#MyInsecurities: My Beautiful Imperfection
Date: December 30, 2021A blessed Thursday read.cash citizens❣️ Does everyone excitement tomorrow's eve celebration? Co'z here in us we are all excited especially my nieces. Tomorrow is the last day of 2021 and I know for sure we are all ready to welcome the year 2022 with more courage and extra grinding. Let us keep hitting the rock❣️.
As 2021 ends, I would like to end my insecurities that I've been fighting for this year. I always told myself that "I am already overcome with this' ' but the society voices keep reminding me of my flaws and imperfections. I love and accept who I am but am still affected by those criticisms. It opens up the door of insecurities that I buried.
Firstly, having a flat cute nose not like others who has pointed and narrow nose or even proud nose co'z mine is always ashamed, lol. I felt envy to those people who has proud nose especially when they wear eyeglass or sunglass. May masasabi na talaga eh hahaha. That picture above took after one of my classmate say "dili masabitan ug shades ang imong ilong (laugh)" (Glasses will not be hang into your nose) I don't know tama ba ang translate hahaha. He didn't told me direct to the point but his the content speak louder and it hurts. Is it wrong to have this kind of nose? Surely it isn't because I just inherit my parent's attributes and no one has the fault of having a flat nose. My seatmate took a picture using my phone without my knowledge.
After that incident, I lost confidence but slowly I cope with it by accepting and loving my nose co'z appreciating the beauty of it makes my imperfections beautiful. Later on, I found that my nose suits and emphasize my beautiful smile.
Second, being chubby. Chubby is not the stand of physical appearance in society. Luckily, I was never bullied in school because they know that I will fight back. I started gaining weight after my Papa's death to escape the reality of accepting and dwelling on the painful situation of our lives. I divert my attention to food. I ate more junk foods, sweets and chocolates and less vegetables. I feel ashamed participating in dancing or anything that can show my chubbiness. Thanks to Mama's genes for having a small waistline. I am chubby, small, curvy, and self -proclaimed hahaha.
I always plan to go on a diet because recently they always told me "you're too chubby" but Mama's is the hindrance because the moment I started she would always assure to have delicious viands and even brought junk foods, biscuits and chocolate that I always ended up forgetting diet hahaha. Gosh, food is life talaga.
Lastly, having thick thighs. Wanting the pants but then I couldn't wear it because I didn't fit in my thighs. All my pants are stretchable. I always have rashes because my thighs are touching each other. I think this thick thighs are in my genes because all my sisters having this also hahaha hindi ako nag-iisa. Buying shorts or pants first time I check is the thigh part because when it fits to me, I will buy it immediately. Way back in Grade 8, one of my teachers encouraged me to join the majorette group but I refused because we cannot afford the expenses from costume to boots. I am not confident enough to imagine myself wearing the short short skirt hahaha.
Closing thought
The moment we embrace our imperfection is the moment we become more beautiful not just in our sight but also in others. It reflects the way we handle it because when we acknowledge it we make sure to make it beautiful. We must love and accept our flaws first before others can. Always be the standard of our beauty. My imperfections make me beautiful.
This is my prompt entry about insecurities initiated by @Theblackdoll . If you want to join just spank me for the details.
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Our biggest critic is ourselves. We are only at war with ourselves because of how we compare ourselves to others. At the end of the day, if there are things we can change, then do something about it. Otherwise, learn to accept what and who we are.