This Is Why I Avoid Batch Reunions
Days ago, a college classmate chatted me through facebook messenger. He told me he's going home from abroad for a vacation. He's a close friend of mine too. He's one of my closest. And so, we planned to meet each other as soon as he sets his foot back in the province.
However, just last night when one of our classmates initiated a group video call on Facebook messenger. I actually posted my sentiments about this on noise.cash yesterday. As usual, I just watched my phone vibrated until it ended. I muted the notifications of the created group after.
I sent a personal message on Neil, the one who's from abroad and asked what's with the sudden group video call. It turns out that they're planning to get together this 21st of April. If you are from my province, you are fully aware of why March and April are the most exciting months of the year. It is because, we go through a month long celebration of Kaamulan festival.
My classmates agreed to get together on that date and as always, I don't feel like attending social gatherings.
I avoid batch reunions not because of the stories we would look back and laugh at the hilarious moments we've had in college. It's fun looking back how immature we were back then.
It's nice to remember how stressed we were because of the minor subjects acting as if they're our major subjects. These subjects demand too much of our time but we had no choice but to comply or else we'll be marked failed.
I avoid batch reunions not because of the past issues I had with my classmates. If there's any, I don't think it's worthy to bring it back unless it was a life changing situation that happened before. I'm pretty sure if there was, it was just out of immaturity back in the days. We were young and reckless. So it's not something serious.
I avoid batch reunions because
I'm shy. A common scenario of batch reunions is the people talking about their social status. A lot of them would share how big of achievements they have in their belts, how many countries they have been to, how influential they are to their community, and how married life has been for them.
Facebook has been a source of my insecurity ever since I stopped working. That's the main reason why I rarely open my account. I decided to because what I mostly see is my classmates enjoying their lives, making their dreams come true, and having the best days of their lives.
Don't compare yourself to others
Yeah, I get that. We have our own timelines in our lives. One's chapter 26 may be another's chapter 3 and their chapter 50 may be my 1st. That's how dynamic life is. It's mysterious.
But the realist and pessimist sides of me are screaming. That's gaslighting to me and I should face the reality that I'm too far from what they have become. And from there, I pity myself. I know that life is not a competition but well, societal expectations, always have something to say about each and everyone's status.
I feel so small. It seems like there's nothing I can share to them. I am alone and my life is stagnant.
Then again, there's beauty in uncertainty.
That's how mysterious life is. It takes you everywhere but it's up to you how to handle such circumstances. Every day, it is a constant battle of questioning what my purpose really is. It's hard for me to keep the faith that everything's gonna be okay because nothing's happening in reality.
As human as I am, I'm vulnerable when it comes to believing in myself that I can do it. I only do when situations have been proven already. So yeah, this is why I avoid batch reunions.
Are you fond of batch reunions? Because I've never been into one ever, only with the closest people I know.
Thanks for reading.
Keep safe everyone!
Natry ko na makipag reunion one time. After nun I decided na to join na. Wala naman pangit na ngyari nun but Same reason ng sayo. Haha. Habang tumatanda ako I prefer having small talks or chit chat naman sa mga a few people na lng then I prefer na din na mag rest na lng sa bahay then labas pahangin