again is the gathering's who went on vacation this summer.
I'm afraid that my plans and hopes will disappear when it didn't happen, that's why I don't expect too much to avoid disappointments. I haven't tell it anyone except here because I know I won't be criticized here.
It's true that not because it came it won't be hard to get. Whews!
I still push and excite myself to get this job for the sake of the salary I will earn there. That would be a big help for my siblings for their studies. Also to my mom who dreams to get her own house. Ugh! Her teary eyes flash back to me now when she received a message that our application for housing loan was disapproved because I forged the signature of my father which is suggestions of the employee who works on that develop houses that can be loaned in Pag-Ibig. She said some passed but unfortunately were not.
Maybe that house wasn't really for us because it will takes us 25 years to pay it. But if I will get that job we can both save enough money to buy a house and lot in cash.
(Sigh)
I prayed that there won't be a problem in my application so that process will be smoothly done. Also, I hope government will not declared lockdowns again. That they will find another way except for long quarantine. 2 years is already too much. I hope they are not the one who will hinder my dreams.
Just this one!
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Please include me in your prayers ❤️
Flashback Friday
Headline News Today in Philippines
7 years old boy died after his father threw him. He was beaten repeatedly. His father was under drugs when he did it. Their neighbors wanted to rush the child to the hospital but it was too late. The child was declared dead on arrival.
The suspect already caught by the police and he detained them in jail. But the next day he was found dead. He repeatedly smashed his head to the wall.
Do you think his death is enough for the payment he did to his child?
Tsk! I can't help but remember the life we had when we were still with our father. It was nightmare for us. If we didn't escaped that time I might not here with you blogging daily.
I remember when I was 5 years old, mom prepared my uniform because she will sent me to school then my father stop her, he didn't want me to go. Mom didn't listen to him and she still wear it to me then I get shocked, my father light my skirt with fire. I cried out loud. Mom grabbed me and put me to the kitchen sink to pour me water. She was crying and shouting for help. My father followed then grabbed mom's hair. Mom pushed him and carried me outside. We ran away yet he still follows while throwing plates to us. It scattered in the road. No one helps us as neighbors also afraid and don't want to get involved. We hid in the abandoned house nearby and we heard him shouting curse words.
"You're both dead if I catch you!"
"Kelzy get out!"
I'm sobbing with sounds and mom covered my mouth. We stayed there for long hours and when evening comes mom said she will going back to our house to get my brother. We forgot that he was sleeping. I stayed there for a while even I'm afraid to that house because they said there is a ghost there and because I was still a kid I believe them. It was so dark there. Mom said I should pray "The Guardian Angel Prayer" and after I finish it she will come.
***Angel of God, My Guardian Dear***
***To whom God's love***
***Commits thee here***
***Ever this day***
***Be at my side***
***To light***
***To guard***
***To rule***
***To guide***
***Amen.***
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But it took long before she come back. I heard her screaming saying that "Zy, don't come out!" because my father knows where I hide. I also heard my brother crying. He was still 3 years old that time. I heard footsteps and my heart wants to come out because of nervous. Then I heard voices of men, ***"Madidisgrasya ka kapag di mo binaba yan" "You'll be in trouble if you don't put it down"*** *because he was holding a bolo.*
I saw light from torches and finally mom get me. We are crying and one men help us out. I saw my father cuffed and ride in the police mobile. I'm so scared of him and don't want to see his face. I remember he was put on the jail for only a week then he got out. He lived with us again and we thought he will changed. He was kind for few days but get back to being drunkard again. There are rumors from our neighbors that he was using illegal drugs that's why he act strangely. I don't know about it that time because I was still a kid. We escaped again from him and went to province to my grandparents but they also didn't treat us well when mom left us there. All my life I don't feel I was safe with my relatives. They always make me feel that I was unfortunate and no future instead of giving me guidance and lifting me up to whatever difficulty that would come. I blamed it all to my father why we suffer like this so much.
I told my mother if she saw the news about that boy because I remember what our father did to us but she said to stop bringing those memories. (Check out the news here.) https://youtu.be/Rz4KXwaNqQw
Me and my brother talked about it also and he said the story of our family can win awards to Oscars. Lol.
Everytime I remembered it I look at it as a battle that we surpassed. We're still fortunate unlike to those who didn't survive because of those cruel people who they thought will protect them.
Who also experience abused from their parents, family, or relatives? How are you? I hope you feel alright now and never experience that nightmare again.
Before I bid goodnight I just want to thank Ate @yhanne and bro @foryoubtc for renewing their sponsorship. Sorry if I noticed it late because new articles non-stop to pop in my notifs hehe 😅
Arigatouuu! ❤️
My Virtual Friend Lent Me 0.29 BCH Or $100
***"I don't know what's special with me but I am blessed with people I've met."***
This is what I feel everytime my friends in real world give their hand when I'm in need. I know I'm not that kind yet they still didn't forget about me. They don't doubt and helped me wholeheartedly.
Just like the friend I shared in my previous article, the one who will help me to work abroad. Actually she can just have her own life if she wants while enjoying the blessings come to her but she remembers me and want me also to experience it. Ugh! What a selfless love!
And you know what? Even the people I just only met on the internet who heard always my stories and become my friends, also extent their hands on my down days. It's rare and very well-appreciated.
I was so stressed last week thinking where I can get money to pay my house rent. It's my fault because I forgot about it and didn't think the days that I should be grinding. I came to the point that I will take the risk to borrow in an online loan app even I already heard the advices from other readers and writers that "Don't do it cause they will shame you when you missed to pay even in just a day" that I should go and just borrow to my friends.
I tried to contact my friend and asked if she have extra money and I get shocked with her answer.
Her: Sorry zy. I wanted to help you but I already use my money for my prenatal-check up.
Me: Whaaaaaaaaat?! You're pregnant?!
Her: Yeah. It's already 24 weeks and you're going to be Godmother, soon. I miss you girl! We're so outdated to each other. Visit me here sometimes.
Me: It seems like yesterday that were jogging together to lose weight now you have that fat that will be my godchild. Oh gaaaaad! Haha.
After our chat I think again of my other friends who I can lend money but I feel they also struggling when I read their rants on Facebook so I didn't try to message them. I messaged mom but she wasn't online. After an hour she replied that she can't send me money because she already used her day off for the month of April and I should try to borrow to boyfriend or to my friends and she'll pay it next month.
My boyfriend is also zero that time because his grandfather is in the hospital. My head hurts and I heard voices again. I closed my eyes and I suddenly thought of my virtual close friends here. I already accepted that I might get rejected because they also have needs that's why they grind so hard but I still tried it.
I messaged first the virtual friend that I won't feel shy lol.
Friend 1: She wanted to lend me but one of her virtual friend already borrowed her money. So not available to her. Eeengk!
I messaged another friend who also I don't feel shy but...
Friend 2: She will use it on weekends. She have $40 and she's willing to lend me the half. I was touched because I know she needs it too yet she still want it to share with me.
Friend 1 was worried about me. She keeps asking if I already found a friend where I can borrow.
I needed P5k or $95.65 that time and if I take the $20 of Friend 2, I still have to borrow $75 from others. That would be magulo na.
I tried to virtual friend 3 who often I talk but...
Friend 3: Her money was already borrowed by her best friend. She said she can lend me next week when her friend paid her. I understand because she is already a mom and at the same time a student. Also I don't want to add worries to her. And of course I appreciated it.
Friend 1 asked again if I'm already okay. Hehe.
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I'm losing my hope that day but another virtual friend commented to my post and she ask if I'm already okay, and if I already found whom to borrow. I messaged her privately and told her I still haven't. Even I'm shy I tried to ask if she have extra money. Without hesitation she ask "How much?" I told her $95 but she said...
***"I will make it exact $100."***
My chest feel relieved. I cried out of joy. She always get worried when I'm having a hard time. I remember when I was out posting and writing in both noise and read she messaged me directly to check how I am. She trusted me and I will value it so much. She knows I won't scam her because my faces are super expose here and also she knows my real name.
I'm so blessed to have a thoughtful friends physically and virtually. I maybe not fortunate with my relatives but I am so loved by people who listen to my feelings.
Friend 1, 2, 3 asked if I'm already okay and I told them that I am. Hehe. I didn't tell them who lend me because she doesn't want it to be announced. To be fair I don't want to mention their all names. Hehe. Thank you so much guys!
I had to grind hard so I will pay her back immediately though mom will pay it next month because she told me to borrow to someone but I just want to be prepared. We can't tell she might suddenly need it.
When I was going to give up, God touches their heart for me.
Blessed this people!
How about you? Would you lend $100 your friend that you just met online?
noise cash is experiencing a glitch now. I can't post and interact there.
So while waiting, I'll just go and roam with your articles here :)
By the way, have you read latest article?
https://read.cash/@Kelzy/ill-be-working-in-doha-qatar-soon-9befdbfd
I'll be working in Doha Qatar soon. It's my first time to work in other country and I'll do it for the sake of salary that will help me to provide the needs of my family. I hope this opportunity that knocked is really for me.
Please include me in your prayers. ❤️
I'll Be Working In Doha Qatar Soon
***"Opportunity comes unexpectedly. Not everyone is fortunate to have it so when it knocks go grab it!"***
Hella' read folks! How you all here? Have you noticed that I've been inactive again? My apology love because I'm busy preparing my documents for the opportunity that knocks to me. This will literally help me get out of my zone and a life changing if happens. Inshallah! It came when I'm at my down moment and I'm viewing it as answered prayer.
Last Wednesday my friend messaged me how I am because she haven't heard from me for so long cause you know I'm avoiding everyone except to my boyfriend @EJ.
Her: Zy how are you? What are you up to? Come follow me here!
Me: Can I be there?
Her: Of course! Pass your CV so you will be interviewed right away.
She can easily say things like that because she has a position in the company where she was working. She is HR (Human Resources) there. They're the ones who hire and deploy new applicants. So if I push this application I might get hired. But right now, I don't want to expect high hopes because I have a lots of requirements that I still need to complete. My friend wants me to process my documents immediately so she can assign me in the available position in their office as a staff. And if I work there my salary is high. I asked her if the position in their office will not be taken if I process my document long and she said she wasn't sure but if that happens there still available in the operation field which is in the restaurant.
Her: Are you really sure with your decision? If you come here there is no turning back!
Me: Yes Ate! I will grab this opportunity now. I won't grow here.
Her: Process your papers quickly. Tell Tita (My Mom) about this so she can ready your placement fee and other expenses.
Me: How much is the placement Ate?
Her: P35k ($668)
Me: How much your expenses overall when you get there?
Her: P60k ($1,146) including the pocket money I have with me.
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I told mom about it and she permitted me. She said she will help me with my expenses. If only I already have my passport I can process the other requirements that I need to complete. I want to get that staff position because the salary is P25k-P30k or $477-573. But if I will be assigned in restaurant that they also hold my salary would be P23k-P25k or $439-$477. Still big unlike the salary here. If that happens, I can surely help my mom and siblings.
I'm so grateful that my friend remembers me in her success. I don't know but I feel I'm not a good friend to them yet I am still surrounded with good people. They show me love and I really appreciate it.
If you guys have this kind of friend, value them. Not because they help you when you need them but because they give love unconditionally. They are for keeps!
You Gotta Get Comfortable Being Uncomfortable To Success
Are there a times that you wanted to give up and just be contented to survive in your daily lives? Like why work hard if those things will not be carried when you're already in the grave? Why pressure yourself where you can just relax and wait to sun set and rise again. And why mind future if you're not sure if you will be wake up the next day?
Have this thoughts come to your mind?
Maybe those people who's already rich and had already achieved something in life think and say things like this but to some who struggle everyday where they can get a grain they aim to get a better life. Well who doesn't want it right?
When opportunity knocks welcome it!
Chances are limited so when you missed it for sure you will regret it.
Do you remember the opportunities you refuse because you think you will fail? What happen? Where you at now? Did you already grow? Or still waiting for the next chances to blow?
Whew! I'm guilty with this. I missed a lot of opportunity because of fear. I think negative and let it eat me till I lose my confidence. I have lots of what if's in my mind yet I never give it a try and that buried me for so long. I was locked in my comfort zone.
I thought I was safe here and won't get any problems, that I can do anything without the judgement of others but I was wrong. There are voices in my head that punching my nerve. I started to self-pity and it power's up my anxiety.
"Are you really contended with the life you had now?"
I can say that my life was good compared to others who's really experiencing the hard time, and I thank God for that. I'm very fortunate that he makes it easy for me and I realized it's because there is a purpose, not only for myself but also to my love ones.
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I'm thirsty for success yet I'm scared to taste it. Surely it is bitter but I know it will help me grow. Just like the Comedian Host, Steve Harvey said,
"Success is not a comfortable procedure. You gotta get comfortable to being uncomfortable if ever you want to be successful"
https://youtu.be/WYR-gxVcg6s
This is easy to say but hard to do. I need to be serious and put pressure and efforts if I want this borrowed life. I can make it more or much better to what I had now. I know its not going to be easy but it surely will be worthy.
And you know what? My decision of getting out of comfort zone will happen literally "out" soon because my friend called me last Thursday and said she will get me a job in Doha Qatar where she also works. Her position in their company is HR (Human Resources) where they're the ones who hire and deploy applicants. I already share this on noise.cash but I'll still write the whole story on my next article.
If you also feel demotivated and fear to try the uncomfortable things that will help you to success just reflect in the mirror, think and see yourself if you want that life you had now.
To us,
Let's get out! Let's be fearless!
Have You Tried To Borrow Money in Online Loan App?
*My brain get freeze while looking at the piece of paper. I get anxious and nervous. How I let this happen! What I'm going to do?! What if the caretaker or owner knocks now?*
*Self, stay still! Self just focus!*
After the stress I had with my brother in the last 3 weeks I'm already back to my track, grinding here. I'm active and hyper again thinking that everything is fine, that I didn't forget anything from those days that I'm not in myself.
My 1 week come back was very productive and my plans for my earnings is to save for my bills, well as usual. I check my wallet and saw it's still far from my target.
I stand up and check the calendar that is stick to my door when suddenly I get shivers. "It's already 20th of the month?! Oh God! Today is my due rent in my apartment" I look to my receipts to check the last time I paid and my eyes got widened, I didn't pay my rent last month because I spent all my money for my brother. I remember it all now.
I was staring the receipt for 10 minutes until I get back to my senses. "Why you let this happen self? Why did you forgot about it?!"
I opened my Bitcoin.com wallet again and feel pitied, I only have $40. It's not enough, because my house rent cost $70 monthly and I missed to pay last month so I need $100 more.
I have CPRX worth $60+ in Abra but still its not yet available to withdraw. I'm having headache because of my negligence.
What if the caretaker knocks tomorrow?
What if she asks for the payment and I can't provide it? What if she throw my things out? This all runs in my head. I'm nervous. It's so hard to live in a rental house especially when you don't have stable business or job.
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So I was thinking to loan money in online but I'm afraid I will get scam. I searched in playstore and read their reviews and this 3 loan app stand a quiet good review.
Tala
When I searched loan app in playstore this one leads. I often see this Tala loan app appears in advertisement and I can say it's quite convincing.
Look it's recent positive review.
Sounds good right? Then I also check the recent poor review.
This get me an idea that before they let you borrow they will ask a proof that you are working or has a source of income which I don't have because I closed my business already for the reason of out funds, except here in blogging. But I don't think they will believe me because it's crypto. We know it's unstable.
I searched another loan app and this Cashalo follows.
Cashalo
You will notice that the number of unsatisfied customer is many compared to Tala. I checked also their recent positive and negative reviews.
I was shocked to see the name of my friend. Her review was just last week ago. I believe in her negative thoughts about the app, so I won't choose this. I look to that billease she was talking and check the background.
Billease
I didn't go far to check the users review after I read the description of the app. Their service is for online transactions and I cannot cash it out.
(Sigh)
I thought some of my friends here if I can borrow to them but I'm hesitant to ask because I know they also in need. I ask my boyfriend if he have some extra, though I already know the answer because he's grandpa was on the hospital and I expected he is zero.
Have you tried to borrow money in online loan app? If you do, please comment your suggestions I'm desperate to borrow now. Huhu
I'm so down today and out of focus but I will try to get up to fix this problem
Your upvotes are well-appreciated 🥺❤️
Ruffa Help Me!
2 days ago I told myself that I'm going out of my comfort zone, that I will face my fear and connect with people who will help me to grow. I know it's going to be hard but I promise myself that there is no turning back. https://read.cash/@Kelzy/im-going-out-of-my-comfort-zone-1bba8eda
I journaled the changes I want to accomplish and it's quite challenging since I am lazy to move. First I want to clean my apartment, as in general decluttering. Oftentimes I'm not in the mood to do anything because of my surroundings. I wanted to arranged them but I always end up stressing myself how will I get it done. Whews! Second I want to change my looks and lifestyle. Not to go on a surgery but have some skincare and get fit to glow up. Wiii! I used to take care myself before but since we've been lockdown here for almost 2 years I don't care to whatever my looks. Third is to find a job. Actually I recently updated my resume and I will pass it to random company that I saw online once I accumulate enough money for my expected expenses when I get a call from them. I don't want to ask money to my mom for my expenses anymore because I can manage it on my own. Fourth is to start interact and get socialize with others physically. I locked myself 24/7 in my room since pandemic started. I seldom to go outside only if I will buy food, if boyfriend visit me or my mom has an errand to send. I don't find it boring and I love the silence here.
I know going out in comfort zone is surely difficult. If I want to grow I need to move but I don't think I'm ready enough to take the changes. (Sigh)
Earlier this afternoon, I went to remittance center to cash-in money in my E-wallet but they said GCASH was offline and the security told me to get back later. I was annoyed because I don't want to go outside once I get home.
I don't have a choice so I walk back home when suddenly someone shouts in familiar voice "Bebeeeee!" I stopped because I knew the owner of that voice. It's her. My classmate who also live in the building where my apartment located. We are neighbors but we don't see each other because her unit is on the 3rd floor while I, on the 1st floor.
"Bebe I miss you! *Hindi ka nagpapakita sakin a*. You're hiding from me." Then she hugged me. I was so shocked and ashamed because I haven't taken a bath yet. I'm afraid if she smelled how stinky I am. Huhu. I wanted to run but she was holding me tight. I responded "I'm just busy, hehe"
When she released me I asked where she will go, she said she went to the nail salon while pointing her nails in foot. They are beautiful while mine was dry and long. Gaaaad!
I saw in her eyes that she is very happy to see me and said "I miss you so much! You don't response to all my messages in Facebook messenger. You don't even visit in my room. You're door is always locked and I hear nothing everytime I knocked. Give me your number instead, I will call you! I will go to your room tomorrow."
I wanted to cry not because I was touched that she missed me but because I don't want to accept visitor. I feel intimated to her. She is very neat, organized and knows what she wants in life while me still unsure if I want to keep going.
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@Ruffa help me! My minds says. I suddenly think of her when I was in that situation. I know Ruffa also have this anxious feeling when getting around with people but I really wish that time that she will come and grab my hand to help me escape. Lol. I know she would definitely understand this feeling as she also have to face this when her friend comes back and wanted to see her.
It's so hard to refuse especially when that person was kind to you. Even I'm hesitant to give my number, I still did. Hays! Now I feel stress thinking what will I do tomorrow when she come. I know my friend won't insult me it's just that I'm not confident with my looks and what I can offer. Should I make an alibi now?
(Sigh)
Wish me luck!
His Mercies Never Come To An End
If I ask you to recite the 10 commandments of the Lord can you perfect it? And since you memorize it, did you abide it all?
The 10 Commandments
1. You shall have no others, gods, before Me.
2. You shall not make idols.
3. You shall not take the name of the LORD your God in vain.
4. Remember the Sabbath day to make it holy.
5. Honor your father and your mother.
6. You shall not murder.
7. You shall not commit adultery.
8. You shall not steal.
9. You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.
10. You shall not covet.
This is all the reminder of the Lord for us to avoid sinning yet we people forget and neglect about it.
I, myself, admit that I commit a lot of sins and whenever I do it I don't remember him. I ignore his word and pretend I don't know about it. I love to decide on my own and do the temporary things that make me happy and later remember him when I got into trouble.
"Promise I won't do it again just help me with this, I will do anything you want. I will obey you now Lord." This is my usual prayer whenever I badly needed him. In my heart I know he won't ignore me, that he will grant my prayer because he loves me and don't want to see me unhappy.
Then next day a miracle happened. My prayer was granted. I thank and praises him but after that I go back created a sin again and pretend that I don't tent to do it. I know I can't fool him because he can read our mind and heart.
I feel ashamed that's why I didn't come to him. I fix my problem alone. I do my own again and it get worst. He see me crying again and his heart was tearing. He can't take not to help me so he send other people to lift me back. I praise and thank that person without thinking it's him, the Lord that I ignore and forgot.
Why his heart is so big?! Why he still help even I'm hard-headed?! I don't deserve the kindness he gives because I'm a big sinner.
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Then I hear a whisper in my ear and it entered my mind, "Because I love you" My heart gets ache but at the same time feel relieved. I can't say anything but cry because of his efforts. His unconditional love saved me from harm. His mercies never expires.
Had you feel this too? When you are at the hard time and ashamed to ask help thinking he might reject you because of a lot sins you made but still he would take an action for you to be safe. He stand with his promise that he will be with you always.
Have faith and listen to your heart. Let him guide you so you won't go to the temptations that will put you on harm.
Just believe in him and pray.
I'm Going Out Of My Comfort Zone
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One of the common reasons introverted people don't want to get out of their zone is because they don't want to get hurt. They are aware of what's outside and think negatively in advance. The risk to lose is more dominant for them without thinking about the chances they can get if they will venture. If they continue to act like this they won't grow and suffer in the future.
I, myself can say guilty about this. I don't want to try new things even in the food because I'm afraid it taste not good and I might waste it. I always choose where I am accustomed to while my boyfriend contradicts and pushes me to ruin this thinking.
Just like yesterday, we went to the grocery to buy food stocks so I won't buy nearby my apartment because goods here are quite pricey and stores might close because it's already Holy Week. He picked this Instant Carbonara and I stopped him because I'm thinking it tastes bad. He said he already tried it and it was delicious, but I don't believe him. We almost fight because of it yet he still put one pack of it in our cart. It was cheap and I don't mind if I will pay for it I just don't want to waste money if I don't like the taste. It cost $0.23 and he paid for it for my peace.
"Just try this one. If you don't like it then don't buy it next time" he convinced. I don't have a choice it's already here.
Earlier today I tried it and my judgment was not right. It is so effing good! It's the real smell and taste of carbonara! Its creaminess was just exactly right. I now regret why I only have 1 pack. I should have listened.
This is also perfect if there are big toppings. You can add it to your choice.
It's already 3 hours since I ate this but I still taste its enjoyable flavor.
This made me realize that trying new things is not always bad. It might also surprise you.
I decided now to get out of my zone to face my fears. I want to learn and discover new knowledge that will help me to grow. I don't want to be locked and left here forever. I want to revive my buried dreams here in my comfort zone.
I wasn't like this before in fact I'm independent since I was 8. I managed myself on my own, cause my mom wasn't there for me and I lived with my relatives who don't treat me well. I told myself I will work hard to get out there and I made it. I stepped into college and financed my study believing that I will get a better life after I finish, then again I made it. I keep my dreams in my heart that someday I will succeed and all those people who belittle me will see.
I miss that fighting spirit of me, but now it sleeps for long. I want to wake it up to fulfill the dreams I left. There is still a chance to change. I'm still young and I should go wild. Wild to reach the life I want.
If you're like me who gets comfortable with what you have now but knows it was only temporary, this is the time for you to think seriously.
Recall the opportunity that passed because you get scared.
Think of your colleague who has a better life now because they tried.
Look at yourself in the mirror and ask if you're already contented with your life
Take an action now if you know you can make it much better
Do you believe that we humans are guarded by good and bad angels? That they whisper the decision we will take. Who do you want to follow?
The bad angel says you won't get hurt if you listen to him? But the good angel promises you will be healed when you fall and saved if you drown.
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Where Are Their Souls? : Be Careful To What You Wish For
The weather all day here in my country is gloomy even though it's already summer and my lazy soul enjoying the mood of procrastination when suddenly I realized that I shouldn't be rejoicing because some people are having a hard time right now. The gloomy weather here is caused by the typhoon Agaton where other places are affected. Houses were destroyed and some of their loved ones are missing because of the floods and landslides. I paused for a minute and pray for them. I prayed they can survive and surpass this challenge of life. That they shouldn't forget to call God.
I can't help but remember when I experience the super typhoon named Haiyan/Yolanda that destroy and killed lots of lives in Tacloban Leyte. Imagine their screams and cries asking for help to be saved but because of riskiness, they weren't able to rescue.
https://youtu.be/ocqn2FXWwbM
I lived in Southern Leyte before with my Uncle, my mom's brother, wherein the typhoon also hit our place. I was alone in the house at that time because Uncle wasn't there. He was destined far away because he is a soldier. His live-in partner is also not there so I manage everything alone.
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It was November 7, 2013, when our school declared that we don't have class because there is upcoming super typhoon by tomorrow. I, who is lazy to go to school was happy that there is no class and didn't think about what could possibly will happen. I am so immature that time and wished it will last to weeks so I can have a break in academics. Then the next day comes.
November 8, 2013. The sun is up and striking. Everything is fine and normal. I, meanwhile...
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*"Eh? Ito na yung super typhoon? Super init." Hahaha! (Is this the super typhoon? Super hot!) Hahaha!*
I laughed about it and said *"Mukhang babawiin nila suspension ngayon a" (I guess they will take back the class suspension now)*
Later in noon, I saw light rain starting to drizzle. I still think the news about the typhoon was a joke because the sun was there and I don't think it will going to pour. When suddenly the striking sun slowly turn to dark clouds and the raindrops started to get heavy. The wind blows strangely and I heard it scary sounds.
"Ahhhhhhh!" I screamed when suddenly the light died.
"Kelzy! Get out there! Come here at house!" My neighbor called. They are worried about me cause they know I stay alone in my Uncle's house.
After I got to their house the palm tree in our backyard fall down to the roof where my bedroom is located. I startled and cried. If they weren't called me I already die. My neighbors daughter watched the news on her mobile and we saw that in some places in Leyte the typhoon is getting stronger particularly in the Tacloban because the eye of the typhoon is there.
The weeks that I wished for class suspension in Southern Leyte turned to 4 months before we get back to normal while to the people of Tacloban until now they can't still move on from the nightmare they experience. They lost their love ones and they didn't get a chance to say goodbye and see their faces for one last time.
Since then whenever I feel comfortable in some thing or some situation I think first before saying it up. I regret and feel sorry about the wish I said before. It maybe a coincidence but I still feel guilty. I don't want to spill such selfishness words again.
After reading this, I hope you paused for a minute and give some prayers to our brothers and sisters who were battling in the midst now.
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Try This To Lose Weight In Just A Week
Blog : #155
Date Published : April 11, 2022
Howdy people? What's new here? I was outdated again for 3 days because of my expected visitor. You know red days for women. Even I don't want it to come, it will visit to clean the dirt inside of me. If only I can schedule it to yearly I will do it, but the consequences would follows: I will carry a baby for 9 months or I will get a complications. That would I don't want to happen.
Another reason why I'm not in the mood to write because I'm sad that my boyfriend didn't visit me. He said last week he'll come but suddenly he had another agenda. He will go on a bike ride with his friends and next day he will wash his clothes. I planned to cook Adobong Baboy and make a Coffee Jelly for him but it didn't happened. My mood suddenly changed when he messaged me that he's not sure if he can come. I just said that it's okay even I'm upset. I know he's not like me that introverted and don't want to get out in comfort zone. He needs to enjoy and have time for his self too. Also I don't want him to feel that I hinder his likes, cause he have a life.
Hehe. Sorry for so much rants. Let's go to the main topic!
Today I will share you the tea that helps me to lose weight in just a week. The Biofitea.
`Disclaimer: This article is not sponsored of their company. It's only my review when I tried their product.`
So last Tuesday my friend visit me and was shocked cause she thought that I was pregnant. Of course I'm not but I seem like because of my bloated stomach.
"I thought you do fasting?" she ask.
"I am but no changes"
"I think you have problem in digestion Wait I will buy something for you."
When she come back she hand me this tea. She said it works on her and might works on me too. She's fat before when we met in 1st year in college and get slim on vacation. She mention it before but I forgot about it.
"Drink this in the evening and all the food you eat in the day will flush away. Do some jogs too it will help your tummy get fit slowly."
Without hesitation I pour a hot water to the tea and drink it when not so hot. Later in the afternoon, my friend bid a goodbye and said,"Message me when it starts to effect." I ask what she mean but she just laugh.
Hours later my tummy gets rumbled and I felt it will fire out. I ran quickly to the toilet and get ready for the bomb.
And then it explode! Hahaha.
That day, I feel my intestine will come out too. Phew! I stayed 20 minutes sitting in the bowl waiting for my tummy to calm. I feel so weak when I stand up. All my energy was drained because of that big explosion. I lay down on bed and didn't notice I fell asleep.
I had a long rest and when I wake up I feel hungry. So I changed clothes and went outside to buy food but when I was already nearby the store, my tummy rumbled again. I walked quickly back to home cause I feel any moment it will come out. When I already sit to the bowl, another explosion happened and it repeated 6th times that day. I messaged my friend and told her I feel I'm gonna die. She laughed and said "You die hot now".
(Face palm) Tsk! That crazy girl!
The next day my bloated stomach deflated. I feel all the food that stuck there for long was already flush out. I checked my phone and saw the chat of my friend and she said "Drink warm water when you wake up and do some jogs. Don't drink that tea now. Just do it 2-3 times a week. " I followed her and continued it for 5 days and look the results.
**From this**
**To this**
I already see and feel the results. Even I eat a lot I can now flush it right away. I also add jog for 20 minutes daily to slowly burn my fats and get totally fit. I didn't depend all to Biofitea because I read that too much laxative can also result a bad effects to our body. So before trying this do some research first.
By the way you can buy Biofitea in any drugstores without prescriptions. And the best time to drink it is when you're at home because you will surely stay in the toilet for a whole day. Haha.
Hope this helps. Thanks for reading! :)
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It's My Due Birth
I told myself before that I don't want to get pregnant if I don't have enough savings, plus I want to help my mom first to get a house and my siblings to finish their studies. I have a lot of plans last year when I graduated but they slowly vanished when I missed my period last July 2021.
I thought it will be delayed that's why I just ignore it but 1 month already passed it still didn't come. I suddenly feel nervous and think of a lot of scenarios.
*I'm dead! For sure mom will be disappointed!*
*How would I raise my child? What life will await us?*
*If I told my boyfriend about this, would he take the responsibility? Though he says he will before because it hasn't happened yet, now that it's here would he still do it? what if not? What will I gonna do?*
Lots of thoughts run to me and I found myself crying. I deserve this because I'm hard-headed and aggressive and didn't think about the outcome of my action. It's only me to blame.
After an hour of overthinking, I decided to go outside to buy a pregnancy test kit to know the result. I'm praying while walking toward the pharmacy, hoping that there is still no child in my tummy.
When I got home I quickly urine to it and wait for the result.
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It's POSITIVE!
Fast forward.
It's my due birth this month and I'm afraid how will I deliver it safely. Look how big my tummy now.
She's kicking.
Oops!
**Happy April Fools! Haha**
If your daily reader of mine, of course you know at the very beginning its not true. Haha. I still don't want to get pregnant because I'm not yet physically, emotionally, and financially prepared. The experience I had taking care and giving the needs of my cats is already quite difficult what more if it's a real child. Haha.
Me and my partner agreed that we'll avoid or control ourselves about it because we don't want our future child to look "*kawawa"* pitiable if we can't give his/her needs. I know the feeling and I don't want my child to experience it. Also we want to enjoy our young days before deciding to have a family. One reason why married people separated because one of them are not yet tired in their young life. We want us to be more matured when entering a married life.
We have only been in a relationship for 2 years and many things will possibly can happen. I just prayed that no matter how strong the storm come to us, we still stick to our promise, because I don't want nobody else. Yieeee! Haha.
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Remind Yourself Why You Need To Be Productive
Blog : #153
Date Published : April 6, 2022
Do you get annoyed with yourself when you plan something and you failed to accomplish it? You promised that you will be productive today but your mind and body won't cooperate. Day runs fast and night comes again, you plan for tomorrow and the same routine happens.
You want to scold yourself for being so lazy. You believed that there is plenty of time and no need to rush things, that you can do it later and still get it done.
Days passed and you get used to it. You're enjoying your stress-free moments when suddenly you received an update that your colleague or friend earn a huge amount while you were busy procrastinating. You feel envy and want to get back but you are outdated and feel a mental block. You don't know where to begin and your time runs again.
Tick-tock, tick-tock! ⏰
Hey, brain! Let's do this!
Tick-tock, tick-tock! ⏰
Focus on me!
Tick-tock, tick-tock! ⏰
Please, I want to get back!
The more you force to think, the more you get headache. Words gets ramble and your having hard time to connect it. Ideas pops but can't let them out. Your brain is totally in pain, drained.
When you're experiencing this now, don't worry, you can get back on your track without pushing yourself hard. Calm your self first and evaluate what you want to achieve. Everything will alright when you have a peace of mind.
Know always your "Why?"
We always have a reason why we strive so hard. It's either for our family or for ourselves. You have that plan before you lost your track and to get it back you should remember your "Why's".
Now your thinking but can't elaborate what to say, to help you with that, get a piece of paper and a pen. Write all the running thoughts inside your head and later on read it.
*I want to hustle because I want to help my parents.*
*I want to hustle because I want to buy this thing for myself.*
*I want to hustle because this is once in a lifetime opportunity.*
See? All your reasons will help you to live and being productive is the key to grow. You only need to reset your buggy mind so it will function smoothly back.
When you think your action is already foul and you know your not happy, rid it right away, because the longer you stay the more it will destroy you.
We can't avoid procrastination but we can balance it by disciplining ourselves.
What we think is what our body do so when you decide to procrastinate expect what you will lose.
If you are having hard a time to get back , I hope this article helps you.
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A Warm Hug From My Father
I'm so weak lately and lost interest in everything. My heart is empty and also can't feel anything. I mean I feel it but I don't want to face it. I evaluate myself last night why I act like this and I realize that it's because I was too comfortable in my zone that I don't want to be get disturbed or feel in trouble.
I live alone and no one wakes me up in the morning to do the chores. No one pressuring me to find a job. No one controls me to everything I do and last, no one will get mad if I make a mistake. I'm so comfortable with this state but still can't escape the stress.
I tackle this in my past article that since my brother went here I started to changed, from a daily hustler to a lazy pig. I eat, sleep and repeat for 2 weeks because of stress. My savings in my wallet is slowly depleting and you won't believe, as of now I only have $1.75.
I have 0.8 BCH or $299 last March 16 in my wallet and I spent most of it to my brother just to have back my space and peace I let him move out to other house. I bought him things he will use to the dorm he would stay. Only 0.4 BCH or $75 left in me and the half of it I use to pay for my apartment. I spent the remaining for my food for 2 weeks till it gone to $1.75. I didn't expose myself in crypto world and let myself procrastinate. I entertain myself watching videos on different socials and it result me broke now.
Even nothing left I didn't mind. I said I will let things to happen but deep in me it's already heavy. I want to open it but to who? To Mom? To boyfriend? No! I don't want them to get stress. To my father? I already share it here that I don't have news from him and if I got I will not try to have communication with him because he might hurt me just like what he did before cause he is abusive father.
I'm watching news in YouTube in the middle of night when suddenly I remember him. It seems someone whispher to my ears and say, "Tell it to God". I guess it is my guardian angel. I paused and think if when is the last time I pray deeply? When is the last time I visit his house? And when is the last time I heard his word?
I would be honest that I often ignore him and forgot to thank the blessings he gives. I always do my own and put him behind. I feel guilty and bad.
I search for online mass and listen to his word from his mediator. This is Tagalog mass and the message touch my heart.
https://youtu.be/V3TkAXqI0iM
After watching this video I feel his presence. I cried and felt that he hugged me. All the words sinks in me and I'm comforted. I forgot that I have father who loves me so much, that he always guarding me from harm and giving me my needs and wants. I forgot that he never neglected me not even once, that he always put me first even I put him behind. He never leaves I just forgotten to call him.
I fired up! I suddenly remember the things I want in life, my goals and dreams why I need to hustle hard. His touch makes my mindset get back on track.
I sleep with tears and with joy in heart knowing that I'm not alone, that I shouldn't be worried cause he heard all the burdens inside of me even I didn't spill it out.
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"I'm with you always" - God.
If you feel lost in the dark, call God, he will show you the way and lead you to the light.
Amen.
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I'm Addicted To
Blog : #151
Date Published : April 4, 2022
I don't know if you notice, but I'm quite not active here. I'm lost in my track since I faced a problem last month and honestly, I'm having a hard time getting back. My mind was empty, and I can't think what to blog.
My routine these past 2 weeks was very unproductive. I woke up at 10 AM, eat lunch at 2 PM while watching random videos on Facebook, Tiktok, and Youtube, get rest when I feel drowsy, and woke up in the middle of the night to eat and watch videos again till morning.
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My brain says "Promise I will start to write after this one last video" but my mind oppose and says "Browse more! Don't worry those blogging sites will not be gone".
It's a dream come true if this platform will stay forever hehe and I know many wishes for it to happen. But if I continue being lazy and don't push to get back, this opportunity will run away from me and I'm afraid I will be kicked out.
Tsk! I regret and imagine the amount I would earn by now if I didn't procrastinate and drown myself watching nonsense videos. Hays! I waste a lot of time.
I remember how passionate I am when I'm starting here. The fire in me is burning and I have a lots of goals in my list. One is to become a writer who gets more views and interaction, well you know who they are. Their consistency makes them known by everyone and they deserve the amount they earn. I told myself I want to be like them and I will be like them soon, cross finger! But my progress is like a turtle and there's no one to blame, except me.
Just now, I saw that I'm already a one year user of this platform but I only have a few followers, unlike my other peer who started the same time with me, they are growing and their account is booming.
I'm glad that even I'm not active blogging here, this people still stays in my block and always renew their sponsorship. Thank you so much guys! <3
Arrrrgggggh! I want to hit my head in the wall, hoping my brain and mind reconcile so that I can get back into blogging cause right now I'm starting to get annoyed and want to open my Youtube app. It's so tempting and my bed is calling me to lay down and start to watch.
Do you know what I always watched?
https://youtu.be/k-l9AxCEfN8
I'm addicted to...
Watching news.
Is this sign of aging? Lol. I usually choose to watch 6 to 8 years ago uploaded news about kidnapping, robbery, massacre and corruption in government. Life outside our home before is very scary. Bad people didn't afraid to the officer of the law because they are also evil doers. Thanks to President Duterte who sit last 2016 and lead the Philippines, the crime gets lessen and his country people somehow feel safe, much better from before's administration.
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He is known to be a punisher and many didn't like his way of leading the country but for me and to some people who don't want to be oppressed and be victimized of violence wants him to stay long to be the President. Sadly his term is finally over and he is near to give his position to the next elected president after the election on May 9. I just hope the one who will take the lead for another 6 years in our country will have the same vision just like Mr. Duterte cause for me he is the best president in my 25 years of existence ❤
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Sorry I get carried away hehe, do I look like patriotic now? Hehe. I don't care about the world before but I guess I'm maturing now.
By the way, I'm still not in my track and I'm afraid I will watch videos again after writing this. Hope you will leave a hard motivation for me to get back. I know the last decision will still comes from me, but your advice can help and I will highly appreciate it. Thanks in advance!
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Alarmy (Sleep if you can)
Blog : #149
Date Published: March 12, 2022
I always want to be productive in the morning but can't do it because I always sleep late. When the lazy soul is in me, my routine is:
Woke up at 11 AM ➝ Eat brunch ➝ Feel sleepy ➝ Sleep in the afternoon - Woke up 7 PM ➝ Watch Youtube ➝ Write article here at 10 PM ➝ Published it in 1 AM ➝ Watch Youtube till my eyes feel sleepy ➝ Then next morning repeats.
What a good life right? But not suited to me who needs a lot of side hustle to live.
Yesterday, Oh I mean earlier because I'm still up at 3 AM I decided to quit this habit and start to wake up early so I can grind more. But I said I'm fooling myself again because I will just dismiss it and sleep back haha then I remember the alarm clock that I used when I was in college, the Alarmy app.
Are you ready for successful morning?
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Alarmy app is designed for log sleeper like me. Haha. This helps me to get up very early before because I always enter school late. Well, I have my reason. I enter school in the morning and go to work in the afternoon till evening.
Its wake up alarm feature is so annoying that you don't have a choice but to get up cause you need to accomplish the mission you set to make it stop, well unless you will turn off your phone, but when you open it again it will still ringing loud that even you lower it down it will still sound.
Here's what it looks like.
Alarm feature - The Mission
This category of the mission is to wake up your brain.
Memory
You need to remember the tiles that show up and tap to stop the alarm.
Typing
You need to type the phrases shown to dismiss your alarm. The longer the phrase the more your brain will function to wake up.
Math
I guess I don't need to explain this up. Hahaha. Pick up the easy one if you choose this option cause if you sudden swipe the super hard and save it for sure you will just let your alarm ring forever lol
Want to wake up your body to get up? You might like this mission
Steps
When you set this mission you need to get up and take a step to dismiss it. You can choose up to 990 steps if you want but remember it will not stop ringing until you finish it. Haha
QR/Barcode
This one is easy and I choose this mission before until I misplaced the barcode that I use. My cousin laughed so hard seeing me crying finding that code cause my phone won't stop ringing. Huhu. So if you choose this mission make sure you won't lose the code. Haha
Shake
The easier of all. You can choose 5-995 shakes. The more shake the more it will help you to completely awake.
This is the same as QR/Barcode mission. You need to capture the photo in the same position. Make sure the photo you choose was steady and nothing will change.
Squat
And last but not the least, the Squat. You can choose 5-990 squats if you want hehe. It will not count down if you don't do it properly and take note you can't uninstall it when still alarming, so choose the easy option if you're not ready or preview first the mission to test if it's working.
If you want to wake up from the truth that your crush didn't like you, this is the best alarm for you. Try it! Haha.
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Hope this helps for those who sleep heavy like me hehe XD
Thanks for reading! :)
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Blog : #148
Topic : Rants
Date Published : March 11, 2022
Whew! My tummy is better now after I vomited the crispy spicy minced pork together with onions, chili, seasoned with calamansi and mayo or we called Sisig in my country that I eat yesterday. It's my favorite and I crave it for a long but now hate it. I feel all the oil is floating in my tummy. I almost throw up my intestine and ~~promised~~ not to eat pork again. Shhh! Don't mind the promise because I'm just kidding. Haha. I will still eat pork but not again this month.
I was so stressed yesterday with the news told by my mother about my gay brother. He fought mom and tell hurtful words just because she can't give what he demands. How could he?! He's supposed to defend mom from people who will hurt her but he's the one who's doing it! He's so unbelievable!
He keeps bringing back all the sad experiences he had which are caused also by him and blames mom for everything. Yes, Mom made a mistake for leaving us before but she's filling it up for us now and my brother abusing it. Every time he wants something it needs to be followed. Who is he? Son of rich? He complains a lot and says he's unfortunate to be born to an irresponsible parent. Geez! If only he's here I will surely slap him!
I don't hate gays but I hate the attitude of my brother. I pity him and understand where those emotions coming from but hello?! He's already 22 and he should stand on his own!
He blames mom because he was still not graduated. He says he should be in college right now if only he has a responsible mom. He blames his life on others where the truth is, he's the one who makes it miserable.
I graduated from high school when I was 16 and work for 5 years to save money to enroll in college. I was 21 at that time. I didn't complain and accepted things that already happened. I told him that we should help each other but he is very lazy to cooperate. He went to his godmother and stay there but didn't last because he complains that they always sent him an errand. He went to the province and stays in the house of the sister of our grandfather and still rant because he doesn't want to be sent an errand. I remember last year our grandmother called mom saying that my gay brother is drunk and gets wild. He has a lot of vices and is very materialistic. He's different from other gays that I have known.
Now he demands to my mom that he wants to rent an apartment cause he will come back to Manila. Mom said to come to me but he doesn't want to stay with me cause he will get sermons every day. He talks a lot and says hurtful words to mom.
Now, mom is very stressed in her work. She can't focus on taking care of her patient. She said she feel dizzy cause she can't sleep last night. Hays! If you want a sibling, please take my brother! He's all free.
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