Enough, Now It's Time for Myself!

I am in pain right now! I don't know what I'm going to say. I am truly hurt. My mind I felt it's flying. So unlucky day. Bad things happen. I want to cry! I want to shout! I don't know what I'm going to do! Please. I cannot focus my task. I am weak right now. I want somebody to comfort me.

I asked myself. It's really hard. The unexpected. I wanted to cry always to release my pain. I didn't expect it would happen. A lot of things happened. Here on the bed while my tears flowing at my face. I realized life is full of unexpected bad things, the unexpected challenges.

I wake up early then I was really happy. I thought that good things will happen but struggle came all of a sudden. I saw him. He is a cheater. I saw him at the road. They look happy each other while holding each others hand. When I saw them, I was like that burdens covered me my whole self. It was truly painful. I couldn't believes what I saw.

Why he did that? I trust him a lot. He showed me with his love. What's that? Is it a fake? Is it an acting only? I believe his words with all my heart. I believe in him with my whole life. I trust him. My life running with him. I did everything to make him happy but I couldn't explain what I saw.

With my own eyes, I saw them both. They were smiling. They were laughing. They were both happy. What's the meaning with their hands? Am I too blind? It is really obvious that he is cheating on me. Why?! He is my world. We were truly happy. I saw that. I felt it. He was really sincere to me. He is a big liar! He hurt me a lot! He did everything to make me believe with all his lying words.

I believe his sweet words. His caring words, the lovable words. I believe he is really pure. I believe he is the one. I thought I already found my real man. I thought he is different but a big mistakes. He is a cheater. He is the same with the others. He destroy everything about us. He broke my trust.

I couldn't understand why he did that. Am I not enough? I don't know about myself. I thought I am the only one for him and he said it many times. I felt the happiness while I hear those words from him but everything is not real. It's all fake!

I don't want to see him anymore! It's enough that I saw it with my two eyes. I should wake up what's the reality. I need to fight. I don't want him to ruin my life. No more! I realized now all my sacrifices to him but look what he did to me. What's the return? A cheating! Never I don't want to see him anymore. I don't want to waste my time for him! No more again!

I need to let go. I need to walk far away from him. I don't want to let it happened that he will hurt me again. Never! I need to be strong. I need to be brave. He is a waste. I shouldn't stay with the person who hurt me only. It's a waste of time.

Now it's time for my own self. I should lift up myself. I need to continue my life without him. I need to focus. It's not only for myself but for all the people who are important to me. I want to build my own self again!

Life Lesson:

We should be faithful to our partners because being a loyal to them is a truly gift. We know that cheating is a sin. Don't let yourself to commit a mistakes. It's a big sin from the eye of God. Be loyal. Be faithful.

Don't ruin the trust from your partners. Choose to stay a good partner. Be happy. Have an enjoyment with your partner. Don't hurt them instead give them unmeasurable happiness and unconditional love.

Sometimes we need to let go the people for the goods. We need to close the door. It's not good anymore to be with them that only pains we received for return. It's not good. It's the reason we need to let it go.

We shouldn't make ourselves to suffer because of the people who only give us painful feelings. We need to wake up. We need to escape it then walk and start again for a new beginning.

This is only a fictional one.

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Thank you so much. I hope I give you some worthy time with this article of mine.

God bless everyone. Stay safe always. 🙏

-JRamona20💜