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A Sudden Change! I was really happy yesterday. I did a lot of things because I was really motivated. I sang all the time. Dancing a few minutes then sang again. I was just like a crazy. I don't know. I felt it. I was really in a good mood. I felt like I saw some shining stars. I felt the laughter was always in my face.

I keep smiling and smiling. I don't know what happened to me. I just follow what I felt. It was the best feeling. My brain function well. I fastly get an ideas. I fastly compose some things. My hands continued like joining a race. I love it honestly. I was like dancing in the wind with a harmonious sound. There were a lot of inspirations lining in front of me. I was stilled and staring at it. It helps me a lot. I step by step follow what was in there. I look at it. I read it thoroughly and I was really glad. It jumped in my heart which was the reason I jumped with the joyous inside of it. I decided to find the memories I have with my old self. It was like a book that every pages was really memorable. I saw the little one. It was me. Wearing my favorite gown where my favorite person gave a beauty in it. I stood there. I secretly smiling. I look at my face within a few minutes and imagining that night wearing that amazing gown. Where was I? I continued the pages then I saw some of my achievements when I was a little one. I felt somethin' I couldn't explain. I saw my love ones beside at me. I saw the smiles, the unending smiles. My heart was beating so fast. I saw some image I was really happy dancing with the companions. The music pop up in my mind. I love the outfit we wore. I love the music I felt it was in my ears at it was so loud.

The life of yesterday, now it changes a lot. The happiest one turn into a saddest. I want to dance but I cannot make it. I am really down. I want to cry. I want to cry out loud. I want to shout this heavy burdens I have. I am really tired this worries inside in my mind. I want to throw this negative feelings but how. I don't know why I'm suffer like this. I just wanted to be happy, to be free. I just wanted to be happy enough but I don't have a right to ask God. I am really in pain. I lose my hope. I just want to lock in my room because I'm really scared to go outside. I don't want my anxieties back. It's not easy. I always felt the coldness into my body. I am stock in this place full of darkness. Why is it so fast? Why it change so fast? It's really painful. I felt like I have a lot of wounds but I cannot find it where. I want to see it so that I will make it to heal. I want it now. It's always in my self. I felt it a lot but I don't know how to make it. Looking at the window makes me worst, makes me frighten. I felt I'm alone. No one here beside me. No one will listen to me. No one will hear me. I felt broken. It's really fast. I couldn't recognize it already. I couldn't believe it. Enough for crying, too much pain. Can I stand again? I just want to go back the life of yesterday but I know it's really impossible. I just want to see a word hope but I don't know where I could find it and when it can be. A teardrops makes me weak everytime I have it. I want to stop it but it continue dropping. How will I? Please enough! Please! **LIFE THOUGHTS:**

*You cannot predict what will happen in our daily life. Today you are so much happy. You smile. You go anywhere with happy faces and unending smiles. Self with a full of hopes. You build yourself and full of motivation. Lining with an inspirations.* *In just one day, tomorrow, everything's stop and ruin. You just ended crying without any expectations and that's the life. We shouldn't expect too much because it will hurt you a lot. Life is unpredictable. You must stand with your own self and fight those challenges you've encounter. Be brave always!* ________________________ `Thank you so much. I hope I give you some thoughts with this article of mine.` `God bless everyone. Stay safe always.🙏` `-JRamona20 💜`

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