Thinking of Going Back To School After 8 Years

Hello there! I have been so busy lately. I was inactive for a week because it was my cousin's wedding last Monday and the reception's venue was here in the house. That was stressful and draining. Stressful because I'll be meeting a lot of people and it drains me to the core.

Aside from the stress, it's draining because we have to prepare everything to make the event successful and smooth. What drains my energy more is to clean up the after party mess. Good thing, we're able to pull it off and we're glad that my cousin is finally married!

It was not a grand celebration though. My cousin doesn't like it. She wants the wedding to be intimate and exclusive so they got married through a civil ceremony from a judge. I kinda like the concept too. If ever, or if I will, I'd like my wedding to be intimate too.

I'm open with the idea of having it in a church but I don't like doing prenuptial shoots or documentaries during the event. I want it to be simple and exclusive as much as possible.

But going back to my title, as I'm writing this article, today is the same day I graduated in college 8 years ago. Wow, almost a decade already. Crazy how the years went for me!

Back in 2015, that was the year I graduated in college. I took Bachelor of Science in Information Technology. The thing, I'm not really confident about it. I must say, I finished the course for compliance. It wasn't really something that I enjoyed and wanted because it was not my first choice to begin with. The guys I'm with on that photo are my thesis buddies. They saved my college journey. Programming, I rely on them. I just do the documentation. That's the best I can offer.

After years of living my life after graduation, it seemed to me that nothing major has ever happened to me. I was really looking forward on that day where I get a stable job, earn money, travel where I want, and sustain the needs of my family.

However, that didn't happen. It was not easy and this is not the way my life would be at. And so, there's a part of me that's been missing. I have always wondered what if I'll give myself a second chance of pursuing the profession I have been aspiring fo? Back in high school, when graduating students were invited to attend courses offered by various universities, I have always wanted to take up Pharmacy.

There's something about that course that I've always been interested with. It's something I wanted to study. However, my parents couldn't afford to send me to that school because of its high tuition fee and miscellaneous. My second choice was Nursing but still, the course is expensive so I ended up choosing IT. I didn't even know why the heck I chose IT when it's full of programming, calculations and stuff. Such a logical course and I'm such a loser at it.

So now, I was thinking of going back to college. I have to work hard for this. I should save money for my needs. I know this is gonna be a tough one to handle but I'm ready for it. I have the drive to keep going even if circumstances may hinder me from achieving my aspirations. This is a major decision to make, actually. It will be a life changing decision for sure. A lot of sacrifices to make and uncertainties to face.

I guess it's not yet late, right?

Although a part of me is saying too that I don't need to go back in college as long as I have stable income every month. That's something I have always kept in mind since then. It is just a simple mindset but it seems to be so freaking hard for me to happen. And that frustrates me a lot. I just want to sustain the needs of my family. I want to avail life insurances for the whole family. I want to invest and have sustainable savings for the future. I want to travel and have fun with my family everywhere we wanna go. It's pretty much about my whole family. I don't even care of making my own. I just want to keep an intact relationship with them.

Still weighing things down. We're trying our best to pull our music career off and hopefully it gives the answer that I needed for so long. Music is something that I enjoy doing to but it's super rare to make money with it unless you hit that jackpot button and you go famous right away.

That is why, looking for a stable job or going back to college and work are the practical answers my soul should focus into right now.

Thanks for reading.

Keep safe everyone!