I jumped
I was 21 years old and young enough to make a quick decision. In fact, it was not a decision. It was an absence of rational thinking and a rare moment of taking dangerous risks in my life. A moment of courage or a moment of weakness, but certainly a moment that I often remember when I need to make a decision.
Adriatic coast in Montenegro and high rock. Brave men jumped off that high rock to impress their girlfriends. I don't know if I wanted to impress myself or just enjoy the beautiful view from the rock, but I climbed the rock.
I always loved to look into the distance. When you look into the distance you see unlimited space in the palm of your hand and feel as if the whole world is yours. An unexplored space at your disposal. One of the most beautiful feelings I have ever experienced.
Now I’m sure I climbed the rock for the view, because I have never been brave. I am afraid of everything, dogs, wars, diseases, etc. I wasn't brave enough to jump off that high rock. It was dangerous. I don't even know how I got there but I was there. I repeated to myself “take me back” but I was still standing there.
Some guys climbed up and were about to jump. I was also supposed to be there to jump. My friends went shopping and I just wanted to take a walk by the sea. But I actually got there. At the top of a high, dangerous rock.
The only thing I've never been afraid of in my life is water. I am good at swimming and I feel safe in the water. That’s probably the thing that led me to the decision to jump.
One of the guys asked me if I was going to jump and I said yes. That “yes” scared me but I decided to do it quickly. I was always afraid of risk, but curiosity overcomes me.
I jumped.
I remember a brief moment in the air, pressure in my ears, strong heartbeat and a blow of water in my face. And finally relief.
This moment had a great psychological effect on decision making in my life. Every time I find it hard to make a decision, I remember the moment I jumped and suddenly everything becomes easy. Sometimes it is good in life to do something that goes beyond what we believe is within our capabilities. In this way we surpass ourselves. We become stronger and more ready to make bold decisions.
From the moment I jumped, I look at every obstacle as something I have to overcome. There are no invincible obstacles, because we are stronger than we think we are.
I jumped once. I know I will jump again.
Thank you very much for reading.
Article is original and mine, based on my personal experience.
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Yes! We can do it over and over again.. if it means fighting and surviving, why not?