Worry Thoughts In A Gloomy Friday

August 27, 2021

Friday is giving me a hard time thinking about what topic to write. Despite having some drafted articles, my body and mind seemed to be used to writing an article per day and I feel like my day is incomplete without making one. My gloomy thoughts are clouding my mind and blocking every synapse to work well as I am worried about the happenings of the previous night.

The family all went out on Thursday night as they needed to bring my boss's daughter to the hospital. Prior to leaving, I asked the girl about what's going on and why they were leaving. She said that she needs to have a blood transfusion in the hospital because her blood was low. I told her that it might be because of her menstruation but then she said that the hospital was informed about it.

Having a blood transfusion won't take long, that's what's on my mind. So I opted to wait for them last night because I was more worried about the girl's situation. Although it's not a complex health problem and won't require further treatment, she's only 14 years old and shouldn't be experiencing that thing. And among all the family members, she's the closest to me. But it was almost midnight and they weren't at home yet, and my eyes just drifted to sleep. I heard their voices that awakened my auditory sense and in my mind "finally, they're home" I don't need to be worried anymore. So I just closed my eyes without checking on them.

My alarm buzzed at 6:50 this morning and I snapped open my eyes. Still sleepy head I was but needed to get up to grind. I stumbled into the living room and saw their shoes on the doormat, but I did not bother checking them. Opening the balcony door is always my daily routine upon waking up in the morning. There I stood for a moment and saw dark and thick clouds forming and covering the blue sky. I heard thunder rumbling and I know heavy rain will soon arrive. Cold breeze embraced me and the tree branches were dancing and falling leaves flying with the wind. The cold was not the biting but the slow seeping kind. I thought there'll gonna be a storm.

My gloomy thoughts faded for a moment when I saw the basil plant flowering, the only green living creature at home. Its owner doesn't care about it so I volunteered to take care of it. I was glad to see it blooming and in a few weeks of watering it, I learned that basil plants like water so much. The soil needs to be moist the whole time. Because once it dries, the basil plant dries as well.

After checking the weather outside, I went to the market to buy something. On my way, it suddenly rained cats and dogs making my feet wet and dirty. When I came back home, the car wasn't in the car park anymore, which only means that my male boss already left the house. The balcony door was opened and good thing the rain didn't go inside the house.

That's the only time I remembered the girl again. Upon checking her parent's room, I didn't see her body on the bed. Then I immediately beeped her WhatsApp to ask if she had been admitted to the hospital.

She sent me photos last night but I didn't bother checking them this morning 😢.

The girl wanted to go back home and complained about the pain from the needle attached to her arm and her sleepless night.

I felt sad about this girl and she was even left alone in the hospital because visitors weren't allowed to stay overnight.

She was alone the whole night and was afraid of the thunder that made her awake the whole night. I know it will happen. Because this girl is afraid to be alone in public places, especially in a hospital. So to divert her negative thoughts, she just watched YT videos and listened to her favorite Korean artist's songs. Red Velvet is her favorite one.

She even sent me a photo of her lunch but she said she can't eat well because she can't use the other hand. By that time, her mother was just preparing to go to the hospital. In my mind, I was cursing her because she should be in the hospital early in the morning to take care of her daughter. But she woke up almost noon already. What a mother!

I'm always reminding this kid to eat healthy foods and drink plain water because she might be like her diabetic father when she grows up. But her mother keeps on buying unhealthy food and she even stocked packs of soda water.

Every day they are drinking soda water with apple vinegar. They're like adding fuel into the fire. Soda water is already acidic, then they still add apple vinegar, wth!

I know that's the main culprit of why the kid suffered from blood deficiency. Apple cider vinegar may have health benefits for lowering blood sugar and cholesterol level, helps you lose weight, promote healthy detoxification of the liver, and so on. But for Pete's sake that's only suitable for adults and not for a 14-year-old kid.

I really don't know what's on her mother's mind that she's always preparing a glass of apple vinegar with soda water every day. Maybe she thought that it will help her lose weight and she also wants her daughter and son to lose weight.

One thing that I don't like about my female boss is she wants to be health conscious but she's not acting like one. She's complaining about her getting fat but she is not even minding the food she's eating and buying. She will sometimes tell me not to eat this and that, not to buy this and that, but she doesn't even know the health value of the food she's buying. They like eating a lot before bedtime which is so unhealthy and I constantly remind them not to do such a thing if they don't want to be fat. But they don't listen to me.

She likes praising my body for not getting fat and I always told her not to eat many foods at night and change her lunch set which is full of carbs, but she doesn't listen to me, lol. I also told her not to buy unhealthy foods for her children but she doesn't listen to me as well.

I don't actually care about her getting fat since she's already old and I am more concerned about her daughter's health and she's like a sister to me already. And now she's in the hospital suffering the consequences of having an unhealthy lifestyle she adopted from her mother. They still don't know when she will be discharged and no accurate findings yet about her health issue.

For mothers out there, you can spoil your kids with delicious foods but still make sure to choose the healthy ones. Do not let them suffer the consequences of your negative actions. It is still better for kids to grow healthy and adopt a healthy lifestyle while they are still young to prevent health issues.

Do not wait for sickness to come before you give value to your health!