June 21, 2021
After writing my article Into The Darkness I Go, To Find Peace, I read different reactions of the readers and some give their interpretation about the story. I wrote it differently not detailed to see what will be the reactions of the readers and how they will relate to the story as well as their interpretation. If you will read every line of the story, you can tell the deeper meaning of it and the message I want to convey to the readers.
It's all about the consequences that may come in our way once we step out of our comfort zone and how the chaotic world, horrendous reality, the burdens of responsibilities, and lack of support can lead to Depression.
Here's the meaning of my previous article. (I preferred to screenshot every paragraph as I don't want to have a NO "EXC" issue.)
Innocent is bliss as the saying goes. We always see each day as beautiful, every God's creation as beautiful. We always see each day as a new hope, new life, and aspirations. That is when we do not care about the world yet, we do not see the reality yet, because we are still coiling inside our comfort zone. We live in the comfort of our lives and don't care to face the risk outside our zone.
But once we step out of our comfort zones and face the growth zone, we will see the reality and how the world revolves around us. The once stories of fantasies will start to unfold, the chaotic world and how the dark side of it transpires. Fear and doubt will arise and the crowd will become so deafening. Those who are weak to face the world will no longer see the light because their minds will be covered by the darkness of reality and life. So they will choose to go back to their comfort zone.
Inside their zone, they find peace, and they thought that they can be safe inside it. But during the darkest hours, the silence becomes so deafening. Negative thoughts are overweighting the positive ones, they're giving confusions and doubts. Depression is starting to crawl onto them. They choose to hide it as they can not express it out. But sometimes it's terrifying and fearful about the consequences that may happen so they try their best to pull themselves from the darkness. They try to seek help from their loved ones and friends.
They thought their family can help, but they just make the condition worse. Instead of giving a helping hand, they are just adding more burdens on their shoulders that making them sink deeper into the darkness. They thought that they can find peace in their homes, but they just step into a perilous place and so they choose to run to their friends and hoping that they can pull them out from drowning in a black hole of depression.
They thought that their friends can help, but they are nowhere to be found, and they have no one to talk to but themselves. And so they choose to handle the situation by themselves, they choose to keep it as they thought we can survive from it. They decided to go back to their zone and try to live their lives as if nothing bad is existing. They try to appreciate the beauty of the world and life. But depression is inevitable and keeps on coming back.
They thought that they can survive from it, but wherever they go, depression is pulling them down during their darkest hours, saddest months, and lonely years. It is unstoppable and trying to take over their minds and bodies. Negative thoughts, doubts, worries, sadness, and uncertainties keep on running in their minds, they are uncontrollable and indelible.
The light completely diminishes as they are weak to find the courage to be strong again. Faith and hope are losing, and nothing is left but darkness.
And the only choice they have is to take their own lives, to be totally at peace, no more chaos, no more worries, no more burdens, just peace.
Depression is inevitable and among all the sicknesses, it is the worst one as you don't know when will it hit you, and when will it leave you. It is worst than cancer as it can kill you at any time once you did not take any actions to treat the condition immediately. It can impact anyone, a complex illness that can affect every aspect of our lives - mentally, emotionally, physically, socially, professionally, and even spiritually.
We can not see easily who are suffering from depression because people are hiding it, we, are good at hiding our real emotions and problems. It can be exhausting as it keeps on coming and going and unstoppable, inevitable, it is life-changing, and can even be deadly. Not all people who laugh are happy, not all people who smile are okay because sometimes, it's our way to mask the emotions and negative thoughts we can not expel and express. So we choose to hide them, to leave them in the dark, but not all can survive in the dark, so it leads to taking one's own life.
This, should serve as awareness to everyone especially those who are suffering from depression to not be confined in the dark. Try to seek light, because you are not alone in this world, there are helping hands that are willing to reach yours. I am writing this because I've been there, and even thought to commit suicide. But, it didn't happen, as my fear of God and my love for my family prevailed. I thought about their future, their lives if I will be no longer in this world. I thought about my duty and purpose of living in this world. I thought about my dreams and goals. So I tried my best to pull myself from drowning in the dark, I tried to seek light, I tried to speak out, so I speak out to God as no one was there to comfort me.
There is nothing that we can offer to Him but our burdens, our worries, our doubts, our sickness, our sadness, our negative thoughts. We can only be free once we offer them all to Him. This may sound so cliche to you, but try it, only then you will appreciate your life and will see the beauty of the world, only then you will achieve real freedom.
Depression is inevitable, but, we have the power to overcome it!
Thanks for your time.
Depression is a very sensitive topic and I can so relate because I have once suffered depression myself. It is sooo real. I committed suicide more than twice and gosh, I survived them all. Depression is like being stuck on a boat in the middle of the ocean. That fight takes strength. It's way more than simply a survival instinct. Facing depression each day is an incredible act of bravery. It sends a message that regardless of the hand they're dealt, they want their life in whatever shape it comes.