Midnight thoughts
I don't plan to post here tonight but let me divert my feelings. Actually, while I'm writing this, my anxiety is attacking me, my body is shaking badly and my chest is pounding because of what is currently happening at home. I won't talk about the problem going on here, I still prefer to keep it private. We have different opinion in every situation that sometimes make it even worse. It will never be solved if many other people intervene. So to distract my mind from whatever is causing me anxiety right now, I chose to write here.
Because I can't really think of any content, my topic for now is our monthly water and electricity bills.
As the weather is so hot now because it's summer, it is expected that the bill will be really big. We can't avoid not turning on the electric fan or AC especially every noon and night which is the reason for the increase in bills.
I read a meme, it says that this summer there are two possible reasons for our death, first, we might die from too much heat, second, we might die from our excessive electricity and water bills.
Our electricity bill has almost reached Seven Thousand Pesos or almost 127.40 USD . We don't have air conditioning, we only have an electric fan, TV and refrigerator. We rarely open the refrigerator because we save electricity, so we were surprised at the amount we need to pay. The service of the electric utility company here in our area is also not good. The brownout is almost every week.
This is the amount we need to pay for our water consumption. You can see that it has reached more than 1,500 pesos or 27.04 USD. We also save on water usage. Instead of always getting water from the faucet, we use the neighbor's water pump or *poso/gripong de bomba* for free.
It is not possible to take drinking water from the *poso* because it is quite slimy. It can only be used for washing colored clothes and bathing.
When it comes to the water service, I can say that it's good, it's just too expensive for people like us who belong to indigent families.
Our problem now is where to find money for these bills. This is not the only problem we have but other necessities that need to be prioritized such as food, tuition, and sometimes unexpected emergency cases, and many more. There are times when money is so tight that you're not sure if you'll be able to pay before the due date passes.
Money is a real problem for everyone. Maybe if we all had money, we wouldn't be too distracted by our other problems in life. Even if you have family problems, if you only have money, you can unwind somewhere else to relax your mind and body. Because going to different places to relax is not only a *wants* nowadays but also a way to reduce stress in life so that you can think more clearly for you to properly handle the problems you are going through. Well, if you are having problems with this simple expenses, can you even think of spending even a little to have fun in another place? I think no, instead, you become more practical, you would rather just pay these bills than make the problem worse.
Have a good night sleep everyone.
Thank you for reading!
@Reclusexantho
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Toxic positivity
It's annoying when people often say and insist motivational words as if you have no right to feel negative emotions. We are human and its okay to feel different emotions depending on the situation or on what we are going through in life. I don't think this mindset is applicable for those who are suffering from depression and anxiety. Toxic positivity will trigger their emotions. They will start comparing themselves to yours to the point where they themselves will feel more weak and worthless. It doesn't help, it might rather make things worse.
Though it has good intentions but there are times when it doesn't really help. Yes it can be a good idea for a short while. Suppressed emotions become bigger and less significant as they remain unprocessed.
There are times when other people just need someone to listen and feel your presence. You don't need to preach to them what to do because they already know it but aren't ready to process their emotions.
It also takes time for you to better understand why you are experiencing this kind of thing. People's feelings do not change automatically. There are stages that are needed to forget the reason why you feel that way. Paying attention and processing your emotion as they come and go may help you better understand yourself, and those around you.
Examples of toxic positivity that we often hear
I DID IT, SO CAN YOU
-We have individual differences so even if we say that you have been through the same thing but then we have our own way of processing our emotions in each situation, it may work for you but not for others. This is the reason why I avoid sharing my personal problems to others for they will surely compare me to them.
JUST STOP BEING SAD
-We always want to be happy but there are instances that even if we want to but we can't because of so many circumstances. How can you be happy if you are suffering from depression? How can you be happy if you lost someone you dear so much? How can you be happy if you don't have the things you need? It's very hard, really. It's okay and valid to feel sad to the things that don't go your way.
FAILURE IS NEVER AN OPTION
-Well its really good to hear this kind of line, it somehow motivates other people. But it can be a reason for some to never try something for they are afraid of failure. Failure is always part of our life. From what I read in some article, fail means first attempt in learning.
JUST BE POSITVE
-There's nothing wrong with this motivational words, but it depends on how you say it. If someone said that they are tired of their situation let them be, acknowledge their emotions. Don't pressure them with your so called positive words, validate and understand their feelings that it may be difficult to them. Do not pressure them in moving on too fast.
Do you have anything to add to this toxic positivity? Tapusin ko na agad haha. Tara maglunch na muna.
Thank you for reading!
@Reclusexantho
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I will always choose to be good
"When you are mature, you don't hurt other people for their wrongdoings, you accept the reality and take different path, a path of healing and moving on." I just read this statement before and I agree with it. I just remember someone with this kind of mindset. Even though we don't talk anymore, but every thing he said and advice stays in my mind. He is the person I can't just forget as long as I live. A very humble person I met. He will first explain his side calmly, and will be silent once he has made his point.
Back then I felt so bad when someone did something wrong to me, I thought I couldn't forget it. But as time went on, I realized that how we deal with each situation tests us to become a better person, it's for our personal growth.
The other day, my nephew's mother chatted with me. She left her children with us and she hasn't shown up for almost four years. I don't know where she is now but based on her post she has her new baby now. She did a lot of bad things against us, especially to her children. But instead of scolding her, I chose to talk to her properly. She asked about her sons and I sent some of their pictures because I know how she missed them.
I chose to understand her choice in life although it was really wrong. We can't bring back the past, so why prolong the grudge. She is still the mother and she has the right to them. We will let her visit and catch up with her children. But if the day comes when she want to takes back her children, we will not allow it. She doesn't have to worry because we always provide all the needs of her children here. Anyway, she probably has no intention of taking the children because she does not have the ability to take care of them. She intended to leave her children here with us because she was sure that they would have a good life here.
Thank you for reading!
@Reclusexantho
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She reacted to my facebook post
My facebook account used to be private to avoid people who like to interfere to my life, and I hate that. But since reels is now trending, I returned it to public, of course for me to have views on my posted videos.
I just use social media as pastime to distract my brain from anxiety, stress and depression. Yes, I feel what I mentioned even though I seem happy with every post I make. I prefer positive posts, funny and inspiring videos. I avoid seeing and commenting when there is a disagreement on social media.
Whenever they hit me with an issue on social media, I just let it go. I don't care even if they judge me because I believe that what other people say against you becomes a reflection of their personality. Even if I'm slandered or made into a story on their post, I will not lower myself just to post back and fight. It's where you get to know the real people around you, whoever believes right away is the one who can't be trusted. Those who truly care will find the truth first before interfering.
I don't speak or post bad against other people even if they are really guilty. There will be no good results if you publicize it, the tendency is that other people will just interfere to your problem even if they don't know the real and whole story.
I don't have a habit of blocking people even if I still have the grudge against them. I just let that feeling fade over time because I know it doesn't last forever.
Anyway, last night I noticed that "she" reacted to one of the videos I posted. The person I'm talking about is someone I didn't expect because she hadn't shown up for a long time for she knew to herself that she was guilty. She is the mother of my nephews that she abandoned for her own sake. His youngest son was only few months old when she left him. She said that she was going abroad to help her family. We covered all her expenses, we even got into dept just for her papers and other necessity to leave the country.
She never sent money to her sons here when she was in abroad. According to her, her mother is sick so she always sends the money there. But later, we found out that she was just lying. One of her aunts felt guilty and told us the truth that she was not sending money to her parents because she was spending money on something else.
She often posted against us before and became the source of rumors here in our barangay. Our neighbours looked down on us because of her malicious posts, but the truth is that she is the one who is doing something wrong.
As I stalked to her account, I found out that she has her new baby. Maybe she is also ashamed of what she did but she just can't admit her mistake. I know that deep in her heart she is sorry. I'm sure she misses her children she left with us but she is too shy to ask. All she does is stalk us so she can get news about them.
The post she reacted to last night was a video of her son. A mother is a mother. Will make a way just to get updates to his children. I heard that she used to chat with our neighbors to catch up about her children . There was a time when my nephew went out and was called by the neighbor, it was because the mother asked to see her son through a video call. She is ashamed to call us directly because she is guilty.
Post Note
It's April 20,2023.
How are you all? I have asked this question again and again here in this platform, and I hope your answer is always in good condition.
Just want to thank those who read and leave comments.
@Reclusexantho
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The past
Are you one of those who like to avoid people who always pay attention to you? You think you're just being tripped up because you're so quiet? Well, I have that kind of attitude. I am too aloof to make friends of anyone. I'm not that friendly, but I assure you that I'm not a bad person.
Anyway, I suddenly remembered someone who never get tired of greeting me before. It was to late before I realized that he was actually flirting with me then, it's been so many years haha. I just laugh as I remembered it. Hmm I just want to tell my story here, so let me relive the past haha.
There was one person who always paid attention to me almost my entire high school life. He used to be popular at school because of his talent, he sang and danced well. In fact they formed a group of dancers. Their group became famous here in our City before. Because he's famous, I always think he's arrogant.
He is in the same batch as my brother. They are two years ahead of me, meaning I am in my first year, they are in their third year. He doesn't know my name so he calls me by my last name. He said that his batchmate looked so much like me, he assumed that it was my brother. When he found out that it was actually my brother, from then on he always called me by my last name.
From my first year until he graduated from high school, he never got tired of greeting me whenever he saw me, but I never made friends with him. I am not comfortable to make friends especially to boys. I only have two girl friends back then.
I was in my third year and he had finished high school. But during my two years left in high school, he still didn't stop paying attention to me. Every time I pass by him, he always calls me. I just noticed, he was really looking forward to the time we went home. He always waits for us to pass by.
After I graduated high school, I just found out that he didn't go to college anymore. I met him when I was in college, but he seemed too shy to greet me. Because I'm more shy, I didn't greet him either. I didn't even bother to find out about him because I felt like he didn't want to talk to me anymore.
They had a group chat with their batch mates, including my brother. My brother said they were planning to have a reunion but it didn't happen. They have their own priorities so even the reunion ended up being just a plan.
In 2018, my brother left us. And since my brother died, I also completely lost updates on his batch mates, especially about him.
But I am very grateful to my brother's batch mates because during the time he was confined, they all contributed to our hospital expenses. They all reached out to help us.
That's it for now. Its already 12:56AM here. It's time to say good night or good mornight. ☺️
Thank you for reading.
@Reclusexantho
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Sudden Death
How will you feel when you know that your life will not last long? Will you feel fear and ask Him why? Or rather choose to be happy with the rest of your days on earth?
One of my acquaintances died last Thursday due to leukemia. I know her for she always visits my brother's house with her two children. She used to work with my sister-in-law in a pharmacy. We became friends because she was often at home too. You'd think she wasn't sick because she was so cheerful.
I have not noticed her coming and visiting my brother's house this past weeks. I heard that she had plans to go to abroad, so I thought she might just busy taking care of her papers. Until I found out that she died last Thursday. She was in her early 30s, so that means she left her two children at a very young age. I was shocked by the news that the treacherous disease took her life so quickly.
According to her family, she really did apply to work abroad but failed the medical exam. And it was only then that she found out that she had leukemia. She only lasted about a month and then suddenly died.
There are times when I don't want to get checked up because I'm afraid of the possible disease I have. My chest hurt a lot lately, but I think it's normal because of PMS so there's nothing to worry about. I used to have a lump on the left side of my breast, but I can't feel it anymore. I felt it since I was in high school, and it lasted for about 7 years until it was gone. Maybe it just melted in the long run, but it's bad when it suddenly hurts, I feel like I'm wheezing even though I don't have asthma, I get tired even when I speak a little. Even though I felt chest pain, I never went to the doctor for a check up. I just thought, if I find out something is not good to my health, I will be even more depressed and cause me to die immediately. I don't want to count the days I have left in the world in case I have a serious illness. If I'm going to die, I want it to be sudden.
But I'm not thinking about my death yet because I know I still have a role in this world. Thank God that I am still alive. A gift that I will always be grateful to God who created everything.
Post Note
It's April 09,2023!
It's been days that I still haven't seen all the comments here on readcash. I still can't comment and reply. I don't know why my account is like this. Sorry if I can't reply.
Anyway, I want to thank those who still leave a comment even if you don't receive a reply from me. I appreciate it a lot.
And thank you to everyone who reads my post here.
Happy Easter Sunday!
@Reclusexantho
I love yellow!
It is said that your favorite color is associated to your personality. I'm not sure about this but based on your actions or behaviour, there you can tell if it's really related. It's up to you to observe yourself.
Perhaps, there is someone here whose favorite color is yellow. May I know who you are? 😊Let's find out if we have the same personality.
I met a lot of people who don't like yellow, because they say that apart from being unsightly, it seems to adds warmth to the weather. But for me it is very beautiful, it seems to light up and add up motivation to me whenever I see this color. I always compare it to the sun that gives hope to everyone. I like everything as long as it's yellow, like flowers, clothes, walls, curtains, etc. Everytime I see a yellow thing, it really makes me look back. I really love yellow, indeed.
To be honest, I don't like a sunset view because it feels weird, but this picture is different. This is one of my favorite photos saved in my gallery, sent by a friend of mine from their island, Garchitorena, Camarines Sur. The color yellow adds to its beauty, it seems to be peaceful to look at, it will make you think of positive things.
This picture was taken at our farm. I love how my nephew edited it because the yellow color stands out more.
When a yellow butterfly entered our house, I felt that luck was coming. I always attribute it to luck haha.
**What does yellow symbolizes?**
Based on what I read, the color yellow has negative and positive emotions associated with it. Let's find out the positive emotions first.
**Happiness**
-Well, I can say that I am a kind of person with a happy personality. Even in midst of problems you will still find me cracking jokes. I used humour to lighten up whatever I'm going through. I want everyone I talk to to be happy, I don't want them to feel my sadness. Besides, I don't know how to share whatever problems is bothering me. I always prefer to keep everything to myself.
**Excitement**
-It's natural to get excited about things that lift us up. Maybe it's not just for those who love yellow, it's applicable to all colors. I used to get excited when I saw beautiful things, but because I feel stressed in life now, I feel like everything is useless. It depends on the situation.
**Creativity**
-I read that yellow is associated to creativity but I don't want to lie, I'm not a creative person, or that's just how I feel because I can't see the beauty in everything I do. I don't have confidence in what I'm doing.
**Enthusiasm**
-I used to be enthusiastic too, at a time when I was still able to keep up with the flow of life, at the time when fate was still on my side. How I miss my old self. I just hope that the old me who is passionate about things comes back.
**Hope**
-Even though I'm going through silent battles, I still don't lose hope. I never lose hope and always think that I can overcome all the challenges that are given to me.
**Confidence**
-I am also strengthening my confidence even though I know that there are really better than me, even though I know that I am not that good. Just like writing here on readcash, although I'm not fluent in English and I know that only a few people will notice me but I still insisted. Until there is one person who believes in me, I will still be determined.
**Originality**
-This is who really am and I never imitate others just to be liked by others.
Here are the negative emotions that is associated to yellow.
**Cowardice**
-This is what I can't forget from someone who commented on a post I made on noisecash before, saying that yellow symbolizes cowardice. I can say that I am really a coward for things that I might not get. There are things that haven't even happened yet that I'm afraid of. I'm a coward to fail on something I really want.
**Anxiety**
-I feel anxiety easily. When things don't go my way, I feel it right away. I immediately start to isolate and ghost my friends.
**Egotism**
-I have this habit too. Sometimes because I believe so much in self-love, I don't listen to others anymore, I don't listen to their reasons because I feel like my value is being ignored even though it isn't.
**Illness**
-Maybe it's because of other negative emotions that this illness enters.
**Betrayal**
-I will not admit that I am associated with the betrayal referred to here. Maybe because people with similar personalities approach me and I don't notice and I don't really pay attention.
Post Note
It's April 8,2023!
I'm sorry to those I didn't reply to because until now I still can't see and open all the comments. I don't know why I am restricted from commenting here on readcash. I just want apologize to everyone who commented and didn't get a reply.
Have a Blessed Black Saturday.
Thank you for reading. ☺️
@Reclusexantho
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Superstitions Every Good Friday
Before I continue with my main topic, I just want to apologize for not replying. I don't know what happened to my account. I can't open and read all the comments. Am I the only one experiencing this issue on the platform? Did I do wrong that I am restricted from commenting?
I can see in my notifacation that someone commented but when I opened my article there is none, as in zero. I checked my old articles and the problem is the same. I thought that maybe the comments was just deleted, but it wasn't. I chatted my acquaintance and a friend here on readcash, but according to her, she can read all the comments on my articles, which means it was not really deleted. She even sent me screenshots. I just hope that this problem is addressed soon.
By the way, because today is Good Friday, I remembered the superstitions that elderly do during this day. I'm not sure if it's the same with the other places. All I will mention are just superstitions that I usually hear from the elders here in our place, Bicol.
It is said that there is nothing to lose if you follow it, but as I observed nowadays it is not done much especially by young ones. We have been influenced by modern technology that the old traditions are gradually being forgotten. Science is also entering the discussion of each tradition, they will look for a scientific basis before you step or act on something. This is also where intelligent people will appear to question your beliefs. Sometimes it gets complicated when science and religion are mixed. But I believe behind science there is God. The world is so intelligently made that science can properly explain it, it is precisely because God is so intelligent that He made it.
Taboos and Superstitions every Good Friday
You are not allowed to eat round fruits. According to elders, you will have lumps in your body if you don't follow. It's funny to think about it, isn't it? But as I get older, I realized that maybe they just said it for the young ones to sacfrice not to eat those delicious fruits during Good Friday. This is a day of fasting so that we people can also feel the sacrifices of Jesus for all of us by not eating a lot.
It is also forbidden to eat delicious meats. Same reason as I mentioned above.
Temporarily stopping work to mourn the death of Jesus on the cross. As Catholics, we remember and respect Good Friday, the death of Jesus who redeemed us from sin.
Having a party is not allowed. Since this is a day of reflection, avoid partying and drinking. But nowadays it's the opposite, when it's holy week then family gather to go to the beach because it's the only time off from work.
It is also forbidden to hold bolo, especially when it reaches three o'clock in the afternoon on Good Friday. I don't know the real reason behind this superstition. But maybe to avoid us from any accidents. It is said that Good Friday is close to disaster, just like the day of Jesus' death.
Do not take a bath especially after three o'clock in the afternoon. Like the previous reasons, this is also a sacrifice. Experience the heat and suffering as experienced by our dear Jesus.
Those are just some of the superstitions I remember. Are the superstitions I mentioned the same in your place?
Post Note
It's April 07,2023!
Hello again my dear readcash family. How was your day? I feel sad today for no apparent reason. I'm not sure if it's because the surroundings are quiet in commemoration of Good Friday. Well I hope it's just like that. I don't want to add to my stress in life that I can't tell anyone, not even to my closest friend.
Have a blessed Good Friday to all.
Thank you for reading. ☺️
@Reclusexantho
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Penitence During Holy Week
Even if we have our own different religion and belief, this should not be a reason to divide us people, but rather a way to look at each belief in a good way with respect. Just based on what I've noticed, there are people who criticize and insult the beliefs of others but don't notice what they're doing. They are self-conceited, self-righteous, feeling entitled, preachering other as if they know everything about God and the Bible. To show that they are the right and should be the one to obeyed in terms of beliefs, they will mock and insult you but do not notice that they are becoming wrong in their ways.
I know there are many who are against the penitence activities that Catholics do every holy week. As a member of this religion but not participating in the similar activities, I also give respect to this tradition or practice.
I respect those who penitence because if they are able to make sacrifices every holy week, there is a possibility that they will do it all year round. It's not just about crucifying or penitential walking, but sacrificing to do things that may be difficult but you choose it because it's the right thing to do. On the other hand, I don't agree with people who pretend to be penitent but after holy week go back to bad deeds.
Penitential Walking or "Alay-lakad"
Penitential walking is a common practice of the devotees during the Holy Week. Here in Bicol, especially in Camarines Sur, Hinulid is better known in Calabanga, which is where penitents go every holy week. Calabanga is visited by hundreds to thousands of pilgrims walking, usually during the night of Maundy Thursday and Good Friday from Naga City and other parts of Bicol going to Hinulid Chapel to visit the miraculous image of the Santo Entierro called by the faithful as Hinulid.
Individuals, friends, families, and groups walk together in the pilgrim site to pray, do an act of penitence and be with God. There are also certain groups who are offering services such as free goto, soup, water, coffee and medical services for the pilgrims.
This afternoon my sister together with our sister-in-laws and other cousins left for a walk to Calabanga. It's a bit far from Naga because there are several neighboring municipalities to go through. They left at five o'clock this afternoon and they might be able to go home at two o'clock tomorrow morning because for sure there are many people at Hinulid Chapel.
Though I'm a Catholic member but I don't really participate in this tradition. Actually, I was invited by my cousins to do penitential walking today but I didn't go. I really can't for it's too far from our house to the church where they do the penitential walking "alay-lakad" every holy week. I feel like I will be crippled and unable to walk for a few days if I join. I believe that you can reflect even at home or wherever you are. Just do what is right in the eyes of our God. You don't need to hurt yourself just to show others that you are sorry for your sins.
Post Note
It's April 06, 2023!
How are you all? Let's have a peaceful commemoration of the holy week. Reflect on ourselves, repent and change. Not just this week but throughout the year. There are problems and sacrifices we go through but we will surely overcome it in due time. Just do the right thing and it will come back to you.
Have a blessed Maundy Thursday everyone.
Thank you for reading. ☺️
@Reclusexantho
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Ghosts in the Hotel
My sister works as front desk agent at a hotel in our City. She is a working student. She works at night and goes to her OJT in the morning. She looked for a job to supplement her very high tuition to be paid, especially since she's a graduating this year. She said it is very tiring but she could handle it for her dream she wanted to reach.
Her duty in the Hotel is from eight in the evening until six in the morning. According to her, they also have a little time to sleep especially when there are not many guests entering the hotel.
There are three of them in the office so when one is sleepy he/she can sleep as long as one or two of their companions are awake so that when there are guests, there is someone to entertain.
But something unexpected happened to her last night. She was very scared when she came home earlier. She said that a ghosts appearad to her around three o'clock in the morning. The said ghosts were wearing the same uniform as them. She thought she only saw her two co-workers so she checked on them but they were both sleeping at that time. She said, the two she saw had their backs turned and seemed to be going to the drawer where the keys were. It was impossible for someone else to enter the room because the door of their office was locked. And there is a security at the hotel. And when she looked again, the two suddenly disappeared.
Because she has only been at work for almost two weeks, she doesn't know anything about the history of the hotel building. She applied to that hotel because her classmate left and looked for a replacement. Her classmate says she can't do the work but maybe one of the reasons is that a ghost is showing up there.
My sister thinks that something bad happened to the two ghosts she saw inside that hotel because they were wearing the same uniform as them. Seems that the two are related to the hotel because of their clothing. This became a puzzled to her.
After what happened, she is planning to leave and find another job. But while there was no job to move to, she will still go to that hotel for work.
Do you also believe in ghosts?
It's hard to believe in modern times but I still hear many stories about it. Even right here at home there are horror stories that are hard to explain. It can be said that you are just hallucinating, or maybe it's just because you're tired that you see things differently.
If ghosts are real, I still don't want to see them just to prove the saying "to see is to believe". 🤧
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*April 04, 2023*
Thank you for reading!
@Reclusexantho
Our Vegetable Garden
Since we have a small vacant lot at the back of our house, we thought of cleaning and removing the weeds to plant some vegetables.
After we cleaned, we planted some tomatoes, okra(lady fingers), upo(bottle gourd) and pechay.
We put a net around the newly planted pechay because the ducks thought it was a swimming pool when it was newly watered, lol. Too bad the other plants were really damaged by the ducks.
There is still space left for planting so we are thinking of something else to plant. We bought some eggplant seeds two weeks ago but they didn't grow. We bought a new one and hopefully it will grow now.
I have also planted some cassava on the sides. Anyway, did you know that cassava leaves can be eaten and cooked? I heard that in other places, they don't cook it because it said to be poisonous. But here in the province, cassava leaves are one of the delicious dishes. It is cooked in coconut milk with fish on top. You just have to make sure it's well-cooked.
Maybe it would be better if we also planted chili. If there are vegetables, there should also be spices.
The barangay gave us chili so we will plant that on the other side.
It really saves money when you have your own vegetables garden right behind your yard.
Post Note
Hello read.cash readers and writers! A peaceful Monday to all of us. It's really a holy week. Do you feel it? Just a reminder that this is not just a day to go to the beach but a day to reflect on ourselves.
Have a blissful day!☺️
Thank you for reading.
@Reclusexantho
Palm Sunday
It's Palm Sunday and start of the holy week. This is one of the traditions for Catholics that is commemorated every year.
Honestly, I don't know much when it comes to religion and Bible. I'm sorry if I can't give a deep meaning about this tradition of Catholics though I'm a member of this religion. This is just done as a symbolism or representation to remember the hardships and sufferings that our dear Jesus went through to save us people from sin.
My sister-in-law made these palms to sell outside the church today. A nephew of her presented himself and said that he will be the one to sell it for him to have some money for school. He's very hardworking kid for his age. Sometimes I feel sorry for someone like him who comes from a broken family. He lives in his aunt's house and is struggling. For me, it is still better if the real parents take care of their child.
Since last night, many of the neighbours have been coming to their house to buy palms to be blessed by the priest.
Later, at eight o'clock in the morning, mass will be held here in the Chapel of our barangay. Our barangay is far from the City and the churches, so most of the people here just go to our small Chapel.
By the way, I will not go to church. It's just my nephews and mom. They dressed up early this Palm Sunday to have the priest blessed the palm "palaspas" we bought.
I know that most of the Catholics here on the platform are also early today for church.
Let's have a peaceful commemoration of holy week this year.
Just a short post for today. Thank you for reading!
Good morning.☺️
@Reclusexantho
Effective Warts Remover
Two of my nephews have warts growing on their hand and finger. Maybe they got it from things they touched that were dirty and didn't wash properly afterwards. They are very fond of holding coins which maybe one of the reasons why they had it. Fortunately, it didn't add up.
There are creams that can be bought in the drugstores for warts removal, but some cannot be treated with creams alone. In fact, my nephews applied cream already but it was not effective for them.
Last week while we were cleaning our vacant lot, we noticed a plant in the neighbour's backyard(see the attached photo below). I don't know the real name of this plant in english but it's called "swelda" in our local dialect here in bicol. Maybe you have seen and are familiar with this plant already.
Mother suddenly remembered that this is what the elderly used to treat skin diseases such as warts. And because one of my nephews who is 4 years old with warts heard that it can be used as a medicine for warts, so he goes to our neighbourhood every day to put it on his hand. He treated himself alone. That's why he always joins in watering our new plants in the backyard because he also plans to get medicine from the neighbor. Within about a week, we noticed that his warts had flattened.
The stem of the plant is simply cut and the resin is applied directly to the warts. This resin is what really cures it.
Earlier, I also tried to put it on the finger of my other nephew. Let me see if the resin is effective for him too. I will observe his use for a week. I just hope I don't forget to apply it every day so I can see the effect right away.
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Hello everyone,
How's your first day of the month? Say no to April fools guys☺️. Don't ever say that I'm beautiful and then say happy April fools afterwards, lol.
Good evening!
@Reclusexantho
Updating and Activating my Parent's PVAO(Philippine Veterans Affairs Office) pension
I accompanied my parents to update their pension at PVAO(Philippine Veterans Affairs Office) earlier. They are the dependants or benificiaries of my late brother who served the military. Though the pension they get is not that much, but it is a huge help for them. Their pension was cut off last January but we were not able to update immediately for some reasons. We were supposed to update last February, but it happened that PVAO does not have an office here in our province due to special non-working holiday. Anyway, their office here in the province is open only every last working Friday of the month and unexpectedly the president declared a special non-working holiday on that day to commemorate the EDSA People Power Revolution.
It is necessary to update every year to make sure that these pensioners are still alive. And because there was no office last month, there were many queues.
Their office is small, without air-conditioning or even an electric fan, which is why the senior citizens in line are already sweating. One of the seniors joked and said, "fall in line according to your smell, lol.😅
Before we got in line, I photocopied their IDs first to make the process faster. That is one of the requirements to be able to update and activate their pension.
Fortunately, there are photocopying station in the vicinity of City Hall, which is also close to the PVAO office.
This is what the City Hall in our city looks like. I just thought of taking a picture earlier when I was going to photocopy the IDs.
After we updated and activated the PVAO pension, we went straight to the veterans bank. It is also necessary to re-activate directly to the veterans bank in order to continue to received their pension. And because their pension was cut off starting January and was put on hold, so their pension was accumulated. They have taken the accumulated pension in full to supplement their daily expenses.
They will reupdate/reactivate their pension next year because if they don't, they might be terminated and will never get their monthly pension.
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Hello everyone,
Holy week is coming, what are your plans? I'm sure some of you are planning to go to the beach because summer is really here. Just enjoy wherever you plan to go.
Anyway, happy last Friday of the month to all.
@Reclusexantho
Why is it hard for introverts to find a partner?
Who are introverts here like me? Do you have a partner already?
It is really hard to be an introvert because there are times when people don't understand you and they will judged you based on your behavior. They thought that you were hard to get along with because you were so quiet. What they don't know is that when you get close to them, you will see the beauty of introverts. We don't talk much that sometimes you think that we don't know anything, but actually we are keen observers. We can feel whether what you say is true or not. We introvert are deep thinkers too. We talk a lot to ourselves than other people.
Why is it hard for us to find a partner?
Personally, I don't like being given too much attention, it's weird that I feel not comfortable with it. For others, it's exciting when someone surprises you in front of many people, but for me it's embarrassing.
Are you also one of those introverts that when someone shows interest in you, you run away? Even though I really like that person, I can't show and make him feel the same way. I acted as if I wasn't interested but deep inside I like that person. The truth is that it's easily for me to get attached to people, especially when you make me feel important, but I can't make that way back for I'm too shy to show it. I don't want too much attention but i don't want to be ignored either. It's like I want to be invited to important occasions but then I don't really want to go because I'm not used to gatherings.
I also enjoy being alone too much. I also don't want small talk and feel like I get tired easily. Though we don't talk often but expect that you can count on us, we are always present when you need someone who will listen to your problem, sadness and drama you have in life.
Introvert are really complicated that is why we are often misunderstood.
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Happy Thursday everyone!
Again and again, thank you all for reading my contents here.
It's very quiet on the other platform (noise.cash) so I'll just make noise here🙌. I miss the people I used to talk to and became friends with virtually. So thank you read.cash because I feel that most of them are still here. I see and read a lot of familiar users from other platforms here.
Anyway, thanks @TheRandomRewarder for noticing some of my articles. It gives me more motivation when I see you on my notification.
@Reclusexantho
Is what I feel now normal?
*I don't encourage false positivity. Be sad when you're sad. Cry if you must. Be angry if you are. Let it out. Honor your emotions but always dwell on the positive ones. - - Word Porn*
Have you experienced being irritated by people who forced you with their motivational words because according to them that's the right thing to do? It's like being invalidated of how you feel regardless of the circumstances you've experienced. They will compare you to themselves and you will feel even more worthless. I want to never to talk to them for I feel that it's not working anymore, it makes the worst out of me even more. All I want is to go somewhere where no one knows me.
I'm not sure if I'm experiencing depression because I don't care anymore to what others say. I want to be alone all the time. One of the reasons why I don't talk to my friends is bacause they always invalidate my feelings. Instead of understanding and listening to what I'm saying, they'll tell me that it's too dramatic.
Am I bad if I can't force myself to chat in the group chat with my friends? They know me as a jolly person but in reality I'm the type of person who is very serious. When I'm quiet, they think that I'm just being dramatic.
I no longer try to share about myself or what I really feel for I know that I will be preceded by their answers that they are like this or that, that's easy, as if whatever I feel is invalid. I'm like a patient who is having a seizure and instead of giving me the right treatment, I'm just told that "hey, don't joke with us, stop having a seizure".
One time, I talked about my feelings but they laughed and made jokes that I don't think fit in what I was going through. They think that everything I say will come across as jokes. When I don't speak up anymore, this is the time when they give motivational words that I don't think will really help me. Instead of easing my feelings, I feel even more worthless to myself. I feel more sorry for myself because it sticks in my mind that I'm too weak because for them it's just that simple. So when I feel sadness, problems, or depression I prefer to be alone because I don't think they understand me.
Earlier, I read the chat in gc(group chat) that I had really forgotten about them. I haven't even chatted in a few weeks and said that I wanted to be alone. I don't have chat even a simple greetings like good morning or good night. The truth is, I don't forget about them, I just want to be quiet on social media, stay away from the things that make my feelings worse. They feel that I'm ignoring our friendship because of what I'm doing. But I don't intend to hurt them. I stayed away because I don't want them to sympathize with whatever problem I have, I don't want the gc to be sad and I can't keep up with their conversations. I want the conversation to be fun and they get used to me being like that.
There are times when I want someone to talk to, someone who will just listen and make me feel that he is there. It's okay even if he doesn't speak as long as I can feel his presence. The one who won't make me feel weak and won't be compared to them because they understand me.
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Hello everyone!
How's your day goin? Hope that you are doing great.
I just want to thank those who take the time to read my post here. Bless you all.
Good morning/evening/good night.
@Reclusexantho
Different beliefs are not barriers to be friends
Today is Sunday and a day for worship especially for Catholic like me. Actually, I'm not religious person, but I know how to respect every belief of different religions. In fact, I have friend who have different beliefs, but that didn't stop us from being friends.
They said that you should put Him first above other things and give the day of Sunday for Him. I'm not a churchgoer but then I'm not against those who go to church every Sunday.
I know someone who is a choir member in our church and he is the one insisting me to attend the mass too but told him that no matter where you are He will still hears you. Last night he chatted that they were going to sing today at a Chapel in our barangay and asked if I could attend but I refused. I know that attending mass is a good activity because it clears our mind in every sermon given by the priest. It becomes a way for us to look at things in a deeper sense. Though I didn't go to church today but I never forget Him every single day.
My friend from another religion
I have a friend from another religion, specifically INC(Iglesia ni Cristo). She is my best friend and has been a friend for over 10 years. The difference in our beliefs has never been an issue with us. She invited me several times to attend their Chapel to worship and I saw how disciplined each member is. Even in their worship clothes, they look too formal.
She does not believes and celebrates Christmas and fiesta is also forbidden to them. There are many taboos for them such as attending other churches and having relationships from other religion and many more.
Even though she is not allowed to have a boyfriend with a Catholic member like me, but she had a lovers from our church, in the end she still chose to marry someone of the same religion as her. They broke up but never lost respect for each other.
By the way, I was the bridesmaid for her wedding. That was my very first one I attended as bridesmaid and from other religion. I feel very welcome in their family. She chose me among her friends who are members of their church.
I am glad that she is happy now with her choice. I can say that she is right with her decision. It became easier for them to be together as husband and wife because they happened to have the same beliefs and there was no conflict.
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Hello!
Happy Sunday everyone. Just want you to have a blissful day today. May you have a good and healthy family.
Good morning from our country, Philippines. You, what country are you from? Hope we can be friends.
Thank you.
@Reclusexantho
Vague Relationship
The feeling that I don't get excited when he chats as if what he says to me has no meaning anymore. I used to enjoy our little conversations back then but lately it's the other way around. He always says that he loves me, that I'm the one he wants to be with for the rest of his life, but he doesn't even have a plan for us yet. He is good in words but I don't see it in actions.
I'm annoyed when I ask if he's sure about me but gives me a mixed signal. He always put God into the conversation, he says that when the one above wants it, it will happen and be granted. He has no concrete answer and plan for the two of us. I don't doubt God but it's up to the person to do the work, right? I was fed up with his answer. Actually, he is very kind, but seems to be afraid of commitment. It's my fault why I ended up in a situation like this. I thought that he was the one one for me even though I wasn't sure so now I'm having a hard time letting go without getting hurt.
Honestly, I don't know how to let him go without getting him hurt and making me feel guilty as well. Everytime I push him away and asks what his fault is, I can't give a straight answer. When he gets hurt, I get hurts too, so even if I'm not happy I still force myself on him.
I won't make my post any longer. I won't give much clearer details of what I wrote, but I hope someone will read it anyway.
**Lead image from unsplash*
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Hello!
It's already 11:05 pm here in our country, Philippines but trying to post here at readcash. Hoping that you are all in good shape. Just dropping by to say good night. ☺️May you have a good night sleep tonight.
And good morning /afternoon to the other part of the world.
Anyway, thank you for reading my post.
@Reclusexantho
Fear of Disconnection
Well, I am not talking to disconnection to people but to electricity/water disconnection. The bills for electricity and water is the every month problem specifically of those with lack of budget.
I remembered that the due date of our bills had passed that's why I quickly paid earlier.
This is the first time I held new designs of 1,000 pesos but it only stayed in my hand for a few minutes because it immediately went to the bills. I feel like I just want to keep this beautiful design of money in my wallet, but it must be spent, otherwise we will be cut off electricity and water.
I went to MNWD earlier to pay our water bills. As you can see in the attached photo, there are also many people queuing up to pay, which is why it took me a while.
What I paid for our water was not very expensive, it was only 878 pesos, but for us who lack the budget, that was already difficult.
Our water bill is low but the electricity bill is over 3,000 pesos. The truth is, that amount is too much for me because we don't have enough money nowadays but we have to pay for it.
I no longer go directly to the Casureco main office to pay our electricity bill. Anyway, Casureco is the electricity utility company in Camarines Sur. I just cashed in my Paymaya account to pay online. It's more expensive if I go directly to casureco because the fare is also expensive.
There is also a penalty of over 300 pesos if you miss the payment due date. Consumers seem to be at a loss due to the imposed penalty because it is too high. Because sometimes we can't pay early so we have no choice but to pay an extra penalty.
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Hello,
Happy Monday everyone. First day of the week but feel tired already? I think it's normal to feel that way especially if we have so many responsibilities to fulfil. But when you think of the people behind your sacrifices, you will probably have the will to continue each fight again. Aja!
Have good day to all.
@Reclusexantho
Remedy for Dysmenorrhea
To all the girls out there who are struggling dysmenorrhea monthly, what is your remedy to lessen the pain?
It's annoying when the menstrual period is coming because of dysmenorrhea. You will suffer pain for almost a week. It's like you're suffering from UTI(Urinary tract infection) because of hip, back and stomach pain.
It's easy to get rid of the pain if you take synthetic medicine, but the problem is the side effect later on. We all know that this will affect our liver in the long run.
**Herbal medicine that cures pain like dysmenorrhea**
I prefer using natural medicine to cure or lessen the pain for I know this is safe, but you must also search further to be sure. Anything in excess is bad even if we say it's just herbal medicine.
Before, I always listened to the radio program of one of the famous naturophatic doctors here in our province that teaches about herbal medicine and as I remember pandan leaves has many benefits. According to him, it reduces stress, increases appetite, etc. Pandan leaves can also lessen the pain cause by dysmenorrhea. You just need to boil the pandan leaves, wait for it to cool and drink.
I no longer problem when my menstrual period arrives because drinking boiled pandan leaves relieves the pain. I'm not really recommending it you, what I'm trying to say is that it's very effective to me.
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Hello!
I'm really happy that our very generous rewarder came back. It motivates the members here to share their daily activities that may be beneficial to readers.
Pardon me if I don't share good articles in here. Not a good writer but trying.
Thank you to those who will read and comment. I'll appreciate that.
@Reclusexantho
grabe naman tong brown out kagabi kanina at ngayon ulit Christmas na talaga pati supply ng kuryente nag ki christmas light na din. lalo tataas bayarin nito pa wala wala ang supply
magandang umaga mga ka noise
paskong pasko na dito sa kabilang bahay kaya pinicturan ko yung nakasabit na parol kaso may dumaan na nagkakape kaya ayun kasama sya sa picture haha.
tuwang tuwang pa naman yung isang bata dito pasko na daw sa kabilang bahay
magandang umaga mga ka noise
Sabi ng anak ko kanina ang dami daw bunga ang bayabas pagtingin ko ibang bayabas pala tinutukoy nya haha. ito yung tinutukoy nya tabogtabog kung tawagin saamin hindi po ito kinakain kasi lason po iyan.
magandang gabi mga ka noise
pandan dati isang katawan lang tanim namin nyan pero ngayon ang dami na. hindi ko akalain na mabilis pala dumami ito. madami daw tong nagagamot na sakit. nilalagay din ito sa mga lutong meryenda tulad ng minatamis na saging na may sago. minsan nilalagay din sa sinaing para mabango pag bukas pa lang ng kaldero
oras na naman ng pag hahanda para sa tanghalian. nakapag luto na po ba kayo kami bumili lang ng lutong ulam para sinaing na lang ang lulutuin
happy lunch po mga ka noise
unang araw ng Disyembre ito ay araw ng aking kapanganakan. dagdag edad na naman ito pero thankful ako kasi nabigyan ulit ako ng isang taon pa para ma alagaan at masubaybayan ang aking anak 😊
medyo natanghalian ako ng gising gawa nung sumigaw kagabi 😂
magandang umaga mga ka noise :)
naalimpungatan ako mga ka noise akala ko may nag aaway sa labas yung pala nasa loob ng bahay yung sumigaw. kaloka dyes oras ng gabi pinatuloy pala ng kapatid ko na may birthday yung kaibigan nyang lasing andun sa sala. pati yung pusa namin natakot pumunta sa kwarto namin para magtago 😂
Bueno mga ka noise akoy matutulog na ulit wag lang ulit sumigaw itong lasing na nasa sala
goodmornight po:)
hindi ko akalain na pitong barangay iisa lang ang uniform ng daycare kaya pagnahalo anak ko sa karamihan mahirap mahanap kasi paré pareho sila ng uniform😂
ang dami pa naman mga studyante
magandang umaga:)
ito na nga araw ng tour ng mga bata ngayon .simba muna sila bago mag parade
magandang umaga sa ating lahat mga ka noise:)
dahil linggo nagsimba kami ng mga kids. malapit lang naman dito walking distance lang kaya hindi gaanong pagod ang mga bata. pagkatapos ng misa naka abang na ang mga mag pi first communion. excited sila kaya yung bata dito sa kapitbahay ang aga gumayak kanina papuntang simbahan.
have a blessed Sunday po sa ating lahat mga ka noise :)
ito ulam namin mamaya puso ng saging .ang luto namin nito ay ukoy. masarap to sawsawan ay toyo na may kalamansi. wala pa sina mama at papa nagpunta kasi sila sa palayan sigurado gutom yun sila pag uwi. nag gagapas kasi sila ng palay yung huling tubo.
magandang hapon po sainyo mga ka noise:)
@Reclusexantho
